Trans Sexual Healing BDSM.....

This is to document my sexual healing from incest and rape. This is also explaining my healing sexually and emotionally through doing BDSM with my boyfriend and how BDSM can satisfy the constant need to be getting fucked...... BDSM is the most emotionally vulnerable thing to ever experience and how it has helped me with disassociation while being fucked.

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BDSM AND BEING A TRANSMAN AND MARRIAGE

Never did I think that I would ever be infatuated by BDSM let alone find my soulmate that I would marry. When I met my husband he turned me onto BDSM and to my surprise I really did dig it. In fact I like being handcuffed to the bed and my feet tied up and having hot candle wax dripped on my belly while he was giving me head and him bringing me close to an orgasm and being edged for now 30 minutes and having one hell of an explosive orgasm and gushing tons of cum out of my man pussy. Tonight, while I was gushing he put his big black thick dick inside of me and he was feeling my cum gushing on his rock hard dick. He left it in there for a brief second and he then started to slowly penetrate my soaking wet man pussy. As he was penetrating me I felt another explosive orgasm coming but he slowed down on his strokes and he began to deeply penetrating me and I couldn't help myself and I started squirming and the more he got me squirming the more rougher and deeper he was penetrating my man pussy and he fucked me for 30 minutes straight and I was squirming and finally begging him to bust his nut inside of me and he kept it up until he told me to tell him to cream and fill me up with his seed and I let a big moan out and I commanded him to cream and he started to instantly fill my man pussy up with tons of his cum. He was still cumming after three minutes and he pulled out and started to cream on my belly and I told him to clean it up and he slowly rubbed his tounge up and down my belly and he started to work down and he licked me down to my feet and he began to untie my feet and yet my hands were still cuffed up and he put his rock hard dick in my mouth and I sucked him off again and I swallowed all of his cum and devoured it. When I was giving him head I was deep throating him and taking his 11 inch big black dick and I can deep throat without gagging. He then uncuffed me and he then laid beside me and he started to just lay with me and talked to me about how deep I felt that to the core of my inner soul.

[transsexualhealingbdsm]

I'm Back!

It's been awhile since I have posted anything on here. It's good to be back! For those of you who wants to know where I have been at I'm going to start off saying that my boyfriend is not my boyfriend anymore. He asked me to marry him and I did!

Since my marriage I never thought that I could or would ever be able to be completely and utterly sexually open and branch off from my comfort zone, but I have gotten way above and beyond my comfort zone since I got married!

Let me tell you that I have became a new man that has been a total slut and a hardcore cumdump and has been sucking and fucking. My current husband turned me on to bdsm and he gradually introduced it to me, but since we got married I have became a lover of bdsm. BDSM has completely changed my sex drive and my ability to be completely sexually open without any reservations. Let me be clear that BDSM is not bondage or something to be afraid of! First off, I am going to say that I love being tied up and having my dick sucked very passionately and what turns me on about it is that I am bound up and I can't go anywhere or move and when I am having my dick sucked I am on the very edge of cummin and then having hot candle wax dripped on my stomach stops me from cummin and then my husband starts sucking my dick extra hard is a complete and total turn on and he will tie my feet up and he will go down on my dick and he will keep sucking it until I can no longer control my urge to cum and I at last release it and I cum cumloads and I can't stop cummin then as I'm cummin he almost bites my dick and something about it and the pain just makes me totally release myself and there's a feeling of being out of control over my body and yet I am trying to stay still but I can't and he gets me squirming and I am literally to the point that I can't stand the powerful sensations that I am feeling and he makes it to the point where I want him to stop and yet I can't make him stop and something about it makes me feel totally wide open to finally get deeply penetrated and fucked until I am raw and red.

To be continued.......

[transsexualhealingbdsm]

Steamy Hot Session:

It all began last night when I came home. My boyfriend had a hot bubble bath and some rose petals in the bath tub waiting for me. I stepped in our bedroom and there was rose petals all over the bed and candles lit and he slowly undressed me and he led me into the bathroom to get into the tub. I got in the bathtub and the candles were lit and very soothing music was on and he got undressed and he came in the bathtub with me and he was behind me and he reached in the front and started to play with my dick and I came right in the bathtub. After I came he stood up and I started to suck on his dick. It was getting very hot in the bathroom and I got out of it and he proceeded to dry me off while I was sucking his dick. He led me into the bedroom and I laid down and he had the handcuffs ready and he handcuffed me and after that he started to suck on my dick and he put his tongue Deep in my pussy and I couldn't hold it back but I came in his mouth. After I came he put his dick in my pussy and he was edging me for along time and I almost came several times but I was able to hold off. He started to fuck my pussy hard and fast and I couldn't stop cummin and I came all over his big thick black dick. I felt myself gushing cum out of my pussy. He kept pounding my pussy hard and he finally released a huge load of cum inside of my pussy. His cum was dripping out of my pussy and while it was dripping I could feel my pussy paulsing as his cum was dripping out.

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[transsexualhealingbdsm]

I'm feeling like I want to be a real slut Tonight with my new boyfriend and soulmate. I want to be very nasty and get into the groove of BDSM. I HAVE TO BE TIED DOWN AND FUCKED THE SHIT OUT OF!

[nautiemm-deactivated20170114]

Staying in bed and fucking all day sounds like a good plan to me.

[transsexualhealingbdsm]

This is what I want to do soon. I love to stay in bed and fuck all day long. I want to try my new found thing that I have discovered that I like and that's BDSM!

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One Hell Of A Explosive Night!

Tonight was the most Explosive nights that I have ever had in my life. I did something that I never thought I would do. One of my roommates is into bondage and BDSM and he wanted me to try some of it and I agreed to it. It was so exotic and it was a new experience. He handcuffed me to the head of his bed and he got on top of me and he started to put his cock inside of my pussy and while he deeply stroked my pussy he dripped candle wax on my belly and the sensation of that and him deeply penetrating my pussy got me instantly squirting out cum all over the place. He dripped more candle wax on my belly as I was squirting cum out and that made me cum cumloads of cum. I have never ever in my life came as much as I did tonight when I was handcuffed and having candle wax dripped on me while my roommate was deeply penetrating my pussy. Just right before I came the second time I felt some very pleasurable vaginal pain and when I started to cum it instantly released the pain and I couldn't stop cummin. Between the pain of the candle wax and the very deep and yet very rough penetration it felt so incredibly good as I totally was releasing all of the sexual tension and stress and yet feeling some intense vaginal pain the orgasms kept being super intense and I was cummin cumloads of cum and I totally saturated his Cock and his sheets of thick and heavy cum. I really did like being tied up and being pounded super hard and having candle wax dripped on me. What made it even more enjoyable is that the lights were dimmed and he was burning inscence. I was smelling inscence and candle wax and his cum and mine. I have never smelled the aroma of cum before. He came in me three times and one time we even released together at the same time. I loved having the cum fucked out of me. He fucked me for several hours non stop and I liked the idea that I was being forced to take all of the very deep and rough and painful penetration. I am really looking forward to my second time of bondage and BDSM! After he was done with me I was completely satisfied with the fuck session that we had. I wasn't even still horny afterwards. He fucked all of the horniness out of me. What made it feel so intimate and special is that we had the house all to ourselves and we could moan and scream all we wanted to.

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A Dirty Secret Of Mine And A Confession.....

I have been holding this in for years and in fact decades. When my father would molest me and have intercourse with me or making me suck his dick I would be turned on by it and I would have orgasms. I have been keeping this inside of myself and I have to admit that when I have flashbacks or nightmares it causes me to cum and sometimes it's alot of it. It's like waking up from a wet dream and finding a load of cum in my boxers. I'm really very embarrassed for having to confess that my body responded and still does to being unwillingly fucked by my father. Then when I do wake up from a nightmare and I find my boxers soaking wet for some reason I experience pain along with cummin and my cock and pussy is sore. Feeling pain while I am fucking somehow is a relief and alot of pent up horniness is just gone. I don't quite understand why. I am at a loss for why I found or still find it pleasurable to have been raped by my father since I was age three. I am really into sex with lots of pain with it. I get off on it. I had to get this out in the open. I am tired of carrying it inside of myself. It's confusing to me because I felt scarred and confused and terrified of being raped by him yet my body responded to him fucking me and still responds to it when I have nightmares and flashbacks. It's quite baffling!

[liltransboi]

Reblog if you’re in the mood to fuck

Preferably me

[transsexualhealingbdsm]

I'm very much in the mood to get fucked and penetrated and very deeply and it better have some pain with the penetration! I want a deep and raw and painful fuck!

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Very Bothered By Something.....

Earlier today I was watching father and son fucking and sucking on each other and I got turned on by it and then I started to think about my incest with my father and how much my body responded to it and liked it. I even started to like being fucked by my father when I was like eight to fourteen years old. I actually felt turned on by being fucked by my father. Yet I hated it and knew that it was wrong. I can't believe that I actually got turned on by dad and son fucking and sucking each other. I am talking about grown ass men. Not children and adults!!! There was apart of me that I thought was hidden and I get turned on by father and son incest porn. That bothers me because I shouldn't be feeling those feelings about a incest situation even if they are grown adults.

[mdwstmnmx]

I need to follow more trans people

If you’re trans or fall anywhere else on the genderqueer spectrum, reblog this and I’ll follow you.

I’m specifically looking for trans men and genderfluid people, but I’ll follow anyone really.

[transsexualhealingbdsm]

Boy and Dad Incset.

I just got done watching a dad and a son of adult age fucking and I have to admit that I got incredibly turned on and I am so very horny right now and my man pussy is dripping wet cum out of my tight hole. I am having a vision of something that I shouldn't be having and it's scary that it is getting me incredibly horny right now. I'm going to jack off until I cum and then one of my roommates or my boyfriend will be home to take care of my severly horny needs. I am not going to lie to you about this but when I was being molested by my father my body would react to it and I would cum when I got older like eleven to twelve and thirteen years old. I know that sounds sick and I have suffered much guilt for physically enjoying it...... But I did physically enjoy being sexually molested by my father and it was a normal body reaction come to find out. But seeing that father and the son having sex and sucking cock made me hot. I know that it's not the right thing to feel but it made me flashback to the times I would be molested by my father and the so many times that I would cum and I would make him cum in my pussy, in my mouth or on me or up my ass. I feel guilty for having to be honest with y'all about this. I am seriously dripping wet full of cum that needs to be released as soon as possible! I need a sexual release immediately! My cum is thick and it's ready to cum cumloads of my man juice. I have to get to jacking off and making myself cum so I can gush or squirt. I am feeling a lot of pint up emotions right now and I don't want to deal with them and I just want to make myself cum and fuck my roommates or boyfriend. I need to get fucked so very badly!

[transsexualhealingbdsm]

Deep Penetration And Pain.

Tonight I was so incredibly horny that my pussy needed to feel some deep penetration and some pain. One of my roommate's just got done taking a shower and when he came out to his bedroom I was laying there jacking myself and he got instantly hard and he went down on my cock and sucked it until I nutted in his mouth. After I busted a nut he put his big thick girthy black cock inside of my wet pussy and he started to deeply penetrate me until I felt some pain and when I felt the pain I couldn't hold back and I had to nut on his cock. My nut was super messy and it was so thick and white and he pulled out and he laid down right beside me and he started to give my pussy a much needed pounding and he pounded me hard until I nut again on his big thick and girthy cock and when I was nutting it became very painful and I released more cum. He banged me for a good half hour and he was picking up the speed and he busted his nut inside of my wet and ready and painful pussy. Afterwards, we were both drenched in his and my cum and we laid in it for awhile and while I was laying in the cum my pussy got even more wetter and I was ready for another round of good and deep penetration and painful fucking again. The second time my pussy felt very relieved afterwards. I was one horny trans guy that needed to feel some deep penetration and pain. Afterwards, my lips and my pussy looked like he busted it wide open. My pussy was so pretty looking totally wide open and like I just got laid.

[transsexualhealingbdsm]

A New Living Situation!

My boyfriend and I moved into a huge house and we let two cisgender guys move in with us and it's been wild! There's two of us trans guys and two cisgender guys and my boyfriend and I started to watch porn in our living room and one of our roommates walked in and saw my boyfriend finger fucking me and he got instantly hard and stiff. He took off his shorts and I was being finger fucked and I started to suck our roommates dick. His dick is so girthy and fat and big. I was cummin get finger fucked by my boyfriend and it was a turn on that I was sucking someone else's dick at the same time. Our other roommate just got home and walked into this and he got involved in the action. My roommate that I was sucking his dick wanted to get some of my man pussy and he sucked my cock and I busted in his mouth and then he stuck his cock in me and he left it in there being all nice and hot and the other roommate that just got home he had my boyfriend sucking his cock and watching my boyfriend suck cock while I was being fucked was a major turn on. It was hot! The guy fucking me penetrated my pussy real slow and deep and he did nice slow strokes and I busted on his cock. I could feel the wetness really pouring out of my pussy. The other guy was fucking my boyfriend rather hard and my boyfriend liked being plowed and pounded. He busted too. My roommate tried to pull out before he busted and he busted inside of my pussy. The other guy that fucked my boyfriend he wanted to bust his nut in my boyfriend and it was so hot to see a cum shot. The guy that was fucking me stayed hard even after he busted and he laid by my side and he slipped himself inside of my wet pussy and he was fucking me on his side and I felt him really penetrate me very deeply. He did nice and steady strokes in and out of my pussy and his penetration felt so incredibly good and I really felt like I was being deeply penetrated. He reached a spot in my pussy that made me bust a hard and intense nut on his girthy big cock. I felt my muscles in my pussy contracting when he was fucking me and my muscles wrapped tightly around his cock. As they were around his cock I had to bust another nut again and before he came the second time he pulled out and came on my cock and dripped down to my pussy. It was so hot that my boyfriend and I were getting fucked at the same time. He busted all over the place when he finally busted! It was hot to see him having a intense orgasm.

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Bookstore Fun!

My boyfriend and I went into a bookstore and we were looking at different size strap ons and I ended up getting my way and we bought a 11 inch strap on and we paid for it. We went into the back where there is the separate movie booths and there is a clear glass booth that guys can go into and fuck and other people can watch us fucking. It was a severe turn on to know that strangers were watching two trans guys fuck. There were 5 guys who were watching my boyfriend plow those 11inches into my pussy and I actually had one hell of an explosive orgasm and I squirted out cumloads of cum and it wouldn't stop. The thought of those guys watching was efforia for me. I never have been fucked in a bookstore before and it was the change of places and the environment that had me so incredibly turned on. Afterwards, one of the guys who was watching asked me if he could fuck me and I asked my boyfriend if it was ok and he said sure. He watched me get fucked by a total stranger that we either one knew. I'll tell you that that experience there made me feel like a million bucks! That guy knew how to fuck me in the ass so fucking well. He was a big guy with a big dick and he knew how to make it not hurt but to be very pleasurable. I came again cumloads. Needless to say the bookstore had two very satisfied customers. We were there for three hours. We plan on going back there again soon. Gay bookstores are the best!

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Getting Fucked And Sucked All Afternoon...

My new boyfriend that is another trans guy fucked and sucked me all afternoon. It was unbelievable! He really rocked my world when he was sucking my cock and finger fucking me at the same time. He brought me to have many multiple orgasms to the point where I lost count of them. He got me squirting out loads of cum each time I would have a orgasm. I squirt out so much that my cum ended up on the mirror on the wall. What is even more of a turn on is that our bedroom has mirrors all on the wall by our bed and there's mirror on the ceiling. I love watching me being sucked, finger fucked and fucked in the pussy. That's a huge turn on for me to be able to watch him and to feel it and to watch his facial expressions too. Watching myself being fucked and sucked is so stimulating and incredibly sexy to me. I love watching me squirt out loads of cum and my pussy getting incredibly wet. When he put the strap on on and entered my hot soaking wet pussy it was very incredibly sensitive and felt very nervy. He was fucking my pussy than he reached in the front of me and started to massage my clock. That was a major turn on. When he did that it didn't take long for me to have a very intense and explosive orgasm when I was having it I could feel my pussy releasing and I felt it all going down my legs and my feet and during that I was squirting out loads of cum. My favorite position to be fucked is doggy style because I can feel the penetration deeper and I can feel it going up into my stomach. He fucked and sucked me to the point where I could not cum anymore. Afterwards I had to sit in some hot water because he fucked me to the point of being red and raw and it felt like it was on fire. This was a all afternoon event.

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SEXUAL HEALING

I just woke my roommate up out of desperate horniness and I woke him up by him feeling my hand down on his cock playing with it and he was getting real wet and by the time he woke up he was incredibly hard and he wanted to instantly started to finger fuck me until I came. After I came he went to get the strap on and he slid it inside of my very wet and tight pussy. As he was fucking me I was really moaning out of totally enjoying having my pussy fucked with nice and steady strokes in my pussy. I love really steady strokes and I love it when he slowly buried my pussy. He took his time fucking me and while he was fucking me he was playing with my nice hard cock and I couldn't hold it back but I had to cum and while I was cummin I squirt out a huge amount of cum. I couldn't even control it it just happened on it's own. While I was squirting he pulled out of me and he started to eat my nice thick white cum and it made me squirt even harder and it was so intense that I kept squirting and I couldn't stop it. There was a huge amount of cum that came out of my pussy and I have never felt as masculine as I did at that very moment. I felt like a real man that was releasing himself to the utmost. I felt so incredibly good afterwards. I felt like I finally stepped into manhood and I finally released all of the tension all away and I never felt so incredibly sexually satisfied in my life as I did at that very moment. I came to realize that I had a lot of built up sexual tension and stress that I was carrying before this happened. I am not stressed out not do I feel any sexual tension either. First time ever feeling like that.