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[undertaker991]

I really love them :3

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This was a lot of fun.

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And another doodle.

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A little unfinished project. i'm neither happy nor unhappy about it. it took a lot more time that it looks like and i'm mad at myself because its not as good as i want it to be. at least its training i think.

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A little unfinished project. i'm neither happy nor unhappy about it. it took a lot more time that it looks like and i'm mad at myself because its not as good as i want it to be. at least its training i think.

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I get that the concept is find a way to make Alastor sing.. but therapy should never be involuntary. It won’t work if it’s not a completely consensual activity. Forcing something to share personal things about themselves when they don’t want to can be extremely damaging to the psyche, and have lasting traumatic consequences. Charlie forcing Alastor to participate in therapy when he doesn’t want to is abusive. It’s like when she forced redemption on Angel, and almost got two of her friends “killed.” Except Angel at least had some sort of choice, she was emotionally manipulating him, but he still had the capability to say no. Alastor can’t say no at all. The magic of the deal forces him, no matter what. That makes her no better than Valentino. Someone with power who abuses it and who forces others to do what he wants, for his own benefit. Charlie is disgustingly for this. And is not qualified to have any sort of authority over therapy if she has no understanding of its most important principles. I say all this with the hope you are aware of how harmful the whole implication is. And there will be a point Charlie realizes how abusive she has been and has serious consequences for such damaging actions. I’m genuinely surprised Alastor hasn’t pointed all this out actually 🤔 Considering he’s the one who will suffer most for this.

You got exactly the point. She is very consumed by the thought of healing everyone. Alastor is not even interested in redemption. He is also way to smart to fall for a wordplay, but i somehow needed to start.

And yes, there will be a lot of damage. I will put a trigger warning above when I get there.

Maybe "Therapy" is the wrong word, because you are absolutly right that charlie is not qualified for that.

[undertaker991]

First Therapy Group Session. Charlie wants everybody to introduce themselfs to the group.of course they know each others names but charlie wants that they show how they see themself. Nobody is too enthusiastic. Then its alastors turn. He still tries to fight against this stupid deal but he has no choice. So hes really pissed of.

You Problem - dust & harmony

I don't care if you respect me or not

Your opinion means jack shit to me

Love me, hate me, stalk me, talk shit

I couldn't care less

Yeah, I ain't built for approval, I don't beg for applause

I don't shrink for a coward with a mouth full of flaws

You can run with the gossip, put my name in your jaw

But that hate don't hit when the source is soft

Weak ass, fake ass, loud for attention

Typing up paragraphs begging for a mention

If my presence feels heavy, that's your own tension

Get gone with the drama and the bad intentions

Follow me, hate me, raise me, chase me

Talk all night, still can't replace me

Scared too long, then call me crazy

Mad at my life 'cause yours got lazy

I'm not here to impress little people

Who fold with cheap shot tongues and a backbone sold

I don't need your clap, your crown, your vote

I walk how I walk with my boot on the road

You don't like me? Good

That's a you problem, not mine

I don't give a fuck, not one, not two

Your mouth ain't renting no room in my mood

You got a problem, that problem is you

I don't give a fuck and that's the truth

Say it to my face, swallow that smoke

Fold up that hate like dirt

No, you don't like me? Cool, get gone

I've been real this long, and I'm still that strong

I don't switch for the insecure

Don't soften the edge just to make sure

Don't dim my fire 'cause your ego's poor

Don't drag my peace through your back door

Petty little drama, brain dead chatter

Broke down opinions don't make me matter

Your side eye swings like a plastic hammer

Hit my name, bounce off, scatter

Got something to say? Write that shit neat

Fold it real nice, keep it off my street

Then file it away where the sunlight quits

'Cause I don't make room for your useless shit

I'm living my life how I wanna live

I don't owe one breath to the hate you give

No validation, no toxic chain

No fake little crab gonna rent my brain

You don't like me? Good

That's a you problem, not mine

I don't give a fuck, not one, not two

Your mouth ain't renting no room in my mood

You got a problem, that problem is you

I don't give a fuck and that's the truth

Say it to my face, swallow that smoke

Fold up that hate like dirt

No, you don't like me? Cool, get gone

I've been real this long, and I'm still that strong

I don't need you now, I don't need your grin

I don't need your seat, I don't need your friends

I don't need permission, I don't need a crown

I don't lose sleep when a clown talks loud

Take your fake ass opinions

Take your, take your weak ass crew

Take your low grade gossip

Take your broke excuse

Take your bitter little comment

Take your useless energy

If the real me bothers you

Keep that shit away from me, oh

I don't give a fuck, not one, not two

Your mouth ain't renting no room in my mood

You got a problem, that problem is you

I don't give a fuck and that's the truth

I don't need approval, I don't need a lie

I don't need your poison anywhere near mine

You don't like me, good, get gone

I've been real this long, and I'm still that strong

Love me, hate me

Talk shit, stop me

Your opinion means jack shit

I don't give a single fuck

[undertaker991]

So~ i'm in the middle of an anxiety attack, so i'm trying to distract me by writing about my still untitled radioapple musical.

Of course it would start with a rather unlikely deal between Alastor and Charlie. She thinks that he as self announced host of the hotel, he should be more present in the activities. He would be really amused, because Charlie is the one who wants it do be a real Deal and ask about the details, still very sure to not close the Deal. Charlies offer would be, hat he has to be an active Part of their own Group therapy (only including the Main cast) and in return she would never ask anything of that sort again. He would still have his duties as facility Manager, host, what ever it is he does, but no other activities out of that Group once a week would be of his concern. He thinks about it and Charlie can be really annoying about the whole redemption Nonsens, he s still not interested in. So he auswerfen, he would make this Deal only if he doesnt have to say a Single word about himself or his privacy in generell. Charlie agrees and the Deal is done. After that she seid, that she will make sure, that he sings about it. And so he got tricked in his own game by a wordplay and thinking that Charlie is to stupid or naiv to fool him.

That would be the start. I know he wouldn't fall for a trick so easy, but otherwise it wouldnt be a musical and i need him to suffer

[undertaker991]

I'm a little desperate. My radioapple musical in my head got a little out of hand AND i can't get it out of my system. But i can't write it down (my writing skills are zero) and i can't draw a comic ( digital art is also not near my talents). So what am I supposed to do with this?

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My utmost respect to all digital artists. I'm trying it myself right now, and man, is it difficult!

[undertaker991]

I just say radioapple and drop this song:

I can never ever really explain

How I work and it's not your fault

When the urge is rising and I want you in my heart

Morning comes, I'm on the runaway train

No sugar left in me, there's nothing but salt

And I know it's too late

I don't want to feel this way

But I feel it

Take off your clothes and I'll love you all night

Give me a show when the feeling's alright

I always knew that you're crazy and you wanted to play

Come here, I want to hear you say

Just sit down, get it up, I'm on top

When the flood rushes in, we don't stop

No one wants to see the rising of a new day (Oh)

The ending of the game

Disappointment really burns your flag

You know I don't want you to feel alone

All the words I used to say

I don't say them anymore

'Cause I'm a liar, I've been so bad

I cannot make it right

I cannot condone

But I can give you my body

No one has to know

Do you feel it?

Take off your clothes and I'll love you all night

Give me a show when the feeling's alright

I always knew that you're crazy and you wanted to play

Come here, I want to hear you say

Just sit down, get it up, I'm on top

When the flood rushes in, we don't stop

No one wants to see the rising of a new day (Oh)

The ending of the game

I know

I'm not honest, in disguise

You still glow

Let's go for a ride (Let's go for a ride)

The wind in your hair

And your loving eyes

Makes me aware

I'm a beast inside

I feel it

Take off your clothes and I'll love you all night

Give me a show when the feeling's alright

I always knew that you're crazy and you wanted to play

Come here, I want to hear you say

Just sit down, get it up, I'm on top

When the flood rushes in, we don't stop

No one wants to see the rising of a new day (Oh)

The ending of the game

[undertaker991]

So is anybody here that can spoil me with arts or comics where alastor is hurt and lucifer finds him and turns into berserk mode? I really need it. I mean it. NEED

[undertaker991]

So, I have a sort of Musical for our beloved radioapple in my head and I found three songs from HIM I want to share.( and for context in my head Alastor sings this)

1. Killing loneliness

"With the venomous kiss you gave me

With the warmth of your arms, you saved me

Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you

The killing loneliness

That turned my heart into a tomb

I′m killing loneliness"

2. Passion Killing Floor

"It's poetry carved in flesh

This beautiful hell of ours

To the deadliest sin we confess

And tears of joy fill our eyes" ...

"My heart's a graveyard, baby

And to evil, we make love

On our passion's killing floor

In my arms, you won't sleep safely

And of lust, we are reborn

On our passion's killing floor"

3. "I dream of the winter in my heart turning to spring

While the ice gives way

Under my feet

And so I drown with the Sun

I've been burning in water and drowning in flame

To prove you wrong and scare you away

I admit my defeat and walk back home

Your heart

Under the rose"

[undertaker991]

Even if it's not canon, i think Alastors fave music should be metal. I mean, it's the 'devils music' so it would make sense. 😅

[undertaker991]

I don't know why, but I think Devour from Disturbed is made for Radioapple. I need a fanfic about lucifer writing this Song for Alastor