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Lol okay we are trying this again. Day 2 Im a Aries I just jump up and do ! It feels nice to have my energy back. This time feels very very different in a great way.

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My mom would beinge watch TV so now everytime I come across a show/movie it brings me straight to her memory. I would do almost anything to touch her again. Even tho I slightly believe this dog that came to me is her in a way but that's a story for a different day LOL

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Why would this yt man say ni**ER on a bus full of people and think he was finna get away with it ON TOP of hitting me. For some reason the devil wants me to do something because today a pilgrim towed my car in less then 3 mins if me getting out grabbing something amd coming back out.... literally 3 minutes I LOOK AT THE CLOCK😩😩 300 DOLLARS down the drain ANDDDDDD my birthday coming up !!! My chest is literally caving INNNN RN

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Day 5 no smoke feels okay lol

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Day 4 actually ended up ok im weaning myself off the tooka so my emotions are a bit all over but we making b it thru

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Day 3 was super hard my mommy's on my mind heavy

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Day 2 im working on getting the hang of videos lol 😆 we are working/growing together

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Video diary entry 1 this is my 3rd attempt to do this getting annoyed.

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Stop ducking him your realize how much of a dumb nut he truly is

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All this sad girl shit is beyond me especially about a boy

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Then once she left I was there to pick up everything by my damn self then you want me to believe you care...

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I want to run away so fast and so far

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When i wake up im already annoyed tired... I'm tired of everything in my life right now. Not one thing truly makes me happy... I even find myself fake laughing at times.... I feel like The real her is buried deep deep somewhere im not sure the key is... then to have kids... then to live with someone who you feel is no help.. mentally exhausted...

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What if I forget her.... what if I no longer remember the things she told me...

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Literally wanna burst into tears every second of the day... I don't know wtf I'm doing nor going then I cry harder cuz in the end it's only up to me... ion even know where I'm supposed to start... sometimes it just feels I'm stuck in a deep deep dark BLACK hole

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So depressed anxiety so bad I feel like I'm letting my kids down damn near every fucking day