insanity

what goes on in my mind. for me to know and for you to wonder.

[tommosmind]

Being married is legit the best thing in the world. I haven’t truly had a depressive episode ever since Haz and I got married and it feels like I’m on top of the world. I’m just so happy and so in love and fuck this is so amazing I’m about to cry from joy.

[mooglemain]

me: hey i feel pretty good what could go wrong

brain:

[jodiefoster]

don’t let anyone tell you that it’s a bad thing to feel things deeply. a full heart is a strong heart and being soft doesn’t make you weak. being soft and loving makes you radiant. you deserve all of the love in the world and so many good things.

[melodyhansen]

[flahei]

i can feel the love run right out of you

[urbanthropologie]

ways to start feeling again

sit in the sun without anything to do, feel the heat of the rays hit your skin, realize that this sunlight has travelled a very long way to reach you

walk around barefoot and try to feel as much of the ground under your feet as you can, notice every rock and blade of grass

sit quietly for a while and notice the touch of breath in your nostrils, feel how the air gets cooler as you inhale and warmer as you exhale

drive around aimlessly and blast some of your favorite songs, scream/sing along to them and feel the vibrations of your favorite lyrics as they change the air in your throat and around you, feel that the music is healing you from the inside out

stay away from alcohol or drugs for a few days, try to be as aware and present as you can in every moment, stop trying to numb or dull your senses

eat a few meals without any distractions, notice every bite and taste every flavor that covers your tongue, be grateful for it all

look up at the stars and the moon, understand how small we all are and how immense the universe is, realize what a miracle everything is, let your heart swell with amazement and admiration for life itself

me: *gets really sad and has an emotional breakdown*

me, ten minutes later: lmao that was so fuckin lame

[vanillascentedthot]

If you out and you get a bad feeling, go home immediately

[bilegirl]

bich… i have anxiety… everythings a bad feeling

[daintyharru]

come away with me and i’ll never stop loving you

[tommosmind]

Istg.

[tommosmind]

Fuck is wrong with Devin???? I was legit busy I wasn't purposely ignoring anyone and now that I try to explain it he's just rude??? The fuck really??

[tommosmind]

Watch as my happiness flies out the window. Zayn is 10000 times better than me, Harry would never choose me over him. I knew I shouldn't get too attached... Fuck my whole life.

[tommosmind]

I'm going to Rio with Harry. We're staying at Fasano again because he loved the place. This time, I get to be at the pool with him and watch him doing silly backflips while drunk on caipirinhas. And more importantly, this time I get to kiss his lips and hold him close to me. I'm so excited.

[tommosmind]

[tommosmind]

I should quit being a whore. I'm sure no one will really want me long term if they know how many people I've been inappropriate with. But I mean, they wouldn't want me anyway even if I weren't like this. I'm just worthless. It's whatever. I'll just keep on hooking up.

[tommosmind]

I'm all marked up and I fucking love it.

[tommosmind]

I was in need of this. Really was. I'm gonna be chill for at least a day now.

[tommosmind]

I need to stop lusting over my friends.