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But by the grace of God I am what I am... 1 Cor. 15:10

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Go On Girl...

I can't get it back, but I don't want it back, I Realized that, She don't know how to act Never been a dumb dude No I'm not dense I Just had a slight lack Of common sense I was the good guy She was the bad girl I'm thinking one girl She thinking me, earl James and jimmy Yep she had plenty But love for me, she didn't have any

I was inviting, her into my heart But she was out riding in some other man's car She was my night time, thought I was her star Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong Wont take long for me to move on

Please don't worry bout me I'm fine (Please don't worry bout me I'm fine) Only gonna play the fool one time (Only gonna play the fool one time) Trust me when I say That I'll be OK Go on girl (Go on girl) Go on girl (Go on girl) Go on girl

I can't get it back, but I don't want it back, I Realized that, She don't know how to act Tried to settle down and look what I get Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet She at the bar getting drinks from many men I'm in the house, thinking shes with her girlfriends Just not knowing, truly not knowing I look back now like, man, I was open

I was inviting, her into my heart But she was out riding in some other man's car She was my night time, thought I was her star Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong Wont take long for me to move on

Please don't worry bout me I'm fine (Please don't worry bout me I'm fine) Only gonna play the fool one time (Only gonna play the fool one time) Trust me when I say That I'll be OK Go on girl (Go on girl) Go on girl (Go on girl) Go on girl

The mistake I made is clear (we never should've been together) Thats the reason you're not here (I know that I can do much better) Not a single salty tear Not a feeling in my chest Baby I'm feeling no stress I'm too fly to be depressed

Go on Girl Go on Girl Go on Girl Go on Girl

Please don't worry bout me I'm fine (Please don't worry bout me I'm fine) Only gonna play the fool one time (Only gonna play the fool one time) Trust me when I say That I'll be OK Go on girl (Go on girl) Go on girl (Go on girl) Go on girl

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Still

I love you still. I’m not ready to let go. Please don’t leave me yet. This is just so hard. Please don’t let me go yet. I’m so confused. Lord let me be still and know that you are God.

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Mahal

She called me that first. I never expected she would. She told me I love you first. I didn’t expect that too. She lied to me, now I’m getting up from all the hurt. I just hope she’ll find herself true, My Mahal, I just wish it wasn’t all just a fluke. 

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Again with the chips

Here we go again. 

I'm back at this game again. I played all my chips on the table once. It all got thrown to the trash. I didn't see that coming. All i knew was that I risked it all. My greatest prize was to see her smile. All the drives, gifts, sacrifices, they were all worth it just to see a glimpse of her smile. Behind those smiles though there was something I didn't see. With one stroke, I lost all of my chips. Now I was left picking up all of them in the can. One by one, I picked them up. One by one, it wasn't pretty. One by one, I was anguishing. One by one, I now have them all again. 

Here are all the chips in my hands again. Wait what am I doing? Why am I putting all of them on that same table again? Why am I giving it to that same dealer again? Don't I know I might lose all of them again? I might get hurt again? Jeru, are you crazy? Why put all of your chips on that table again? I want that prize. I want to see that sad girl smile. If that's all I ever do in my life, I will risk it all again and again. I will pick all of the chips and put it on that table again. I don't know why. The dealer even tells me that I deserve a better prize. It goes against all logic and reason. I know it doesn't make sense. I guess love never does make sense. If I'm going to get hurt again, let it be. At least I played with everything I had and more. 

What's keeping me here? Because there was a man who put all of His chips on me. It cost His own life. His greatest prize was me He said. I've thrown all His chips to the trash over and over again, but He's relentless. Finally I gave up and let Him win. He has me. He owns me. He beat the system and won His prize. Now, I got back up. I believe the game isn't over yet. One more time. Let me put all of the chips on the table again. It's her turn now... 

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Chips

I though this would just be like a game of poker. I never really knew how to play poker. All I knew was that it was a card game. I know it was a game of risk, and I liked risks. The game of love however isn’t like poker. Yes you gamble, but all your fate is in the hands of the dealer. 

I was always a guy who goes all or nothing. In this game, I put all my chips on the table. Now, it’s all in the can... I pray to Christ that one day, He’ll pick all them up again and maybe put it in another table. I’ve never risked so much and have never been hurt so much. I guess it was better to have risked it all than to have not risked at all.