good day everyone đ !!!! itâs been a while, huh.
sorry for the no show this past month, a tone of mental health issues was just kicking my ass and i was overwhelmed by the summer blues. i had multiples drafts piled up but didnât have the motivation to write in any of them. as a way to vent out my feelings and also give you guys an update, i started an angsty fic but writing it made me feel better and i havenât gotten in the mood to finish it đđ to be frank, i havenât been in the lis2 fandom space much as of late but i hope to still write fanfics for you all.
you know how wolves have an amazing sense of smell? i think sean would have a thing for scents.
imagine being in a long distance relationship with sean. every time you meet up â which is once in a blue moon â he begs you for something of yours. a plushie, a hoodie, a shirt you wear to bed. anything. anything that held your scent in its fabric.
youâd see him snuggled up with it on your nightly calls, grinning to himself as the both of you talked about your days. you never see sean looking at anything but his phone. at you.
the time between visits stretch longer and longer and your smell fades. sean makes sure to complain about it every day.
it doesnât smell like you anymore
i miss you
when can i see you again
he has his own bottles of your perfume/cologne, but nothing beats the real deal. the faint fragrance paired with your sweat and natural musk soothed sean to sleep almost every night.
seanâs terrible at hiding how obsessed he is with you. no matter how indifferent he tried to act, his eyes still glazed over when the topic of you and your smell came up in the conversation. you could laugh at how easy he was to read.
itâs 5 am and i write this while listening to her by the american dawn
limbs encircled your waist. a nose buried deep in between your shoulder blades. shallow breaths brushed against your clammy skin.
you and sean barely ever fought, and this was one of the worst by far, even if an outsider couldnât tell from the way the two of you were sleeping together.
you had fallen asleep just like this, turned away from sean with a heavy heart as he murmured quiet apologies into your upper arm. his thumb gently rubbing arcs on your exposed hip.
tense.
so incredibly tense.
you carefully pried yourself away from seanâs sleepy grasp. maybe a cup of water would do you some good. a quiet moment to wallow in. perched on the edge of the bed, you glanced over your shoulder and softened. seanâs eyebrows were drawn together, pulled down. the faintest pout dragged at his lips.
you couldnât leave him like this â upset and perturbed, even while in deep sleep. your hand clasped his shoulder and weakly shook him. you cupped his cheek as he started to stir, quietly grumbling under his breath.
âhey, heyâŚâ you whispered, cutting sean off before he could get a frantic word out. âyou wanna come with me to the kitchen? iâm getting some water.â
seanâs fingers rested tender on your wrist, pinning your palm to his cheek. âfuck, okay⌠you donâtâŚ?â he let the rest of the question hang in the air.
you shook your head. no. you didnât want to prolong the misery the both of you were going through any longer. your lips pressed against his sweaty hairline. he leaned into the kiss.
ââm sorry,â he repeated vulnerably.
a slight caress. âi know. me, too. letâs save it for the morning, i just want to sit with you.â
the two of you couldnât be separated while navigating your tiny and cluttered kitchen, not even for a second. bare skin pressed along cool blue cotton. your lips found seanâs again and again if they werenât being chewed up by your teeth. it was comfortably quiet. it appeared that while concerning yourselves with each other so closely, your breathing patterns synced. deciding on a drink to share was surprisingly easy. the two of you didnât even like tea, but tea seemed like the only appropriate thing to drink at a time like this.
bundled up on your couch, with a cup of piping hot tea you havenât had a taste of in months, your body curled into seanâs next to you. his limbs moved on instinct to hold you and hold you close. the mugs of oddly sweet tea soon were forgotten on the coffee table as your face was tucked under seanâs ear. your arms were tight around his middle, promising. warm kisses were littered all over your temple.
the quietest, softest murmurs passed between your lips, reassuring each other in the gentlest tone you could manage. neither of you let your eyelids droop until you were completely sure the other person was content, and even then, you held on firmly.
im begging for more f!reader n established relationship pls đđ
Ëââ§ę°Ý⏠breathe into me âËŕťęąË.
first of all SO sorry this took so long!!! i was bouncing around a whole bunch of ideas when i shouldve prioritized this one </3 enjoy this as an apology
âOkay, babe, youâve been hiding your hands from me since I picked you up.â
âI just want to wait until weâre in a good enough spot so I can watch your reaction,â you beamed, bouncing off the heels of your feet.Â
âWell,â Sean turned the keys in the lock and opened the door, âis right here a good place? Come on, I wanna see.âÂ
You faced your boyfriend and held your hands out in loose fists before opening them, revealing your new set of acrylic nails. Sean let out a low whistle as he held your hands in his own. He individually analyzed each fingernail, viewing it from every angle as he commented.Â
âHow long did it take?â
âA couple hours.â
âDid it hurt?â
âNot at all.âÂ
âWhy are they so pointy?â
âI just like them that way.â
â⌠Is that an âSâ on your ring finger?âÂ
You grinned when he finally noticed. âYeah, I asked her to put your initial on it.â
Sean bit back a small smile, brushing his thumb over your knuckles and rubbing the length of your finger. He turned your hand over and kissed your palm.Â
âItâs cute.âÂ
âYou like it?â You chuckled, watching with bated breath Sean kiss your fingers and knuckles and wrist.Â
âMm, nah. I hate it actually,â Sean smirked playfully.Â
You rolled your eyes as if fondness and affection werenât blooming warm in your chest. Your fingers tenderly grazed Seanâs face.
âAre you doing anything?â The softness of your murmur coaxed Sean to melt into your hand, holding it in place against his face.Â
âLike,â he murmured back, âlater?âÂ
âNo, now.â
He shook his head. âI donât have any work to do.âÂ
Your hands cupped either side of Seanâs warming face. âYou wanna take a nap with me? Iâm tired.âÂ
Sean perked up, his metaphorical tail wagging hard. His dark brown eye twinkled at you expectantly. His hands found the curve of your waist and gently pulled you closer.Â
You grinned. It was just too easy.Â
Your hands rested on Seanâs shoulders as your gaze wandered all over his face.Â
âI need you to help me, though. Everything is so much harder with nails on,â you explained as Sean, not so subtly, led you to the bedroom.Â
âHelp you with what?â He asked. Like he didnât know, that bastard. He took pleasure in forcing you to say the words out loud.
âYou know,â your hand slid from his shoulder to lightly wrap around his bicep, tightening around the muscle through his sleeve. âI can't change by myself.âÂ
That hushed, melodic sound of Seanâs giggle tugged at your heart, leaving you feeling fuzzy and dazed in Seanâs hands. He weakly kicked the door open. âCan you actually not undress yourself or do you just want me to do it for you?âÂ
âDonât pretend like you werenât acting dumb on purpose so I could ask you to help me change.âÂ
The two of you exchanged adoring, knowing smirks as you lifted both your arms and let Sean peel your shirt off your body and over your head. He placed his hands on your belt and pulled you closer. Your lips eagerly landed on Seanâs, kissing him as he undressed you from the waist down. Now you were just in your bra and underwear, exposed but so comfortable under the weight of Seanâs appreciative gaze. His thumbs hooked over the lacy hem of your underwear to properly grip onto your hips. Â
You tilted your head to the side, deepening the fervid kiss just slightly. Your hands found warm skin under Seanâs shirt. Your fingertips cascaded down the familiar muscles of his back before gripping into the hem of his shirt and pulling up. You dipped your head down to plant light kisses along his collarbone.Â
âYouâre really hot,â you whispered.Â
âHeh, thanks.âÂ
âNo, like, temperature wise. Why are you so warm?âÂ
Sean rolled his eyes playfully. âI donât know⌠I feel cold.âÂ
âSeriously? Come here.âÂ
You climbed onto the queen sized bed and kicked the duvet down to make room for your legs. You beckoned Sean closer. He hurriedly stepped out of his pants, discarding the article of clothing in a heap along with your the rest of outfit, and crawled towards you. You guided Sean to lay across your lap, stomach down. Instead, he lifted one of your thighs, laid down, and let it rest on his neck.Â
You raised a concerned eyebrow. â⌠Are you okay there? It feels like Iâm suffocating you.â
The ghost of a smile curled Seanâs pouty lips. His eyelids were starting to get droopy from just a couple seconds of being near you like this. Now for the part you were most excited about since deciding to get acrylics. Your nails disappeared in Seanâs hair, gently scratching his scalp. Any tension hidden in his muscles rapidly dissipated as Sean relaxed in your lap, damn near purring. Your lips wore a satisfied smirk.Â
âYou like that, Sean?â You teased.
Sean didnât even bother to open his eyes as he groggily retaliated, leaning into your fingertips. âShut⌠upâŚâÂ
âYou want me to move my hands?âÂ
âYes⌠a little bit to the leftâŚâ
Your fingernails traveled to scratch close to Seanâs left ear, his head following the movement. He could only move so much with your thighs circling around his throat. You used your nails on your free hand to lightly scrape Seanâs backside, coaxing a low and sleepy moan from him. His hand came up from his side to cup the outer side of your thigh. Sean rubbed languid circles into your warm skin as you massaged his body and, apparently, he still had the energy to press lazy kisses into your inner thigh.Â
Your heart fluttered.
Sean looked so sweet and drowsy in between your legs, patting your thigh while he could barely keep himself awake. You took a moment to appreciate the sight. Your fingers brushed over his cheek, his forehead, his nose. They carded through his mussed bangs. They buried themselves in his hair once again. He smiled gratefully.Â
You tore your attention away from him. Just for a few minutes while you checked your phone â your forgotten emails and missed messages. Getting caught up turned into scrolling, and soon enough, an hour passed without you even realizing. Darkness blanketed your bedroom while you werenât looking. It made everything harder to see, but it was much easier now to give into your growing need to rest,Â
You blinked slowly, lethargically. A yawn parted your mouth wide open. Your heavy lidded gaze fell onto the dark, slightly sweaty head of hair still wedged in between your thighs. Seanâs face was completely hidden. A hand pinned back his bangs and confirmed your suspicions.Â
Yep. Dead asleep.
You brushed his bangs back into place and gently cupped his cheek. At that moment, you realized you couldnât bend down and place a kiss upon Seanâs forehead, even if you wanted to, so a tender caress would have to do. You murmured under your breath sweet nothings as Sean snoozed, completely surrounded by you.
Itâs been hours since Sean had given you a kiss and left to take a nap in your shared bedroom. You were starting to miss him. You could only go so long without a person to rant to as you were watching your favorite TV show. Surely, Sean was up by now, just scrolling on his phone, forgetting to join you back on the couch.Â
You peeked into the darkened bedroom, instinctively smiling at the sight of Sean sleeping. Waning sunlight filtered through your sheer curtains and bounced off his dark, disheveled hair. He was laying on his stomach with his head nestled on a pillow. Your pillow. You could tell it was yours because Sean wouldnât stop burying his nose in it in his sleep.Â
Layers of sweat acted as glue between Seanâs skin and the clothes he lounged all day in; light green boxers that faded in color every day and a band tee that you werenât sure who it belonged to anymore. Mismatched striped and colored socks were pulled up to Seanâs calf, but most of his lower half was covered up by a thin blanket.Â
You drew a deep breath as you stepped into the room. Your nerves settled. You werenât quite sure what you were smelling every time you sniffed a room Sean happened to be sleeping in, but the scent was so calming you didnât dare question it.Â
You rounded the bed, peering at Seanâs snoozing face. You bit back a quiet giggle. Your phone was already in your hand, snapping pictures of your boyfriend as he slept without a clue in the world. You reached out and you swore his hair softened as soon as you touched it. His scalp was a bit damp with sweat, but it sweetened the scent radiating off his skin. You peeled back the blanket and slid underneath, slotting your body on top of Seanâs. You warmed up quickly, laying in between Seanâs warm body and the fleece fabric.Â
Sean stirred. You wrapped your arms around his middle and stuck your face in the crook of his heated neck. He groaned, writhing in your grasp before murmuring nonsensically.Â
âGâmorning, sleepy,â you purred enthusiastically, planting kisses on Seanâs cheek.Â
He rubbed his face against the pillow, grumbling under his breath like you couldnât hear every slurred word. âYouâre waking me upâŚâ he complained.
âYou canât be asleep forever. You have to keep me entertained.âÂ
Sean yawned noisily before turning his head towards you. His eyes were barely cracked open but he still smiled adoringly while facing you.Â
âYou look cute.âÂ
âYou look like a mess.âÂ
Sean rolled his eyes. He craned his neck to place a kiss onto your pursed lips. âYouâre crushing me, you know.â
âMmm,â you hummed, savoring the softness of Seanâs waist under his shirt. He shivered. âYou sound like youâre breathing just fine.âÂ
âWhat if I needed to go eat? Take a shower? You need to think about these things.âÂ
A wide grin spread across your lips. âYou can do those things when I say so.âÂ
Sean blinked lazily at you before his eyes shut fully. He fixed his mouth to whisper, âwhatever.âÂ
Slight panic crossed your features as you realized he was getting ready to go back to sleep. Your arms tightened, you nosed his cheek, you whined.Â
âWait, wait, donât go back to sleep yet⌠I missed you.âÂ
The breathy whisper of your name on Seanâs tongue made your stomach stir with something carnal. â⌠We live in the same apartment.â
âYeah, but⌠youâve been asleep for three whole hours, Sean. I donât have anyone to talk to.â
âYou have friends.âÂ
He had a point there, and you were running out of excuses. You looked up as you thought deeply.Â
âI missed your voice,â your brain supplied, your hands sliding up his abdomen. He trembled once more.
Judging by the way Sean quieted and flushed, it had quite the effect on him. âYouâre touching me so much.âÂ
âIs that okay?âÂ
â⌠Yeah,â he breathed. âFeels really good.âÂ
Your heart beat wildly against Seanâs back. Your quickened breath brushed the sensitive hairs on his neck, forcing them to stand at attention while your hands wandered. His hips shifted against yours and you couldnât hold back the soft moan that was building up in your chest. It was right next to Seanâs ear, light and raspy and warm. Seanâs shoulders drew up to his ears on instinct before relaxing.Â
âSeanâŚâÂ
âHm?âÂ
â⌠Sean.â
âWhat?â
You didnât know what exactly you were calling his name for, but it just felt right demanding his attention. You nuzzled his cheek, his neck, his shoulder peeking from the collar of his shirt â placing kisses anywhere your lips could reach.Â
âYou know I still canât move, right?âÂ
âI know,â you sighed, dragging your tent against Seanâs boxers. âI know.âÂ
âAre you okay with that?â You asked after individually kissing the moles on his neck. He seemed to unravel under you, hiding his reddening face as he whined quietly into your pillow.Â
âOkay with⌠what?â He gasped.Â
âNot moving. I wanna take care of you.â
Sean bit down on his lower lip and nodded meekly. You angled your head forward to kiss his lips, a kiss he eagerly returned. Sean cursed under his breath as he pushed back on you. The friction, the warmth, all of it coaxed you into grinding down, hard. You panted hot against the nape of Seanâs bare neck. You looked down at it â it was too clean, too untouched. Your lips latched onto his skin, on top of the two twin moles adorning it. The quiet drawl of your name crawled out of Seanâs parted mouth as you licked stripes up his neck.Â
Seanâs body jerked and your hand gripped his hip to keep it in place, flush against your own. You murmured softly into his pulse, âSean?â
He responded with an unintelligible moan. âYou okay?â Your free hand held Seanâs chin, turning it towards yourself.Â
His eyes were heavily lidded and glazed over with something fervid and greedy and your heart pulled to give him what he needed. But, no. You figured you could use this as a way to practice your self control, physically holding back from shucking off the little clothes Sean was wearing.Â
You figured you could come from this alone. If you really put your mind to it.
While you were engrossed in your own perverse thoughts, Sean was desperately rolling his hips into the thick blanket cushioning him, consequently rubbing himself against your bulge. Every stroke sent electric shocks throughout your nervous system, frying your brain from the inside out. You couldnât think. The only thing you were capable of doing at this point was helplessly hump and make a mess out of sweatpants you were wearing.Â
You lifted your hips and glanced down out of pure curiosity. The sight forced a choked gasp from your throat.Â
The rise and fall of Seanâs ass grazing your clothed, leaking cock. You were pretty sure the damp stain at the curve of his boxers was your doing, precome slowly soaking into the breathable fabric. Seanâs shirt was hiked up to his neck from how much you were groping his chest, and now the enticing plane of his back was exposed to you.Â
âF-fuck, Sean, I canât do this,â you lamented. Seanâs head shot up in a panic.Â
âWhat do you meanâŚ? Are you gonna stop?â
âNo⌠no, no, no, donât worry,â you placed a reassuring kiss on the side of his neck. âI just⌠need more.â
âYeah⌠me, too. I wanna see you,â Sean whispered as he pulled his arms out from under your pillow, flipping onto his back. His hands reached for your waist.Â
You lazily smiled down at him, teeth biting down on your lower lip. He pulled you into a searing kiss as you blindly turned the light on. The next time you opened your eyes, Seanâs bright and grinning face was all that you saw.
your and seanâs favorite sandwich place always fucks up your order, and you swear itâs personal. no matter how many times you tell them there will always be olives hidden somewhere in been the layers of bread, lettuce, and tomato. youâve painstakingly disassembled and reassembled your sandwich every time you get lunch with sean to pick the olives out and throw them away.
sean complains that youâre being wasteful. you suggest he eat them instead, since heâs such an advocate for olives. yuck.
for the next three months, every time you go out to eat, sean takes the olives out of your sandwich and places them in his own. he eats and smirks at you, clearly taking the piss out of being the one to stomach the vegetable out of the two of you.
âsee how i didnât die?â
âwhatever.â
one day, youâre ordering alone and decide to add olives to seanâs usual. if he likes olives so much, he can get double â both yours and the add-on. you extract the olives that were inevitably in your sandwich in the car and layer them in seanâs.
when you make it back and start eating with your boyfriend, sean visibly grimaces, staring down at his lunch.
âwhatâs wrong?â you ask.
âjustâŚâ he chews slowly, âso many olives. i canât take it.â
your hand lovingly musses seanâs hair. âoh, i added olives to your sandwich when i was ordering. sorry, honey.â
â⌠why would you do that?â
âwell, because youâre always eating my olives. i thought you loved them.â
extremely clingy sean who sticks to you the entire day, unable to take his hands off of you. if heâs not touching you for even a few minutes he will die. you have no idea where itâs coming from, but you like the attention, so you let it slide.
his hands creep under your shirt while you work, his mouth finds the back of your neck as you do laundry, and his hips never leave yours. the entire time heâs purring next to your ear, murmuring about how much he missed you and when the two of you could hang out again.
nearing the end of the day, seanâs desperate to have you touch him back. you didnât have enough free time on your hands to reciprocate the smothering but now, when you were dwindling down from long hours of nonstop work, you could take your time with him.
sean doesnât touch you until you tell him to and it drives him crazy. you would think after being all over you all day he would be able to handle a couple seconds of keeping his hands to himself. he downright begs you to let him kiss you, at his witsâ end. you smile to yourself at the display.
âcome on. say please.â
âplease.â
âyou expect me to let you do anything when you ask like that?â
I literally love your fics so much theyâre so goodđŁ
THANK YOU THANK YOU !!! i feel so bad for how long they take sometimes please bear with me iâm a slow writer + in the middle of exam season </3 but thank you all for the support !!!
Could you please write something with Blood Brother Sean? For example the reader is vacationing and catches his interest, they meet multiple times in the city and maybe become a bit more intimate over time? Could either be a full fic or a short oneshot if you donât like the idea. IM DESPERATE đ also love your writing style!!!!!
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my very first request!! iâm so pleased!!! sorry this took so long to come out, exam szn ya know. please enjoy!!
The raging sun burnt the skin covering your arms as you strained pushing the deep burgundy Corolla. Your friend, Felicity, nearly collapsed against the back bumper next to you. She groaned out loud.Â
âFuck, I canât do this!â She declared to no one in particular. You wiped the sweat on your forehead and plopped down next to her, wincing at the pain of the scorching hot asphalt seeping through your clothes.Â
You lazily fanned yourself off with your hand, âWhat are we supposed to do about this? What can we do about this?âÂ
Your mind went totally blank at solutions. How could you think of one when the heat beating down on you and Felicity made your mind go fuzzy? And the dire situation you were in didnât help. Your gaze nervously flitted; the sun was way above your head but climbing across the sky quickly, nobody was driving on this road for miles, and even if there was, there was little chance either you or Felicity would be able to get help from them keeping in mind your very limited Spanish vocabulary.Â
You were hot. And uncomfortable. And starving.Â
Tense, grim silence settled between the both of you as you let your head hit the back of your car. You never thought about what itâd feel like to burn and starve to death, but you sure were getting a taste of it now.Â
You nearly came to terms with your mortality when Felicity gasped, perking up. Your lidded eyes lazily drifted to her.
âI know someone who can help!â
You rolled your eyes as you shielded your eyes from the sun, âYou just now thought of somebody?â
âHeâs like a mile down this road and heâs the best mechanic I know in Puerto Lobos!â
âA mile!?â You repeated, your hand dropping to your side. It was quickly clutched to your chest upon feeling the hot sting of the black asphalt.Â
Felicity was on her feet, temporarily blocking the sunâs assault on you. âCome on, we only need to push the car for⌠maybe 20 more minutes?âÂ
Twenty. Whole. Minutes.
Well.
You reached out for Felicityâs hands and grunted when your own hands slipped out of them with little to no friction. You wiped the sweat off your hands on your pants and tried again, letting Felicity pull you up to your feet. You heaved a breath, whispering a quick âthank youâ, and turned to the damned brick causing this mess.Â
Just twenty more minutes.
A third of an hour stretched into more than half as the Corollaâs tires rolled towards your destination. Felicity tried to start small talk but not much was said between the two of you when all you could manage were stifled grunts. You almost moaned with relief when you spotted a quaint garage slapped in between a couple shops. It was a little busier around this area, but few cars drove into the garage.Â
You guys would probably be the only ones in there.Â
Adrenaline rushed through your veins at the thought of finally resting. Spanish bounced around the cluttered garage as you rolled your car over the curb and past the open garage door. You slumped against the trunk, nearly cursing out loud from exhaustion but you just barely remembered your manners.Â
Your eyes swept the repair shop.Â
Tools you could barely name were hung up on the walls, barrels were pushed into corners, and the strong scent of diesel overwhelmed your nostrils. A lanky and clearly agitated teenage boy lugging around a tire emerged from a side room. He gave you a judgemental look up and down before yelling out.Â
âSean, thereâs people here for you.â Heavy footsteps sounded from behind you. You whipped your head around.Â
âUgh, Daniel, if this is another prankââ
Your heart nearly jumped out of your chest. You thought you were seeing double when a man with nearly the same face as⌠âDanielâ walked out from a hallway. But, upon closer inspection, this Sean had facial hair, a scar brandished on his cheek, and a black artificial left eye. His furrowed thick dark eyebrows relaxed at the sight of you and Felicity. The corners of his lips worked up just slightly.Â
Felicity ran up to him, greeting him with some handshake you paid no mind to. You couldnât stop looking.Â
Black hair slightly curling at the ends fell over his sweaty forehead, licking at his eyelashes. He needed a trim, or a headband, but you prayed he wouldnât find his way to either. Sean had a confident stride. His fingers were blackened with oil and grease, and it rubbed off on Felicityâs clothes when they went for a hug.Â
His mouth was moving. He was speaking, but you didnât hear anything, too entranced. You barely thought to close your mouth when he turned to address you, slowly repeating your name after Felicity introduced him to you.Â
You swore his eyes got sparklier when he stuck his hand out, âIâm Sean. Nice meeting you.â
You abruptly came to your senses and realized just how sweaty your palm was. You timidly wiped it off on your legs before taking his hand and shaking it. âLikewiseâŚâ you stammered.Â
âYou wanna tell me what youâre doing all the way out here?â He put his hands on his hips and smirked as he shifted his weight to one leg.Â
As Felicity explained your guysâ desperate situation, you kept to yourself. You thought if your eyes lingered on Sean for a second longer, youâd implode and splatter your insides all over the garage. But, Sean, couldnât keep his eyes off of you. While Felicity was explaining how the Corolla wouldnât budge even with the pedal glued to the floor, Sean was meeting your gaze and chuckling to himself when you instinctually looked away. You let Felicity handle everything since she seemed somewhat close to Sean and faded into the background, looking around the repair shop in lieu of engaging in the conversation.Â
Your mind drifted. Sean was wearing a faded black t-shirt with short sleeves, exposing his stained arms. You bet you could chalk up how toned his forearms were to all the work he did, fixing busted up cars and carrying large parts. There were fans parked in nearly every crevice of the room, but you could imagine they went out of order at times, forcing him to change into thinner tops or forgo wearing a shirt altogether. Oh, the conditions the unbearably hot weather would put Sean in. Â
Suddenly, your flushed skin looked less like a consequence of you putting in work under the sun and more like the result of a straying train of thought. Daniel walked up to you, offering you a bottle of cold water. The condensation clung to the plastic enticingly. You took the bottle and gave your thanks with a small smile. He didnât smile back.Â
Your friend found a seat to lounge in around the garage while Sean approached you. He lifted the hood of your car and peered into the guts. âThis yours?â He grinned at you.
âEr, yeah,â you mumbled. âGot it for my 16th.âÂ
âHeh, I was supposed to get a car for my 17th, too, but that⌠didnât really work out.â Sean reached for his belt and pulled out a tool you didnât recognize.Â
You crossed your arms over your chest. âI bet you ride super hot cars now, right?âÂ
He mirrored your small smirk. âYou could say that. I⌠have a low rider for fun, but I drive around in a tiny little compact truck.âÂ
âWhen did you get it?â You turned towards the hood of the car.
âAs soon as I got to Mexico. Some guy was just⌠giving it away and I had to snatch it up before anybody else could. I basically saved her.â
You giggled. âWhat a savior.âÂ
You were metaphorically glued to Seanâs side as he fixed your car, getting to know him and how much he loved drawing in sketchbooks and using ink, listening to bands like Red Hot Chili Peppers on a busted MP3 player, and skateboarding whenever he found the time to practice. You had to, on multiple occasions, school your adoring gummy expression. Slight tremors plagued your features at the thought of Sean catching onto your infatuation with him. You couldnât tell if he was feeling the same way, but damn if your feelings were outed first.Â
Two hours passed without you even feeling it. You had it in you to feel a little embarrassed. For the past two hours youâve been following Sean around like a puppy, looking over his shoulder and even sitting down next to his mechanic creeper when he went to look under the car. Sean never made you feel stupid or annoying for constantly pestering him. Maybe he liked the attention. Maybe he was waiting for you to realize it on your own and correct yourself.
You sighed.Â
You scooted back and planted your hands and feet on the floor, preparing to shift your weight so you could stand. Seanâs hand reached out from under the car and hesitated. It looked as if he was about to grab your ankle to stop you from moving away
âUhâ W-where⌠are you going?â Sean stuttered.Â
Stuttered.Â
Seanâs stuttering around you.
You slowly lowered yourself back to the ground. âNowhere.âÂ
You found it so difficult to hide your overly enthusiastic smile. Itâs not like you had to. The only person you were worried about seeing you like this had his head stuck under the front bumper.Â
âSo⌠about that concert,â Sean reminded you.Â
You perked up. âOh, yeah! It was so good. Really immersive. The only downside is my friend and I, not Felicity, paid for nosebleeds, so we had to watch most of the show fromâŚâÂ
Your gaze wandered as you described your first ever concert experience and unfortunately it landed on Felicity. She was definitely comfortable, butt tucked into a tower of tires and limbs splayed out haphazardly. She quirked her eyebrows up at you suggestively, pursing her lips and making kissy noises. You rolled your eyes and attempted to ignore her.Â
You were in the middle of dissecting one of your favorite sons from your teenagehood when Sean rolled out, visibly dirtied up. You quieted immediately, eyes widening with piqued interest. He was wearing a pleased smirk.Â
âTry starting your car,â he ordered proudly.Â
You scrambled to your feet and fished your keys out of your pocket. Sean fully stood up and moved out of the way. You opened the driverâs side door, shoved the keys into the ignition, and started the car.
Purring like a kitten.
âYes! Fuck, yes, thank you!â You shouted, locking eyes with Sean from inside the car. You stumbled out. âHow much do I pay you? I think I left my wallet somewhereâŚâ You trailed off as you patted your pockets.Â
âDonât worry about it, itâs on me.â Your jaw dropped.Â
âSeriously? No, you canât do that,â you frantically shoved your hand into your thinning wallet.Â
Seanâs hands clasped over yours. âI promise itâs fine,â he pleaded softly.
Oh. Okay.Â
You shyly maintained eye contact with Sean as Felicity groaned.Â
âCan we get out of here now?âÂ
Barely a week passed without you bothering your friend about how much you wanted to see Sean again. Itâs not like you had any real reason to get up and see him, anyway. Your car was working just fine. You werenât even using it much these days, opting to explore Puerto Lobos on foot.Â
But⌠maybe you could find a reason to see him.Â
Or rather make one?Â
You stood over your car with your hands on your hips, peering into its guts. You felt like an evil surgeon deciding its fate. You didnât know shit about cars and knew even less about what could be easily broken without much consequence. The alleyway you had stowed your car in was anything but quiet, clouding your mind and making it that much harder to think, but soon you decided. A tiny red thing that fits in your pocket. Your car did make a soft noise when you removed it but Sean could handle that himself.Â
You steeled yourself to push your car down the block, blissfully ignoring the concerned bystanders. Your muscles ached and burned, still affected by the whole ordeal two days prior, but you had a one track mind. Instead of Sean welcoming you into the garage with open arms and a beaming expression, you were met with Danielâs teenage angst.Â
âWhat are you doing back here?â He grumbled as you wiped your hands off on your shorts.Â
âAh,â you gestured to your car, âmy car wonât start.âÂ
You held his deadpan stare for a few agonizingly silent moments before he opened his mouth. âHave you tried putting the keys in the ignition?â
Is this kid serious? âYes, Iâve tried that.â
âLet me look at it,â Daniel said begrudgingly, pushing himself off the desk he was leaning on.Â
Wait. Shit.Â
You didnât push your car down the block just so your targetâs sassy little brother could fix your car before you could even see him. You searched for an excuse for why Daniel couldnât put his hands on your car in a frenzy, eyes batting around the garage. You prepared wholeheartedly to lie.Â
âUh, you know, maybeââÂ
âDaniel, who are you talking to like that?âÂ
Your head turned on a swivel towards the familiar soft voice.Â
Fuck, it was Sean. Sean, who was clearly reeling back from a particularly heavy nap, was shirtless and standing right behind you. Deep lines were imprinted across his chest, running over intricate tattoos that you so desperately wanted a closer look at. His a-little-too-big jeans hung low on his hips. Low enough for the waistband of his pinstriped boxers to peek.          Â
You pressed your lips into a tight line to stifle any embarrassing sound that might come out.
Lidded, sleepy eyes landed on you and widened. âOh. Hey.âÂ
Suddenly Sean had it in him to be self conscious, wrapping his arms around his own waist and blushing. Youâd smile at his shyness if you werenât as â if not more â flustered than him.Â
âHeyâŚâ You repeated back bashfully. At the back of your mind, you could hear Daniel making his departure known with an exaggerated sigh.
âSorry, Iâll go get dressed properlyââ
Your hands stuck out in protest.Â
âW-wait, noâ!â What the fuck were you doing? âItâll, um⌠be quick!â
Sean raised an eyebrow, âOkay⌠Whatâs up with your car? I just saw you a few days ago.âÂ
You pulled a nervous smile as you prepared to lie through your teeth again. âThing wonât start,â you shrugged, âjust⌠ka-put.âÂ
âKa-putâ? You mentally pinched yourself. You couldnât be acting a fool in front of Sean like this.Â
âLet me seeâŚâ Sean popped the hood of your car and swept the components with his eyes. A small smile started to creep on his lips. He looked back at you with a soft smirk and your stomach dropped.Â
He stretched out an open hand, âGive it to me.â
â⌠Give what to you?â Your lower lip trembled as you spoke. You swore Sean could smell the fear on you.Â
His smirk broadened. âYou know what. Give it to me.âÂ
You couldnât keep eye contact with him as you shoved your hand in your pocket and dug out the rotor arm. You dropped it into his waiting palm like a dog spitting out something it wasnât even supposed to have in its mouth.Â
Sean snickered as he fixed the rotor arm back into your car. âDid you fuck with your car on purpose?âÂ
â⌠No.âÂ
âYes, you did.âÂ
âNo, I didnât.â
âRotor arms donât just fall off out of nowhere,â Sean crossed his arms, tilting his head to the side.Â
âWellâŚâ you shook your head, âmine does.âÂ
Sean leaned into your personal space and you steeled yourself, drawing a deep breath and holding it, unmoving. You stubbornly held his gaze.Â
âWhyâd you do that? Hm?â
âI donât need to tell you anything.â
âDid you want to come and see me?â
You flushed with embarrassment. âYou think too highly of yourself.â
âYou know you couldâve just⌠asked,â Seanâs voice dropped to a whisper. âI want to hang out with you, too.âÂ
You swallowed thickly. This was too close and too intimate for two people who met a week ago. But Sean was so clearly into you, and you were so intensely entranced by him. What could go wrong?Â
â⌠Do you want to hang out?âÂ
Sean grinned so sincerely it made your chest hurt. âYeah. Let me put some clothes on.âÂ
You let Sean go get situated without a hitch, and suddenly you were left alone with your own thoughts.Â
You suggested the two of you hang out and he just⌠agreed. Without even asking where you guys would go or what you would do. Maybe Sean had a place in mind, which would explain why he accepted without missing a beat. Had he thought about this as much as you did? Did he mull over places to take you? Was he thinking about you during that week you guys were apart?Â
Are you insane for turning this into something deeper when the two of you barely knew each other?Â
You chewed on your nail. You never chewed your nails. But you had to put this energy somewhere. Fuck, your heart was hammering in your chest and your palms started to dampen with sweat. This was the worst time to second guess yourself â minutes after securing a somewhat date with the guy you liked.Â
Weighted footsteps saved you from being too lost in your own head. A hand gently tugged your wrist away from your face.Â
âNervous?â Sean asked. Now he was wearing a loose gray sleeveless top.
You chuckled breathlessly. âYeahâŚâ
âDonât be. Weâre just gonna drive around, probably stop near the beach.âÂ
âIf weâre gonna stop near the beach,â you started before walking around your car and opening the trunk. Inside was a 6-pack of beers that wasnât even broken into yet. Sean tilted his head, bewildered but smiling.Â
âDid you already have this or did you put it in your car just for this? You know, since you planned this.âÂ
âIt just,â you shrugged, âwounded up in there.âÂ
âYeah, yeah, okay,â Sean giggled as he wrapped his fingers around the handle and lifted the pack. You fondly watched the muscles in his arms tense up before realizing what he was doing.
âUhm, where are you taking it?â
âI have a cooler of ice we can put it in.âÂ
You chuckled, following his footsteps without a second thought. âJust lying around.âÂ
âWell, yeah,â Sean said. âI was expecting you.âÂ
That was weird. Why did he say that? You tilted your head to the side and squinted, mulling over Seanâs answer in your head. Your lips parted in preparation to ask a question, for clarification, but Sean had already disappeared around a corner. You hurried to catch up to him.Â
You trotted behind him through the storage room and out the back door to the beachside of the garage. There, a small white truck waited for the two of you, frying in the summer heat. Grains of sand stuck to peeling paint and that did nothing but add to its charm. In the bed of the truck was a cooler, already filled to the brim with ice. Your eyes followed Seanâs every movement as he opened it and scooped ice cubes out to make room.Â
âSoâŚâ you kicked up some sand, âwhat did you mean by that?âÂ
âMean by what?â He smirked over his shoulder.Â
âWhy were you expecting me?âÂ
âWell⌠Your car wasnât going to last long without another trip to the garage.âÂ
You fought back a wide and knowing smile, crossing your arms. âAnd why is that?âÂ
âI just⌠moved some things around. No harm, no foul, right?âÂ
Christ. Of course the two of you lunatics would tamper with your poor car in order to see each other again. âI guess that makes us even.âÂ
Sean flashed you a charming smile before closing the cooler once the last beer bottle was snugly tucked in between the ice. He rounded the truck and climbed into the driverâs side. You mirrored him, sliding into the passengerâs seat. Comfortable silence blanketed the car as Sean started it up. You could feel the engine rumbling underneath you, the vibration loosening your anxieties. His truck stumbled off the beach and onto the main road, eagerly rolling after the setting sun.Â
The two of you passed playful quips back and forth as the scenery changed around you. You werenât paying attention to how buildings were starting to space out or how the grass looked considerably drier the farther you went down the road. The conversation you were having with Sean was too entertaining to notice anything else.Â
Only when Sean parked at the edge of a cliff and turned off the ignition did you realize where you were.Â
Your head turned on a swivel as you surveyed your surroundings. Rock and loose dirt stretched out for miles behind you, the quaint town you were just in appearing as tiny dots in the distance. Laid out below the cliff were vibrant blue waters splashing onto an empty beach. The sun bounced off the ocean, making it shimmer enticingly.Â
You clamped your open mouth shut once you saw Sean smiling at you, looking all smug.Â
âGorgeous, right?â He said.Â
âYeah,â you breathed. âReally pretty.âÂ
The two of you crawled into the bed of the trunk, right next to the red cooler covered with condensation. You cracked the trunk open and grabbed a beer, whistling low when the frigid glass hit your skin. You passed it to Sean and he accepted it with a grateful smile. Your fingers lingered on the bottle for a second too long before you let go. Sean spotted this, of course, and you knew because his gaze so hesitantly tore away from your face. You could hear the satisfying hiss of Sean opening his beer next to you as you grabbed your own.Â
You leaned against the cabin of the car, fondly watching the sun dip behind the horizon. Sean tilted the neck of his bottle towards you. You flashed a toothy grin as you tilted yours, the glass meeting with a clink. You always forgot how bitter the first sip of beer was with you drinking alcohol so sparsely, but you got over the taste quickly.Â
You could feel your spine loosening up, your tongue relaxing in your mouth. Fuck, this is why you didnât drink. It became so much easier for you to just say what was on your mind. You squeezed your eyes shut and focused on trying to keep your inhibitions.Â
A hand gently patted your thigh and you tried your hardest not to jerk.Â
âYou okay?âÂ
âIâm okay, youâre justâŚâ You trailed off.Â
Seanâs dark eyebrows rose. He leaned closer to you. âIâm just⌠what?âÂ
âI donât know. Youâre here and⌠I like you a lot. I donât know what to do with myself.â Holy shit. You barely even drank from your beer and you were just letting everything spill. âSean?âÂ
The man in question chewed on his bottom lip before answering. âYeah?âÂ
You wordlessly sipped your beer as you held eye contact with Sean. Something deep in you stirred just from watching him hide his widening smile behind his bottle. The warmth of the sun lazily lifted off your skin, leaving a comforting chill behind. You were annoyed with how relaxed you were, your eyelids getting increasingly heavier as the alcohol neared the bottom of the bottle. You didnât flinch when Seanâs hand cupped the nape of your neck.
âLightweight?â He asked, thumb rubbing circles into your flushed skin. You nodded meekly.Â
âYeah,â he sighed, âme, too.âÂ
You sucked your lower lip in between your teeth, which drew Seanâs keen eyes to your mouth. You felt the brush of Seanâs breath against your skin and couldnât remember how your faces got this close. Your gaze flickered between Seanâs lips and his dilated pupils. Your hand found the junction where Seanâs neck connected to his shoulder and rested there.Â
Waves crashed into the shore, crickets chirped from their hiding places in the tall, dry grass, and the heavy, labored breathing shared between the two of you were the only sounds that could be heard for miles. Seanâs lips were so close. Just right there. All you had to do was lean forward.Â
You parted your own lips and inched closer. Sean just slightly backed away, barely missing your mouth. Your heart sank.Â
His fingers gripped the back of your neck a little tighter, but not to the point it hurt. Just enough for you to be aware of his hand and where he had you.Â
âYou wanna kiss me?âÂ
You nodded shyly, not quite meeting Seanâs eyes. His other hand held your jaw.Â
âCome onâŚâ he nudged, brushing his thumb against your chin. He wanted you to talk. Fuck.Â
â⌠Yes. I wanna kiss you.âÂ
Humiliation burned your face. You didnât know your voice could sound so vulnerable and wimpy.Â
His hands led your lips to his, the skin connecting for a soft kiss. You pursed your lips for another kiss before Sean could pull you away. The quiet wet smack coaxed a low-pitched whine out of you.Â
âItâs good? You liked it?â Sean murmured into your mouth. You could only whimper in response.Â
â⌠You wanna kiss me again?â A small smile twitched on his lips. He was too smug, enjoying this more than he should. You shook your head this time.Â
Your kisses cascaded down Seanâs jaw, his neck, the sliver of collarbone that was exposed by his muscle tee as you shifted to straddle his legs. Sean panted above you. His hands lost themselves on your scalp.Â
âWh⌠what are youââ
You peeked up at him, locking eyes. Your mouth paused on his skin and your hands froze just above his waist. You waited for a go-ahead as patiently as you could, blissfully ignoring the way your heart was damn near jumping out from your mouth.Â
Sean murmured a curse under his breath out of pure wonderment. His hands stroked your face graciously before pulling your head against his chest, planting a kiss along your hairline.Â
You parted to scoot back, clutch his hips, and drag them forward. Your hands massaged the heated skin of Seanâs abdomen, hiking his shirt up his torso. Your head dipped to litter kisses along the ridges. A full-body shiver shook you as your lips grazed the dark hairs leading from Seanâs navel to below the waistband of his jeans. You lifted your head and found Sean watching you with parted lips and bated breath.Â
âYou wannaâŚ?â You whispered.
Seanâs hands were already on his belt. âAh, yeah, hold onâŚâ
The accessory was loosened enough for him to comfortably unzip his fly. Drool leaked from your mouth and landed on his jeans as he pushed the waistband further down his thighs, soaking into the fabric. You quickly wiped your lips in hopes Sean didnât notice but it was already too late.Â
He giggled, the sound mocking. He placed a hand on the top of your head and gently pushed down. âYou can come closer⌠if you want.â
âSorry, Iâm⌠Iâm a fucking mess right now, godâŚâ You blabbed pathetically, gaze trained on every movement of his fingers.Â
âYou ever done this before? Would you be able to handle it?âÂ
âMhmâŚâ You had never even been near someoneâs crotch like this. Your pulse was racing underneath your tongue and this was the most nervous you felt ever.Â
â⌠But you still need help, donât you?âÂ
This was so humiliating. This was so humiliating and you were actively enjoying the way Sean was talking down to you. You nodded again, slow and docile as Sean held your chin with one hand. âYesâŚâÂ
You let Sean pull his own boxers down, gulping down a deep breath when his cock gently tapped your lower lip. Your mouth instinctually opened, coaxing a quiet chuckle out of Sean. You wanted to hate how much he was amused by your antics. You wanted to hate it so desperately. But there was no denying how every demeaning offhanded comment made your mind feel fuzzier.Â
You pouted as Sean softly smacked his tip against your lip all while wearing a bitten back, perverse smile.Â
âSeanâŚâ You pleaded.Â
âHehe, right, Iâm sorry, mi angel,â he said with a shameless expression, clearly unapologetic.Â
His thumb delicately pried your mouth open. Your attention was averted to Seanâs focused face. His lower lip was held in between his teeth as he so tenderly fed his cock into your mouth. Your jaw went slack as it tried to accommodate the weight on your tongue. The sensation was addicting, curling warm pleasure in between your thighs, you had to have more.Â
You pushed your head forward a little too deep, a little too fast, and tragically choked when the head of Seanâs dick slammed into the back of your throat. You were forced to pull your mouth off of him and try to catch your breath, blubbering like an idiot as Sean panicked over you.Â
Seanâs fingers caressed your jaw. âFuck, are you okay!? Was that too much?âÂ
âNo, I was justâŚâ you mumbled dumbly, âbeing stupid.âÂ
You bent down and tried again, timidly taking Seanâs cock in your hand. This time, you pressed your lips against the weeping head, staining your bottom lip with precome. This earned you a low groan from Sean. His fingers stroked your hair as a method of encouragement. You kitten-licked the wet slit beading out precome while your fingers slightly tightened around his base. Seanâs free hand slid to wrap over yours.Â
You left a few more kisses on the sensitive skin before languidly slipping it into your mouth, as much as you could. You didnât want a repeat of what happened a second ago so you took your time. Dark hair tickled your nose when you fitted most of Sean into your mouth. God, this was the most indulgent situation you had ever found yourself in â sucking the dick of some guy you met a week ago on a vacation to Mexico in the bed of his truck.Â
You moaned deeply, the vibration rumbling through Seanâs cock and luring a matching, high pitched sound from Sean. Â
You placed a hand on his stomach for leverage and let his cock fall mostly out of your mouth in one fell swoop before catching it again. Fuck, you were so sure you were making a fool out of yourself, moving so awkwardly. You peeked at him, fully expecting Sean to be watching you with a bored expression, like he would prefer doing anything else.Â
His eyes were incredibly wide and star-struck. Sean wasnât watching you with a smug face and a teasing comment at the tip of his tongue, but rather drooling and waiting, so eagerly. His needy pout was all you needed to keep going.Â
Your head bobbed shallowly at the tip of cock as your hand gently worked the rest. Now, you could hear just how much Sean craved you. It was hard to tell what he was saying exactly, as it was all under his breath and in another language, but your ears picked up on a few mentions of your name.
You gradually sped up. It was hard not to say it was overwhelming with how your nose smelt nothing but Seanâs sweat and musk, your mouth and tongue sliding around his dick, and your jaw aching. It was enjoyable, but so much. At least you had a show to watch in front of you. Sean, bent over you, gripping your hair and shuddering. He had been careful not to be too controlling at the start, but now, all the caution was abandoned.Â
âTanto talento⌠such a good mouth,â Sean praised, eyes blissfully shut.Â
Your hollowed cheeks burned at the indecently whispered compliment. You had to keep going, to see Sean unravel in front of you in real time.Â
Spit and precome started to dribble down the length of Seanâs cock, making the process all the more smoother. Sean couldnât keep himself quiet anymore. Not that he had to. The truck was surrounded by nothing but beach and dirt and empty roads. He cried out expletives, guiding your head and pushing when it became too much to bear without coming quickly.Â
You let Sean practically manhandle you, fucking into your mouth while you squeezed your eyes shut and tried not to gag. Or, at least, gag in a way that was off-putting.Â
âF-fuck, ughââ He sobbed, canting his hips. You held back a noisy whine when he full-on held your head down. Thick, sappy liquid flooded your throat without warning except for a high pitched mewl from Sean.Â
His body slumped against the cabin of the truck as he sat through the aftershocks of his orgasm, his fingers lingering in your hair. His dick had slipped past your lips and fell onto his stomach, limp and sated. When Sean opened his eyes, panic flashed across his face when he realized you were holding something in your mouth.Â
âOh, my god, shit, I-Iâm so sorry!â His hands couldnât find one place to rest. âI shouldâve warned you or something, hereââ
Sean cupped his hand in front of your mouth.
You stayed frozen.Â
His eyebrows knitted together. âCome on, spit it out!âÂ
You swallowed thickly. It was salty.Â
Seanâs mouth hung open in shock as you wiped at your lips. âWhy did you do that!?â
âI just⌠wanted to,â you reasoned simply. âHow was that? Did you like it? It actually was my first time, though, sorry.âÂ
Sean let out a breathy laugh as he dragged his hands over his blissed out face. He cupped them around yours.Â
âIt didnât feel like it was your first time⌠Youâre really good with your mouth, you know,â Sean smirked before planting a kiss on your forehead.Â
âTh-thanksâŚâ You muttered shyly.Â
Sean turned his head to the abandoned cooler sitting next to the two of you.Â
âYou can try to wash your mouth out with some of the beer we have left over⌠Sorry, again.âÂ
âItâs okay, Sean,â you reassured him. âI probably would have done that even if you didnât push me down.â
A smile bordering on cocky curled Seanâs lips. âWould you? The next time?âÂ
â⌠The next time?âÂ
âYeah⌠the next time youâre back here.âÂ
You chuckled, âSean, Iâm here for another week. Are you that excited to do this all over again?âÂ
Sean bit back a grin watching you laugh. âWell, give me your number at least. I⌠want to be able to talk to you whenever I want.âÂ
âSo demandingâŚâ you teased, patting Seanâs thigh. âI think my phoneâs still inside the car. Wait here, Iâll go get it.â
Your legs twitched around Seanâs waist, flinching every couple of seconds when pleasure overwhelmed your senses. A shallow breath was caught, captured in your chest, stealing your wind. Your hand tightly clutched your boyfriendâs as the heat rolling in your stomach became too much to bear.
âF-fuck, Sean,â you sputtered, your voice barely above a whisper. Your vision blurred around the edges and your tongue slowed in your mouth.
Sean bowed over you, holding you down, careful but firm. Like you were akin to something sacred. He sure acted like you were, never missing a beat to rain praises down on your bare body. Every husky murmur sunk into your skin, seeping into your pores to warm you up from the inside. His lips had pressed against your jaw, your neck, your chest until he could map out your entire being from memory alone.
Falling into bed wrapped around Sean always ended like this â slow, thick, and incredibly intense. You couldnât pinpoint a time you werenât repeatedly pushed to the edge, both physically and emotionally. You supposed this was the point of sex, to share both pleasure and exhaustion in the name of love.
Seanâs lips desperately searched for yours. The rumble of his whines served as a gentle hum against your cheek. You met his mouth with your own, whispering âI love youâs in between every kiss. The hot coil in the pit of your belly tightened, burning worse as Seanâs tongue licked into your mouth. The overstimulation was getting to you. Your brain was so foggy and every thought depleted your already drained energy. You parted your lips to plead your boyfriend to speed up, to save you from this state of limbo, when a drop of wetness landed on your cheek.
Confusion crossed your mind, weakly cutting through your impassioned stupor. You wiped at your cheek and glanced at your fingers. Clear and thin. You looked up.
Tears stained Seanâs flushed, colored cheeks. Sweat rolled off the tip of his nose as he quietly whimpered above you. His chest subtly heaved with every stifled sob. He buried his face in the crook of your neck, full-on crying once his weepy expression was out of sight.
This was all so sudden and so unusual that your hands were frozen in place for a long few moments as you tried to process. They reached for Sean in a panic as you whispered, voice raspy and concerned.
âSean?â Your hands found his chin and the nape of his neck. You held Seanâs head above yours, allowing yourself a full view of his damp cheeks. âWhatâs wrong? Are you okay, baby?â
He didnât respond at first, blubbering your name in a manner that was almost downright pathetic. Your hands tenderly caressed clammy skin in an attempt to soothe him. You repeatedly tried to coax an explanation out of him, a reason as to why he was sobbing into your neck.
Or at all.
âDo you want to stop? HmâŚ?â You tried again. He solemnly shook his head, parting his quivering lips to mumble.
âN-no, I just⌠I canâtâŚâ
âItâs okay, Sean, we donât have to keep goingââ
âWait, please,â Sean begged pitifully. âI-I donât want to stop, please donât make me stop, honeyââ
Your fingers gently carded through Seanâs sweat slicken bangs. â⌠Then tell me whatâs wrong.â
Sean laid his head on your falling and rising chest, pressing his ear right above your jackrabbiting heart. His hands slid down to cradle your waist. You figured he could use some time to recollect himself, to gather his thoughts. Your hands absentmindedly wandered into Seanâs mussed hair, languidly playing with the strands and scratching his dampened scalp.
Enough time passed without a spoken word for you to guess Sean had fallen asleep without confessing to you. You drew a deep breath, mentally pocketing this until later. You tilted Seanâs head up by the chin just to double check how asleep he was.
Sean met your eyes with watery, dilated pupils and a trembling bottom lip.
âOh,â you breathed, pulling your boyfriend in for another fond kiss. He reciprocated languidly, slowly pursing his lips into yours. Seanâs mannerisms were loose enough for an actual conversation.
âYou wanna tell me what that was? Youâve never cried like that beforeâŚâ Your hands stroked Seanâs hair as you held eye contact. Seanâs gaze was heavy lidded and yearning. His hips wearily rocked into yours.
âI just⌠fuck, I need you so badly,â he admitted into the tiny space between you. âI-I donât know, Iâm just feeling so much. Itâs⌠Itâs good, youâre good â youâre so good â I canât help but cry.â
Your mouth opened and closed, helpless and dumbfounded. You werenât sure if you understood but thankfully, Sean wasnât done.
âYouâre so good to me⌠I donât know what I did to deserve you.â Pleasure began to build in your gut again while Seanâs hips gradually followed an almost ravenous pace. His fingers were aching around your waist as he held you in place. You were barely given a chance to console your boyfriend when you started to pant into his mouth, vision fuzzy and unfocused.
You didnât have a clue what the fuck was going on. You had never seen Sean so open, so sincere, so raw. He was completely vulnerable in between your legs. The two of you were in the middle of the most intimate sex of your life when he just started⌠crying. Not because he was upset with you or particularly sad about anything, but because he was overwhelmed with how much he loved you.
Something deep in you shifted.
You had rarely seen Sean cry, and you wished more than anything to never be the cause of it. But this? This you could get used to. The fact that you just being you could get Sean to act besides himself like this was thrilling. You bit down on the deep and ragged moan threatening to escape your mouth. The only sound ringing out in between the four walls of your bedroom were your stifled groans, your boyfriendâs murmured praises, and the perverse sound of his skin striking yours.
The quietly uttered sound of your name brought you back to the one sided conversation at hand.
âI-Iâm⌠so happy no one gets to see you like this. Youâre mine, okay?â Seanâs nose slotted next to yours, eyes blissfully closed. âPlease donât let anyone touch you.â
âI-I wonât,â you said. You could swear Sean was trying to reach deeper with every thrust after that confirmation.
âPromiseâŚ?â He choked.
âI promise, Sean,â You repeated, firmer. âYouâll be the only one.â
Sean cursed under his breath, fucking into you with reckless abandon. He apologized profusely as his hand cascaded down your body to intertwine fingers with you.
He held your joined hands against his chest. âI know this is too fast for you, honey, Iâm sorryââ
You gasped, âN-no, please, fasterââ
Your fingers tightened around Seanâs as he so mercifully led you to your peak. Pleasure crashed down on you in intense waves, rippling through your muscles without a care. A loud cry stalled in your throat as your thighs tightened around Seanâs waist, your ankles crossing behind his back, essentially locking him in place. Seanâs clouded and wide eyes found yours in a panic.
âCome on, babe, are you sure? You want me to?â Sean mewled.
You nodded feverishly, not even trusting your own mouth anymore. Your bliss barely waned when Sean spilled into you, warm and overpowering, muttering your name under his breath like a sacred vow. His exhausted body laid its full weight on top of you. The two of you huffed into each otherâs mouths, just staring into the other personâs eyes. The dim lighting didnât allow you to see much, but nothing would stop you from watching the way both love and lust swam in Seanâs blown out, adoring pupils. A certain fondness always glazed over his eyes whenever he looked at you.
You held his face in your hands and kissed him all over.
âI love you. I love you so much.â
Sean quietly repeated the sentiment as he kissed back, sluggish and lethargic.
Sean heaved a loaded sigh next to you for the fifth time that treacherous night. Your elbows started to feel sore pinned against the railing of the rollerskating rink like this, but if Sean wasnât moving, neither were you.Â
You turned to him with a mean old scowl. âWhat the fuck is your problem?âÂ
âDudeâŚâ he started, shaking his head solemnly. âItâs almost midnight and Iâm stillâŚâÂ
You raised an eyebrow. âStillâŚ? What? A virgin?âÂ
âUgh,â Sean groaned, glancing at you with an irritated expression. âHowâd you know?âÂ
âBecause I know you? Youâve been talking about it nonstop all week.â Your eyes followed a teenager skating on the rink. Their arms were stretched out, and their knees were locked back as they let their skates roll them forward, their eyes glued to the floor the entire time.Â
A friend, presumably, wobbled up to them. Clearly they were no pro themselves but they grabbed their friendâs hand and followed alongside them until they both fell into a giggly heap on the floor.Â
âWhat am I supposed to do?â You rolled your eyes.Â
âSean, why does losing your virginity before you turn 18 even matter to you?âÂ
âI donâtâŚâ Sean sighed, âI donât know. I just think it⌠wouldâve been nice if I did.â
The intercom sounded over the entire venue instructing skaters to leave the rink and return their skates. You glanced over at Sean, whose face was ridden with sweat and a bummed out look. You shook your head fondly. What a stupid thing to be upset over on his birthday.Â
Or⌠birthday eve.
Conversations between your friends flooded one ear and was mercifully pushed out the other as Seanâs party waited in line. You were nearing the front, dazed and occupied. Maybe you could⌠help Sean, actually. Youâve only had sex twice before and it seemed easy enough. It was a bit too hot and slippery but you knew your way around it somewhat.Â
You stepped closer to the counter, skates clutched to your stomach.Â
Would Sean even be on board with it? Having his virginity taken by you? There was only one way to find out, and what an embarrassing fucking way it was. âHey, Sean, letâs have sexâ. Yeah, right.Â
You traded in your skates and the employee handed you your shoes. You retreated back to the bench your friends claimed hours before and sat down, rubbing sore muscles. Sean plopped down next to you. For fuckâs sake.Â
âYouâre gonna help me carry these back to my car, right?â Sean nodded at the gift bags covering every inch of the table. âI am giving you a ride homeâŚâ
You grinned. âYou know Iâm gonna help the birthday boy.âÂ
God, you shouldnât have agreed.Â
The handles of the insanely heavy gift bags dug into the insides of your elbows as you shakily made it across the parking lot and to Seanâs car. You carefully dropped the bags down in front of the trunk and groaned.Â
âOh, my god, dude, what the hell are in these?âÂ
Sean followed behind you and smiled. He didnât struggle nearly as much as you did, you made sure of it, grabbing more than half of the bags before he could. A kind gesture to the birthday boy.Â
The both of you dumped the gifts into the trunk and climbed into the beat up Sedan. The reality of what you were about to ask Sean dawned on you as silence filled the car. He barely fitted the keys into the ignition when you gently pushed his hand away. His hand was slow in its descent and Seanâs gaze locked onto your anxious face.Â
âSean?â you murmured.Â
He glanced out the window before looking back at you, âYeah?âÂ
âYou know how⌠you were talking about wanting to lose your virginity before you turn 18?â
A tentative lift of your head let you watch Sean nod slowly. If you looked for a second longer, you could see his gaze traveling up and down your form.Â
âUm, I could,â you muttered, âI could probably help you. If you want.âÂ
A beat passed.
âHelp me?â
âJesus Christ, Sean, donât act dense!â You shouldnât have been shouting in that tiny car but there you were. âWe could probably just⌠get it over with! Right now!â
âLike⌠you and me?â You could reach over the messy console and strangle Sean right now.
âFuck, do you want to or not!?âÂ
âI mean⌠yeah, probably, sure,â Sean sputtered. âI think Iâd rather lose my virginity with you, anyway.âÂ
Your face grew incredibly warm in the matter of seconds. Suddenly your clothes felt tight and the cabin of the car was too cramped. âWhatâ Really!? Why?âÂ
âW-weâre close friends and I trust you! Plus,â Sean lowered his voice to a whisper, as if there was anybody other than you listening, âyouâre more experienced than me, so I can just let you lead the wayâŚâÂ
Something about what Sean said made you crack a smile and chuckle. âYeah, make me do all the work, as always.âÂ
Sean joined the laughter and thankfully, the thick tension that settled over the car dissipated. You had to giggle out all the anxiety building up in the pit of your stomach or youâd throw up all over Sean, mid-coitus. The sweet moment reached a reluctant end when the both of you quieted.Â
âSoâŚâ you prompted. âHow do you want to do this?âÂ
âI-I⌠I donât know. Iâve never done something like this before, you know that.â
You heaved a deep and heavy sigh. âOkay, okay⌠Iâll justââÂ
You pushed yourself off the passengerâs seat and kneeled over the console. You grabbed onto the headrest of the driverâs seat for stability as you extended a leg. Sean raised his arms towards you.Â
âUh, do you needââÂ
âNopeââ
âCome on, it looks like youâre about to fall,â Sean justified as he placed a hand on either side of your waist. He bit back a sigh when you finally situated yourself in his lap. Sean stared at your fly, which was actively pressing down against the zipper of Seanâs jeans.Â
âWell.â Sean swallowed thickly as you avoided his eyes.Â
âWell what?â He mumbled.
You sucked a breath in through your teeth. âWe canât exactly do this with your dick in your pants, Sean!âÂ
âWhere is it even supposed to go!? Ugh, this is so weirdâŚâ Both your and Seanâs hand fiddled with Seanâs belt, quickly undoing it and discarding it in the backseat.
â⌠Itâs not like I havenât seen it before,â you muttered under your breath before leaning back against the steering wheel and unbuttoning your own pants.
Seanâs face adopted a bewildered look. âYou have? When!?âÂ
âDonât tell me you forgot. Youâre making me look like a total creep!â
Seanâs lips twitched into a small smile as he watched you undress from the waist down. His hands found a resting spot on your hips, over your patterned underwear that did little to hide how impatient you were.
âDo you have any⌠um,â you mumbled, rubbing your forefingers and thumb together. Your face burned hot just doing that humiliating gesture.Â
Sean nodded his head slowly, âUh, lube? Yeah, I think I have someâŚâ Your eyes widened as he leaned over to open the glove compartment.
âW-what the fuck, you just have lube in your car!?â
âYou know,â he tore open a small packet, âjust in case.âÂ
You rolled your eyes. Whatever.Â
You drew a deep breath and held it as you rolled your underwear over your thighs and off your ankles. Cold air hit sensitive skin and you shivered in Seanâs lap. Hands circled and caressed your skin, warming you up.Â
âDo you want me to turn the heat onâŚ?â Sean murmured into your shoulder, peeking up at you from under his eyelashes.Â
You shook your head. âNo, no. Iâll get really sweaty, soâŚâ
An awkward silence strangled the both of you as you looked anywhere but straight at⌠your exposed bits.Â
âSo, whatâs next?â Sean whispered.
âWell,â you swallowed, âyou kind of have to stick my fingers in my butt so it doesnât hurt⌠Or at least hurt too bad.âÂ
âFuck, okay,â he muttered, pouring the lubricant over his fingers. One arm held you around your lower back while the other reached behind you. The length of your torso was firmly pressed against Sean, but your hips barely hovered over his lap. You eyed the lever attached to the seat and pulled it upwards, reclining the driverâs seat back. You heard a quiet little gasp under you.Â
âOh, this is betterâŚâ Sean mumbled absently, shyly poking and prodding your skin with a single cold finger. You wrapped your arms around Seanâs neck and braced yourself.Â
Oh. It⌠actually wasnât that bad.Â
Seanâs voice came out the quietest and most anxious youâve ever heard it. âHow was that?âÂ
âItâs fine⌠Good.â You breath brushed against the shell of his ear, making him shiver. Your back arched into Seanâs hand without really meaning to as he pushed in and out of you at an agonizingly slow pace.Â
Minutes crawled by with you softly humming into Seanâs ear without a care. You couldnât pinpoint when exactly you had closed your eyes, but your eyelids felt too heavy to open them at this point.
âShould I add another one?â Seanâs voice was so unrecognizable. Raspy with amazement and adoration. You nodded twice.
You perked up as Sean fitted another finger. Okay, so two feels a lot different than one. Well, fuck, obviously, but you werenât expecting the drastic change. Your back stiffened and Sean appeared alarmed under you.Â
âAre you okay?â Seanâs hand stroked your back, grazing your spine.Â
âY-yeah, I just,â you shifted your hips, âhave to get used to it⌠Keep going.âÂ
âOkay⌠Iâll keep going.âÂ
You gently nuzzled Seanâs neck with your nose. â⌠Could you curl your fingers, tooâŚ?â
Sean eagerly obliged, crooking his finger upwards, coaxing an immodest sigh out of your mouth. He had the nerve to chuckle. âYou like that?âÂ
âShut up, Sean,â you weakly smacked his shoulder.Â
You purred curses and expletives as Sean spread his fingers. It hurt a little, but the pleasure blinded you from the pain. You subtly rolled your hips into Seanâs fingers. You bit down on your bottom lip, praying the boy under you wouldnât notice and tease you.Â
Whoever was up there just loved to see you suffer.Â
âI wish you could see you right now, oh, my godâŚâ Sean gasped.Â
âFuck, fuck, Sean, just take them outââÂ
Regret flashed in Seanâs eyes. âW-what? Did I do something wrong?âÂ
âNo, I just⌠I want to ride you.âÂ
His eyes widened and his lips parted as he stared up at you, so clearly starstruck. His eyes flitted up your body while you tried situating yourself. Your hands pulled at Seanâs boxers and his cock jumped against his stomach. You watched him squirm with wonder. Flushed and dewy at the head where precum drooled over his happy trail. You cautiously reached out for him, tracing a pulsing vein with your thumb. Seanâs whimper demanded your eyes on him.Â
God, his face. So pretty and red and nervous. The back of your hand caressed his cheek.Â
âHey⌠if you want me to stop, just say âstopâ, okay?âÂ
Sean nodded slowly before gripping your waist even harder, like some mental anchor. You planted your hand on the edge of the headrest and shifted your weight onto it as you tenderly positioned his dick. You attempted to slow your breathing, to relax, when Sean placed his hand on your chest. A glance down revealed the eager but worried expression Sean wore.Â
You had to calm down. For him.Â
A slow exhale escaped your chest as you lowered yourself. Your hips stuttered around the intrusion, but you pushed forward anyway, straining a shallow breath caught in your throat. Seanâs hands achingly wandered all over your body as you greedily took him in.Â
Your butt hit Seanâs hips and you could finally exhale. Kind of. You started to pant as your body accommodated the sharp stretch. You definitely shouldnât have cut Sean off while he was fingering you, and you were feeling the consequences now.Â
The faint sound of your name pulled you from your thick and drunken-like haze. âWhaâŚ?âÂ
âYou feel really good,â Sean mewled, stirring his hips ever so slightly.Â
âFuck, Sean, donât move, I can feel every-fucking-thing.âÂ
âBut,â he hugged your waist, âyou feel so fucking good. When are you gonna start moving? Please, justââÂ
You pinned his shoulders down to the driverâs seat. âJust let me handle it,â you grunted under your breath, grinding your hips down and luring a high pitched moan out of Seanâs mouth.Â
That sound. Good god.Â
Your hips moved at a languid, lazy pace, which seemed to drive Sean crazy. He bucked up into you in a desperate attempt to speed you up. All it did was force a whimper from both of you. Your hands found purchase on miscellaneous car parts behind you and you used them as leverage to bounce your hips off of Seanâs. You played with the tempo a bit â speeding up when Sean was opening his mouth to say something, slowing down when the muscles in his thighs spasmed. You drew this out and savored it for as long as you could.Â
Sean was made into a mess underneath you.Â
Hot tears pricked the backs of his eyes and his lower lip was bitten red and raw. He looked so overwhelmed but so insatiable, his eyes following your every move with unbridled desire. Seanâs dark eyebrows were drawn together as he pouted, wet-eyed and whining as you pushed him to his limit, and how minuscule his limit was.Â
Barely five minutes passed when Sean was recklessly digging his nails into your skin and crying out loud, whining nonsense under his breath.Â
Your hands found his jaw. âAre you okayâŚ?â You managed to choke out.
âI-Iâm, Iâm, fuck, I canâtââÂ
âCome on, SeanâŚâÂ
âIâm c-god, oh, my godââÂ
Warmth flooded your senses before the pain from Seanâs nails could take you out themselves.Â
Oh. Shit.Â
Sean laid an arm over his face as he tried to catch his breath, even while you were still clenching around him. You gradually worked your hips to the speed you were at before. Maybe even faster than that.
âW-whatâŚ? What are youâ f-fuck, what are you doingâŚ!?â Sean uttered, blinded by tears and an intense bliss. His hands hurriedly found your body again.Â
âI didnât come yet, SeanâŚâ You sighed absentmindedly.Â
âF-ah, oh, my god,â Sean lamented as tears stained his cheeks, âit feels â youfeelsogood â b-butâ!â
âBut, what?âÂ
âIâm j-just, I canât, itâs too muchâŚ!â
â⌠You know you came really quick, Sean.âÂ
He wailed nonsensically, âI know, I know, I-Iâm sorry, you just felt so good and I-I, fuck, I couldnât hold backââÂ
You didnât focus on your own pleasure as much as you zoned in on the sweet, high-pitched melody that was Seanâs voice. Maybe you shouldâve felt a little bad that you were making him cry like this, but all heâs been doing is pulling you in closer, never pushing you once.Â
⌠Maybe he doesnât have the heart to? You grew more uneasy the longer you watched Sean sob while you rode him. You had to check on him.Â
You cupped Sean tear-stained cheeks and wiped at the drool leaking from his mouth, âHey, are you okay? Like, seriously, do you need me to stop?âÂ
Your heart dropped when Sean responded with only a broken whimper and a hand reaching for your wrist. Fuck, maybe you really did cross a line.Â
âI-Iâm sorry, Sean, Iââ
You quieted when Sean delicately adjusted your fingers to wrap around his neck. He applied to tiniest amount of pressure on your fingers, causing them to tighten slightly against his throat.Â
âPlease,â Sean keened, âp-please keep going. Donât⌠donât stop, okay?â
Holy shit.Â
This had to be a dream, the way Sean whimpered under your palm and trembled in between your thighs. The way Sean held your waist so tenderly while asking you to doâŚÂ this to him couldnât be real.
You avoided making eye contact with him. How could you when you were riding him at a pace he definitely couldnât handle? When all you would see is dilated pupils that greedily ate the small sliver of moonlight filtering through the window?Â
Sean cried out your name in a small plea, begging you to go faster. You obliged. It wasnât long before you started to feel lightheaded with bliss. The sensations you ignored in favor of doting on Sean amplified the moment your hands were on his neck. You cursed under your breath. Your thighs were aching and sore but adrenaline drove you to keep moving.Â
You bit down on your lip as you lifted your head. Catching even a glimpse of Seanâs wrecked face made you so unbearably weak.Â
âC-can I⌠kiss you?âÂ
A sound resembling a frustrated growl rumbled in Seanâs chest. âMy dick is in your ass!â
âOkay, okay!â
You pulled him in by the throat, not even caring that you barely missed his mouth. Sean didnât seem to mind either if the way his tongue messily slid against yours was anything to go by. The kiss was lazy and sloppy but it was the best either of you could do, tangled up like this.Â
Sean started to pant heavily into your parted lips.
âI-Iâm⌠Iâm gonnaââ
âYeah, I know⌠Me, too.â
The raspy sounds of Seanâs groaning faded into the background as a white hot flash blinded your vision. You tried so hard to make it last, slowing down your hips to stave off the orgasm, but Seanâs grip on you was unmoving. His head dipped under your jaw so he could whisper and kiss along your neck and shoulder.
âTh-thank you, thank you⌠oh, godââ he whined.
Your lips parted but not a single sound came out. Fuck, it was happening. A searing sensation tore through your muscles, rendering you helpless as you came. Your vision went blurry at the edges as pleasure ripped right through you.
A weight settled down on your chest. Long hairs licked at your chin.Â
Sean. He was equally as spent as you⌠Okay, maybe a lot more spent than you, considering he went through all of this twice.Â
Your body slumped against him, laying him flush against the driverâs seat. Your chests undulated in tandem. You didnât know if it was safe for the two of you to be passing the same breath, but neither of you wanted to move from your god given spot.Â
Ten, twenty, fuck maybe even thirty minutes passed of you doing just this, coming down from intense bliss in the other personâs presence. The come splattered in between your stomach and Seanâs had cooled into a gross and sticky mess and it was starting to make you uncomfortable.Â
You lifted your head from Seanâs shoulder. âSean?âÂ
He hummed in response.Â
âDo you have a tissue or rag or⌠something? We need to clean upâŚâÂ
âSo soon?â Sean smiled softly, groggily sitting up. He stretched to search the console and glovebox and pulled out a pack of tissues.Â
You watched as he tore open the plastic, timidly whispering, âThat was fun.âÂ
Sean mirrored your elated grin. âIt was⌠Would you mind doing it⌠again? With me?â
âWhat, like make this a regular thing between us?â
âYeah.âÂ
You bit back an overexcited giggle. âNo, I wouldnât mind.âÂ
The two of you shared a craved look as Sean wiped the two of you down. You begrudgingly and blindly hunted for your underwear and pants in the backseat while Sean fixed his hair in the mirror in an attempt to look presentable. After a few minutes, you were both settled in your respective seats, hazy and exhausted. You turned your head to look out the window and barked a laugh. Your finger swiped at the window blurred with condensation. Â
âDude, holy shit,â you giggled as you pointed at the window.Â
Sean bit down on his bottom lip, so clearly trying to hide his amusement, and turned on his car.Â
âYou know, you did that. That was all you,â you teased. âHow were you louder than me?â
You watched Sean bow over your switch, engrossed in the game playing out in front of him. Your gaze traced his back and you barked out a laugh.
âDude, your posture sucks ass.âÂ
Sean scoffed, âShut up.âÂ
âYou look like a shrimp.â You reached out and toyed with a tuft of dark hair with your fingers. âYou ever think about growing out your hair?âÂ
âNo way, dude,â Sean responded, shaking your hand away. âItâs already getting too long.âÂ
âCome on! Think about how hot youâd look. All the girls would love it.â You smoothed down his already short sideburns, grinning at the idea of Sean becoming a Casanova.Â
âIâm⌠not too worried about other girls,â Sean shrugged.
You let your head fall back on the headboard and groaned obnoxiously. âYou and this girl, man. Whatâs her name? Jenn?â
âYeah, and sheâs really cool.âÂ
âOh, yeah, I know,â you rolled your eyes. You havenât stopped hearing about Jenn Murphy since the summer preceding freshman year, when Sean caught sight of her hanging out with her friends at a gas station when the two of you went to the beach. Your mood was ruined for the rest of the day.Â
Irritation always crossed your mind at the mention of Jenn Murphy. Maybe it was less about her as a person and more about what it meant for you and Sean. Sean was growing up, focusing on girls and how he looked for them.Â
You couldnât care less about how you looked. How girls grimaced whenever you acted like yourself around them. You wished Sean didnât care either. Maybe then heâd make more time for you instead of going on blind dates all the time.Â
You crossed your arms across your chest, anxiously chewing on your bottom lip. Your gaze flitted to Sean. He was looking down at your switch.Â
âYou think she actually likes you?â You mumbled dully.Â
âFuck off, dude.âÂ
âI mean it.âÂ
Sean lifted his head to glance at you. âI donât know⌠I hope she does.âÂ
You hoped not.Â
How could you even begin to deter Sean away from his two year long crush?Â
Frustration burned in your veins as you racked your brain. Your foot fidgeted in Seanâs lap. Your eyebrows furrowed, creating multiple wrinkles in between them. Your heart thumped against your ribs.Â
Fuck, what do you even say?
Do you justâŚÂ talk about her? Talk about Jenn like sheâs not actively ruining your life? How fucking impossible.Â
Or⌠maybe you could.Â
A small smile curled your lips as an idea developed in your head.Â
Yes, this was perfect.Â
âDo you know what kind of guys she likes?â You started. Sean didnât tear his gaze away to look at you. That was way too frequent these days.Â
âUh⌠tall guys? With a kind of grungy style?âÂ
âI mean, like, experience wise,â you smirked. âIâve never seen you kiss anybody except for that one time you kissed me.âÂ
Shock crossed Seanâs features. âThat was in 3rd grade! And on accident!âÂ
âStill. What if she prefers guys that know what theyâre doing, you know?â You tilted your head to the side and shrugged. âSomething to think about.âÂ
Seanâs dark eyebrows furrowed as he stared at something beyond your switch. A shallow breath escaped him as he was whisked into deep thought. He then suddenly shook it off, which worried you.Â
âI have all the time in the world to get experience. Iâm not in a rush,â he explained, picking up the yellow console again.Â
You perked up. âWhat? No!â
Sean raised an eyebrow at you, giving you a sideways glare.Â
âWhat if,â you desperately grasped at straws, âJenn asks you for a kiss tomorrow and youâre not ready?âÂ
âWhy would she ask me for a kiss tomorrow?âÂ
âYou have to be prepared for these kinds of things.âÂ
Sean rolled his eyes dramatically. âWell⌠how am I even supposed to practice? Iâm not letting you watch me make out with my hand.âÂ
â⌠I didnât say you had to make out with your hand.âÂ
Sean pulled a face, lost and confused. Mere seconds passed before his eyes widened and his jaw dropped.Â
âYou want me to make out with you?â He gasped.Â
He could sound a little less put off by the idea. Your heart raced underneath your clothes, pulse striking against your jaw.Â
âIt wouldnât be your first time kissing me, and you know I wonât judge you.â You tried your best to look and sound less nervous than you actually were. Your wide and mischievous smile subtly twitched at the corners, where you were the most unsure.Â
âYes, you will!âÂ
âNot a lotâŚâÂ
Sean scoffed before dragging his hands down his face. They cupped over his mouth, letting him give you another side glare, then dropped into his lap. He took your switch off his thigh and gently placed it on your desk before turning his attention to you.Â
âOkay, fine,â he uttered begrudgingly.Â
What?
âWait, actually?â Your stomach dropped. You werenât expecting him to actually consider it, let alone agree. Fuck, maybe this was getting too real. Youâve been thinking about how Seanâs lips felt that cold winter night for 8 years. As embarrassing as the notion was, 9 year old you would beg to be in the position you were in now.Â
âUh, yeah? Sure? My dadâs at work and Danielâs at his friendâs house so nobodyâll see usâŚâÂ
You fought the urge to jump up out of pure, unbridled excitement. You spoke with a wide smile that bled into your voice. âCome here.âÂ
Sean scooted until he was sitting cross-legged in front of you. âCome closer.âÂ
He groaned, âhow close?âÂ
âClose enough! Weâre going to be kissing, yâknow.âÂ
âGod, youâre so weird.â Seanâs legs fit underneath yours, on either side of your hips.Â
You were facing each other now. Sean had no choice but to look straight at you. Your legs were tangled and your faces were inches apart from each other. Sometimes you would lay in bed and think about how weird it was that you two were so close with one another, but now was not the time for those thoughts to resurface. You were using this to your advantage.Â
He looked up at you through his dark, long lashes with an almost bored look.Â
âYou should know what you shouldnât do, before anything else,â you explained haughtily, lifting your chin with faux superiority.Â
âYouâve never kissed a girl in your life, why should I listen to you?â Sean grumbled.Â
âIâve⌠seen stuff. I know what Iâm talking about.âÂ
âPorn doesnât count.â
You sputtered, âdo you want my help or not?â
Sean rolled his eyes before letting you continue. You wrapped your hands around his wrists.Â
âYou donât want to be too rough with it. Like so.âÂ
Your lips eagerly pressed against Seanâs, coaxing a squeak out of him. Your tongue kitten-licked at his lower lip as your grip on his wrists tightened. His body instinctually melted into yours, attempting so desperately to get closer to you already. You forced his lips apart so you could lick into his mouth and taste him. Something akin to a whine rumbled from Seanâs chest as he craned his neck to kiss you back properly. You dropped his wrists and let him lean over you before abruptly pushing him back by the jaw.Â
One hand held his chin while the other wiped at your mouth. âThatâs one of the worst things you could put a girl through. No one likes a sloppy kisser.âÂ
Sean gasped for air, â⌠They donât?âÂ
âNo.â
A pout twitched on his lips. âAre you sure?âÂ
âDude, whatâs your point?â You questioned, your expression souring despite how warm your face felt.
âI donât knowâŚâ Sean murmured. âI kind of liked it.âÂ
Fuck, man. You shouldnât dwell on that. On how shy Sean became admitting that he enjoyed kissing you messily. Your stomach churned, dropped, whatever. Your skin felt tingly everywhere. Especially under your clothes.Â
âWell, you shouldnât. Girls like cute, dainty kisses with not a lot of tongue.â You gathered yourself and tilted your chin up. âKiss me again but softer. And make it short.âÂ
Sean nodded slowly, his gaze falling onto your mouth. He leaned closer and slowly parted his lips as his eyelids lowered. You placed a hand on his chest.Â
âClose your mouth.â He begrudgingly obliged, albeit with a stuttered and muffled whine.Â
Sean pecked you lightly once, twice, before tenderly licking at your lips to get you to open up. A shiver passed through your spine.Â
âMy god, Sean, what are you doing?â You muttered, angling your head away to desperately maintain control of the situation. His tongue hit your cheek.Â
He got a hold of your arm, âCome onâŚâÂ
âWhat do you wantâŚ?â
â⌠Please,â Sean whimpered, âjust open your mouth.âÂ
Adrenaline pulsed in your veins. A soft smile curled your lips as you gazed down at Sean practically begging you to make out with him again. He uttered your name under his breath, inching closer to peck your tightly pressed lips again.Â
âMmhâŚ?â He hummed before tucking his legs under him and shifting his weight onto his knees. Sean placed his hands on the pillow you were sitting on, each one on either side of your hips. You knew he could tell you were toying with him, and you knew he hated it, if his strained whines were anything to go by.Â
You cracked your eyes open out of pure curiosity. You could make out Seanâs dark eyebrows and the moles on his flushed cheeks. His skin scrunched in between the brows, like this whole ordeal was paining him. His tongue feebly tried to pry your mouth open but you didnât budge. Â
Pride flooded your senses. Sean Diaz was making a mess out of himself on your lips.Â
He leaned onto his hands and pushed you back against the headboard. You placed your hands on his shoulders and held him away at armsâ length as you cracked a smile.Â
âWhy wonât you kiss meâŚ?â Sean whispered meekly.Â
âI donât know,â you admitted. âYou looked cute trying to kiss me. And youâre doing it wrong. Thatâs not how I taught you.â
He breathed a high pitched sigh. âI donât care.â
Your fingers rubbed the junction of Seanâs neck and shoulder as your smile widened. âI want you to care. How are you supposed to kiss properly if you donât care?âÂ
Sean let out an exasperated exhale, your name rolling off his tongue unhurriedly. You swallowed down a groan as he made eye contact with you. âI want to kiss you. Just let me kiss you. Donât you want me to kiss you?âÂ
You bit back an outrageous giggle and nodded feverishly. Sean lurched forward and your lips crashed into each other. Both of your hands were restless on the otherâs body, groping and rubbing skin under clothes. You were never expecting your first real kiss to be with Sean, this aggressively. You whined into his open and eager mouth. He mirrored the sound.Â
Time passed, you were sure of it because your lips had gone numb and bruised. Your tongue felt raw in Seanâs mouth and your fingers twitched around the hems of his clothes. The two of you never really stopped moving. Like it wouldâve pained you to stop rubbing against each other so impatiently.Â
Dampness soaking into your shorts abruptly took you out of your hedonistic stupor. You tilted your head away from Sean, which earned you a whimper out of the boy before he opted for kissing your jaw instead, and glanced down at where your hips were connected.Â
Fuck. Oh, god.Â
Sean hazily followed your gaze to the crotch of his sweatpants where a dark, wet patch grew and left a stain on your shorts. âHaa, sorry, Iâm sorry,â he murmured before kissing your cheek, then the corner of your lips.Â
He didnât seem very sorry, though. Seanâs hips discreetly ground down into your thigh.Â
You grumbled before taking Seanâs chin in your hand. You forced him to make eye contact with you and for a second, he looked worried. Like he actually messed up.Â
âIf youâre gonna hump my leg, do it right. I want to feel good, too.âÂ
Anxiety melted from Seanâs shoulders. â⌠How do I do that? I want to make you feel good. Tell me what to do.âÂ
Your vision blurred in front of you. Everything sounded like it was underwater. Your tongue felt like molasses in your mouth as you instructed Sean on where to put his legs, his hands, his mouth. The pink matter in your skull devolved into gray mush as he assumed the position, pressing down on you with all his weight.Â
âUgh, dude, my underwear, like, feels wetâŚâ You confessed quietly, grimacing into Seanâs cheek. He turned his head to look at you. He was wearing a wide, confused smile.
âWhat?â He giggled. Seanâs voice was so breathless and light.
You placed lazy, open mouthed kisses against Seanâs skin. âYou make me feel weird.âÂ
â⌠Really? Like⌠how weird?âÂ
âI donât know,â you shrugged. âJust⌠different.âÂ
âBecause weâre kissing?â
â⌠Because youâre kissing me.â Â
A flash of recognition crossed Seanâs reddened face. âMeâŚ?âÂ
You bit down on your bottom lip and braced yourself. Tension strung your shoulders up as you looked up at Sean, wearing a mortified expression yourself. You knew it was coming; the clarification, the awkward silence that would follow, the thick uneasiness plaguing the hazy atmosphere afterwards.Â
Your heart fluttered at the sight of the corners of Seanâs lips twitching upwards. He kissed your lips once, twice, as his hands cradled your head. Your head swam as he pampered you with kisses. What did that mean?Â
âWhat are you doing, SeanâŚ?â You murmured as his lips grazed your throat.
âI like that Iâm kissing you,â Sean whispered, as if this was a dirty secret that was only meant to be kept between the two of you.Â
Perhaps it was. Maybe you were thrilled by the thought of being the only person seeing Sean like this.Â
âShit,â you cursed under your breath as cold water dripped from the now empty bucket onto your forehead. âShit, shit, shit.âÂ
You shouldâve checked how much water was left before stepping into the tent. Now you have to get out and refill it before finishing your very anticipated shower. Whatever. You drew a deep breath and dropped the bucket without a care. You reached down for your towel and closed your fingers around nothing.
What the fuck?
No, no, no. No way this was happening.Â
You bit down on your lower lip and looked up to the sky, perhaps begging someone up above to relieve you from this joke you were living through. And thereâs so many people eating breakfast right now. Maybe the other campers are comfortable walking around, nipples out and about, but youâre too self-conscious to try that.Â
So what do you do?Â
What can you do?
Do you slip your clothes back on without cleaning up properly to refill the water and then start all over again? That sounds like too much work.Â
Call out to whoever might be walking by to beg them to hook you up? Thatâs too embarrassing.
Sit in this dingy old tend and mope until an angel descends from the heavens and pulls you out of this hellhole? Hm.Â
Youâre sure the rim of the bucket youâre sitting on has imprinted a circle around your butt by now but nobodyâs gonna see it so, who cares? Youâre picking the dirt out of your nails and counting the ants thatâve managed to break into the shower when a flap of the tent is peeled back.
You screamed when the sunlight coming from outside hit your bare body, and the person outside lets out a similar shriek.Â
âOh, shit, Iâm so sorry!âÂ
Oh. Itâs Sean.Â
Heâs cool.
He stumbled into Humboldt County just a couple months after you did, dragging his tiny little brother along with him. You guys talked about whatever came to your minds a couple times, shared a few looks and smokes around the campfire. You enjoy debriefing with him in the mornings when you guys are the only ones not sleeping in. Youâve seen his drawings, too. You know your perception of him changed after you saw the way he drew you in your pajamas, crawling out of your tent during an early morning, but you couldnât put a finger on how.Â
But nowâŚÂ he definitely got a glimpse of you naked, sitting on a bucket when youâre supposed to be showering. Somethingâs definitely changed between the two of you now.
The tent darkened when Sean hurriedly let go of the tent door. He apologized profusely as you stared down at the ground, heart thumping against your ribs.Â
âWhat are you doing⌠just sitting in there?â Sean spat out as he held his palm against the tent flaps, as if they would just open without him meaning them to.
âI ran out of water! I didnât know what to do so Iâm just⌠here!â You explained a little too loudly.Â
âDo you want me to get you water? I can get you water.âÂ
Oh, fuck. âBut, itâs not your turn yet, and the jugs are pretty heavy to carryâŚâ
Sean chuckled lightly. You feel some weight lift off your chest. âItâs no biggie. Iâll be back in a few, okay? Hold on tight.âÂ
You exhaled sharply. Guess this was the angel you were hoping for. Your foot tapped against the ground. Not that you were impatiently waiting for Sean to return. No, he could take as long as he wanted. You were just hoping some more time would pass since your last interaction with him. Talking to Sean Diaz nowadays made you too aware of yourself and what your body was doing around him.Â
A few minutes passed without much notice when your head perked up at the sounds of Seanâs heavy boots and water sloshing in plastic containers.Â
âThere you go.â A jug was pushed through the open slit of the tent mercifully. You let out a relieved sigh and reached for the lifesaver.Â
âFuck, thank you so much, Sean. I owe you one.âÂ
That chuckle again. âDonât mention it.âÂ
Dusk melted into a dark night after the sun dipped behind the horizon. Uno cards were discarded around the campfire from where other people were playing, but theyâve long since hit the hay. Too bad for them, you snuck a bottle of booze into camp a few days ago and picked tonight to pop it open.Â
The only other person drinking it with you now was⌠Sean. Yay.Â
âItâs red,â Sean announced as he slapped down a wild card onto the pile. You blew raspberries as you looked over your hand.Â
âThis blows,â you grumbled as you reached for the deck. You strained slightly as you leaned forward from your spot on the log, but you still couldnât graze a card. You gave up, resigning to getting up fully. Sean drew from the deck and handed the card to you before you could get on your feet.Â
Your face flushed as you accepted the card. Whyâd he have to go and do that? âAh, thank you.âÂ
Sean flashed a small smile at you before glancing down at his own hand. You fought to hold back a frustrated huff. At this point, you couldnât tell if it was Sean, the fire, or the whiskey warming you up from your toes to the tips of your ears. You placed your just-drawn card down. Sean followed up with a +2. You hissed while he giggled at your rapidly approaching loss. He passed you another two cards while grinning up at you. Neither are fit to put down.Â
Damn this game, and damn Sean Diaz, with his perfect smile and nearly white teeth.Â
Sean rarely ever smiled with teeth, at least around other people. But all he seemed to do with you around is show all 32. Whatever. You promised yourself you wouldnât dwell on it a long time ago. He should smile like that more, though, you thought. His teeth looked nice even while he was sparsely brushing his teeth through the week to make his toothpaste last. And Seanâs lips always maintained a nice color despite them being so chapped. You thought about peeling off the dead skin, and something flurried in the pit of your stomach at the concept of you touching Sean Diazâs lips. You heard something in the distance.
In front of you.Â
Seanâs calling you.Â
âAre you⌠gonna put something down?â He asked, tilting his head to look up at your bowed head.Â
âUhâ Yes! Yes,â you sputtered as you looked down at the pile. A yellow 7. When the fuck did the color change?Â
You placed a green 7 before leaning back and continuing your train of thought. Seanâs lips. His⌠mouth. Does he have any crooked teeth? Silver caps? Youâre very aware of the subtle gap between his two front teeth. Youâve stared at it enough to commit it to memory while having conversations with the guy. Youâre so engrossed with the idea of finding an imperfection in Seanâs oral cavity that you open your mouth to ask a very inappropriate question without thinking.Â
âWhat are you thinking so hard about, Thinker?â Seanâs voice abruptly interrupted your train of thought again, and this time, you silently thank him for the disruption.Â
âIâm justâŚâ you murmured, âwondering about somethingâŚâÂ
His thick dark eyebrows quirked up. âWhat about?â
âYour teeth look, um, good. Clean.âÂ
The awkwardly structured question made Sean laugh and rub the back of his warm neck. âThank you?âÂ
âCan I see?âÂ
âWhat?âÂ
âYour mouth.âÂ
Seanâs jaw fell slack as his eyes widened. His gaze darted around, as if waiting for someone to pop out of the woods and announce that this was a prank.Â
âW-why would you? Why would you want to?â The guy sputtered nervously, reluctantly making eye contact with you. The black of his pupils greedily swallowed the light emitting from the fire. You couldâve sworn they were usually a little bit smaller.Â
A thought crossed your mind and you didnât think twice before it left your mouth. â⌠Do you want me to?âÂ
Sean quieted. He was silent to the point you were worried you weirded him out too much and he was contemplating leaving. You opened your mouth, ready to beg him to stay for a few minutes longer.Â
âWould it⌠be weird if I said yes?â Sean murmured, softer than a whisper.Â
Oh, okay. No, itâs okay. You just werenât expecting Sean to openly admit that he wanted you to look inside his mouth.Â
âWouldnât be weird to me,â you lied, offering a small smile to relieve Seanâs nerves. He scooted closer to you, angling his head back so he could fully face you. For some reason, he never joined you on the log, opting to sit on the dirt, but now you were thankful he didnât. This view of him from above was seared into your memory, etched into the folds of your brain.Â
Now, he was opening his mouth and leaning forward over your lap. All while staring up at you.Â
What the fuck?
You reached for his face with shaky hands, peering into his mouth. Your gaze locked onto Seanâs canines, slightly pointy, crooked, and yellow. You hooked your thumbs on either side of his mouth so you could get a better look.Â
âHm,â you hummed at the back of your throat, your eyes tracing the shape of Seanâs molars. Your fingertips gently slid over his teeth and around his tongue. Saliva pooled under your thumbs as you came to the realization that you never really looked at a mouth that wasnât yours. That made your stomach feel weird. The concept of getting to know another mouth so intimately made you feel queasy. So queasy, you barely registered Seanâs hands resting on your forearms. His thumbs fondly caressed your wrists as your thumb felt every bump of his tastebuds.Â
âSeanâŚ?â You whispered cautiously, your uneasiness about this whole situation dissipating ever so slowly. Your eyebrows knitted together like the sight of Sean like this pained you, but it had quite the opposite effect. Something warm in your chest stirred and coaxed your body forward.Â
Mercifully, Seanâs lips were there when you pursed your own for a tentative kiss. You couldnât pinpoint the exact moment Sean had moved to perch himself on his knees but you were made well aware when he leaned into your space, drawing his body in close. You swayed your own body forward, maybe a little too much, and threw Sean off kilter to the point he was sitting on his heels. He fought back, and suddenly you were tasting the inside of his mouth. When did either of you part your lips?Â
You didnât know what to do with your hands. They were still awkwardly floating around Seanâs face after you pulled your thumb out of his mouth to kiss him. You huffed and found a place to rest them on either side of Seanâs neck. The skin there was nice. Soft. So hot you were convinced Seanâs blood was boiling. You thought maybe caressing him there, rubbing circles into his nape, would cool him down. However that works. You just wanted to find a reason to keep touching him.Â
You could feel Sean slowly pulling away and panicked. This couldnât end now. Especially not when you were just getting used to how kissed, how he moved his lips â languid and meaningful with every flick of his tongue, like he wanted to savor you. Seanâs lips stopped touching yours and you were quick to correct it again and again before Sean placed his hands on your face and held you at armâs length.Â
Fuck. You mightâve been too eager. But Seanâs lips looked so beautiful like this, shiny with spit and red. They moved to form words and all you could audibly pick up were the words âmoveâ and âtentâ. You nodded enthusiastically, agreeing to whatever Sean propositioned. Â
Move⌠tentâŚÂ
Holy shit, does Sean want to move this to your tent?Â
Your hazy vision refocused. Seanâs eyes were already glued to you, watching every slight change of your expression. âW-wait what?âÂ
â⌠I asked if you wanted⌠to move somewhere private, like your tentâŚâ Sean breathed out huskily.Â
âYes,â you sighed, a little too excited, âyes, please, come.âÂ
Seanâs hand slipped into your grasp and tightened around your fingers. You made sure to stand up from the log slowly since all the anticipation of having Sean Diaz alone in your tent with you made you unbelievably dizzy. The boy in question eagerly followed along behind you, akin to a puppy. The backtrack of the short walk to your tent became sticks and leaves crunching underneath your shoes and Seanâs heavy, uneven breathing.Â
You unzipped the flap to your tent and peeled it back. Sean glanced at you and shared an anxious but hungry look. A shiver racked your spine the way he eyed your lips. Like it would pain him to prolong not kissing you for another moment. You placed a hand on his lower back and gently guided him inside. You trailed him and zipped up your tent behind you. Lightheadedness started to overwhelm your senses as you realized the situation you were in. Enclosed in this tight space made for one with the prettiest person ever. Without warning, you were hyperventilating. So unbelievably nervous.Â
A steady hand placed itself on your back, in between your shoulder blades. You glanced over to see Sean wearing a bashful expression.Â
âHey,â he started, quiet and patient. âWe donât have to do this if you donât want toâŚâ
â⌠Do what?âÂ
âUh, you knowâŚâ He shamefully rubbed the back of his reddening neck.Â
Your entire face flushed. You rushed to wave Seanâs misconception away, terror written all over your face.Â
âNo, noâ I wasnât thinking of that! Iâm sorry, I- Was that what you were hoping for? Fuck, Iâm so sorryââÂ
âNo, itâs okay,â Sean chuckled shyly, âI donât want to either.âÂ
A sigh of relief decompressed your chest. âThen, uhmâŚâ Your eyes flickered to Seanâs. How badly you wished you didnât have to say these words out loud.Â
The boy in front of you drew a shaky breath, completed by a soft and timid smile. He reached for your face. His fingers ever so gently rested on your cheek and pulled you closer. If you had a clearer mind, youâd be more embarrassed about crawling on your hands and knees for a boy, but the action was rewarded with a tender kiss. At this point, Sean was pushed to lean on his forearms as you climbed on top of him. One hand reached around his waist to slip underneath his hoodie and shirt to feel the bare skin of his back. Sean parted his lips wider to let out a choked whine that brushed against your lips.Â
Suddenly, you understood why people became addicted to things that ruined them. The rush you felt after coaxing that sound out of Sean was so powerful, thrumming hard in the pit of your stomach. Your teeth dug into Seanâs lower lip in hopes it would stir another noise out of him. A hand gripped your bicep as he whined against your mouth. Your pleasure nearly turned into anxiety at the feeling of Seanâs fingers tightening around your arm, but then his thumb caressed the skin in a small arc, back and forth.Â
You needed to get closer.Â
You swung a knee on the other side of Seanâs thigh, laying your hips down at the junction of his own. Sean gasped under you when your left leg so much as twitched in between his thighs. You painstakingly tore your lips away from Seanâs.Â
âYou okayâŚ?â You murmured against his bottom lip. You didnât dare look into his eyes, worried you might lose control of yourself if you did.Â
âY-yeah, IâmâŚâ Sean uttered shakily, âgood. It feels good.âÂ
You couldnât help it. You had to look up.Â
Fuck, Sean had the most starstruck gaze ever. And it was directed at you.
âMmm, okay.â A fond smile curled your lips. Your gaze traced the lean body wriggling underneath you with growing interest. Sean always wore his signature hoodie and ratty, patched up jeans. His pants always told on the shape of his legs but his hoodie almost always hid his figure except for his arms, which were always exposed by his rolled up sleeves. Â
You could thank this horrible farm for that.Â
âCan I touch youâŚ?â You asked quietly, hand hovering above the hem of Seanâs sweater.Â
Seanâs eyes slightly widened. âWhere?âÂ
You let your fingers lightly touch down on where his hoodie lifted to reveal his V-line. âHere. Your waist.â Â
A quick, shallow breath escaped his lungs before Sean nodded, peeling back his hoodie and shirt. He lifted the hems up to his chest. Not a thought crossed your mind when you ducked your head to kiss and lick at Seanâs sternum. Your lips trailed down to his abdomen, tongue slicking down the hairs of Seanâs happy trail. Thatâs when he took your face in his hands and manhandled you into another kiss.Â
You hastily pushed your shirt up to your collarbones while engrossed in Seanâs lips and pressed your abdomen against his. A barely restrained moan flooded your mouth when your skin made contact. You placed your hands on Seanâs lower back and pulled him flush against your body.Â
You didnât know how much time had passed, but the small pool of spit growing on your chins egged you to keep going. You drew your lips away from Seanâs for a second, and he protested with a pitchy whine, childishly attempting to pull you back in.Â
You hummed at the back of your throat with satisfaction as you gazed down at Sean. So blissed out and docile, he was. His shiny lower lip sticking out in a pout you never thought youâd see on Sean Diazâs face. Your mixed saliva started to dribble down his jaw but he was too focused making puppy dog eyes at you. You wiped off the spit with your thumb, your eyes widening significantly when Sean parted his lips on instinct.Â
You giggled, dazed and aching for another kiss. âWhat was thatâŚ?â
Your name rolled off Seanâs tongue at a slow, lethargic pace, again and again. You swallowed thickly when he didnât stop, even while jutting his hips up against yours. You watched his hips grind against your thigh with a hedonistic hunger.Â
A whisper escaped you before you even noticed you had opened your mouth to speak. âHead up.â
âHuhâŚ?â Sean squeaked.Â
âPlease.â
He angled his chin up and you couldnât help but chuckle. You felt bad about laughing at him in such a vulnerable state, but you assumed that surely Sean would let it slide. Especially if it meant he heard the sound of your voice.Â
âNo. Lift your head towards me, Sean.âÂ
He corrected himself. And while he was so close to your face, he kissed your lips, never quite satisfied with his fill of you. Your arms snaked loosely around Seanâs neck. You pushed him back with your lips until he was resting his head on your forearms. You pulled away momentarily.
âComfortable?â He nodded before pursing his lips. As you toyed with Seanâs lower lip in between your own, his hands traveled down your body, along every curve of your figure until they met your jeans. He was a little slower there, carefully trailing his fingers along your back before they rested on the height of your ass. They pulled your hips in, begging you so desperately to grind against Seanâs body. Take what you needed from him.Â
You couldnât believe you were doing this â dryhumping and making out with Sean Diaz in your tent at the dead of night â but there you were. In the act and taking great pleasure in it. Every moment felt heady and intense, buzzing through your nerves. Lust plagued your mind and heightened your senses, letting you moan into Seanâs mouth with reckless abandon every time you rolled your hips.
Not that Sean was doing any better.
You questioned how many whines and whimpers he had left in him until he exploded. Heâd cry if you so much as moved a centimeter in a direction that wasnât towards him. He was so noisy, so insatiable, you had half a mind to call him greedy right there and then. Did Sean dream about this moment, much like you have done before? Did he anxiously look around to make sure nobody noticed a lust-induced stupor? Did he have to justify his fantasies about you? Chalking his desire up to hormones or his lack of excitement since arriving to Humboldt?Â
You had so many things to ask, you just had to get it out in the open.Â
âDo y-you⌠think about me?â You panted against his lips.Â
A beat passed before Sean answered. No need to open his mouth. For some reason unknown to you, his lips were in a perpetual state of being parted. âYes⌠so much,â he stuttered.Â
Fuck, that affected you more than it shouldâve. It was such a simple question with such a simple answer but the pace of your hips quickened nonetheless.Â
âHowâŚ? How do you think about me?â Your voice was nearly lost in the cacophony of strained gasps and fervid groans.Â
Seanâs head lolled to the side, hiding his face away from you. âCome on, donât do this,â he pleaded.Â
Your eyebrows furrowed with worry. You gently tightened your arms around Seanâs head to get him to look at you. You mewled, âSean?âÂ
His fingers dug into the ass of your jeans as Sean ducked his head into the crook of your neck. There, you felt his warm breath brushing against your collarbones. You gulped.Â
âYouâre so⌠beautiful and amazing. You look so good all the time. Iâve always wondered what⌠wondered what you looked like, under all your clothes,â Sean confessed into your pulse. âI needed to taste you myself.âÂ
You pulled back to get a good view of Seanâs face, and he looked entranced. You had to get your lips on him. Kisses were placed all over his face as he whined lewdly in response. The action was intimate for such an indulgent circumstance, but Sean drank it up greedily.Â
Time passed, and the two of you grew sluggish. Your lips were bruised to the point of numbness. Your fingers lazily brushed each otherâs skin, desperate to touch. Several bite marks and hickeys joined Seanâs moles on his neck, and the aforementioned made sure you were matching. You had trouble figuring out how your mouth was still moving when you were this close to passing out. Maybe it was the mellowed out pleasure swimming in your blood at a slothâs pace. Perhaps it was your languid hips still grinding against one another.Â
Fuck if you knew.Â
You slowly blinked your eyes open to see Seanâs gaze, heavy lidded and glazed over. You kissed his cheek and murmured, âTired?âÂ
He shook his head with the little energy he was running on. âSo⌠fucking⌠exhausted.âÂ
The two of you shared a lighthearted giggle. âMe, too.âÂ
You fixed both of your shirts, and Sean fully wrapped his arms around your waist underneath yours. The both of you seemed content, finally satisfied, when the friction between your hips dissipated. You reached over Seanâs head to flick your lantern off.Â