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“Don’t kill flowers growing inside of you for someone who doesn’t appreciate the way you bloom.”

— Billy Chapata

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tommygunzsz

I need to learn this

classycookiexo

BEAR WITH ME lol I needed to vent, go ahead, sit down with your favorite snack and be prepared with my rambling. 12/31/22

Ya know I had thought this out for a while. I finally had found someone who knew how I am. Even after you told me we can be just friends I wanted to stick around you so I just put my feelings aside till it was a good time to bring it up again. I never pushed my boundaries whenever I was talking to you. Sure there were times I flirted with you bc I wanted you to know that I still liked you but I should’ve known after a while from the no replies for hours on end even when you’re off work or “busy”. For me to not do enough when you never wanted to spend time with me when I asked, don’t get me wrong there were times where I genuinely thought you actually wanted to see me. Because you had said “we can plan our hang out next time I’ll make time for you” Who knows now, if you actually think about it why wouldn’t you just tell them the truth on how you feel. So the other party can just walk away instead of sticking around in “wonder” your feelings for them. It’s not like if you told me you’d lose me as a friend. We barely were, bc we were in the process of getting to know each other. Either way I’d be out of your life completely and you never see me again maybe for your cousins bday once a year cause he’s my boy and I gotta go to his birthdays. Im just so confused bc I don’t know where I stand with you. Maybe it was a mistake talking to you in the first place, I didn’t learn anything from you. Perhaps my only mistake is that I shouldn’t have talked to a younger girl where she’s still figuring herself out or idk. As much as it sucks to not see you again where I’ll have to one more time is drop off your cardigan that you left in my car from taking care of you when you were drunk and oh also your Xmas present. Then you won’t see me again and worry about our situation. I’ll be completely out of your life. For the first time I agree with what my homie said “ I genuinely believe you didn’t do anything wrong and she’s doesn’t know how to process all that” I’ve never agree with what someone said about me I’d always think the most modest of myself and said no way I wouldn’t do that or I don’t believe that. Till today i never went to the extreme past the boundaries and I kept it respectful but even though you pretty much cut it off. Just know I’m not the one that gave up because it got hard. I genuinely liked you and you thought I didn’t because I didn’t do enough or more.

#me #personal #feels #sad #truthful #ireallylikedyou