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Short notes on life

[torturedbeautifulsoul]

There Is  No excuse

I remember your devious ways.

I smell your taste and feel you in my soul.

I see your pleasure, your pain, your smile, your joy, your love.

I remembered your touch...

your fragile heart and complicated beauty.

The truth is I wanted you as much as you needed me.

But the castle of paper planes was not enough to hold us.

There was no back-up, no excuse.

We broke. You broke. I broke and it fucking hurt. 

It still does and I love you.

Still...

[torturedbeautifulsoul]

[torturedbeautifulsoul]

Exclusion is not a simple act. When you say to a person: “No. You can not join in. You do not belong in this community” The end of that sentence is not the end of the story. The ramifications are traumatic to the individual. To actively isolate a fellow human being is nothing short of structural violence.

Hannah Gadsby

[torturedbeautifulsoul]

Melting

Feeling confused, unsure. Older not wiser. Turn it off, now. But you turn it the wrong way. Too much in my head. Crippling fear, nausea. Switch it off now. It’s gone all wrong but too late to start again. So fucking tired. Too fucking deep. Just hold me, keep me warm, safe and accepted. But who am I to begin with. She cut me into pieces last time, but you don’t give a fuck. I shouldn’t call, but I do. Fuck, it’s alarming aready.

[torturedbeautifulsoul]

Faith you never had cannot be a comfort #heart #break #love

[torturedbeautifulsoul]

“Do you mind holding for like 30 minutes?” 

“ahhhhh yes”

[torturedbeautifulsoul]

Anxiety

[torturedbeautifulsoul]

The only real failure is the failure to try, and the measure of success is how we cope with disappointment.

Deborah Moggach