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--trigger warning-- not pro anything except recovery message me anytime <3 please stay away. cw: ?? lbs gw: 100 lbs ugw: 90 lbs 5’3 - 18

[stick-not-thicc]

PRO REVOVERY

You deserve help. You are sick enough.

[tht-grl-in-blxck]

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[peachy-beauty]

you need to give yourself permission to be happy now. not when you lost weight, not when you found your soulmate, not when you have more money. we seek excitement from future events, but once those goals are met, the temporary pleasures will pass and they will be replaced by the next fantasy. devote your full attention to your inner self and appreciate being in the moment. happiness is never external, but a way of living and appreciating life. it’s not reality, just the way you perceive it. so go and shift your focus from the outcome to watching yourself grow.

[tht-grl-in-blxck]

this is important. <3

[tht-grl-in-blxck]

queen / royalty thinspo for @angelic-cavity ✨

[tht-grl-in-blxck]

⏰- im undiagnosed but for about two and a half years ,, though i’ve had somewhat of an unhealthy relationship with food for probably 5 (i used to binge whenever i was home alone)

👍- favorite safe food would probably be eggs lol,, i know how many cals are in them always and can pass them off as a meal

👀- unfortunately a few people know about my ed/disordered eating irl. my one friend who also struggles knows along with my ex who i no longer talk to.. one other friend vaguely knows but her and i practically know everything about each other.

[tht-grl-in-blxck]

i did my first 24 hour fast since i’ve gotten back into this bullshit and god it felt so good ,, it required a ton of sneaking since my mom is home due to quarantine so i don’t think i’ll be able to do it again soon but so glad to know if i needed to i can make it work. also if you use life feel free to add me ahahah @tht-girl-in-blck !!

anyway i hope you are all staying safe my lovelies <3

[sadlyill]

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[karanliktakadinvar-deactivated2]

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[dobladim]

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[to-be-a-feather]

I Remember

I remember when I could go to a party and not eat a single bite because I was fasting. I remember when I could walk thru my kitchen and leave with a glass of 0 calorie herbal tea. I remember going days without food and feeling in control and at peace. I remember the feeling of hunger pulling my mind away from all other distractions. I remember stepping on the scale and seeing the numbers drop. I remember looking in the mirror and seeing my bones start to show. I remember running my hand along my side and feeling my rib cage. I remember seeing the bones in my hands and wrists becoming more defined. I remember my legs becoming smaller and forming a thigh gap. I remember carrying something against my side and it hurting my hip bones.

I remember all of this.

Now I can’t see a package of Oreos without eating them. Now I can’t go into the kitchen without eating some disgusting piece of food. Now I can’t go hours without wanting to eat again. Now the hunger makes me give in to food. Now I can’t step on the scale without the numbers going higher. Now I can barely see my bones beneath all of my fat. Now I can hardly feel my rib cage. Now the bones in my hands and wrists are practically invisible. Now my legs are back to being elephant legs. Now my hip bones are cocooned in disgusting fat.

That was then. This is now. Soon will be the future.

I won’t continue being this disgusting fat worthless piece of shit. I can’t give in to food any more. I won’t give in. I will be strong so I won’t just say “I remember..” but “now I am.”

I’m gonna make myself thin, pretty, beautiful, and perfect. I have to do this.

[tht-grl-in-blxck]

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[tht-grl-in-blxck]

i’m freaking out !!

i just put on a pair of shorts that i haven’t worn since summer because i was trying on outfits for fun and holy shit. these shorts used to be HUGE on me - now they’re almost fucking tight. i remembered a picture i took in them from august 2018 and loving how thin my legs looked in them and then took the same style picture today to compare and holy shit i hate it so much. the first photo was at my lowest weight which was ten pounds lighter than i am right now. i want to fucking cry.

[tht-grl-in-blxck]

water thinspo for @magicalgirlindisguise ✨

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light blue thinspo for @magicalgirlindisguise ✨

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thinspo requests?

hey everyone. hope you’re staying safe during these interesting times,, and staying safe in general. back when i had a bunch of followers (pre-termination) i used to take thinspo requests! i’m going to start posting some of the ones i never got a chance to and reposting my old favorite ones. comment/reblog/fill my inbox with requests!!

also feel free to message me anytime <3

🖤 stay safe lovelies 🖤

[ifmercuryvanished]

✨Things this blog will never do. ✨ -Tell you what weight you should be at. -Tell you that your body is not good enough. -Shame individuals who are comfortable in their weight. -Promote worshiping “Ana” or “Mia”. -Take an “anti-recovery” stance. ✨Things this blog is for. ✨ -Personal thinspo. -Having a public way to share thoughts. -Supporting others going through a similar struggle. -Providing an open space for a topic that is taboo. -Making meaningful connections with others.

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[surakonacross]

Reblog if it's okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.

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[erick-180]

My dash is dead. Reblog if (at least 3):

- LGBT or ally

- 14+

- Post malespo

- Have an ED (required)

- Self harms or used to

- Living with someone who doesn't know about your ED

- Struggles with binging

- Male ana (trans guys included)

[tht-grl-in-blxck]

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[caffeinatetears]

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