Todd Tweed

[toddtweed]

fxrxver:

his body suddenly grew warm as he could feel todd’s grip on his hips tighten, holding him close as their lips moved in sync with each other.. he knew that since coming back that it hadn’t been their first time kissing.. always having felt bad for what had been when todd had kissed him when they were teens.. and where he just after that moved to the mainlands without a lot of explanations.. copper stopped for a short moment as he could hear his voice, and the sound of his chuckle filling the short space between them.. “hope not–” he said back and smiled wide, letting his forehead rest against the others, thoughts just rushing through his mind, trying to think when to tell him or not.. “uhm– so im not sure how to say this.. but i probably should before thingss get too serious and you’ll hate me…” copper started off, his hand still resting on the sdies of todd’s face, this thumb carefully caressing his cheek for a few second in case it would be his last before he pulled his hand back… “so– i’m .. i’m transgender.. a-and i left cause i was starting this process to becoming who i am today.. and i had to be away from home.. and i was too chicken shit to tell you cause you always looked at me, and treated me like any other boy.. even if i wasn’t.. and it freaked me out thinking what would happen if you found out that i wasn’t… im still scared shitless of it, which is why im just going on rambling right now, cause the silence is really gonna get to me..” he started off rambling, which probably wasn’t a good thing, but once he started he simply couldn’t stop.

           --- Todd was shocked to say the least, the last thing he’d been expecting to hear come of of his mouth was that he was trans, how the hell did he never know? He suddenly felt like an idiot, was he so damn dense that he couldn’t even see it, or did he maybe secretly not care, considering Todd had never thought of gender as a reason to like or dislike someone, you like who you like and it doesn’t matter what they prefer to go as. He smiled gently at Copper, he could tell that he was scared to tell him this, and Todd din’t want him to be scared around him, he wanted him to be happy. “Well, I guess it’s a good thing that I don’t care about gender or any of that bullshit, i’ve been with guys and girls, I like people, not what’s downstairs” he chuckled at him, planting a kiss on his lips “I love you, Copper, I always have, and even tomorrow when i’m sober I won’t be changing my mind”.

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fxrxver:

the look on todd’s face, mixed with the silence and his inability to reply for a moment scared the living shit out of him.. scared that he’d actually just let out something he shouldn’t have, and how he’d fucked up scared him, and he was ready to fucking run away as todd slowly began sitting up, and he himself sitting in his lap.. honestly he could feel himself sobering up within seconds, as he also came to the realization that if todd said anything back, that he now had to tell him everything too.. copper swallowed hard as he looked at him, watching his features before his lips parted, letting out words he hadn’t expected to hear.. ‘since i met you’… todd had been in love with him since before copper even really knew what he was.. when he had been pretending to be copper, hiding behind a name while he was outside playing with him, to now being copper.. and todd had to know before it got serious, and fear of the other thinking he was leading him on really set in… coppers hands gently laid themselves on each side of his face, moving them so that he was looking directly at him..  but telling him could wait a little bit longer, as he leaned in and pressed a soft, loving kiss against the others lips, and at least to him it all felt so much different..

         --- Todd’s grip on the other’s hips tightened and he kissed him back, long and slow, his whole body buzzing. As much as he cared for Todd basically their whole childhoods he didn’t think they would ever get to this point, years ago when Todd had put himself out there and kissed Copper he had thought his whole world had imploded and he had ruined the only substantial thing he had in his life. As soon as he had seen Copper at the bar that night he had way too much to drink, he thought maybe he could have a small amount of that back. “Am I dreaming?” Todd mumbled against Copper’s lips, letting out a soft chuckle.

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fxrxver:

there was a part of copper that kinda wished they didn’t have to get this drunk just to be able to be around each other.. like they kept falling back into doing the same things when they were drunk, and some part of him kinda wanted there to– or try it one time where they both were completely sober just to see if it actually did mean anything, or if it was just that; a drunken thing.. so after he’d let out the fact that he really liked kissing him, he looked over at todd hearing him sloppily let out that he liked it too he smiled as he looked at him, feeling the light from the moon somehow hit him int he face.. they walked a bit further but didn’t get far before feeling his arm getting yanked, as todd fell, pulling copper down with him, allowing him to fall on top of him.. copper looked down at todd for a moment as they now both laid on the sand, the only sound that surrounded them was how the waves hit the shore and faint sound of music coming from the bar.. coppers dark hues peered into todd’s lighter ones and the words that left him next kinda just happened, he didn’t think; they just.. fell out of him as if it was the easiest thing he’d ever said. “– i think i could be in love with you…” 

         --- Todd was lost in a fit of laughter as Copper fell on top of him, he rested his hands on the others hips and smiled up at the boy, being like this with Copper was nothing sort of magical, even though he was drunk. A large part of him wondered if things between them could be this amazing all the time, could this boy possibly become his boyfriend? he would love that so much. Just as Todd was shoving the idea back he heard those words come from Copper and he felt his whole body go numb and he knew he probably looked like a deer in the headlights, a weird panic set in and for a minute he wondered if maybe this was all just a dream. “I-” Todd tried to get words to come out of his mouth but he was stunned, he slowly sat up, still holding onto Copper so he was basically in his lap, taking a deep breath he managed to muster up some courage. “I’ve been in love with you since I met you” she said quietly, looking away sheepishly.

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fxrxver:

copper should’ve seen something like this happen, but as his brain didn’t quite follow the rest of him, so feeling him turn around in his arms so that he stood facing him instead.. and seconds later, hands found his face and soft lips pressed against his own. the hands he had around todds waist held him even tighter, pressing his body against his own as he kissed him back. the boy felt his body fill with warmth, and getting all tingly with butterflies, and again the kiss felt way too short as todd pulled away, smirking his way before grabbing his hand again, pulling him along so that they could get closer to the water front where the two started walking. “i liked that” he eventually let out as he looked up at the other.

         --- They both stumbled along the beach, holding hands, both of them more than tipsy, but Todd was enjoying every second of it, it was almost a dream come true for Todd, a long time crush on this boy finally turning into something. “I liked doing it” Todd had a sloppy grin across his face as he looked over at Copper, he looked dazzling in the moonlight reflecting off of the water and onto him. It was easy for Todd to lose his footing in the uneven sand and before he could catch himself he was tumbling onto his back in the sad, pulling Copper down with him since he hadn’t let go of the others hand during the fall.

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fxrxver:

time seemed to fly by as the two held onto each other as they danced, looking up he peered into the boy’s hues before he smiled wide, chuckling lightly. “Kinda why i like it..” he said, not exactly expecting their dance session to end so soon, but didn’t exactly protest either as he felt todd’s hand grab a hold of his before getting pulled away, barely catching what he said.. “Oh i love walks..” he said drunkenly as he stumbled out the door with him, feeling the breeze, he kinda just found himself walking up behind todd, arms wrapped around his waist before he rested his head on his back. “ok im ready to go walk now. got you all buckled up..”

          --- Todd couldn’t help the laugh that erupted from his lips as he felt Copper’s arms wrap around him, he turned around in his arms so that he was facing him and before thinking he grabbed his face and planted a deep kiss on his lips. Of course being drunk was helping his confidence but he felt his whole body buzzing as their lips pressed together. He pulled away and smirked grabbing his hand and walking closer to the edge of the water walking next to Copper.

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fxrxver:

as the two moved closer, feeling todd’s hands finding his hips as the two moved to the music hips brushing against the each other, copper laid his arms over the others shoulders, letting them rest as he moved even closer to the point where their foreheads touched. nothing could stop him from that point on wards.. he was feeling it, he felt happy, and in that moment he was just a normal guy dancing with another guy he really liked.. 

           --- “Boy, that alcohol hits hard and fast” Todd grinned as they continued to dance to the music, it hadn’t taken long for Todd to feel drunk, and he enjoyed the feeling with Copper. With a sly smirk on his face he grabbed Copper’s hand and started to pull him towards the exit “lets go for a walk” he smirked as he pulled him right out of the bar, the cool breeze hitting him in the face and he loved every second of it.

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fxrxver:

copper’s eyes narrowed just a tiny bit, “just a tad, huh..?” he said under a chuckle, as he watched todd down two shots in a matter of seconds. he was starting to really love coming across todd in situations like this, they didn’t feel tense, and somehow they all just kinda talked as if nothing had happened, like copper hadn’t been away for so long, and they were just friends out having fun.. and that up until that point might have shared a few drunken kisses but– friends could do that right? dark hues looked up to see the other, as he heard his voice, but before he got to protest or anything really, he felt todds hand grab a hold of his own, and dragged him off onto the dance floor. a laugh escaped him and as the two stood in the middle of the room, copper’s smile had widened as he was just ready to have fun.

         --- Todd wasn’t much of a dancer, but he enjoyed just letting loose and having fun, so that’s what he planned on doing. Sure he looked a Copper and he’d get a twinge of sadness, wondering where they would be right now if Copper hadn’t just disappeared, but he’d take what he could for the moment. So Todd let himself move to the music, before he could talk himself out of it he pulled the other close, holding onto his hips and letting himself get lost in everything, the alcohol thoroughly working its way through his system at this point, leaving him feelings tingly.

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fxrxver:

the boy scrunched his nose up as todd commented on needing to catch up on his drinking, “you gonna come float with me now too?” he asked, not helping but let his hand touch one side of his hips for a short moment before his arm dropped back to his side. “that we do– and honestly i happy about it..” he said, grinning as he chuckled, reaching back and gabbed his glass, taking a new sip of it as todd seemed to have done the same, only to move closer to the bar,  mentioning needing a few more shots.. “as long as im able to get you walking out of here then sureeee” he said, every word was fueled by the alcohol he’d had before todd showed up, and he had close to no control over it, so who even knew what would pop out of him next..

       --- “I’ll stay a tad more sober than you just to make sure we don’t die, how’s that?” Todd chuckled before slamming back two shots, h could already feel the alcohol running through him, he didn’t exactly have the best tolerance for it considering he really hadn’t started drinking til recently when he moved out. “Let’s go dance” Todd gave Copper a sly smirk before grabbing his hand and once again dragging him out on to the dance floor, it was becoming quite a habit for them to be doing this, and he’d be lying if he said he didn’t really enjoy it. 

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fxrxver:

just the one he’d hoped would show up, though this time around, copper seemed to be more under the influence than todd, which might have been for the best.. the boy smiled wide the moment his eyes came to a rest on him, seeing his features, kinda how his cheeks got rounded off as he smiled wide. “heyyy–” he too let out, letting go of the glass he’d had in his hand as the other came closer to him, his own smile not seeming to leave this time.. “oh i’m great–  feeling.. floaty..” he muttered, but loud enough so that todd could hopefully hear it. “and yourself? you’re looking good..”

            --- Todd chuckled as he heard Copper speak “I guess I have some catching up to do” he stood fairly close to the other “it’s good to see you again, we’re starting to make a habit out of seeing each other around”. Todd sipped his drink a bit faster than he had before, he didn’t exactly need to be on the other’s level, but he definitely needed to feel more comfortable since his nerves were kicking in. “I need a shot, or four” he chuckled nervously waving down the bartender and ordering a few shots, liquid courage.

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fxrxver:

2 parties in a matter of weeks, copper wasn’t sure he knew who he was anymore. maybe he’d come to find it quite fun, or maybe just he’d come to like the feeling of being drunk but here he was, at an event for a holiday he’d never thought of celebrating.. sure he’d been in relationships around this time, but he’d just never gotten or wanted to celebrate it, he didn’t see the entire point of it.. but now – now it was weird, having had todd show up at his work, asking if he’d be there at the party he’d changed his mind and wanted to come either way. now he was standing against the bar counter, ordering drinks, groaning about being asked to id himself every other time he got something, and he was completely focused on that all until he felt something bump into him, and he turned quickly around, a set of brown hues hiding behind a head of brown curly hair looked up at someone else, about to say something but was interrupted as they said something instead.

          --- Todd had been pretty keen on parties lately, it was a fun way for him to get out of his shell, when he wasn’t drinking the only people he were comfortable around were the other staff members at the shelter, everything else was rather daunting for him. So there he was, at a party for the second weekend in a row, getting himself a drink at the bar, already having a good time just being in the atmosphere of everyone else having a good time. “Well, hello again” Todd flashed a smile at the familiar face nearby before taking a sip of his drink “how are you?” he took a few steps towards him so they could hear each other better.

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fxrxver:

waking up alone the night after he’d met todd really had left copper feeling like he’d done something wrong, and that the whole thing probably had been a drunken mistake on the others part.. like he knew nothing had happened, so he no reason to be upset, and regardless he was still nothing to the other, he’d disappeared on him first so maybe it was what he deserved.. but he’d just gone about his days like he used to, got his coffee in the morning and headed into work and spent all day there until he went back home, and then do the same thing the next day..  now at least 4 days had passed since the party, and he went into work as per usual, though he’d over slept and forgot most of what he usually did, coming into the shop he got straight into work, and did so until he heard the bell on the door go off, but didn’t look to check as there was someone else sitting in the reception.. nose down in a drawing, he suddenly heard his name being called, and dark hues lifted up from his station and towards the reception where he saw todd standing, butterflies exploded in his stomach.. and in a matter of moments he was up on his feet, walking towards him.. “Hey– So uhm, what’s up..?” he said, smiling slightly to hide the fact that he was kinda having a panic attack on the inside.

         --- Todd tried his best to play it cool even though he heart immediately started to race as soon as he saw Copper. Todd awkwardly held out the coffee “I uh, figured a good caffeine buzz could help you at work” Shifting uncomfortably on his feet he worried that maybe he had over stepped by just showing up after who knows exactly what happened the night of the club. All he knew was that he didn’t want to not be in Copper’s life anymore. “So, maybe if you aren’t busy you could show me around?” he asked quietly “i’ve never been in a tattoo shop before”.

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           --- It had been four days exactly since Todd had woken up beside Copper and slipped out of his apartment. He’d been too nervous to wake him up and say anything, the events of the night before had been hazy and he didn’t exactly know how to face Copper without the help of alcohol. He paced down the street from the tattoo shop with two coffee’s trying to get the courage to go in. Finally he walked in and stopped at the front desk “is uh, Copper here?” he asked nervously clutching the drinks.

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fxrxver:

Copper grinned wide hearing what Todd said, accepting his invitation, sealing it with another kiss which just sent an electric buzzes all through his body, and he couldn’t help but hold him there for a little longer, letting it linger before looking up at him.. “awesome.” he muttered before letting his hand find the others, liking how well their fingers fit together, and with that he pulled the other off and away from the bar and off into the streets where they made their way to his apartment.

          --- Todd looked like a dork as they left the club, full of smiles and buzzing from the alcohol, how he managed to get to Copper’s place without completely falling down was a mystery. But what felt like only seconds passed and they were already at his apartment, Todd turned to Copper with that dumb grin on his face “this is nice” he squeezed the others hand, just now realizing that it was still firmly in his.

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fxrxver:

there wasn’t a single thought in his head regarding him worrying about todd figuring him out, cause right then and there, the only thing he could manage to think about was the two in that moment.. and how he’d maybe never stopped thinking about what could’ve been had he told him sooner, but he liked it.. he like this.. he liked todd.. always had..  a few more moments passed, and copper forced himself to let go of the others lips, hovering just in front of them..  “would you uhm– want to come see where i live..?” he asked though all of it was from a bit of liquid courage from earlier, helping him say the things, or almost say all of the things he wanted to say..

        --- Todd didn’t want this moment to end, he didn’t want to have to face this situation while sober, he wasn’t ever this forward or this courageous and he was terrified that Copper would catch on to that pretty quickly. But when he heard Copper invite him back to his place a grin spread across his face and he couldn’t say no “yeah, i’d love that” he nodded eagerly before planting a quick kiss on his lips “lead the way”.

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fxrxver:

everything from that point onward happened a lot quicker than he’d first think.. with every move the two made, the closer they got to each other until nothing could stop them it seemed.. the closer they got to one another, their face barely hovering besides the others, his heart beating out of his chest and it was as if he couldn’t even blink before he felt lips pressing hard against his own. Copper put his hands at his waist, grabbing at his waist, pulling his hips hard against his own while he leaned into the kiss, wanting, needing more.. like a hunger he needed tending too..

          --- Todd’s hands moved from Copper’s shoulders and cupped his face kissing him hard, his face felt flushed and every now and then someone would bump into them, but no part of Todd minded this. Their bodies pressing against each other, still moving slightly to the music as they kissed, part of him never wanted this to end, but it was a lot different with Copper, it wouldn’t be some mindless hookup, he used to be in love with this boy.

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fxrxver:

The boy couldn’t help but laugh watching him throw his hands in the air,  downing his own drink begging him to not let him drink any more.. “alright alright.. i won’t.. promise..” he said lifting his hand, to lower the others finger as he stood there pointing at him. though his own laugh faded as he listened to what the other blurred out in a laugh of his own. “yeah..” he muttered, but before he got to say anything else, he felt todd grab a hold his hand, and pulled him off towards the dance floor, barely hearing what he said, but got the fact that he wanted her to dance with him. coppers grin reappeared, “you want me, to dance with you?” he asked and chuckled, before seeing him starting to lightly sway with the music. and the more he listened to him hearing what he said, needing to moved just a bit closer to catch it, and kinda just like that he too found himself moving with him. “says you–”

          --- With every movement they did Todd found himself getting closer and closer to the other, til their bodies were bumping against each other and the face’s were very close. Todd felt flushed and exhilarated all at the same time, in some ways it was probably good that they’d reunited while he was basically already drunk, he knew he wouldn’t have enough courage to be this forward with him during the light of day. Their movements starting to sync up and their faces almost touching had Todd’s heart racing, and before he could stop himself his lips were on Copper’s and he kissed him, hard.

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fxrxver:

Hearing the other repeat some of the things he’d said back, quickly had copper realize he’d said a bit too much, so he figured he’d  just ignore the whole thing from that point onward.. like he’d never said it.. instead he just let his own mind focus on the amount of alcohol he already had in him which was starting to be a bit more than he could handle, despite it not being a lot.. “well im not sure i can get on your level.. so i think you have me beat..” he said, his smile got kinda wide as he couldn’t help but laugh before hearing his voice again, explaining how he apparently was still the same, just– buffer– and hotter. “yeah no still think there’s something else in there…” he pointed out, biting the inside of his cheek as he heard the familiar chuckle leave him. everything that happened next though, was far from something copper had expected, how he’d taken notice in his dress sense had changed, and the fact that he’d gone from wearing things that were a few sizes too big, to just right, most cause of his top surgery but still not something he’d think anyone would pick up on.. but at this point he was too tipsy to think too much of it.. “what– you think so..?”

           ---- “Victory is mine!” Todd threw his hands in the air before pounding back his last drink “that should probably be my last one, don’t let me drink anymore” he pointed his finger at Copper, his actions felt sloppy and he knew he was drunk, there was no turning back from here. “I am definitely the same Todd who stupidly kissed you years ago” he was laughing, although he hadn’t mean’t to let that slip out, he just continued to laugh, hoping they could just faze right over what he said. Instead Todd stood up and grabbed Copper’s hand in his own, pulling him towards the dance floor “you’re going to dance with me, and I’m terrible at it, so don’t make fun of me” his smile was crooked and you could tell this wasn’t something he usually did, but all sense of what was a good idea or not was basically gone right now. Once in the middle of the room Todd started to sway a bit, trying to see if Copper would get him some pointers, but at this point he was just letting the music move him “of course I think you look good, do you even own a mirror? you’re hot”.