lena

i enjoy making lockscreens, writing and making new friends! ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹ ᰔ

[tonsrush]

hi guys, just wanted to talk for a little.

This year has been really rough on me, my health is getting worse faster than I have ever expected. Currently, I see doctors more often than I see friends and its just so sad.

I feel very alone in this journey, and it does make me think about what is and isn't worth it when time feels like it's fading.

[tonsrush]

RP AD ♡

hi! i'm lena and I'm looking for a long term kpop rp partner, and since i really like talking I'm looking for a friend too! ♡ here's a list with some of my preferences.

i'm 20 so I'll only rp with people over the age of 18

i have a preference for doubles but we can talk about it

oc × member or member × member (m×f, f×f, m×m)

i'm ok with sfw, nsfw and most plots

i only rp over on discord or twitter !!

riize, aespa, nct wish (hyung line), enhypen, xg, kiss of life, itzy, ive and others ♡

if you're interested you can always dm me or like the post so i can dm you. thank you for reading and wish you a great day!! ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹ ᰔ

deviders by @/i06gyu ♡

[tonsrush]

Hi! If anyone is still interested, pls reach out ♡

[tonsrush]

lena update!

this month, I turned 21, met up with friends, and became quite important in my job! I hope everyone had a great month, and I hope the next one is even better!

[tonsrush]

lena update!

Hi everyone!! I made a new twitter account in hopes of making new friends. I'll mostly talk about nct wish, riize, and some silly life updates like posting pics i take or mu coloring book.

Would anyone be interested in following?

Also, I'm making some layouts for it. They were supposed to be for persona use, but if anyone would like me to post a few, I can do that too!

That's all! Hope you have a great day and see you around!! 𐙚⋆｡˚

[tonsrush]

lena update!

hi everyone! how have you been?

I've been working a lot lately! 2 jobs and university really isn't light on the body and mind, but I've been adapting and moving forward! Today, I decided to meet up with some friends and enjoy the beach (little picture i took under) since where I live is summer all year around! I had a lot of fun, and I now feel recharged for a week of work.

I hope life has been treating you all kindly! I wish everyone a great week ahead! ♡

[tonsrush]

Hi! For the ones who send me all those supportive messages, thank you!

I'd like to give everyone an update, a good one this time! I was able to get back into therapy, and now I'll be seeing my therapist once a week instead of once a month! After my first appointment, I already feel a little better, and I can see there's good to come if I take the right steps!

Thank you all once again! I hope to be your sweet little internet friend once again!!

[tonsrush]

I've never been so genuinely unhappy and uncomfortable with my own life. I'll most likely start deleting social media soon because everything just seems so dull. I'm clearly not the bright and happy person I was when I created this account. At some point in the last few months, I died, and i guess my body is waiting to catch up.

I'm so sorry for the disappointment for everyone who followed. I never planned to turn into what I am now. I hope everyone is well and safe ♡

[tonsrush]

since i struggle to recognize my own accomplishments, I've decided to dedicate them all to a random person for fun. Anyways, thank you, Yushi fom NCT Wish for the new job!!!

[tonsrush]

I've been thinking about a lot lately, and it's interesting how even though I had convinced myself I don't really want love, I still catch myself crying when I think about being loved.

Even though I've convinced myself I'm better off alone, I can't help but dream about the idea of knowing there would be someone who would want me, who'd wait for me and want to build something with me... I'd like that, even if it's just for a while. Being loved must be such a nice thing. ♡

[eggsdoodz]

all i want is the best for u ☘︎

[veryluckyclovers]

[tonsrush]

(this will be deleted soon I just didn't know who to talk about so pls understand)

tw// talking about mental health

I've gone through a lot of things and growing up bottling things up was very hard. It took a lot to learn how to talk about how I feel but now that I do, I feel like people don't care. Friends like me when I'm happy, when I'm bright but as soon as I say I'm not doing that well, no one is around, it's not fun, everyone is busy. I feel like keeping everything to myself sometimes hurts less even if I feel like I want to talk.

[theoptia]

Simone de Beauvoir, from Diary of a Philosophy Student: Volume 1, 1926-27

Text ID: I myself keep my emptiness inside of me, and this certainty that I am alone, that nothing can satisfy me, that my happiness will have to be willed so strongly, so severely that it will be more of a fatigue than a peace.

[tonsrush]

a little life update

hi everyone! as you might have noticed the edits haven't been able to be posted yet, unfortunately, that has been happening due to university and some health-related issues happening in my family. for a while, the edits won't be posted but as soon as i'm able to have some more time i'll get back to them. sorry for not being able to keep up and i hope everyone is doing well!!

[tonsrush]

Happy New Year ✨️

2024 was a year where a lot happened, so I'd like to hold on to the precious memories I was able to make. Now, for 2025, let's wish for better things to come into our lives. I hope everyone can enjoy their 2025 in the best way possible! I wish you all an amazing day today and even better days to come!! ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡

[tonsrush]

Happy Holidays! ♡

Passing by to wish all of you a Merry Christmas! I hope that everyone who celebrates it can have a good time and eat some delicious food haha!! Have a great day everyone!! ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡

[tonsrush]

hello! today friends and i had a little early Christmas celebration and we decorated some toploaders, here are mine! the powerpuff boys haha!!

hope everyone had a great day too!! ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა