IT SHOULD BE A SIMPLE TASK, repairing a friendship with such a longevity that’s rarely achieved, but that would mean knowing how to do so, and despite the image of perfection that he has managed to sell, that’s one area rom will always lack in. ( among others, many of which are applicable here as well. ) guilt weighs down on him every time they see one another, a reminder of his cowardice and how easily he succumbs to pressure from those who now rarely offer him so much as a text on evenings like this. he likes to think that he’s changed, but in a way, his interactions with violet thus far prove that he has a long way to go. instead of facing the root of their falling out, he opted to ask her to this instead, a metaphorical band - aid that barely covers a third of the wound’s surface. maybe if they go on like this, everything that he did wrong will become undone, and his method of avoiding will once again prove itself as a perfectly viable way of approaching things. he’s running his fingers over the necklace that sits neatly on his collarbone, toying with it out of habit. when violet breaks the brief moment of silence between them, his hand drops to his side, eventually being shoved in the pocket of his pants. “ lots of steroids, yeah, ” rom mutters in response. he leans in in a similar manner, gaze still set on the scene in front of them, a solid attempt at being discreet. her added comment makes him grin, stifling a laugh that makes itself known as a short - lived exhale. a pause follows then, as though he’s carefully considering her question, hesitating. “ i hope he is, for my sake… ” he sucks in air through his teeth, a performance of his own. “ i can’t have you going home thinking i’m not cool. ” then comes another warm smile, eyes glancing over at her and settling onto her features. “ what do we think so far? try not to make me too sad, ” he adds playfully, words as light as always.
things might be easier if violet was the type of person to be open about the way she felt. truthfully , communication could have saved her from at least half the heartbreak with rom and the unraveling of what she’d previously considered to be their life long friendship. at first suppressing her emotions was a survival tactic , something she’d learned was necessary when family drama became news headlines , when she couldn’t go a day without her last name earning her dirty looks and backhanded comments. keeping things inside meant no one having access to the vulnerable parts of herself , because no upper east side vulture deserved to see the scared teenage girl who’d lost more than just status and money , but a father and mother too. when rom had first started to pull away and keep his distance , she should have said something. anything. but she was marked , haunted by the idea that people are never as permanent as you think , because if she could lose her family then what was stopping the universe from taking a friend ? it was easier to let him slip away without any action on her end. she could convince herself that it was destined , that the rift was bound to happen without the added misery of having her confess some personal thing like how she really felt about him , or how much she needed him then , and losing him anyway.
when they were reunited again in toronto , violet knew it would have been an apt opportunity to finally unpack all the hurt , all the resentment , the regret she’d harbored over the years. and she likes to think she eventually would have brought it all up before she accidentally rang his love alarm , but really that’s all a big excuse. the truth was simple ––––– honesty terrifies her , a statement made all the more complicated by the fact that the grin rom gives her makes violet want to abandon all pretenses. what did she think ? she turns his question over in her head. that she was happy to be there. not because of the exclusivity of the event , or because she might see a celebrity up close , but because she got to spend the entire night trying to get him to keep looking at her the way he was then. “ hmm , ” she hums , looking away from him as if to survey her surroundings. “ there’s a pleasant lack of old ladies on the historical society at this party , so that’s a nice change. and maybe if you get me a fancy glass of something that’s not champagne i’d be willing to admit badge club isn’t that bad. ” violet turns her gaze back towards him , dark eyes sparkling with the amusement she tries her best to keep from making her smile , although she can’t quite stop the curve of her painted lips as she teases him. “ i don’t know how to break this to you , i mean seriously this is kind of awkward , ” violet trails on , a deep breath following her words as she gears up for her big confession. “ i already go home everyday and think you’re not cool. that’s actually exactly what i think about before i go to sleep , just a little confidence boost thing for me you know ? like wow thank god i’m not that guy. ”
his laugh is stifled upon violet’s explosive reaction, her hand tightly pressed against his mouth preventing him to say anything else. he’s surprised her hand could reach up so far in the first place. there’s no notion of protest as he allows her to pull him to whatever vacant area so she can do her usual round of empty threats targeted at him. “i’ll kill you right here.” he mocks in a childish tone. “no one asked you to catch feelings.” he rolls his eyes, leaning against the wall. “what are you, ten?” he scoffs. “running around the playground scared your crush isn’t going to like you back?” he feels as if his condescending tone toward her is warranted. violet had been deliberately ignoring him for the past few weeks and it hasn’t sat well with him. her lack of communication and constant lashes of frustration at him were becoming exhausting.
she’s dumbfounded at the words that keep coming out of his mouth , too busy being offended to stop and think if maybe some of the comments were warranted. “ oh i’m ten ? ” violet mimics , her tone accusatory as crosses her arms over her chest. “ you’re the one who keeps bring that stupid day up. ” she’d been so riled up when she’d dragged nathan into the corner , like she’d been gearing up for a full on fight , ready to tackle him if it meant silencing him. so maybe she was being just the tiniest bit childish ––––– what did it matter ? he was the one being nosy and mean over something she thought it clearly showed she was embarrassed about. “ and just for your information , ” violet adds after a moment of silence , although he hadn’t asked. “ i don’t have a crush. ” a blatant lie , of course , but she’d rather be forced into mingling with the most vapid members of the badge club for ten hours straight than admit the truth , especially to nathan.
the night had barely even begun , and violet was already sure it would go down in history as one of her dumbest decisions of the year. there was nothing inherently wrong with attending an exclusive love alarm badge club new year’s eve party. there wasn’t even anything wrong with going as someone’s date ––––– unless said date was the one guy in all of toronto she happened to share a long and complicated past with. when rom had invited her , she’d promised herself she wouldn’t overthink it. the word date obviously meant nothing more than companion for the night. they were just old friends trying to remember how to be friends again , really , it didn’t have to be harder than that. but one glimpse at him all dressed up and she could feel the logic exit her brain , like it was oozing out through her ears then evaporating into a little heart shaped cloud above her head. to say she was feeling stupid would be an understatement. violet felt about as savvy as a seven year old , or maybe exactly how she used to feel when they were in high school and he’d laugh at one of her jokes that really weren’t even all that funny.
she’s hyper aware of the little things when she’s with him , like how the backless black dress she’d opted to wear was just a scrap of fabric too long for her tiny frame even in her heels , or how it felt like every other person was staring at her as if to say how are you here with him ? she hated it , how completely ridiculous her thoughts could get. this having feelings bullshit was definitely overrated. focus , vi. there was no point in ruining something before it even started just because she was too in her head to act normal. we’re friends. she could do friends. “ this is like ... private school in manhattan prom on steroids, ” she finally muses, leaning closer like what she was saying was grounds for conspiring. and in a way it was natural, gossiping like this was just another fancy event in a long line of charity galas and cotillions they’d attended together , except this time she didn’t belong to that world anymore. “ so tell me the truth — is harry styles really performing or is that just a lie to make the badge club look way cooler than it is ? ” violet teases , a grin chasing her words.
okay whew the holidays am i right JSBDWJBJDW im still gonna be kinda mia til after new years but ! i really wanna make sure i plot with as many ppl as possible and actually ... get more threads going so pls give this post a LIKE if u see this and i’ll come hit u up / reply to our ims or u can come message me first or u can even hit me up for my discord bc im 100% better and faster at communicating there ngl 🥺
great, another vapid event with primarily badge club members. he puts on a friendly face, using his customer service voice when talking to high execs and other important people. it’s a part of his job description, to slightly suck up to the rich and to the famous. and despite reaching the part of his career where people know him well enough from other events similar to this one, he continues acting as his fake social self for them to continue hiring him. as he’s switching lenses, he spots violet not too far away, noticing her gaze has been intently fixated on a certain someone. he rolls his eyes knowing it is without even looking at the general direction. yeah, they haven’t spoken in a few weeks because violet decided to act out which resulted him being ignored by her for some odd reason, when it actuality it should and would make more sense if it was the other way around. he stands behind her and she doesn’t notice. and after a few seconds he says, “why don’t you go ring his alarm again?” — ( @trueslove· )
she really hated these things ––––– the superficial laughter and meaninglessness conversations , the ridiculously tiny appetizers being offered along with the overpriced champagne , the way she couldn’t go two minutes without hearing some badge club member bring up love alarm. it all reminded violet so much of the countless galas and events her mother used to drag her to growing up except instead of being in a room with a bunch of snobby old rich people , she was surrounded by ridiculously attractive young people instead. despite all the eye candy she really only cared about one person in attendance. in between the polite smiles and thank you’s she offered to the people congratulating her for a job well done , she found herself throwing edward from twilight worthy longing stares across the room. that was , of course , until she was rudely interrupted. she nearly jumps when nathan creeps up behind her , although it’s his words that really get her heart pounding. violet whips her head around checking to see if anyone heard him before she swiftly places her hand over his mouth , literally silencing him. “ — are you crazy ? ” she hisses , attempting to drag him backwards so no one around them notices what’s going on. “ seriously i’ll kill you right here , ” violet states before slowly dropping her hand , dark eyes narrowed as she watches to see if nathan’s going to say anything about that incident again.
✧･ﾟ: * ( park jiwon , cis female , she / her ) have you seen violet hwang around ? i hear the twenty-one year old is working as an art director . did you know they have 97 love alarm points ? if they ever want to be truly loved someday they should ease up on being temperamental & enigmatic . at least you can say they’re disarming & convivial, too. / love alarm blocked
hello ! im xan and ur watching d*sney channel ... just kidding we do NOT support big corporations who just wanna take ur money 😔 im 22 , from the est timezone ( even though my sleeping schedule ... does not reflect that sjbdwjkbdjdw ) & i go by she / her pronouns ! im gonna be honest this intro is gonna be completely winged so buckle up .... and meet violet 😋
━ ˙ ˖ ☆ quick stats + aesthetics !
full name: violet hwang.
nickname(s): vee, vivi.
zodiac: tba....
sexuality: bisexual.
birthplace: manhattan, new york.
current residence: toronto, canada.
aesthetics: maraschino cherries at the bottom of a glass, driving with the windows down at night, unanswered text messages, black nail polish, the sound of rain hitting the windowpane, kissing and not telling, smiles that don’t quite reach the eyes.
━ ˙ ˖ ☆ backstory !
was born and raised in nyc baby ! she’s a true city girl, grew up in lower manhattan ( the financial district if u wanna get specific ) to a family with lots of $$$$ thanks to her father’s position as a ceo of an investment bank located on wall street
life was pretty smooth until she was 17 and her father got arrested for embezzlement and fraud </3 it was actually a huge scandal for the investment bank he worked for because it was a whole group of higher ups who had been in on these crimes. basically a bunch of already rich men trying to get richer ... disgusting ik /:
her life changed pretty drastically after that ! the hwang name was all over the news, their family was pretty much disgraced by high society in nyc, not a very fun time for anyone but especially not for violet’s mom
after her dad got arrested violet was uhh high key furious with him for ruining their lives with his greed and she wanted nothing to do with him, but her mom couldnt let go. she was still defending him, spending the money they had left on lawyers which included the money the family had set aside for violet’s trust fund that she would have had access to once she was 18 </3
so her plans for college changed pretty drastically JSDBJWBDJW ( goodbye ivy league education ) she actually ended up getting into the university of toronto for visual studies on an academic scholarship
so she made the big move all on her own....moved into a tiny dorm...and vowed to reinvent herself. she didnt wanna be labeled as the daughter of a white collar criminal anymore so she just made it a point not to talk to much abt her past to anyone
her struggles as someone who grew up with $$$$ turning into a broke college student made for some embarrassing but funny moments <3 luckily though everyone else had their own struggles so no one found it suspicious JSBDJWBDJ
when love alarm launched three years ago, violet had just started college so it was really the Big thing anyone and everyone was talking about. since she’d never been a fan of other dating apps, she wasn’t gonna download it but her roommate at the time convinced her ! at first it was fun, just something she didnt take too seriously
fast forward to graduation and she’s snagged a job as an art director for a little local museum, doing freelance art directing on the side to help pay the bills. low and behold one day a photographer hires her to be the art director to a shoot they’re doing for a badge club member who was in a very high profile and public relationship at the time
violet ended up working with that photographer and badge club member a handful of times, enough for her to catch fee-🤢 catch feelin-🤢 i cant even say it .. she’d never rung anyone’s love alarm before, so of course her first time had to be with someone who was already taken </3 safe to say she ... freaked out
she was embarrassed above all else, but also heartbroken bc in her head like ... why would someone who literally is part of an exclusive club based on ppl ringing their love alarm care that she rung theirs ? she didnt think it’d be a big deal to them the way it was to her ( but also didn’t stick around long enough to find out jsxbsjbdjw )
when she was offered the block she didn’t hesitate to use it figuring it’s better if no one knows her romantic feelings ever again like that /: she’d delete the app but a part of her still likes knowing there are ppl out there who DO like her like that so ... Rip truly
━ ˙ ˖ ☆ personality + tidbits !
she comes across as ... kind of a bitch SDJBJWBJWBDW it’s truly not on purpose she just has a pretty serious resting expression most of the time ( so she looks mad or annoyed even when she isn’t ) and she’s pretty difficult to get to know ? not to mention the fact that no one has ever witnessed her ring someone’s love alarm .. so all that combined just makes it easy to assume she’s some sort of ice queen when that’s far from the truth /:
violet really isn’t one to open up too deep to people, but that’s got a lot to do with the past she’s kind of running away from ! so if you’re her friend most of the stuff you know about her is probably surface stuff, but when she’s close to someone she can make that fact hard to realize ? she just has a way with making the people in her life feel important so it’s easy not to be focused on how much you know about her
never bothers to correct the people that misjudge her. if you don’t like her, if you want to make up assumptions and rumors about her, go ahead like violet really won’t stop you which can sometimes make meeting new people difficult </3 if you’ve seen the dating class webdrama chuu was in she’s kinda like oh seyoung’s chara joowon 🤧
if she wants to, though, she’s pretty good at getting people to like her / trust her ! she does this a lot in professional situations, which is why she’s been doing so well as an art director so far despite being so young
she’s also very loyal to her friends ! if you can’t ask for extra sauces at mcdonald’s....if you can’t make a phone call to your credit card company explaining that a $3,000 charge to starbucks wasn’t you.....she’s your girl <3 since she’s relatively not bothered by the way people see her ( unless it has to do with her past ) she’s usually the one speaking up if someone she cares about can’t
after the ... incident ... JSDBWJDBWJ she’s really not a fan of the badge club and everything it stands for ): BUT she continues to do art directing work for a lot of the members when they do photoshoots, or instagram campaigns, or if they have a pop up shop, etc. it’s good money and she needs every penny considering she’s living without support from her family
cannot cook to save her life so she’s always eating out .. this really is why she’s taking those more high profile jobs she can’t budget .. but it’s better, safety wise at least, that she continues wasting her money on takeout aha <3
pretends she’s not a romantic and is all about the ~casual flings~ but really she’s just afraid of serious feelings and the idea of a serious relationship ... it’s the trauma 😔 constantly jokes shes gonna bring the tinder whore era back JWDBWJBDJW she is sick of this true love nonsense ! ( the irony of this url ahaha... )
she’s the most social after a few drinks, since drunk her isn’t burdened by a mind that overthinks literally everything the way she is sober. if you don’t supervise her though she can get pretty carried away and probably get into some kind of trouble so she’s definitely not the person you want to be in charge on a night out !
really wants a dog but doesn’t think she’s cut out to be a pet parent it feels just as scary as the idea of having an actual kid so ... BDWBDJW if you have a pet ? she’s gonna be living vicariously through you <3
━ ˙ ˖ ☆ wanted connections !
the photographer that hired her / introduced her to the badge club member she ended up having feelings for
the badge club remember she had / has feelings for because we love suffering 😈
old roommates from college !! maybe even the one that got her to download love alarm in the first place hehehe
also a current roommate / roommates because your girl can’t afford to live on her own <3
someone she’s confided in about her past ( maybe they judged her for it and had a falling out, or maybe they remain confidants )
an ex bf or gf she dated while she was in school ! she never rang their love alarm ( even though this was pre block ) so maybe that’s why things ended between them. or maybe they never rang each others and it was just a mutual thing where they both didn’t really have feelings for each other and tried to date anyway and it didn’t work. or perhaps they dated and when violet realized she was starting to have those feelings she dipped before she ever got a chance to ring their love alarm bc she didn’t want to be exposed like that and commitment is scary ):
spare best friend ? i’d use a knife emoji to show you how serious i am but i dont wanna scare anyone away aha .. i would just love a best friend plot 🥺
current flings / hookups or past flings / hookups ! i imagine most of them to not be serious but it would be kinda cool if there was someone she’s seeing now that she’s got the love alarm block that she’s actually falling for considering she’s never gonna be able to ring their love alarm hehehehe
people she art directs for !! i imagine she’s got a pretty long list of employers ( from badge club members to regular folk 🤧 ) so it would be cool to have people who hire her for stuff, or who collaborate with her for artistic endeavors since i’ve noticed we have a lot of artsy muses <3
ummm maybe an enemy. but where it’s like .. the hate isn’t even that deep it’s just like oh you dislike me ? well i dislike you FIRST 😠 and they insult each other and try and sabotage each other like five year olds fighting on the playground like it seems super serious to them but to everyone watching it’s like ... can you guys just get over it you dumb babies KSDBSDBWD like they could probably be good friends if they just .. stopped
and you’ve reached the end of this NOVEL of an intro post JDBJWBDJWBDW im literally so sorry i tried not to ramble but ..... its just who i am </3 please come shoot me a message to plot !!! you can use tumblr ims but im way more available / quicker to respond on discord so if u wanna add me there and plot u can find me at junhee mr. soft hands ʕ´• ᴥ•̥`ʔ#8172 i also did not check this post for typos so if u find one ... mind ur business 😭😭😭
