The Age of Starlight Ends

Rachel. Allegedly 31.

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‘O, dearest Miquella…… I'm sorry, I finally met my match...’

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I am dangerously broke and need some help!

I get paid on Friday, but I am struggling to afford food and supplies needed this week. An unfortunately timed bill has made things a bit too close for comfort. Any help would be greatly appreciated!

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Also if people could reblog this that would be helpful!

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I ran out of food last night. I am also £7 overdrawn

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I am dangerously broke and need some help!

I get paid on Friday, but I am struggling to afford food and supplies needed this week. An unfortunately timed bill has made things a bit too close for comfort. Any help would be greatly appreciated!

Pay Rachel Jones using PayPal.Me

Go to paypal.me/rachelj1994 and type in the amount. Since it’s PayPal, it's easy and secure. Don’t have a PayPal account? No worries.

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Also if people could reblog this that would be helpful!

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Had a four hour long, scarily vivid, painfully accurate dream about being forced to return to Qatar. Woke up crying and covered in sweat

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I am dangerously broke and need some help!

I get paid on Friday, but I am struggling to afford food and supplies needed this week. An unfortunately timed bill has made things a bit too close for comfort. Any help would be greatly appreciated!

Pay Rachel Jones using PayPal.Me

Go to paypal.me/rachelj1994 and type in the amount. Since it’s PayPal, it's easy and secure. Don’t have a PayPal account? No worries.

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Also if people could reblog this that would be helpful!

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I am dangerously broke and need some help!

I get paid on Friday, but I am struggling to afford food and supplies needed this week. An unfortunately timed bill has made things a bit too close for comfort. Any help would be greatly appreciated!

Pay Rachel Jones using PayPal.Me

Go to paypal.me/rachelj1994 and type in the amount. Since it’s PayPal, it's easy and secure. Don’t have a PayPal account? No worries.

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Should I change my hair colour

I have been a redhead for 3 years now, is it time for a change? To what? Should I do something completely new? Like at the moment it's just a basic side part

What do?

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This fucks right? Have I stumbled on The Look

Idk how to do this but it would absolutely work for me

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Should I change my hair colour

I have been a redhead for 3 years now, is it time for a change? To what? Should I do something completely new? Like at the moment it's just a basic side part

What do?

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Ew it's my miserable sex life

So i haven't had sex since February

And it's been miserable. I had a busy sex life before the surgery news. Ever since then, nobody wants to be around me, and nobody will fuck me

I'm back on prog again and my sex drive has been steadily increasing for over a month now. I've been masturbating more. And something I've noticed is my orgasms are like. Longer. And more intense. And louder. And while I have been previously bestowed the gift of multiple orgasms, this is new. This is different. It's nice

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My ex is in bed next to me. She came over last night. First time i've seen her in months. I told her I didn't want her drinking since she seemed absolutely fixated on it and clearly wasn't coming round for my company. I relented and let her drink the shit rum my other ex got me last year if she absolutely had to. Because otherwise she wouldn't come over, and I needed someone with me last night.

She threw up on my walls, screamed in my face, woke all my neighbours up, tried to hit me, told me she only has sex with me because she sees it as the price she has to pay for booze, and made me feel like a vile manipulative rapist. Because of what she has told me of her past, I found myself legitimately scared in my own home. But if I let her leave, then she won't come back, and I can't risk losing her again. Because I care more about her than she ever has about me.

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I'm so tired. She was so horrible to me. I just want to help her but she won't let me and I feel like I am basically honour bound to keep trying.

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I dont want to see her again. What she did was incredibly cruel

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A bat just hit me in the head

The flappy kind not the slappy kind

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My ex is in bed next to me. She came over last night. First time i've seen her in months. I told her I didn't want her drinking since she seemed absolutely fixated on it and clearly wasn't coming round for my company. I relented and let her drink the shit rum my other ex got me last year if she absolutely had to. Because otherwise she wouldn't come over, and I needed someone with me last night.

She threw up on my walls, screamed in my face, woke all my neighbours up, tried to hit me, told me she only has sex with me because she sees it as the price she has to pay for booze, and made me feel like a vile manipulative rapist. Because of what she has told me of her past, I found myself legitimately scared in my own home. But if I let her leave, then she won't come back, and I can't risk losing her again. Because I care more about her than she ever has about me.

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I'm so tired. She was so horrible to me. I just want to help her but she won't let me and I feel like I am basically honour bound to keep trying.

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My ex is in bed next to me. She came over last night. First time i've seen her in months. I told her I didn't want her drinking since she seemed absolutely fixated on it and clearly wasn't coming round for my company. I relented and let her drink the shit rum my other ex got me last year if she absolutely had to. Because otherwise she wouldn't come over, and I needed someone with me last night.

She threw up on my walls, screamed in my face, woke all my neighbours up, tried to hit me, told me she only has sex with me because she sees it as the price she has to pay for booze, and made me feel like a vile manipulative rapist. Because of what she has told me of her past, I found myself legitimately scared in my own home. But if I let her leave, then she won't come back, and I can't risk losing her again. Because I care more about her than she ever has about me.

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I think today is the first day in like over a week where I won't have a drink

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Last night someone told me she sincerely hopes that one day someone will talk about her the same way i talk about rum

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My friends surgery is in two months. I cant go back to my friend group after that

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My transition was just one last desperate attempt to give me a personality or something that people would like. And now I just spend every single day trying to do enough drugs to fall asleep. I don't have anything else in my life anymore. Just drugs and my tiny little internal world. I'm barely even a person anymore