Just Minding My Own Business

On partial hiatus as of September 28, 2014. Mostly complete hiatus started mid-october. Now slightly back for fundraising and random shit. I'll do witchcraft by commission. Rates are sliding scale and based on the difficulty of the magic, the permanence desired, and what you want me to do. Please direct inquiries to my ask box. I also offer vocal coaching sliding scale via Skype. For more information about either please see my recent post tagged "witchcraft". You can call me burntqueer or J. Introduce yourself before following, and also read the post tagged "blog rules". If I already follow you feel free to follow me without the intro, but still read the posts tagged blog rules.

[doctorwhogifs]

[moonfallplays-deactivated202501]

#how long have we been holding on to this one?

[unburntqueerscritta]

Had a friend who follows me here text me as I’ve not posted here in a while. I have abusers who can easily find this blog. I have a different blog now where I don’t interact with the same group of people, though some of you I’ve privately communicated with and given access to that blog. Details about how I’m doing below.

If anyone is wondering about how I am, I’m struggling to make rent this month as I had a major depressive episode that started in early february and I’m not through it yet. I’ve been more frequently suicidal in 2015 than I’ve been at any point prior, I don’t really feel like I have a community though I do have a handful of friends who have been helpful. A lot of the reasons for my alienation from communities I once considered myself a part of has to do with reactions to me disclosing that my ex sexually abused me, and the ways in which past abuse has made it hard for me to trust people. I don’t know or necessarily suspect that any of the people I don’t really trust are looking at this blog, but I do know for my own sense of safety and actual safety I can’t talk about things I would like to talk about here. I consider many of my followers here friends even if we aren’t necessarily mutuals and I’m really sorry I have to leave some of you behind. If anyone is specifically interested in helping me out financially send me a message and I’ll send you my paypal email address. I should be able to refund you over the next couple of month if nothing major happens as I’m getting back to work and I’ll figuratively be back on my financial feet right around then. I’ll certainly still be struggling but if I don’t make rent this month it’s going to be a problem :/

[lizardbros-deactivated20190210]

[diggly]

ITS THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN

[unburntqueerscritta]

Still fucking leaving this url. If I continue to use tumblr it will be at another url and I’ll likely give it to people upon request. Hasn’t decided 100% what criteria will determine who gets the new url, but I may request you block my ex if they…

[unburntqueerscritta]

I’m basically exclusively using the other blog. I’ll occasionally check messages here. I meant to send messages to everyone who has asked what the new url is. I’m moving to a new blog to avoid an abuser and if I have reason to believe that abuser follows you or that you are in connection with people who’ve been apologists for my abuser then I won’t be giving you the new url. This is probably unnecessarily paranoid, but I’m a survivor and really want to finally get away from this abuser and want people who know who my abuser is to not associate with them. Earlier I said folks can associate but not talk about me with them, but like that was stupid and based in an unfounded belief that my abuser could be held accountable and would engage in growth and reform. I no longer belief that is possible and am doing what I can to entirely excise them from my life.

[unburntqueerscritta]

In surprising news my abuser finally decided to unfollow this blog, I'm still going to not continue to use this blog, but based on my abuser finally doing this one thing I've asked of them I'm willing to entertain the possibility that accountability is possible with them. So if you're reading this or checking on this blog at all, feel free to message me here or send me a text if you want to try to work to make some things better and to have some degree of accountability. Do not contact me in any other way, and cease interacting with my little sister, she told me she has communicated with you and I am beyond uncomfortable with that. 

[unburntqueerscritta]

Still fucking leaving this url. If I continue to use tumblr it will be at another url and I’ll likely give it to people upon request. Hasn’t decided 100% what criteria will determine who gets the new url, but I may request you block my ex if they...

[unburntqueerscritta]

I'm basically exclusively using the other blog. I'll occasionally check messages here. I meant to send messages to everyone who has asked what the new url is. I'm moving to a new blog to avoid an abuser and if I have reason to believe that abuser follows you or that you are in connection with people who've been apologists for my abuser then I won't be giving you the new url. This is probably unnecessarily paranoid, but I'm a survivor and really want to finally get away from this abuser and want people who know who my abuser is to not associate with them. Earlier I said folks can associate but not talk about me with them, but like that was stupid and based in an unfounded belief that my abuser could be held accountable and would engage in growth and reform. I no longer belief that is possible and am doing what I can to entirely excise them from my life.

[unburntqueerscritta]

Took a bath with wine and some of my mom's awesome bath products and now having Chinese takeout and wine with my little sister. I'm fucking winning at self care tonight :) (by which I mean I actually feel kinda decent and am less totally crushed by all the awful shit in my life right now than usual)

[willow]

LOOK WHAT THE FUCK MY SIBLINGS DID

[ashkenazis-deactivated20161127]

22,798,994 minutes put into hours is 379983 hours

put that into days and it’s 263 days

your ipod is going to be disabled until january 15th 2015 

i’m so sorry 

[godtechturninheads]

Congrats you can use it now

[freerenata-deactivated20180915]

calling (trans) women goddesses sensationalizes their femininity and excludes them from economies of “real”

[unburntqueerscritta]

Yeah but we can totally call ourselves goddesses.

[unburntqueerscritta]

I'm really sad and pissed and have a bunch of feeling that I'm not really going to post about.

[unburntqueerscritta]

I’m still moving to another blog, but I haven’t had time to do that and to message people yet. My grandfather is not doing well right now and is probably going to die in the next week or so and I’m at my parent’s house.

[unburntqueerscritta]

Update if he makes it to tomorrow that would surprise me.

[unburntqueerscritta]

Update update: looks like he’ll possible live for a day or two longer. Who knows? Fucking nobody that’s who. It’s rough.

[unburntqueerscritta]

Well, original update was correct he's dead.

[unburntqueerscritta]

Wow my life is really TW: shitty family tries really hard to not be shitty, but surprisingly remains shitty.

[unburntqueerscritta]

I’m still moving to another blog, but I haven’t had time to do that and to message people yet. My grandfather is not doing well right now and is probably going to die in the next week or so and I’m at my parent’s house.

[unburntqueerscritta]

Update if he makes it to tomorrow that would surprise me.

[unburntqueerscritta]

Update update: looks like he'll possible live for a day or two longer. Who knows? Fucking nobody that's who. It's rough.

[unburntqueerscritta]

I’m still moving to another blog, but I haven’t had time to do that and to message people yet. My grandfather is not doing well right now and is probably going to die in the next week or so and I’m at my parent’s house.

[unburntqueerscritta]

Update if he makes it to tomorrow that would surprise me.

[unburntqueerscritta]

I'm still moving to another blog, but I haven't had time to do that and to message people yet. My grandfather is not doing well right now and is probably going to die in the next week or so and I'm at my parent's house.

[ego-vulpis]

You guys are getting ridiculous 

[fromonesurvivortoanother]

they’re just trying to ferret out the kinks in each other’s backs

[unburntqueerscritta]

Still fucking leaving this url. If I continue to use tumblr it will be at another url and I’ll likely give it to people upon request. Hasn’t decided 100% what criteria will determine who gets the new url, but I may request you block my ex if they follow you so I at least won’t show up on their dash.

[unburntqueerscritta]

I’m going to be gone from here by the end of the 11th. Message me if you want me to consider giving you my new url.

[unburntqueerscritta]

Gone. But I still need to respond to some asks and use who I'm following here as reference. If I haven't told you my new URL that's because I've not got around to it not because I don't want you to have it.

[unburntqueerscritta]

This city/town is way too small.