TryMeIDareYou

I’m just here. Vibing. Sometimes.

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If Only

I wish, I hope,          That someday you will see        You mean an awful lot           To someone I call ‘me’.

There are nights when all I think about         Is your face in front of mine.         Our hearts connecting us         And our futures intertwined.

If only I had the courage       To say:       ‘To me you are perfect       In every way.’

One day I just may       Tell you have I feel.         But sadly right now you’re too far away,         To even begin to hear my spiel.

We’ve known each other for a really long time,        You know that too.        I just want to know          If I mean anything to you.

And if I don’t,       I mean, it’s fine.  But if I do,      Please tell me, so I can finally call you      Mine.

-Me

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“The ones who love us never really leave us.”  -Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, by J.K. Rowling

I love the series, trust me, but I’m realizing that this quote is kinda bullshit cause  sometimes the people we love don’t have enough of a mind left to love or even recognize us when they go. 

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It’s sad to think I can cry silently enough and reply steadily enough that my own mother doesn’t know I’m crying two feet away from her in the dim light. I sniff once and she asks me if I need an allergy pill and I say “yes” even though the reason my nose is running has nothing to do with the time of year. 

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I was rewatching this and, I just have to say, 11:58 - 12:11 is the ABSOLUTE BEST

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(I’m actually gonna type this one out cause it’s really messy on the page)

“Never Again”

Some people you come to know  are the type of people you can’t let go.  They’ve made such a deep impression  that you don’t know what to do without them.

And then they leave.

And when they leave  You’re lost.  They’ve been with you so long that life without them feels... off.  And you kind of want to cry, but you can’t.  Your mind won’t let you cry, so instead you just rant.

You throw your thoughts into words  and it’s messy and absurd,  but here you are. Without them. Never again. Will you ever get to see their face? Ever again? Maybe never again.

Because they left and you stayed  and you can’t say if you’ll see their face  ever again.

-me

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Man, im in such a mood this week

Idek why

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Didn’t turn out the best, but oh well

One of the more positive ones I’ve done lately

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Someone suggested I draw “Confusion” so here it is

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I don’t feel like typing this out so here you go

I’m in such a mood right now

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This just kinda reflects me right now idk

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I couldn’t get the face right so I had to improvise

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I don’t like this one very much but here it is anyway

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Here have this

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Search your heart,

Search your mind,

Search your past,

And you will find,

That I 

Am here

For you.

-excerpt from my brain Part C

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You will never have to be alone,

Never have to lose yourself,

Never have to doubt your heart,

For I am here for you.

-excerpt from my brain Part B

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Know that in your time of need,

Know that in your time of good,

Know that in your time of now,

I am here for you.

-excerpt from my brain Part A

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Everyone has that one crush that they never really get over. They can go through a hundred different people, but that one person sticks in their mind. Something about them - their eyes, laugh, smile - just kinda makes itself a home in your brain and decides it’d like to buy instead of rent, you know?

- a bit of something from my thoughts