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I will never be fully, unconditionally, happy.

I wonder what it’s like being 28 and waking up knowing you’re going to ask her to marry you tonight. I wonder what it’s like being 30 and waking up to her gone for the week on a work trip and having the entire bed to yourself for the first time in ages so you starfish the fuck out of it, but somehow drift over to their side because you already miss them. I wonder what it’s like being 42 and waking up for work content that the same pair of tired eyes as yesterday, and the day before that, and for the past 13 years, still look at you like you have the ability to reverse time and stop the sun from rising any higher, then you could both stay in bed. You blink, smile, and kiss her forehead softly as a reply, silently acknowledging your shared distaste for mornings, but not apologizing for wanting to wake up to those eyes again tomorrow. I wonder what it’s like being 49 and waking up beside someone who still makes you nervous when they look at you that close up in the morning, especially now that you’re nearing 50 and fully aware of the wrinkles you have and the ones on the way. I wonder what it’s like being 61 and waking up at 2pm because you were too sore and sickly to get out of bed that morning, but when you hear her key in the door after coming back from the store with some medicine, your favourite soup and a kiss, it still makes your heart beat fast enough to propel you off the bed and into her healing arms. I wonder what it’s like being 87 and waking up next to an undisturbed pillow and an unwrinkled half of a quilt because she died 2 years ago, peacefully in her sleep. It was just her time to go. I wonder what it’s like to live life in that much love. And when you do, I wonder what it’s like to lose it to something as trivial as your body passing through time. It’s heartbreaking that the body can’t last as long as the love between two people. But it’s also kind of beautiful that love transcends physical nature. All we can do is experience it while it’s here and while it lasts.

A lasting love. (via

thereisagreatperhaps

)

The last two paragraphs shook the breath out of my lungs.

“All she knew of tenderness was how much she wanted it.” - Stephen Dunn

(via squiggy)

margaretzhang

batpigandme

I'm drowning and you're three feet away screaming "learn how to swim"

(E.j.)

Empty words with no remorse...

It's no wonder I have trust issues. Even with myself.

fiebre

You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.

Siddhārtha Gautama Buddha (via narvage)

psych-facts

At the end of the day people won’t remember what you said or did, they will remember how you made them feel.

Maya Angelou (via psych-facts)

I only private blog when I'm really happy or really sad.

There is no medium.

meetthepugs

psych-facts

I don’t want just words. If that’s all you have for me, you’d better go.

F. Scott Fitzgerald

(via psych-facts)

ggbygossipgirl

psych-facts

What doesn’t kill you leaves scars ruins your lungs dries out all your tears leaves you lying awake at 4 in the morning wishing you weren’t alive.

C.C (via psych-facts)

"Killing" you my fucking ass.

silly-cunt

scandily

"I am very lucky with Brad. He is a real gentleman, but he is also a real man’s man. He’s got the wonderful balance of being an extraordinary, great, loving father, a very, very intelligent man and physically he’s a real man." – Angelina Jolie

"One of the greatest, smartest things I ever did was give my kids Angie as their mom. She’s such a great mom. Oh, man, I’m so happy to have her. With a partner like Angie, I know that when I’m working, the kids are happy, safe, and prospering. And when Angie’s working, she knows she has the same." – Brad Pitt

"I’m still a bad girl. I still have that side of me. It’s just in its place now. It belongs to Brad—or our adventures." – Angelina Jolie

"She’s still a bad girl, delightfully so. It’s not for public consumption." – Brad Pitt

"You get together and you’re two individuals and you feel inspired by each other, you challenge each other, you complement each other, drive each other beautifully crazy. After all these years, we have history—and when you have history with somebody, you’re friends in such a very real, deep way that there’s such a comfort, and an ease, and a deep love that comes from having been through quite a lot together." –Angelina Jolie

loren-vance

They’re my favorite

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