Random brain farts of a video gamer

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Epiphany

So I think I have had an epiphany ....

So I got to talking with a friend about one of my Twitch viewers. Young dude. She asked me “Do you think Young Dude has any friends outside of Twitch?”. 

I slowly drew breath and said “yes, he probably does but they probably don’t play games”. The very notion of none of his friends play games is absurd.

But my epiphany was because of this conversation. I have friends. But none of them game. So to talk to them about video games, which I am wildly enthusiastic about gives me the shivers for fear that they will look at me like I am some sort of overgrown child freak.

I mean,I have been told this before.... That the people I talk to online could be serial killers or weirdos. But I am a person online. I am not some crazy person (for the most part) or serial killer..... I am just a person. Trying to find people who I have common ground with. 

I suffer for anxiety, and I barely sleep. So, I find that I am on Twitch to talk to people that have the same enthusiasm as me for video games. It’s an outlet for me. I mean, because of places like Xbox Live and Twitch I have some incredible people in my life and for that I am thankful. 

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Full time streaming

Some dude that follows me on Twitch has given up his job to full time stream. He actually thinks he will make money from streaming. He has 200 follows. 200!

He came into my stream a few times to say he gave up his job to pursue a “Twitch career”. And he also said, during my stream with like 5 people watching “Well, I’m off to start my stream, bye”..... doing this is like walking into a bar and saying, “I have a bar next door, stop spending your money in here and go next door to my bar cos it’s better”

My instant reaction to this is ....

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Twitch Streaming

I’m a small stream.... a Twitch broadcaster that streams for fun. I think like most broadcasters I am trying gain follows and views. But at the same time, if I don’t get the follows or views, I think I am also ok with that.

Looking at the landscape of Twitch, I started 3 year ago and back then for me it was exciting and the possibilities to broadcast your “Mad pro mlg skillz” to the masses really spoke to me. Looking at it now, it seems saturated and almost polluted with wannabe partnered streamers. 

Twitch now, seems like a big video game itself that is out of control. Racking up the points (followers+views) to level up (get partnered) and eventually grinding out for those bonus points/loot (Subs). Some people cheat (viewbots/bewbs) but there are only a few that win at the game.

I have never been good at these kinda games/popularity/contests. But I am still quite happy to play the game.