Internal Screaming

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[tokyoteddywolf]

hi! i noticed your fic written in amber was deleted. i love that fic and am super sad when i tried rereading only for AO3 to tell me it no longer exists.

will it be possible for me to ask for the offline doc? (just for me to reread! i solemnly swear im not trying to repost it) i will reach out via DMs if you're willing to share it but it's okay if you can't or don't want to!

anyways, no matter your answer, have a good day!

Not kidding I have half a mind to just allow free access to it lmao

But I'd worry too much about it getting into the hands of the wrong people so yeah if you want it just to read have at it, feel free to DM me for it :3

It's all saved on a Google doc, it's set to allow access to anyone who has the link.

Gonna say it once again: It's just an adaptation as best as I could do, but it did still get copyrighted, so no posting it anywhere.

In better news I'm rewriting the entire fic into a proper AU to replace Written In Amber, but between my job and burnout, it's a bit of a workout mentally :p

It will be similar to the original book worldbuilding-wise but the plot is gonna be pretty different, and I'm adding several changes as I go to make sure it's still as good as WIA was. So, hopefully that's done by the end of the year.

Anyways yeah all that to say you can have the link, have fun, it's viewable offline too so don't go crazy and go read the original series if you want the non-Ratiorine version.

[aromantic-diaries]

People act like there's an explicit line between friendship and romance like This is how Platonic Friends act and if two people act like That they are a Romantic Couple. Buddy I have crossed the line so far that it's actually surprising to me and it's still friendship

[aromantic-diaries]

"being aromantic means you never cross The Line" well maybe I'm so aromantic that no matter how far I cross the so called line I will never enter the romance territory. Get on my level.

[thestuffedalligator]

It is November of 1893. You have just killed a vampire. Exhausted and worn, you close your eyes and rest.

You wake up. It is May of 1893. You are on a train en route to Transylvania. Your diary says you have had queer dreams lately.

You try to believe it.

(An old woman puts a rosary in your hands. You accept it without question.)

You are a guest in a castle you have never been in before (you recognize every hallway and know without trying that every door is locked). Your host is a man you have never met before (you killed him you killed him you killed him he had turned to dust and there was blood on the snow).

One morning you cut yourself while shaving.

There is nobody behind you in the pocket mirror’s reflection.

You turn fast, and the razor is like a Kukri knife in your hand.

[suneatershore]

[ravenatural-art]

( uploading again because I realized I accidentally missed a page )

Hey OP hope you don’t mind me making fanart because uhhhh I went a lil feral over this

[corvid-language-library]

The sooner you start, the sooner you'll be done with it and the sooner you can stop thinking about it. Go on, up you get, it won't be as bad as you think.

[corvid-language-library]

You won't want to do it later either. You might as well just do it now. Even if you don't finish it all, anything you manage to get done now is something you don't have to do later (when you still won't want to do it)

[tokyoteddywolf]

Sketch go brr

Havent posted much so have an art for now

Hope everyone's doing well~

[depsidase]

[barkingbarghest]

Here is an article from NPR about it (May 22, 2026):

Carolina Milanesi, an independent technology analyst, said Google is trying to make its cash cow business — search — richer and more personalized, and it will make shopping easier. But there is a risk that users may have fewer choices about what to click. "Right now it's: I ask a question, I get a bunch of answers and I feel that I'm in control as to which answer I take, or if I'm looking for something, which product I'm going to end up buying. That is going to be less so going forward," she said. Milanesi envisions AI-enabled search and agents proposing products to consumers — perhaps even those they have requested — but with less clarity or choice around where it's coming from. "If you're going to say: 'I want a pair of Jordans, go find them,' you're not necessarily sure what steps have been taken and whether the AI has used a source or a store that was paid for and therefore came up in the search results," she said, "or if AI actually went and did their due diligence and picked the best for me as a customer."

And here's one from Time magazine (May 20, 2026):

While Google already has “AI Mode,” the company will now power the whole search bar through its new Gemini 3.5 Flash model.  Instead of the classic list of blue links, Google Search will now also generate a custom page with an AI-generated summary of what you’re searching about, which will then trigger a conversation with AI Mode on the main page, allowing users to ask follow-up questions—similar to the kind of layout you would see when opening ChatGPT.

And a little more from Time's article on how this may affect the websites that we are trying to search for:

When Google first started implementing AI-assisted results, news publishers warned of “catastrophic” impacts on the industry, much of which relies on Google search to drive users to their websites.  Last year, news websites saw significant traffic declines as chatbots increasingly replaced Google search as the primary way to find sites and ask questions.  Small businesses also noted drops in traffic to their sites from Google, which has traditionally delivered customers.   Lily Ray, vice president of SEO strategy & research at Amsive, a digital marketing agency, warned as early as last year that Google’s planned changes to search are “going to have a devastating impact on the Internet.”  “It will severely cut into the main source of revenue for most publishers and it will disincentivize content creators who rely on organic search traffic, which is millions of websites, maybe more,” she told Technology Magazine.  

[anarchopuppy]

noai.duckduckgo.com blocks all AI content in search results automatically

[toadalled]

She is very lonely

[bedrock-to-buildheight]

Too bad you love me

[valtsv]

obsessed with the concept of being haunted by yourself

[valtsv]

maybe you were someone you hate now, and that person remains a cold hand on your shoulder that says you do not deserve this. perhaps you had to destroy yourself and become someone else to escape something worse - but now they hang over you like a shroud. you abandoned me. everyone did, but you - you were all i had. and you left me to rot. maybe the life you could have had was taken from you - and isn't that a death of sorts? - and now it shadows your every step. you keep moving further away, but it follows. there's a ghost after you, and it wears a frighteningly familiar face.

[tokyoteddywolf]

I hope this doesn’t come off as intrusive but was Written in Amber deleted? I loved that fic 💔

Sadly yes, there was a copyright strike so it had to be taken down.

I always figured it'd be a possibility anyways, but it does kinda hurt my heart a little. Guess I got what I deserved, huh?

I'd stated multiple times that it was an adaptation of the original book, that I owned nothing of the original series, that I'd honestly taken the same plot and changed some characters, but still, copyright is copyright. I won't justify or defend myself about it, that's what it boils down to. And yes I had people being angry at me for plagiarism.

Honestly I'd just wanted to take a beloved series and make it HSR out of selfishness. Maybe I'll go back someday and write it as more of an AU style instead of taking directly from the book. I already have a few ideas about that, but it may take a long while since I have a new job I really need to focus on right now.

So, TL;DR, Yes Written In Amber has been taken down due to copyright and there may eventually be a completely new AU written based on it, but not entirely soon.

(Honestly as much as I loved that fic, I really could have done better. I will be working on that "better" version when I have time. And this one won't get copyrighted lmao)

[tokyoteddywolf]

Can you really call it "saving everyone", if the one person you sacrificed for it wasn't saved?

[essaimart]

☝️ one

[theterribletenno]

A 15-year-old boy is about to base his entire personality on the last movie you watched for the next 10 years. HOW BAD IS IT?

He is going to get himself killed. Badly.

He is going to (try to) kill himself

The most obnoxious person in the world has just been born

FURRY (derogatory)

FURRY (normal)

Not much has changed? But now he's stuck like this for 10 years? Yikes.

It's cringe but it could have been a lot worse

At least he'll have fun at Comic Con

If anything this is a slight improvement.

He's not a boy anymore. He's a man now.

She's not a boy anymore. She's a girl now.

FINALLY, a son I can be proud of!

Voting ended onMay 11

[tokyoteddywolf]

WHEEZING I LOST SILVER WOLF TO SILVER WOLF

WHAT THE FUCK KINDA BULLSHIT HOYO-

[tokyoteddywolf]

*insert muffled sigh here*

Well shit's gone sideways again, apparently the karmic balance of good and evil is spinning like a fucking pinwheel right now. Can't have one good day without something immediately fucking it up right after.

Anyways, I'll be offline for a while, because good news I landed a job finally!

Bad news is Steve the Bastard is trying to starve me into doing what he wants, which I'm not doing because I have a credit card and a bus pass and a willingness to shove shit in a bag and abscond for a day til mom's home :D

(I swear he only ever gets bold when mom isn't home... the pussy. He doesn't hold any real power, I refuse to respect or even entertain his stupidity.)

I promise yall I am fine, I will be fine, and this is honestly not a new tactic for him (not since the chain-and-padlocks of good ol' '14) and mom will rip him a new one for this. I have places I can go, and mom should be home this evening.

(Ranting below)

And before anyone asks, the reason I'm not doing what he wants is because he has to learn this kind of behavior is not okay. Like really? Resorting to trying to starve someone out just because they won't jump when you say jump? What next, you gonna lock me in my room? Gonna ban me from using drinks I paid for? Snacks I bought with my food stamp money?

Dumbass. Idiot. Moron. I won't even say fool because at least fools have some self preservation. You are walking into your own pit you dug yourself because you were too stupid to see the shovel in your grip and the noose rope tangled in your legs.

I'm not a child and the fact he keeps expecting me to whine and cry like one when he does this seriously pisses me off. I am twenty-fucking-five and his petty tricks are more childish than I am. Does he think I'm helpless? Does he think I'm stupid??? Does he really believe I don't have anyone else I could rely on???? Or that I can't do things myself???

Honestly. Why he acts like this is beyond me. The power complex is insane. I've dealt with this for over a decade and I've still yet to decipher his fucking brain chemistry. Dude acts like it's the end of the world if he doesn't get his way and tells me to "shut the fuck up" when he knows he's losing the argument.

Small wonder I've no respect for this man. Ugh.

[tokyoteddywolf]

*insert muffled sigh here*

Well shit's gone sideways again, apparently the karmic balance of good and evil is spinning like a fucking pinwheel right now. Can't have one good day without something immediately fucking it up right after.

Anyways, I'll be offline for a while, because good news I landed a job finally!

Bad news is Steve the Bastard is trying to starve me into doing what he wants, which I'm not doing because I have a credit card and a bus pass and a willingness to shove shit in a bag and abscond for a day til mom's home :D

(I swear he only ever gets bold when mom isn't home... the pussy. He doesn't hold any real power, I refuse to respect or even entertain his stupidity.)

I promise yall I am fine, I will be fine, and this is honestly not a new tactic for him (not since the chain-and-padlocks of good ol' '14) and mom will rip him a new one for this. I have places I can go, and mom should be home this evening.

(Ranting below)

And before anyone asks, the reason I'm not doing what he wants is because he has to learn this kind of behavior is not okay. Like really? Resorting to trying to starve someone out just because they won't jump when you say jump? What next, you gonna lock me in my room? Gonna ban me from using drinks I paid for? Snacks I bought with my food stamp money?

Dumbass. Idiot. Moron. I won't even say fool because at least fools have some self preservation. You are walking into your own pit you dug yourself because you were too stupid to see the shovel in your grip and the noose rope tangled in your legs.

I'm not a child and the fact he keeps expecting me to whine and cry like one when he does this seriously pisses me off. I am twenty-fucking-five and his petty tricks are more childish than I am. Does he think I'm helpless? Does he think I'm stupid??? Does he really believe I don't have anyone else I could rely on???? Or that I can't do things myself???

Honestly. Why he acts like this is beyond me. The power complex is insane. I've dealt with this for over a decade and I've still yet to decipher his fucking brain chemistry. Dude acts like it's the end of the world if he doesn't get his way and tells me to "shut the fuck up" when he knows he's losing the argument.

Small wonder I've no respect for this man. Ugh.

[dingdongyouarewrong]

do you ever form close relationships with people in your dreams and then feel a little sad when you wake up

[dingdongyouarewrong]

i had a son in one of my dreams, he was 3 or 4, i loved him so much, i don’t remember his name but i remember loving him so much, and then i woke up and he was gone

[alittlewomble]

Hey um what the FUCk

[mumblesplash]

tldr: boy have i ever

[mumblesplash]

ok you know what it’s been long enough. and i’ve had enough vague accusations of ‘stealing’ the plot of my own dream from various sci fi series as if dying is not the only narratively compelling thing you can do on a stranded spaceship so i will tell you all the secret. the missing piece. what actually inspired this dream. the one thing i didn’t say. it was among us. we were all those stupid fucking amogus characters running around a dream-approximation of that one map with the long hallway and the greenhouse room. everything else about the plot and the emotions involved is all true. i’ve never even seen any of the shows people keep talking about in the comments