Yoon Jongshin, Minseo - 처음 (First) lyrics (translation)
모든 게 다 처음이라서 많이 어색하고 별로였겠지 마지막 그 인사말조차도
넌 나보다 훨씬 빛나 보여서 괜히 움츠러든 내가 미웠어 그게 더 바보 같았었겠지
늘 꿈인 것만 같아서 그게 불안했었어 내 사람 아닌 것만 같아서 내 마지막이 되고 싶다던 너를 믿지 못한 나의 잘못이겠지 뭐
그래도 난 처음이었어 밤을 새며 누굴 꿈꿔본 것도 이렇게 마구 아픈 마음도
어른스러워야 할 것 같아서 맘이랑은 조금 다른 말 했어 난 혼자여도 자신 있다고
늘 내가 더 사랑해서 지는 것만 같았어 그게 난 제일 바보 같았어 널 믿는다면 영원할 거라던 말 믿지 못한 내가 전부 망친 거야
나 그래도 너의 곁에서 너무 눈부셨던 날들 그게 다 거짓말일 린 없잖아 내 손을 보석보다 더 소중히 쥐고 말했던 그 멋진 말들도
모든 게 다 처음이었어 소리 들릴 만큼 가슴 뛴 것도 소리 내 울며 잠든 그 밤도
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Because it was all the first time for me it must’ve been very awkward and not very good even that goodbye
You looked way more radiant than I did so I cowered in vain and hated myself that must’ve been so foolish
It was always just like a dream that made me anxious it was like you weren’t mine I couldn’t believe you when you said you wanted to be my last and that must’ve been my fault
Even so it was my first time staying up all night and dreaming of someone like that my heart hurt so bad
I think have to act like an adult so I didn’t say exactly what I felt I said “even though I’m alone I’m confident”
It seems I always loved you more so I lost that was the most stupid thing I did I didn’t believe you telling me “if you trust me it’ll be forever” so I ruined everything
But the days by your side were dazzling there’s no way that was a lie when you held my hand like it was more precious than a gem and told me wonderful things
Because it was all the first time for me my heart beat so hard I could hear it I cried out and fell asleep that night
