happiness delight♡

my parents warned me about the drugs in the streets but never the ones with hazel eyes and a heartbeat --x kathryn bernardo here. chos! chay is the name, bias is the game.

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on november 9th, i almost slept at 2am; i'm not sleepy

i woke up earlier than my alarm but i'm still sleepy

we meet at our usual meeting spot before going to school

i found out that the sched i made was all wrong and i actually made myself believe that that was my sched

first subject: VALFORM -- nothing special happened although we were the ones who's so loud and noisy but good thing our prof didn't scold us

second subject: OAPHYSICS -- the prof was actually our prof in MATPLUS on the first semester, i just hope he'll teach us and give good grades because we deserve it. i hope i'll meet my expectation on this subject

third subject: PRIMARK -- no prof because he had this some kind or meeting idk, but we were asked to do an attendance and after that we could go home

they were insisting me on coming with them to eat and just spend time until 12pm(that's our dismissal) and it was only around 10am but i really want to go home already, i don't know why, so they just let me to

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last day of term break. i am anxious and nervous at the same time. but srsly i want to talk about how unproductive my term break was. before this could happen i was planning on what to do on term break. i even had a schedule for pete's sake! but yeah it turned the other way around. i could do many productive things but nothing really happened and as of now, i'm just scrolling here and there. i think the only productive thing i've done is customize my blog and read books, nothing more. i'm just hoping that the first day of second semester tomorrow would turn out okay for me and my friends and yay! we're still blockmates (except for honey because she transferred and curtney because her friend(idk who she is) insisted that they take other schedule and section))

productive days ahead pls~

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There comes a time when I know what to say but when that time comes even though I know what will I be saying, i can’t say it.

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Were so damn apart. Its like im at another galaxy. But even if were so close it looks like a world away. Not even destiny want us together. How pathetic of me.

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Walang mali sa magmahal. Nagiging mali lang yun pag sobra na…Yung tipong pati sarili mo, wala ng natira.

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Don't ask me what's wrong. Just put your arms around me and tell me you're here.

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Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we’ve stopped loving them or we’ve stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.

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Yung mga kaibigan na hindi ka iniwan sa panahon na sobrang down ka. Na halos lahat na ng tao kinasuklaman mo, andyan pa din siya sa tabi mo at sasabihing“Magiging ayos din ang lahat” Ang sarap sa pakiramdam ng ganon, na kung sino pa ang hindi mo kadugo siya pa ang nakikiramay sayo. Sa panahon kasi ngayon, bihira na lang ang mga kaibigan na hindi nang-iiwan sa ere. Kaibigan pa ba tawag dun?

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hi mga bh3! ako nga pala ang kathryn bernardo ng buhay mo. boom paneth!

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Yung mga taong ginagawang laro ang pag-ibig. Pinaglalaruan nila ang feelings ng iba kesyo daw nasaktan sila dati kaya ngayon sila naman daw ang mananakit. Wala silang pakielam sa mararamdaman nung taong yun, basta sila masaya. Hindi magandang paglaruan ang nararamdaman ng tao kasi pag ang puso na ang mismong nakipaglaro sayo. Hindi ka na matutuwa, maiiyak ka pa.

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Why do i need to explain myself to you—-to them? They wouldn’t understand a single bit. It’s not like you actually care. You just want to know. Yeah… You wouldn’t understand, right? So what’s the use?

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Let’s just pretend none of this ever happened. Every time i remember it just hurts me so much. Your sweet good morning text and long good night messages. The way you act towards me. You made me feel like i was so damn special to you. You made me feel things i never felt before. And then when i show my love towards you and confess my true feelings. You just made me feel like you were just toying with me. Lets pretend nothing happened. You will just leave me anyways. In the end we will just all be alone. Why be so foolish?

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Paano mo nga ba masasabi na masaya ka? Kapag na sayo na ang lahat? Kapag hindi ka na nakakaramdam ng sakit? Kapag lagi kang nakangiti o nakatawa? Para sakin, kahit sino hindi pa nakakaramdam ng kasiyahan na panghabambuhay. Siguro meron pero panandalian lang bakit? Kasi kapalit ng saya ay ang lungkot, kapalit ng pagtawa ay ang pag-iyak. Hindi perpekto ang buhay ng tao pero makukumpleto ito kung may kasamang saya at lungkot. Parte ng buhay ang masaktan, masasabing buhay ka kung nakakaramdam ka ng sakit at tuwa. Hindi porket buhay ka, puro saya na lang mararamdaman mo. Ano ka sinuswerte? Dapa’t balanse ang buhay, may nasasaktan, may natutuwa, may malungkot at may masaya. Ganyan ang buhay.