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i rawdogged the garden today.

bare hands

not a tool in sight except for hope and some kitchen scissors

the very same tools i had when i was sixteen.

and i thought of you

but don't take it as a compliment

it was the same frustration i had towards the weeds

my hands now temporarily muddied and raw

even after trying to desperately clean them.

sometimes i look down and there's still dirt beneath my fingernails and a carcass that looks the same shape as me.

i hope the bugs don't crawl into my skin, it's itchy.

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factor yourself favourable.

although you’re starting to look distasteful,,

and even though you try as you might, your favouring for favourable only applies to the people who look at you with a direct tone behind the eyes.

so your gaze becomes shiny,

your smile more daring,

and your hands more expectant with each gesture,

but as your smile morphs into a devilish grin, the only thing i can promise in all of this is a sudden feeling of unfamiliar with yourself.

you factor your favourability in anguish.

in fact you don’t even know where to start.

this is the game.

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bed on the floor

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live post

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FUCK & FORGET ABT

WHERE YOU CAME FROM AND ALL THE OTHER PEOPLE YOU’VE ENVELOPED.

THE CHAOS OBVIOUSLY ISN’T ENOUGH FOR YOU.

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put the sixteen year old girl to sleep now. she doesn’t want or need your pity.

mourn the things you don’t understand, mourn the fact that you will always play the fool, mourn your lack of knowledge.

why are you so angry at everyone else for not holding on tighter?

rediscover who you are lost lamb. i’m sorry they took your tail,,

run off and find where the fairies sleep, you don’t know it yet but they have gifts wrapped in vines for you.

there’s another tail in one of the presents but you’ll only find it if you let yourself.

let the mask off, you’re safe in your own house.

twizzler tie me up.

soft thighs

let me bite, leave my mark.

shudder underneath my touch. i’d like to have that affect someday.

i don’t want power i just don’t want to feel like if i wasn’t around, nothing would change.

-fred

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get your filthy paws OFF me.

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like i said tumblr is such a vain place to be

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tbt 2023

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tbt when

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and also my outfit a couple days ago btw

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nails getting so long except for one fml

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old journal exert - 16/07/25

i went to la porchetta tonight for dinner and i could feel the leftover energy from 3 years ago. for the third time i didn't know what to get from the menu so i got the pesto gnocchi.

for the third time, it tasted the disappointment for multiple different reasons.