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If you have come here because you have seen my book posts, welcome. This is my little corner of heaven. Where I set reading goals, & share my favorite quotes. The poetry I write for myself, to get the pain out of my body. (If you like it its just an added bonus). 

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That is just the way with some people. They get down on a thing when they don’t know nothing about it.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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All right, then, I'll go to hell.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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Jim said that bees won't sting idiots, but I didn't believe that, because I tried them lots of times myself and they wouldn't sting me.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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Human beings can be awful cruel to one another.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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I couldn't bear to think about it; and yet, somehow, I couldn't think about nothing else.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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Right is right, and wrong is wrong, and a body ain’t got no business doing wrong when he ain’t ignorant and knows better.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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If you tell the truth you do not need a good memory!

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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I do not wish any reward but to know I have done the right thing.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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Hain't we got all the fools in town on our side? And hain't that a big enough majority in any town?

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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What's the use you learning to do right when it's troublesome to do right and ain't no trouble to do wrong, and the wages is just the same?

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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Stars and shadows ain't good to see by.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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You can't pray a lie -- I found that out.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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He was sunshine most always-I mean he made it seem like good weather.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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Sometimes you gwyne to git hurt, en sometimes you gwyne to git sick; but every time you's gwyne to git well agin.

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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To be, or not to be; that is the bare bodkin That makes calamity of so long life;

Mark Twain (Huckleberry Finn)

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My Rose Colored Glasses

Sometimes I feel like I am screaming at the top of my lungs, and no one can hear me. Like all that I am made of is icky and crappy. I could be in a room full of people and still feel utterly alone. its Like the weight of the world is resting simply on my breastbone. And If my past has taught me anything its that I am unlovable. And somehow this has made some feelings uncontrollable. I couldn’t tell you where the pain started, how it began ive been falling through life face first like a terrible stunt man. I cant always put words to the hurt sadly, It has caused me to become quite the introvert. Now, I wish sometimes the movie behind my eyes would stop That it wouldn’t be part of my lifes backdrop Its like I live through every bad thing over and over again feeling it as much in my mind as I did in my body then. Im unsure as to when but Sometime along the way I forgot how to smile feeling always like my life was consistently some sort of trial. I imagine sometimes how much easier it would be for everyone if I didn’t exist That for plenty of people around me would see it as some sort of gift. Imagining my funeral is always particularly painful Its hard not to think that people wouldn’t be disdainful I cry in the bath tub and try not to put my head through the wall Feeling so incredibly misunderstood and so very very small. I promised the only person I really love that I wouldn’t do that anymore Not hurting myself shouldn’t feel like a chore. Its hard to feel pretty when you feel like you are made out of slime When your only salvation is to make these little rhymes. I would do almost anything to not feel numb To really believe someone cared about my outcome. The itch to hurt myself for some reason calms me And why that is unfortunately is far beyond me.

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Power is in tearing human minds to pieces and putting them together again in new shapes of your own choosing.

George Orwell 1984