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So I read something

If two people are mature enough to be friends after they break up it’s them understanding that we weren’t meant to be together & that infuriates me so much because we could of been forever we could have been together right now in each other’s arms kissing each other loving each other but I honestly feel that you were dragged way by lust and fantasy. More like lust&sin . So no I don’t want to be your friend and act as if you weren’t going to be the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Because you were.. & now I cry because there’s someone that loves me and I don’t know if I could ever love them the way they love me..but I guess this is how you were with me ..

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Did I mean anything to you ? I honestly feel like I wasted a year of my life and I’ve never felt like that .. 😒😒

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Oh and by the way ... I’m so fucking gay .

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Soo ... I guess let’s start

I made my tumbler just for me to rant about how miserable I was ... well I deleted my old rants I wish I didn’t but I did ... anyways I got myself out of that situation and I’m honestly just so happy I was able to write it out and just be a peace for a bit and then one day i just had enough .

I met this beautiful amazing gorgeous woman. She makes me so dam happy like crazy happy .. and that scares the crap out of me .

I know it’s infuriating. Like I this could be my soulmate but at the same time I have so much more to grow ... sure I can grow with her but fuck there is just so much more pressure to succeed.. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ and that scares me as well I just don’t want to lose her but at the same time I’m like dam.. should we be together ? Am I sure this isn’t lust ? I’m still hurting but who ever stops being hurt ?

I’ll be back ..