Reposting this from one of my other blogs. Felt like it fits better here.
I crack up laughing as a hand makes contact with my face. I hear my very brain recalibrate as I reset and meet the storming eyes before me with a challenging defiance. There is no breaking me but damn they can try. There are no tears here. I asked for this.
The pain is agonizing as they adjust the electrical pulses being sent to my muscles to mimic the sensation of being stabbed rhythmically, but still I laugh. There is no single thought in my head aside from the challenge. "Is that the best you can do?"
A large hand wraps around my tiny neck and squeezes, my body starts to flail and convulse in an attempt to get the hand away. An attempt to stay alive. "We will not die here. Not like this." It tells me. I know we won't. My breath is strained but is still present. I breathe through the sharp pains. I breathe through the feeling of a knife tearing through my skin. I breathe through the electric currents forcing my muscles to strain and contract against the zip ties that cut into my skin. I breathe through the blood. I breathe through every promise of death hissed into my ear. I breathe and I keep smiling.
Make it worse. Make it more painful. More scars. More bruises. Bring me closer to kissing deaths door.
My vision tunnels and I start seeing black spots before I'm enveloped by the welcoming darkness.
I'll awaken soon to another sharp pain across my face as the sadist before me brings me back to consciousness. I won't get out of this that easily. I'm not going anywhere.
My laughter echos back in my own ears.
This is my worship. This brings me closer to divinity. This unleashes the god of pleasure and pain that lurks underneath my flesh
This is my everything. No medicine can stop the craving I have. It's underneath my flesh and it won't stop until I stop breathing. The unbridled demand.....for more
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