so sick of being alone and so so sick of looking for love...on 3 apps and still starved for any beauty and genuineness...im not going to meet anyone on my own anymore because i only go to work and home...30 yrs old and i could pick out 2 people ive been w in my whole lifetime id confidently say i could happily have spent the rest of my life w but i was never interesting enough to hold a real lasting conversation w either of them and as a result havent barely talked to either for years. guess im maybe just too fucking picky because im not sure i have what it takes on my end to justify being this discerning. something bad happens every time i settle, ive been in only two real relationships and both were huge mistakes, and i am okay as long as i can make peace w being single but if i dont settle for something soon i fear i may miss on this part of human experience entirely. i feel soooooooo empty














