list of my encouragement, since im apparently someone who just wants them dead or whatever they decided on today
tags;
asks: #asks4you
screenshots: #screenshots4you
general posts: #talk4you
do not send hate to evie. i do not support that in any way, shape or form. especially if they are just posting happily and normally. there are better things to criticise them for than their relationship. the best thing any of us can do is ignore her
my asks are always open. if you disagree with me, or think something i said is unfair, tell me. everything i say is my own opinion.
this is not an exhaustive list of everything i find problematic. there are many things that haven't been touched on. feel free to ask!
Yet was there ever an apology for bashing my writing? We're thinking posts taken down? No. No excuses you bashed me for being ooc and not knowing my f/os (when I did. Not my fault the game rewrote their entire characters and I wrote the original versions of them I actually liked. Enstars always does that shit, that's why canon isn't valid because it's constantly rewritten) and I've been too scared to write since.
Also I don't like that you'll screenshot my account when I did nothing wrong, I don't like my url being shown (idc if everyone who interacts knows my url it's a comfort thing for me personally who's trying to move on. You just want to keep me tied to the past forevermore and I can't do anything without worrying you or miaou will come for my throat over the tiniest things. It just isn't fair especially when you're dead silent when I'm being harassed you just want me to be the problem and I'm tired of it) - 💜
ok hello wonderful to see you here again. please read all of this. ok?
firstly, i explained here already that my criticism was of your attitude. and it was not more than one post. please stop making things up. (the rest of this paragraph has been addressed already in that post from december. yes december.)
and drumroll please, here is me encouraging you to write over 120 times! so what are you talking about! don't hallucinate this away please! i have been encouraging you to create whatever you want for the majority of this accounts lifespan! i have stated this many many times! you still ignore it every single time! @writeyourself-intostories also exists too
removed your url from that post, but this ask was directly from your account (i assume by accident) so i have hidden it. 👍
again, over 120 times i have encouraged you to write and create and ignore whatever is holding you back. aaaand once again, my pinned says dont send you anything and don't criticise your relationships. it quite literally always has. i have told you so many fucking times to ignore whatever people are telling you to dissuade you and just create. i dont understand why you make me into this gigantic bogeyman that is orchestrating every anon in your inbox. why the fuck do i have to be responsible for people disliking you.
you're lying about things i have said for the billionth time, dude. if you wonder why i don't like you (HINT: ITS NOT BECAUSE OF YOUR RELATIONSHIPS!), reread your ask. you hurt people. want to know why i've been so completely inactive these past few months? because you haven't been publicly doing that. and i hope to god you aren't doing it privately either.
signed, inhuman bully ❤
P.S. write and draw and create literally anything you want. please post everything from yuumay or whatever the name was. ignore people criticising you for bullshit reasons because you do know theyre being ridiculous. i may have my petty moments but there is literally nothing wrong with having fun. ❤
here is a fresh, updated post of every single time i have encouraged our friend to write or post whatever they want to
do not send hate. talk about whatever you want. write whatever you want. (this includes old stories new stories screen translated stories mdu stories) etc.
previous version of this post is here
one, "i'm not criticising your relationship. you're free to date and post whoever and whatever you want. i'm criticising the way you're spreading information that is proveably false about stories you haven't read.", "you're completely allowed to disregard canon and create your own."
two, "not only is it provably false by not just my own blog, but hundreds and THOUSANDS of posts from others that talk extensively about past events outside the ‘deadline’ or ‘trend’"
three, "i love when you post about your relationship. i would never have an issue with that. my issue is when hateful or incorrect things are spread"
four, "anyone harassing This Person does so by their own disgusting volition. sending anon hate is fucking atrocious and should not be done in any circumstances.", "i really want to believe that they can change, genuinely."
five, "i want them to have a fresh start just as much as they do."
six, in the post about the doc and multiple times in the doc itself (that you never read because you refuse to reflect on your actions) gonna quote myself "the people involved just want to move on so do not send them anything. you are a bad person if you do that and that is NOT what this is for." aaand "i really hope that this person's fresh start stays without drama,"
seven, "it really is just sad that they kept themselves from something that would have made them happy… learning to treat people nicely without the looming shadow of negative history is something suuper important for them i think it could really help with the. Everything" pretty fucking supportive
here you can see i was done posting and only reappeared when you started spreading shit, this is literally what i always do.
eight, "i miss the quiet can they go back to being happy and joyful posting. i miss it"
nine, "like girl we dont care if you use prompts pleaaase go back to being happy joyous posting."
ten, when you came into my inbox accusing me of the same shit you are now
eleven, when you again put words in my mouth
twelve, "i was happy when you were just posting happily lmao after i finished my doc i ditched this account bar asks because you were being normal for once."
thirteen, "idgaf if you post enstars. i WANT you to. idgaf if you post old content or your art or fics or just reblog stuff i dont CARE." and "ON BEHALF OF THE ENTIRE ENSTARS FANDOM. I, TUMBLR USER TRAP4YOU, GIVE USER GARDENOFECLIPSE FULL PERMISSION TO POST WHATEVER THEY WANT TO TO DO WITH ENSTARS."
fourteen, when you accused me of the same shit again, "i have never complained about [you pretending nothing happened]. thanks 👍"
fifteen, a simple "YAY" when things finally returned to normal
sixteen, "its ok after a long battle happiness and peace and love have emerged victorious ❣️ and i cant believe anons are actually off ive never seen this happen…… so happy"
seventeen, "we r all safe. smile and rejoice here’s hoping to longer than 8 days of peace this time. pleaaase just be happy and post 🙏"
eighteen, "unfortunately it was 4 days only this time. sad but here we are. record is still at 8"
nineteen, "its just a bit sad how convinced they are about the ‘fandom rules’, literally nothing convinces them"
twenty, "i love happiness and silence life is so good everyone take their meds and drink some water"
twenty one, "work on your prompt week stuff"
twenty two, "i try to shut up when theyre being normal and not complaining so they dont whine that im causing negativity or whatever. lol"
twenty three, "dont kill yourself. 👍", "shouldnt need to say dont kys or sh. just dont do that shit", "i like how now this account is apparently ‘dedicated to pushing [them] to suicide’ yeah sure thats why i dont post when theyre being positive. and thats why i never shit on their relationships existence. or like a billion other things. god forbid people have criticisms of public posts 😭"
twenty four, "sending anon hate is stupid disgusting atrocious etc. especially baiting someone to hurt themselves."
twenty five, "how many times do i have to say dont hurt yourself and anon hate is bad before they stop demonising me do you think. maybe 10 more times? then again, 12 wasnt enough for them"
twenty six, "if anyones planning to be an asshole about eclipse week just dont man. leave it alone. it doesnt just affect ec if someones a dickhead about it, this person clearly put effort in so just criticise something else 😭 idk why people would listen to me if theyre at that point but i hope no one does anything. this post wont be acknowledged by them as always because im the supervillain and scum of the earth etc but just dont be an asshole"
twenty seven, "and now its back to the ‘im not doing discourse’ which my bet is probably gonna last a week? im gonna get off this account until it starts up again like i usually do im jst answering asks first LMAO (i will be pleasantly surprised if it does last longer. surprise me ec im begging you)"
twenty eight, "ok im logging off now. surprise me ec lets go over 8 days without any discourse. new world record would be awesome. ill be so happy. eclipse week soon :) (as i said before dont be an asshole about it)"
twenty nine, "hey ec notice how i stopped posting when you weren't being negative. where's day 5 btw this posting sucks go back to ec week"
thirty, "the rules arent real and never have been <- verified by true enstars patriots"
thirty one, "deadline and ban does not exist."
thirty two, "please do something else i'm begging you"
thirty three, "FANDOM RULES DO NOT EXIST. I HAVE BROKEN THEM A GAZILLION TIMES. GOOD LORD.", "people write and create things constantly that don't align with your view of 'fandom rules' (that don't exist, by the way).", "do you not get tired of waking up and choosing to impose fake rules on yourself every single day?"
thirty four, "i cant count the number of times people have given them ‘permission’ atp. i think there have been countless more posts and asks questioning and refuting their rules than anything has ever been enforced ever (which it hasnt). if all these rules are real why do my friends who’ve been here for over 5 years not know or follow them. why do none of my friends even know what it is. like the logic is so nonsense"
thirty five, "contrary to all that, all ive ever said is that i just want ec to be happy and post positively. every single time, like clockwork, they find something to be upset about and we end up in this cycle where they lash out at everyone and spread negativity. i do not use this account most of the time. i wish it stayed that way"
thirty six, "lasted a day but i do agree its a lot better than the usual cycle… i hope this can stay as the new pattern ❣️ lets all heal"
thirty seven, "well we can have hope… hope and pray"
thirty eight, "the amt of canon they change by existing is already heaps whats some more rules."
thirty nine, "eclipse. i do not have any problems with your relationship. i dont post here when youre posting nice happy things. when you start spreading harmful misinfo or lash out at people is when i have problems. so please stop doing that so we can all be happy. world peace", "+ editing to add ffs i dont want you to stop posting altogether or deactivate. i just want there to be some positive changes"
FORTY, "or actually realise im only here when smth goes down (unlikely. they always forget that ive always maintained that being cruel abt their relationship and idfk. gender. is weird. they looove making me a villain tho)"
forty one, "in any case. WE DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP! IT IS NOT A BIG DEAL TO US! I DO NOT CAREEEE I DON'T CARE!", "no one here has EVER said you can't post. we have all ENCOURAGED you to post positively. we are only on here when you aren't. write yourself into the story. im begging you. i'm serious. stop making excuses and just do it. you even have a mailbox now. anyone saying anything negative about you will be out here publicly and if you show me someone telling you you can't write yourself into anything then i will criticise that."
forty two, "add yourself to the story. add yourself to the story. break every single canon. i dont care. who the fuck is 'y'all'. make a billion changes. i actually ENCOURAGED and said some changes you should make. hey. hey add yourself to the story. you know what i think you should do. add yourself to the story. hey ec. add yourse"
FORTY THREE, when i had enough of you saying THE SAME SHIT YOURE SAYING NOW "ADD YOURSELF TO THE STORY. ADD YOURSELF TO THE STORY. ADD YOURSELF TO THE STORY. ADD YOURSELF TO THE STORY. CHANGE THE CANON DO WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK HAPPYELE AND FUCK THEIR CANON DO LITERALLY ANYTHING YOU WANT. MAKE ESQUARE ON THE MOON. MAKE NICEP DISAPPEAR. TURN YUZURU INTO A MERMAID. MAKE IZUMI THE COLOUR PURPLE. I DONT GIVE A FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
forty four, "they will ignore me saying 'add yourself to the story' 500 times and decide i love happyelements because. uh. well. jurys still out on that logic please post ec. please post about old stories please post analysis posts please post edits please talk about old stories please write please please please im begging youuuuuuu im begging you. im begging you. please. please for the love of god do it. i want to see your posts. i want you to be happy. i dont want you to be stuck in this rut. please."
forty five, HUGE ONE ! "once again. put yourself in stories. read old stories. put yourself in them. post about old stories. post anything you want. do anything you want. just stop being so fucking negative all the time.", "i do not hate it when canon is changed. mermaid yuzuru, ensquare on the moon and purple izumi is canon to me now. i have made MANY. MANY. MANY. MANY . SO MANY posts about how much i just want you to be positive. but you can't read? i guess?", "i'm not the person who deadnamed you. i am not anyone who shit talks your relationship. i am not the person who has tried to make you hurt yourself twice now. i condemn this shit wholly and fully. my pinned STILL says don't send you anons. you are so fucking greedy. do you want me to kiss your feet and praise every single thing you do? i want you to be happy. i want that more than anything. and you're going to come in here and say bla bla bla then let me post GIRL I WANT YOU TO POST! i dont know how many times i have to say that! i don't want you dead i don't want you run off the internet i don't want you deactivated i just want you to write and post your boyfies and do what makes you happy!!!! i wish my 'bullies' just wanted me to be happy. that would rock"
forty six, "girl add yourself to whatever i don't fucking care"
forty seven, "i even highlighted when i said 'write yourself into the story' in orange so you'd see it. but you're still in here eating my cookies acting like i haven't said that since this blog was born"
forty eight, "go write yourself into stories. change megasphere into something unrecogniseable. ensquare is on the fucking moon for me btw. izumi purple yuzuru a mermaid. stop spending your time here when you could be doing the thing that will make you able to cope. jesus", "#do they need me to hold my hand as i repeat for the 500th time that i want them to write themselves into stories"
forty nine, "(DO IT BY THE WAY. ADD YOURSELF TO STORIES. CHANGE CANON.)",
fifty, "NORMALPOSTING IS BACK!!!!!!!!!! PEACE AND LOVE ON PLANET EARTH"
fifty one, "i miss normalposting"
fifty two, "how many times does everyone have to tell them that they can write themselves into literally any story they want before they listen its just an excuse. it really is. nothing is stopping you. nothing but yourself."
fifty three, "i dont give a fuck about your made up rules. add yourself to stories. and youre lying about me. neither me nor miaou were active at all when you were posting normally. i never am. and yet youre convinced i have some kind of problem with it. r u srs"
fifty four, "eclipse add yourself to all your favourite stories. please do it. good lord nothing is stopping you.", "please do it. i dont care what story it is. make it lullaby make it the collab make it absolute make it megasphere change everything shape the world how you want.", "#if youre supposedly 10x more creative than happyelements please show that#genuinely. just do it"
fifty five, "PLEASE POST ABOUT THE LOOKBACK"
fifty six, "hey eclipse. write yourself into the lookback. change your entire lore if you want. erase subahokke. do whatever you want"
fifty seven, "eclipse ive told u 5053859478239 times to write yourself into stuff but you never do..."
fifty eight, "if subaru and hokuto are in a story why cant you be eclipse. like. and you could be dropping off the others at yumenosaki for nagisa ts1... u could walk mary with ibara and nagisa in ibaras ts1.... u could be helping w the veggies or wtv happens in hiyori ts i forgor..... like there's no creativity here................ u can do literally anything u want........ like a wise man once said... there's nothing holding you back..."
fifty nine, "sighhh i wish eclipse would post positively about their boyfriends…… but i guess theyre too busy fighting invisible people…. siiiiiggghhhh"
sixty, "#obviously i dont fucking condone sending hate i always say this its pinned etc"
now for the new stuff :)
sixty one, "eclipse. you need to learn that nobody will hold your hand online. you have to represent yourself. yes, this means that sometimes things won't get as much love as you want. that is just something that everyone has to deal with. it is nerve-wracking to post things online. it is like that for everyone. especially posting art or fics that you worked hard on. that anxiety will never go away. that is something you have to deal with."
sixty two, "i love seeing and reading about your relationship. i wish that happened more often."
sixty three, "this will be your excuse as to why you wont create any content. honestly im STILL baffled you managed to complete eclipse week (not without upsetting and making the host cry might i add!) just take the opportunity."
sixty four, "please just post about your boyfriends and your relationship."
sixty five, "all any of us want is for you to stop all this shit and post normally."
sixty six, "i'll say it again. just be normal. just post normally."
sixty seven, "i've told you over 60 times to just post normally and i won't have a bad thing to say. all anyone wants is for you to stop with all this shit"
sixty eight, "can we give this shit up already and go back to normal posting i swear literally no one enjoys this."
sixty nine (heh), "im so sick of this please just be fucking normal" "#and no saying this doesnt support hate or threats dont be fucking stupid"
seventy, "i dont want eclipse dead. ive never wanted eclipse dead. its literally in my pinned. how obtuse can you be to believe that all criticism = harassment that wants you dead."
seventy one, "number 836475 of me ditching this account because theyre normalposting. see how easy that is. like i said 70 times dont send them hate etc. im just fucking glad it finally happened. soooooo tiring man"
seventy two, "change canon destroy happyelements for the hundredth time"
seventy three, "
write yourself into whatever you fucking want"
seventy four, "#write yourself into stories. youre making every excuse under the sun"
seventy five, "theres nothing wrong with you adding yourself to stories! just like people have been saying for years!"
seventy six, "FANDOM RULES DO NOT EXIST. I HAVE BROKEN THEM A GAZILLION TIMES. GOOD LORD."
seventy seven, "hmm ok lets check the enstars tag ohh ok...... yup...... no fan content or cringe fandom things or talking about new content...... yuppppp"
seventy eight, "write yourself into stories. oh my god this literally is not about you. write yourself into whatever you want. change canon. for the billionth time. nothing is stopping you but yourself. youre so selfish. just do whatever you want. you will always be criticised because youre you. get the fuck over it."
seventy nine, "#they can never provide any evidence for people ‘not letting them’#because its just themselves#holy fucking shit like how ignorant can you be. no one fucking cares about your stupid fandom rules"
eighty, "us, a billion times: write yourself into stories ec, somehow: you guys want me to hurt myself #go fucking talk about eden youre actually impossible."
eighty one, "no one cares about your false narrative. you are the one choosing to make yourself miserable. write yourself into stories. write yourself into stories. write yourself int [cont'd]"
eighty two, "add yourself to stories."
eighty three, "atp ill just start responding to every single post until they write themselves into stories" "is people telling you to add yourself to stories too much for you? and no content gatekeeping is happening or has happened. you keep trying to insist people are saying things that they are saying the opposite of like 500 times over. it's completely detached from reality" "add yourself to stories" "add yourself to stories. if supposedly you and your boyfriends want you to be in stories. why are you not adding yourself to stories yet. hey eclipse? add yourself to stories. add yourself to stories. add yourself to stories. add yourself to stories. add yourse [cont'd]"
eighty four, "write yourself into stories. write yourself into stories. write yourself into stories."
(here is when i changed my layout to add the text 'write yourself into stories' in my header, profile picture and bio. ill count that as one)
eighty six, "me and miaou wouldn't be here if you were just adding yourself to stories! as we've said a billion times!" "never told anyone to die or hurt themselves, nor do i support it. in fact, you cannot provide any evidence of me ever saying that. do you enjoy talking out of your ass? my pinned is right there, and always has been. disavowing hate." "add yourself to stories. add yourself to stories. add yourself to stories. add yourself to stories. add yours [cont'd]"
eighty seven, "sigh……. really wish eclipse would add themselves to stories* *old stories, new stories, big stories, small stories, bad stories, good stories, red stories, blue stories, green stories, purple stor" "#dont deactivate bro just write yourself into things!#*old things included!"
eighty eight, "i wish eclipse would just take part in the october event and write themselves into stories siiiighhhh siiigh"
eighty nine, "#GOODBYE EVERYONE MAY THIS HAPPINESS LAST FOREVER ETC"
ninety, "congrats on creating some google docs! i hope it helps you to cope without hurting others!"
ninety one, "i’d love if it was just happy joy forever but something tells me it won’t last long. based on their history … what happened to getting help offline sigh"
ninety two, "awesome! keep doing that! when its reflected consistently in the way you conduct yourself online maybe then ill be happy!"
ninety three, "may the leaf stay turned and not regress back to what it always does (this is a plea for things to stay positive, eclipse)"
ninety four, "all this and they still havent added themselves to stories."
ninety five, "#when i say i want them to be happy i mean it not just for them. but the sake of everyone in these spaces#and the people close to them too"
ninety six, explaining the context
ninety seven, "might be the attempt at disappearing until 2026 if so good for them #hope it lasts more than two weeks lets see"
ninety eight, "YOU DONT TAKE THE CHANCE TO [talk about eden]! YOU COULD RIGHT NOW DO IT BUT YOU REFUSE TO. LIKE ?!;?;$;?;"
ninety nine, pinned check :)
one hundred!
one hundred and one, "i literally do not gaf about your gushing posts i just hate when you infantilise fully grown adults. ok?"
one hundred and two, "and its always in both our pinned not to send you shit."
one hundred and three, "i actually Have sent you nice asks About Your New Relationship."
one hundred and four, "are you not tired of insisting i hate you being positive when its provably not true. and saying i dont disavow hate when that has been untrue since i was born. and that i care about fucking shu itsuki ??????? and now that i hate mdu ?????"
one hundred and five, "youre fucking exhausting. no we dont want you to kill yourself or whatever the fuck youre implying. i want you to take accountability for the things you do 😁 and stop hurting people 😁 ok? 👍"
one hundred and six, VIDEO OF ME SENDING AN ANON ASKING ABOUT THEIR NEW RELATIONSHIP.
one hundred and seven, support follow up
one hundred and eight, "stop all this bullshit and just go back to gushing"
one hundred and nine, "I DON'T WANT YOU DEAD FOR THE 500TH TIME <3" "so can you show me that? i wish you would change. please change. please for the love of god change" "please change? can you please change? pleeeaaase it would make me soooo sooo happy. and you want to make me happy don't you? 🥺" "PLEASE go into a cocoon and come out a beautiful butterfly 🦋" "yeah you should move on. wish you would. that'd be awesome if you moved on and changed."
one hundred and ten, "i dont want you dead 'YES YOU DO' no i dont 'YES YOU DO' do you see how fucking exhausting this is. don't kill yourself 🙄 i have advocated for you to stop posting negatively since this account was born so who knows how you got That from all this" "#should i start suibaiting in my posts too#has it ever worked#guys im gonna kms if rmjrec doesn't start posting positively and take criticism normally"
one hundred and eleven, "may the positive posting last forever or whatever i said the last 4 times. PLEASE CHANGE! see u all hopefully never !"
one hundred and twelve, "WRITE MDU. DONT FUCKING LISTEN TO TWITTER."
one hundred and thirteen, "god damn i wish she would change already. like im fucking waiting. its only getting worse"
one hundred and fourteen, "just fucking write mdu. i dont know how many times people have to tell you to stop fucking scrolling twitter and think for yourself for once."
one hundred and fifteen, WAH WAH WAH JUST WRITE
one hundred and sixteen, "you are the one deciding your fics are inferior. im not going to sit here and coddle you because of your low self worth. no one fucking said that. you are the one saying that. jesus christ"
one hundred and seventeen, "IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE A GRASP OF THEM JUST DO IT. OR EVEN IF YOU DON'T. WRITING IS A FREE MEDIUM NO ONE IS FUCKING CHECKING WORDS AT THE DOOR."
one hundred and eighteen, "idk man i think you should listen to @writeyourself-intostories on this one instead of being a miserable sack of shit"
one hundred and nineteen, "wtf is she so mad about girl we tell you to write every single day. not our fault you don't listen 😭" "like sincerely you can do Whatever you want. why do you think there are these people who are in charge of supposed fandom rules. no one fucking cares."
one hundred and twenty, "write mdu. talk about mdu. no one cares"
one hundred and twenty one, "write mdu ❤"
one hundred and twenty two, "#no this doesnt only apply to eden you fucking dumbass#just making things up to use as excuses#applies to mdu as well. and ‘non canon’ as well. and ‘dark topics’ as well. jesus"
and now here we are. across ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY TWO POSTS i have supported you posting and writing and told you the rules arent real (encouraging you to ignore your preconceptions and just do what you want).
and no, these opinions of mine haven't changed just because your boyfies have.
no matter what relationship you're in. i still think that writing anything you want to is better than spamming negativity.
proof they 1. think every anon ever is me (?????) and 2. they still dont understand that my post (which i have already explained) was criticising their attitude.
and still ignore my hundreds (yes hundreds) of posts encouraging them to write 😊
its so peaceful but i fear that just means lots is going on in private. ofc i hope that everything is going well and happy but with the track record.. still lets hope.
This person is clearly mentally ill and struggling just leave them alone. Nobody cares about the them and they're clearly trying to do better.
i may have acted on impulse and used harsh wording but this is a situation where real people are being hurt. i hope, once again, that this ‘wake up call’ works. you cannot just claim to be trying to do better and then do the same thing for years on end and expect no one to notice. thats ridiculous
You know what, I don't need permission. Starting right this very second, I vow to never do anything bad ever again. No more ai, no more drama, no more negativity, nothing.
I want to do better. I want to leave this version of me that's negative and hurts people in the past. I want to be a new me that doesn't hurt others and isn't negative and doesn't do bad things. I want to work hard and do that.
