Evil Cult Priest Era

I'm Prince and this is my blog. Art will be posted, some with be NSFW, 18+ from this point on. I HAVE RP SIDEBLOGS PLEASE DON'T BLOCK ME

[waterypiss]

[trashprinceward]

People are still following me here. I need you to go to @purified-prince and follow me there instead. I still post art and stuff, please come follow.

[trashprinceward]

People are still following me here. I need you to go to @purified-prince and follow me there instead. I still post art and stuff, please come follow.

[trashprinceward]

Anyways, thanks for the kind words of support.

[thunderremix8]

I recently reblogged a post about how Mr. Beast purposefully subdues his personality to appeal to the broadest range of people, and I think that might have some similarities here

Like you're a guy with anger, fear and other emotions, you have the right to to be mean spirited on your blog. At the same time, others have the right to not want any of that. If it came down to sanding yourself down to appeal to the broadest audience, or being a real person who might be abrasive to others, I'd say be yourself

[trashprinceward]

One thing that stuck with me is...

If I say, on my own blog, that I'm going to continue drawing and shipping old men however I want is "hurtful and attacking", but someone outright saying "stop shipping John with old men" in the first place is "nervous and smol uwu".

Oh, me saying that I wish Johncia was more popular is demanding and selfish. Me criticising garyjohn out of love and hoping better for it is mean. But that person who directly said we were problematic for old man shipping was just an innocent bab we have to protect.

I try to be approachable, I already file down my teeth because I know I can be intimidating. And I try to be as friendly as I can. But why should I have to completely choke my opinions on my own blog.

If anyone has to leave my blog unfollow me and block me, then fine. By all means, protect your own piece of mind. But to then come back and tell me how much I suck after you've already left?

idk, whatever.

[trashprinceward]

I didn't mean to send ALL of that text. But I just think I couldn't stop once I started and it's not out of hate or anger. I really, really hope you won't take all of this as an attack, because it isn't. I'm just sad. I'm not spitting hate I'm trying to put my heart in this and I'm so terrified you'll get angry. I feel like walking on eggshells but this is probably the last thing I can think of because don't you think I miss you? Following you without being afraid? I do. I had to block you, because you tag in the fandom and write things that hurt. The last straw was the way you wrote you hurt yourself trying t draw if I have to be honest. At first I only left, then I had to find a way to protect myself. And yet sometimes I unlock to return and I realize blocking was the right choice. Sometimes you don't say anything, you are calm. And sometimes out of the blue you jab again. And I'm doing this anonymously because like I said I'm scared. I'm afraid you'll take this as a personal attack when I'm just sad. I'm sad because I followed you. And I wish I could turn back without getting hurt every time. I'm being as honest as I can. I don't know what you can do about people who blocked you. New people will arrive. You can start over again, with them turn a new leaf. But I can't say more than, just try to control this anger you feel. Try not to attack innocents, try to not blame or judge others. Do what you want others to do to you. You want fanart? Maybe make fanart of AUs too. Link Fan fictions to support artists since AO3 has no reblog option. But until you will continue this way you've been going down, I can't stay. Vents can happen. But you blame others and even when you blame yourself you don't seem to truly see what you do. I was very honest so far, I don't want to attack, I only wish I could stay. But I must protect myself.

How can you miss who you barely even spoke to?

[trashprinceward]

Lack of interaction bothers everyone, you're not saying things that don't make sense. It hurts and it's relatable. Problem is that the more you complain about people not interacting, the faster they'll leave. For example, its not true you never had fanart of your AUs. I remember when you got both text and art for it. You still do sometimes. Less than I could say about me myself, you know? Or many others in this community. You're lucky because you are one of the few people who can say this happened to them. Everyone wants it. You had it and yet you complain it's not enough. It's normal that people who did, might not feel appreciated by you anymore. Because you don't seem to remember it. Sometimes you make comments about how weird it is that people don't like the way you draw Faith characters, but at the same time you jab at those who draw John or Garcia looking too slim for your standards. Or too young. Once a person got nervous, tagging the fandom and telling them to stop drawing John in ships with old men. You didn't like to read that, rightfully like many others. Because people draw what they like. And yet you tag in the fandom and say things like "finally people stop drawing him as a twink! He's not one!" as if you are the only right one here. Maybe they also use their bodies as reference. You're angry and you don't realize you hurt people with what you say. You also talk about how you want your ship to be liked more but people like what they want. Insisting won't change anything. You act like you're the only unlucky one with nobody posting John and Garcia. If people don't like it, you can't make them like it. Which isn't even true, since there are many fan fictions out there on AO3. How many did you link on your page, saying "hey, fellow followers, go read this one!" to give them a hand? How many fan art did you draw for those people who like a ship you say to be less famous? There are people out there that I've seen liking ships I don't even care about who support each other. Such small ships that are even hard to consider. They don't attack, they don't insist. Criticizing Garyjohn and having people leave happened because not many like to have something they like criticized, people get touchy. But it also depends on how you write it. For example I don't care about Garyjohn. I don't even like it, I just shrug and ignore exactly as I shrug an ignore Johncia, because yes. I don't like it. Yet I followed you. Neither are ships I like but that infamous thing that happened some days ago on AO3 made me very angry too. You never did something like that. But you won't decide how sensitive a person is to things they like. About the pillows, it was an investment you decided to do by yourself. I don't know how many people wanted it, how many didn't see it. But it's not always other's fault if your art doesn't get reblogged, if you didn't reach enough people. I don't know how marketing works. I don't know how you guess how many people might be interested or not. This time it went poorly, and it hurts. But it's not our fault. And, we never wanted you to get hurt from drawing too much. Yet you had to almost make us all feel guilty because of that. Because you got hurt. I didn't want you to get hurt. I never told you to work faster and harder.

Happy ides of March everyone!

[trashprinceward]

You ask why people don’t follow you. I speak for myself: I followed you once, but with time you became passive aggressive. You sound like the way you portray Faith characters is the only right one. You look at ask blog and judge saying “he wouldn’t do it”. And when people don’t like your art you even said you hurt your hands drawing so the least we could do was to reblog your things. I felt blamed. I felt uncomfortable. I felt judged. That’s why. It has nothing to do with what you draw. Or how.

Ok, that's fair. But it comes from a place of jealousy. Not that it makes it right, but just that it came from hurt without thinking.

A whole lot of ask blogs came from nowhere and got lots of people swarming it with questions. My John blog was dead apart from the attentions of maybe 3 people. It hurt.

New people joined the fandom and started posting art that gets lots of attention and lots of reblogs. I get barely a handful. It hurts.

I did put a lot of time and effort and money into making actual physical merch, and people wouldn't even share the promos. I had people come and say they would have bought some after the pre-orders closed because they never saw it. If it was shared more maybe they would have. It hurts.

People make AUs and post about headcanons and then get people send them asks and get involved and send fanart and even make RP blogs for other people's AUs. A level of care and interest I could never get. It hurts.

I criticised garyjohn once, maybe twice. A ship I actually like and make content for. But that was enough for a whole bunch of people to block me, just because I want other ships to get more rep too. It hurts.

It makes me feel worthless and ignored and useless and like I should just give up and not bother. Like I'll never make it. After 20 years of drifting from website to website, fandom to fandom, I'll never be anything. I can't sell commissions, I can't get trades, heck most people wont even send me requests. It hurts.

And no, none of that is an excuse for being a dick. But when you're lonely, isolated, with nobody to talk to and nobody wants to interact with you, when you have no support and only have your own company and your own thoughts, becoming more poisoned with negativity over time, it's hard not to spiral.

I'm sorry if it upset you. It upsets me too, but I have to live with it.

[trashprinceward]

Aww shit it's pie day, can we get John eating a pie or someone eating John's pie?

He hungy.

As for the second part, well...

[r0seart]

Man’s the equivalent of a nervous dog but still gets all the bitches…

My first fanart in the FAITH: the unholy trinity fandom!!!! Everyone except John was literal hell to draw and I’m assuming these designs will change over time. Better be no ship wars or ship shaming in the comments, I just find it funny that this wet noodle of a person manages to magnetize some certified hotties.

[tarknassus]

angel john having a little angry cry by a stream...

[trashprinceward]

ooo Airdorf commented on your art again! Take that people with bad taste!

Airdorf rarely comments on the art he reblogs, so when he does, I consider it an honour.

[trashprinceward]

Sketch of the day.

Snuggle time.

[trashprinceward]

I was here before you. I will be here long after you. And yet none of you even know I was ever here at all.

[trashprinceward]

Just to let you guys know, you are still allowed to reblog my art. I haven't slapped all this protection on it for nothing, you know.

[trashprinceward]

If anyone wants to throw any more ideas at me for the couple sketches, that would be super!

[trashprinceward]

So back in 2019, in the early part of my campaign, there was an unresolved storyline that the party never followed. It was to do with abberations and eldritch creatures. They encountered a number of 'humanoid larval creatures' that they were unable to identify, and never followed up on. This was originally intended to become a sort of side-story campaign called "Mask of the Betrayer".

This campaign was to primarily follow Harken's journey, and would tell more of Dichys' story. Who he was and where he came from, and helping to heal his condition. The story was that the god Mask, god of deception, had in fact been killed and replaced by an obryth (a sort of proto demon), and the only ones who knew about it was the cult of Demogorgon.

This character here, Theta, was the secondary villain. He worked on the side of "Mask" and represented one half of the influences of Dichys, with the other half being Demogorgon.

Anyway, because this campaign never happened, I never really got to flesh a lot of these characters out. But now I am somewhat tweaking Theta by adopting another character to make him more whole.

He's mine, he belongs to me now.

[trashprinceward]

I swear, Tumblr only knows two types of gay men and they still get them both wrong.

[trashprinceward]

John spooning Garcia. Arm wrapped around his waist, hand tucked underneath his tum. ❤️