Tristi Shell

27. 🙏🏻💒 #GodFirstBro. 🎣🏹 CountryGirl

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I’m not gonna get what I want if I don’t work for it!! 💪🏻

I am scared to put this up because of the potential of negative comments but enough is enough. I’m done making excuses for myself. I want to be healthier, and maybe lose some weight in the process.

Today Monday, 09-03-2018.

Weight: 226 lbs.

I want to be conscious of my decisions when it comes to the food I eat, the things I’m drinking. I’m tired of feeling exhausted when I haven’t really done anything! Someone might be wondering why I put this up? It’s for accountability! It’s written down in black and white! Help me plz?

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To far gone... I swore after I had surgery that I wouldn't let myself eat out of boredom, eat because I'm anxious, or just eat out of stress. I told myself I wasn't gonna let myself feel this low again. I eat way to much, I know when I'm full but I eat more anyway. I drink way to much soda but I can't find anything that's tastes as good or better than soda. I hate water, if I drink it has to be freezing cold... I hate what I see when I look in the mirror, I want to change but I don't know where to start. I'm to embarrassed to go to the gym I don't know what I'm doing. I'm so lost but I know I want to make a change.

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Kane the pittie

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Prayer Request....

To the Reader, I have a step sibling, who right now I have no respect for because of his actions, The way he treats his parents and his life decisions in general. My attitude when it comes to him is wrong, I know it is. I am so quick to anger when it comes to him sometimes I shake. Please pray for me and with me in this situation. For me to be slow to anger and not so quick to judge him. And also pray for him, that he finds his place in life. A job that he loves, even though I struggle with being nice to him at the moment. I know he still deserves happiness, love and a life well lived. Thank You!

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Just a thought

We get so wrapped up in being judgmental of others and trying to pick apart someone else's life. -Why do they spend they’re money this way. -Why do they hang with those people? -Shouldn’t they go to church today? -look at the way their dressed. It bothers me that people can be like that. This year I’m trying not to be one of those people who are quick to judge. I haven't walked in there shoes. I don't know there situation. So it's not my place to act that way towards them. The Bible says “ let one who is without sin cast the first stone.” I’m not perfect by any means. But how other people live there lives and how they make decisions is none of my business!!

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Everyday, you have a choice. You can believe that God is in control Or you can stay worried and expect the worst.

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My life choices have taken a turn....

"I ought to know better but you know that never stopped me before. Yeah, my wheels just have a way of spinning, always ending back at your door So add your name to the list. Of all the things I can’t seem to kick. You’re just another mess, another late night call I shouldn’t be making Just another high, another one night shot I shouldn’t be chasing I got my excuses, no I don’t know why I do it but You’re just another, just another thing I shouldn’t be doing I shouldn’t be doing"

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For the first time in my life, I kinda feel pretty! And I feel a lot happier too

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So I recently had surgery to remove a mass that was found on ovary. The doctor said it had been there for a while. I feel so much better now.

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Happy 4th of July! 🇺🇸#independenceday #fireworks

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Meh! 😶😱

I suffer from anxiety. It maybe extreme at times but for the most part I am able to keep it under raps. People don't know unless I have a panic attack or something. Having the crap scared out of me (not literally) tonight, when I was almost asleep didn't help me. Don't get me wrong I love fireworks but not 10 ft from my house when I'm lease expecting it. I like to know about things like that ahead time! Oh well, what's done is done. I just needed to get this out!

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Been stuck in my head! Love this song! #lyrics #cam #burninghouse

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"It's like everyday, I'm kickin' rocks, I could fly away but you've got me at a complete stop. How do you. Manage to keep me going but somehow you keep me from going. See you distract me, but I'm distracted without you. I don't know how to focus baby teach me how to..." #lyrics #helplessly

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Caught my first fish yesterday!

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I cannot fathom how a creator so divine would be interested in a heart like mine!

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Took one of Poppi's shirts and made it into a pillow! Messed up once but I fixed and I'm really excited about how it turned out! #poppy #flannelshirt #diypillow