TiffanyFergason.

[tiffanyfergason]

위영 오빠 생일 축하해요 🎂난 아직도 오빠 생각해요. 오빠 잘지냈어요? 오빠 밥은 먹고 다니냐? 오빠 지금 뭐해? 난 매일 생각해요. 아무튼, 오빠 좋은 생일 보냈으면 좋겠어요. 생일축하해요 오빠

[tiffanyfergason]

For two nights I've dreamt of you. We didn't do anything special, but it felt special. You finally came back to Singapore and the only part I remember is that we were sitting in a traditional Japanese restaurant. I just sat there, looking at you drinking tea and we just agreed on how hot the weather was. The second dream I had was about you finally posting on snapchat after months. And I don't know if I was hallucinating or dreaming or sleep checking my phone, but when I checked my phone today, you actually did. I've never felt this happy in a long time. Because when you do so, I just feel your presence a little bit more. Like you're still with me. I know now that you're finally in Vietnam and that you're doing well. And I know now more than ever that my feelings are certain. I've cried just watching the scenes of Zootopia and listening to that song. Because it was that song that played at the end of the movie and I knew back then, it meant that I didn't have much time left with you. 영, 난 진짜 보고싶어. 몰라서?

[tiffanyfergason]

It felt like staring straight into that very photo on your Instagram. Only you weren’t there and the emptiness filled me up. To miss you more than I used to, to feel more agony than before. 영

[tiffanyfergason]

Funny how fate led me all the way here; to the shadows of you. Everywhere I looked, I saw your presence. Wondering where you stood, embracing the peace you felt and just missing you altogether. Even if we couldn’t be together at the same place at the same time, at least the place for which we have visited will keep our foot prints together. 영

[tiffanyfergason]

It's been a little over 3 months. I finally changed the display at the shop which was left untouched upon my request. I was a little hesitant at first, because it was the first design I did for you which contained all those fresh butterfly feelings. And then I thought again for a long time. And the memories brought me back to that day. When you drove through that road of cherry blossom trees into the mountains. I remember asking you if you could cut down one of them so I could bring it back with me. And I remember that eye smile and laughter you gave off when you heard me. Those memories just played through my mind as I did the design. And it was the only release I could find. 영

[tiffanyfergason]

I remember how my heart set slowly with the sun. I kept looking at time, treasuring every second I had with you. God knows when I’d actually see you again, but in that moment, I didn’t think of that. I just wanted to live in it. In that moment where it was just you and me and what seemed like an endless road into the sunset. 영

[tiffanyfergason]

Cherry blossoms have unknowingly become a reminder for me. A reminder of you, and how it was sitting by your side as you drove pass a road of them. I saw many wishes on this line. Many different kinds and I greedily wanted to wish again. But I didn’t. I held back because I knew wishing for more than what I had, I’d end up losing more; these beautiful memories turning into pain and I’d have to forget them. I tied that memory, with hopes that it would stay a beautiful memory. If fate allows, we would one day fall again. 영

[tiffanyfergason]

My very first time seeing cherry blossoms. I like how pathetic we were finding a small corner of cherry blossoms just to take pictures cause there weren’t any places to park near the nice ones. But because it’s so significant, I guess it’s easier for me to remember. It’s funny how everything used to be a blur for me. But now somehow I just seem to remember every detail of everything. Yesterday was like a beautiful bad dream. I’ve waited so long just to see you, and the time finally came. However quickly it came, it sure went as quickly as that. At every moment I’d be looking at my watch, wishing it would stop just for a little while each time. We crammed every typical kind of date into one day and like an alcoholic who only got a drop of alcohol, it wasn’t enough for me. We all wake up from our dreams eventually and a kid would cry waking up from a bad dream. Last night, I was that kid. Thank you for these beautiful memories. 영

[tiffanyfergason]

The last thing I could do. 영

[tiffanyfergason]

[tiffanyfergason]

The only way I could survive the agony of missing you, was to close my eyes every night and recall every memory. Meaningless, meaningful, everything. Because it was the closest thing I had to having you by my side.

[tiffanyfergason]

"This album is dedicated to those who wait faithfully for their love to arrive - for those who hold their love in their heart until they can hold it in their arms." - Jeremy Passion

[tiffanyfergason]

I'm just angry with myself for being able to see the situation clearly for what it is, but not being able to stop my heart from feeling any further. You were a beautiful bad idea. And I completely fell for it, so deep I can't seem to get out of it. I'm trying to be rational but my feelings messes up the equation.

[purplebuddhaproject]

The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it.

Eckhart Tolle (via purplebuddhaproject)

[tiffanyfergason]

So I met someone again. Someone who I never thought would come back into my life, someone who used to inspire me as a teen and someone who still inspires me now. And I love this particular quote of hers which is "Confidence will bring you far in this world. So keep being confident in whatever you do". Because when you do that, people will look up to you, people will see your beauty. And I think that's something that I lost for a moment. Something I almost erased from myself. And I'm tired of living as someone who keeps trying to fit in. Life is way too short for that. Today, tomorrow and for the rest of my life, I'm gonna keep that in mind. And I'm gonna do what my heart and mind sets to do. I'm not gonna live to follow.

[causeyouaremystar]

if byunghun had instagram

[tiffanyfergason]

I still remember the first afternoon when I woke up to birds chirping and the afternoon mailman’s scooter. The weather was cold but the feeling was warm. That peaceful stroll along that very road where all I could hear were my rough foot steps, music a little from each shop. soft Korean chitter chatter and clinking glasses. It was the only time I ever felt so peaceful. I remember the tiny fear I had as I ventured out for the very first time but it was such a refreshing feeling. Nothing like I’ve ever felt before.