wildest dreams

A mom of two boys.Frustrated writer. She read books to escape reality. A fangirl.

[underneathhermind]

"We're here for you..."

I am glad to know that, but.....

Where were you guys when I needed someone the most? When I was drowning with my own thoughts and wanted to just end it? When it feels like there's a hurricane inside my head, and I can't help but be a mess? That I was not suffering alone and making it a living hell to my partner? That everytime I look into my children, all I could think of was how tired I am and just wanted to permanently rest? None of you was there for me. None of you dared to asked how am I doing. I was alone, all by myself.

If I recall it, I reached out and it took a lot for me to do that. But I was left unread. Don't worry, I'm not holding it against all of you. I already accepted the fact that, I only have me. A sad reality, really.

Still thank you, for letting me know. Though, I don't think I could easily open up or reach out anymore because I'm scarred for life. I don't want to let myself down again or get slapped that no one gives a shit about me.

[derangedrhythms]

I am never sane, you know⁠ —

Anne Sexton, from ‘A Self-Portrait in Letters’ ⁠— W. D. Snodgrass, c. 15th November 1958

[underneathhermind]

you know what's music to my ears?

hearing my partner & boys laughing while they're playing.

[wolha]

TWENTY-FIVE TWENTY-ONE 스물다섯 스물하나 (2022) dir. Jung Ji-Hyun, Kim Seung-Ho

[underneathhermind]

prompts based by lyrics

𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘶𝘱 𝘰𝘯 𝘶𝘴 𝘈𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘐 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵

piece of you

[admireforever]

Like Crazy

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, from moony moonless sky.

[text id: if i am a sunflower, as you say, would you be my sun? / every time you called me your sunflower, i ate back the words, “would you be my sun?”

not that you weren’t already. i just wanted you to know there’s a reason why my gaze shifts whenever you shift.]

[thispieceofyou]

“I think part of the reason why we hold so tight is because we fear something so great won’t happen twice”

— unknown (via hatin)

[luberry]

— Two Night Stand

[anamorphosis-and-isolate]

[cosmicwizdom]

x

[thispieceofyou]

“I don’t know when it happened, or why it happened. You just stopped. There were no more phone calls in the middle of the night when you couldn’t sleep, no more texts that read, “I miss you.” The only time you said I was beautiful, was when I asked if I was. It’s not that I needed your validation, I just missed hearing it. When you answered the phone your voice sounded dull, the excuses were, “I’m tired.” “I don’t feel well.” I never knew the right words to say until after the conversation ended, my talking just felt like crunching leaves under your feet. You’d walk over me subconsciously, I felt like I was the gum on the bottom of your shoe. You’d get rid of me faster than you’d let me stay. I always held on a little too tight, a little too long, I guess I was just waiting for the favor to be returned. But your arms became cemented to your sides, like walls around your soul. I became the vines growing up the bricks, trying to be tall enough to get a peek of what’s behind them. I never was tall enough, I never was good enough. Soon enough the I love you’s just slipped your mind, you forgot. I stopped noticing how long it took you to reply, it became our new normal. The nights we went without talking, the mornings that went without the good, the days we talked for five minutes, it was all normal. You stopped. So, I’ll stop. Or at least, I’ll try..”

— You just stopped. (via missinyouiskillingme)

[paintscription]

[wuhgee]

[girlbehindthisblog-deactivated2]

I keep on going back to the place where you left me. I am hoping that i’ll find you there on the same spot where you bid your goodbye. I am still hoping that you’ll come back to me. I am still waiting. I never stopped waiting. When will you come back? I’m losing my hope. But then again, i’m still here patiently waiting for you. All the memories are flashing back as if they were real. I can still remember the day i met you and the moment you turn your back. I tried to close my eyes trying to stop myself from reminiscing the past. It always gives a pang in my chest whenever i remember how you plead to just let you go. But i know in my heart that you wanted to stay but you still chose leave me. Up until now, i am still hoping that you will fulfill your promise not your promise that you won’t leave me because you already left but at least your promise to stay with me. Please come back to me. I’ll accept you with open arms. You’re still welcome in my life. You’re still part of me. If ever you thought of coming back, you know where to find me. Please come back to the place where you left me and i assure you that you’ll find me there.

[revolverak]

[candiceaccola]