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random thoughts i can't send until...

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I just finished an episode of one of my favorite J-dramas, and it really hit me. The female lead brought her husband to her hometown for the first time, and the welcome he got from her relatives was insane—they treated him like a total superstar!

What moved me the most was watching him bond with her family and get to know her through their stories. There was this one scene where she woke up in the middle of the night and found him quietly drinking with her parents; they were just sharing stories about her childhood. Then, he went back to the room, tucked her in, and gently patted her to sleep. It was such a soft, emotional moment that it made me tear up.

To my someone: I’m so excited to share my childhood with you someday. It was full of life—playing outside, meeting so many people, and having relatives who cheered for every school achievement. I was so close to my cousins, and I remember "playing chef" in our backyard. It was a happy time. How about you? What are your favorite childhood memories? :)

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I used to have this routine. After a long day at work, I’d come home and just... shut down. I didn’t want to talk to anyone or answer any questions. I’d head straight to my room, lie down, and get lost in doomscrolling for hours just to numb the stress.

I thought being alone was the only way to recharge.

But I’ve realized that being alone doesn't always mean you're resting.

How nice is it to finally have someone you can call your "pahinga"? With him, I don’t feel the need to hide in my room or scroll the exhaustion away. No words are needed. Just his presence is enough to quiet the noise in my head.

I used to run away from the world at the end of the day. Now, I just run to him.

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There is something so incredibly healing about having someone waiting for you after a long, draining day at work. The moment I see them, the weight on my shoulders just... vanishes. Even when the world feels heavy and I feel like I’m fighting my battles alone, their presence reminds me I don’t have to.

Stepping out of the office to a patient smile, a warm hug, and a kiss makes everything worth it. It’s so nice to have a safe space for all my rants and complaints—someone who truly listens. Whether we’re sharing a meal or they’re just trying to cheer me up when I’m not in the mood to eat, they are my peace.

I might be the one smiling all day at the office, but the moment I’m with them, I can finally let my guard down. I go "instant lowbatt" because I know I'm finally safe.

It made me realize that rest isn't always about sleep or lying down. Sometimes, rest is a person. Someone who makes the world feel quiet and okay again just by being there. :)

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It’s already Christmas Eve later, and I’m wondering what someone and I might end up doing. I think we’ll go shopping for a bit since it’s also my niece’s birthday, and maybe he’ll buy something for my family too. Of course, I’ll get something for his family as well. Then we’ll probably visit my family to greet them—or maybe I’ll go ahead and visit his family first. I hope his family is okay with me, and of course, I hope he’s comfortable with mine too. We respect each other, and that naturally includes our families. I wonder what you’re doing today. I’m just about to get ready to visit my family. Hehe.

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We had a Christmas party earlier, and I had a few drinks. I got home late, and the moment I sat on the couch, I felt extremely sleepy. I was too lazy to move, honestly. Then it crossed my mind how nice it would be to have someone who checks on you—someone who reminds you to take your meds when you’re not feeling well after drinking, or reminds you to at least remove your makeup before going to bed, or to drink water when you get home so you don’t fall asleep right away. Or maybe he’d just come pick you up and take you home so he could feel at ease. And if not, he’d video call you from the party until you get home, staying on the call until you fall asleep. Only then would he finally be able to sleep peacefully himself. Haaaays. 🥹