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a mix of arguments, tension, manipulation, gossiping, fighting, & general emotional messiness!

you  weren't  supposed  to  hear  that.

don't  look  at  me  like  i'm  the  only  one  lying.

want  to  tell  them,  or  should  i?

you  think  i  don't  know  what  you  did?

i've  hit  people  for  less.

oh,  i  thought  you  already  knew.

that's  funny,  you  didn't  say  that  last  night.

say  that  again.  i  dare  you.

you  wanna  talk  about  loyalty?

no  offense,  but  if  you're  the  last  to  know,  that's  on  you.

go  ahead  -  pretend  like  it  wasn't  your  idea!

they  deserve  to  know  the  truth.

you  didn't  hear  this  from  me,  but  -

oh,  so  now  you  care?

don't  flatter  yourself.  you  were  just  convenient.

you  crossed  a  line.

we  had  bets  on  how  long  it  would  last.

it's  not  even  a  secret  anymore.

you  don't  get  to  cry  about  it  now.

touch  me  again  and  see  what  happens.

say  it  again.  louder  this  time.

you  really  thought  nobody  would  find  out?

don't  act  so  innocent.

okay,  but  am  i  the  villain  for  laughing?

tell  me  who  else  knows.  right  now.

this  whole  time,  and  you  didn't  say  a  word?

don't  act  brave  now.

you're  really  gonna  do  this  here?

it  wasn't  supposed  to  get  this  far!

you  can't  rewrite  history.

oh,  i'd  never  say  it  to  their  faces.

it  was  supposed  to  stay  between  us.

we're  all  thinking  it,  i  just  said  it.

you're  not  as  untouchable  as  you  act.

do  you  even  feel  guilty?

they  warned  me  about  you.

go  ahead,  make  it  worse.

if  you  repeat  this,  i'll  deny  everything.

the  next  thing  out  of  your  mouth  better  be  an  apology.

you're  about  three  seconds  away  from  regretting  this.

you  keep  pushing,  and  i'll  push  you  back.

they're  going  to  find  out.

one  more  lie,  and  i  walk.

they're  lying  to  you.

you  need  to  back  off.  now.

you're  defending  them?  after  everything?

don't  try  to  hide  it.

tell  me,  was  i  just  a  placeholder?

you  really  think  sorry  fixes  this?

there's  nothing  left  to  say.

don't  act  like  you're  the  one  hurting.

i  don't  owe  you  any  explanation.

whatever  helps  you  sleep  at  night.

you  should've  seen  this  coming.

i  hope  it  was  worth  it.

i  told  the  truth.  just  not  all  of  it.

you'll  miss  me  before  i  miss  you.

smile.  you're  ruining  the  mood.

i'd  watch  that  tone  if  i  were  you.

it's  not  my  fault  you  believed  me.

you  have  such  a  talent  for  pretending  you're  innocent.

we  both  know  this  is  over.

i  never  said  i  was  a  good  person.

i  thought  you  were  different.

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Activity Check 180; Connections

Vidalia: I met this woman after being tricked into going into the basement of her establishment with my best friend. She thought for the majority of the months that I met her that I was willing to worship the ground she stepped out, but the jokes on her. I was faking it through the end because I was angry that I got into this situation in the first place. Vida comes off like this sweet, harmless woman who is independent and successful, but I see through her mask all too well. She thought that I would be complacent with my duties in her club when I wasn't exactly given much of an option that I would like. It was either work or get killed and no one likes those options do they? I was dying to get out of her control because I felt like I was being caged in and being reminded that me and along with other women in the same predicament deserved to be doing what we do since we had ‘nothing’ else going on for us. I can’t stand that Vida operates with trying to have a perfect reason for every little thing that she does, god I hope karma chokes her to death some more. 

Jade: Jade is such a sweetheart, she was one of the first people I met when I came to Sloane and I was a little envious since she had great fashion sense and the ability to read which I clearly don't have. I was really rooting for her happy ending and I think it was unfair that life just canceled that era for her. She was able to confide in me about why she left in Sloane and my heart sank. I couldn't have imagined what it must have been like to need to leave town because so many bad events kept occurring. When Jade was here she had a nice group of friends that she would see regularly. It's uncomfortable for her to talk about what happened and I totally get that. I'm just not sure if she needs anything or is doing what she can to cope. I've had my fair share of struggles but I wasn't really sure what to think since there were rumors she was placed in the looney bin before. We're close friends and I would confide in her if I had any struggles none the less. I mean you can only hope for the best in your friends, right? That's what I am hoping for her always. We met when we were teenagers and I already knew we had something in common which was already having a bad perception of men. Her ex supplied drugs for me and though all I wanted to be some drugs to take the edge off I felt bad that the first impression I get when I made Jade was her looking out the window and telling me that I couldn't even speak to her. I love her to death but I wish she didn't have to go through this..it's one thing that I'm fucked up beyond repair..why do my friends have to share the same fate?

Juniper: You were a client of mine when I was just fourteen years old, I hadn't expected that I would meet you again and in Sloane of all places. You were awfully ambitious and I thought that sudden desire to succeed would get you killed. You know about what I did for a living and how I was raised. My life was never easy but you managed to understand all the walls I have built up over the years. I love you to death and you know how I feel when I say I am concerned if people of my past try to come back to make our lives miserable. Even if it happens I know that it's us two against the world, but I hope the forced circumstances I've been put under since the age of six don't lead to hurting the only person I care for most.

Jane: I don't really know much about her other than the fact that she really does seem to love adventure. I think she is very free-spirited and we decided to travel together to go treasure hunting with a map she found. Since I'm one to think adventures are a great way for self-discovery I could not wait to go with her. She seems to have strong opinions from what I saw through social media which I think is pretty cool. Hopefully, I will get to know her a bit better as time progresses.

Mia: A friend of mine that I met while I was escorting. Mia is a very lovely person, a beautiful heart and mind, though I wasn't sure how someone so sweet could date a total monster. She was having some issues with her boyfriend that seemed pretty alarming at the time when I met her. Mia was able to notice the signals in time and escape while I let her ex-boyfriend go on a goose chase that kept leading to dead ends. I did manage to disappear before he could try to murder me for lying to his face, but I'm glad she made it out alive. The last thing I wanted to be a friend to be in a bad relationship and feel like they needed to stay because they had no way out. Seeing Mia again in Sloane just reminds me that the time I spent trying to help those instead of myself was never in vain. Donnie: Donnie..my childhood best friend although I will admit he did a complete one-eighty upon seeing him again. I was trying not to have a mini heart attack when I saw him again since he just seemed so different. To see someone you grow up with that was in your backyard playing wizards with you just randomly showing up to your business with all tattoos and a big goofy smile on his face. I thought how did he progress as a human and I just ended up looking like a potato. It’s a bit intimidating since he knows my real name, knew about my mother which is not an easy topic to talk about at times. I was a little hesitant to ask how his life has been since I disappeared since I knew of his family pretty well. My mother practically raised Donnie and Gianni although I wouldn’t try to say that verbally to Donnie these days. I wouldn’t even have the courage to ask how his mother was doing as I know his mother was pretty absent in his life. I found out that he owns a strip club called the Seven Deadly Sins and my yeobo doesn’t seem to be a big fan of it. Both of them aren’t exactly telling me why so I wonder how long it takes until the topic is discussed. I adore him like the big brother I had always wanted, but I’m really concerned about him. I wonder if he’s doing okay and if he and Gianni ever need anything as they are still close to this day.  Shae: I met Shae for the first time when I opened up my business in Downtown. I was completely new to owning a business and she came in to greet me which was something I never had anticipated. She owns the best hair, nail, spa business in town and was looking to collaborate to have chocolates to go with the wine she offers at the salon. Due to my love of some good chocolate and a glass of wine while getting my hair done I was eager to talk business with her. Little did I know that striking a deal with a business partner would lead us to find a burglar in my store that had us both at gunpoint. Talk about an interesting way to spend time with someone that’s for sure. He forced us to go to my vault as I was pretending that it was broken to buy us some time to call the police. Shae was on the phone trying to get the number while I tried to pretend I was putting to open the lock. The burglar called us useless and the opportunity struck for Shae to knock him out with a book. We were able to tape down his legs and arms with duct tape until the police arrived.  Eden: Eden came to me at the Ring of Fire to help the girls escape. Little is she aware that her boyfriend has made it impossible for escorts to leave the club thanks to the security setup he has for Vidalia now. With the cameras consistently on in the basement, I tried telling Eden it was a no go. But she wants to be so ignorant over the fact that her man was capable of siding with Vidalia to get a paycheck. I understood the guy was filthy rich but I didn’t see why he couldn’t turn the blind eye for some of the girls and me if we kept our mouths shut. Eden’s trying to play superhero when she’s dating a villain, cute but if she thinks I don’t see through her little innocent act she can guess again. I know her type and they fall flat on their ass quick. I may look harmless but this woman is about to figure out who Aisha Hoshi really is if she thinks I am going to let her involve innocent people for this stupid plan she decided to bring. My friends and I don’t need her, what we need is a fucking miracle and I can tell you this, that miracle isn’t tied to Eden fucking Stark. 

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AC #178

May 6th, 2020

A Korean woman in her late thirties had entered inside the Houghton Resorts, questioning the women at the front desk asking about the party that was under the name Soleil and Hoshi. Lying to the employee was the only thing that she could to just to barge in for a moment and leave her present at the table and disappear without a trace. In her company was a Puerto Rican man who looked at her with concern. ''You sure you want to do this Preciosa?'' Sunhee looked over at her boyfriend before nodding her head slowly. ''It's all I can do...after so much time I would be afraid to shock my daughter..who is no longer that six-year-old child that was ripped from her mother, the same way I was ripped from mine years ago.'' Saying this in a hushed tone that only her partner could hear.

As the two were escorted towards the ballroom that was reserved for the evening, the employee opened the door before leaving the two of them there alone. Taking in the Disney and enchanted decor the pale woman's lips lightly curled into a smile. ''I'm glad to know despite her being an adult now she still hasn't lost her interest in fantasy and things that are cutesy.''  Taking a couple of footsteps in the room she started to look at the table where there were various photos of Aisha and Juniper together. ''She's all grown up...but it wasn't by my side. I feel so guilty that the timing to be reunited wasn't there..'' Picking up a framed photo from the table as her slender fingertips grazed along with the photo. ''Even in this photo she is smiling so happy..despite being under the care of a monster for all these years I am relieved she hadn't lost a reason to smile..at least if these smiles are going to whom she calls her fiance.''

Ezekiel had moved close to Sunhee as he glanced down at the portrait that was in the woman's hands. ''She's a spitting image of you..'' The dark-haired woman looked at Ezekiel for a moment, slowly nodding her head before looking back towards the photo. ''When Reina was by my side people would say we looked like sisters..when in reality I was a teenage mother raising a child that was a product of-'' She then started to stutter as her hands started to violently shake, something that occurred whenever the discussion of Aisha's origin or she was bringing up her beginnings of motherhood. Shaking her head lightly Aisha's mother carefully put down the portrait. Hearing the words from Ezekiel managed to catch her off guard.

''You know Sunny..don't you think it's time to maybe come out of hiding and let your daughter know that you are alive? That your sudden disappearance when her father was thrown into the slammers wasn't just on purpose? Kenichi's men came after you after he was thrown in jail.'' His words were blunt but true. The Korean woman was hiding and it didn't seem to make much sense, the one who raped her and made her become his prostitute was thrown in the slammer and after the encounter with Kenichi's henchmen, everything was starting to go back to normal for her. Confronting her daughter face to face and letting her know that she was alive and well seemed terrifying but also heartbreaking. ''I'm scared...she might just explode on me. She inherited her father's temper you know and at times I wasn't sure what to do when she would get mad. Reina looks so happy but I have no idea if the rage I saw in her that was like her father has gotten any better or worse than last time.''  Despite the years passing Sunny just wanted to have a little bit of wishful thinking that her beloved daughter was perfect in some aspects. Ezekiel wasn't wrong for mentioning his concern, it seemed a little unfair that her daughter was thinking she was gone when that wasn't the case.

Aisha's mother had been hiding in fear after being assaulted by Kenichi's yakuza members. The Puerto Rican man was sensing how shaken up Sunny was from the discussion. He started to rub her back lightly as a way to try and help her calm down. ''Forgive me, I didn't mean to be so harsh about it. Your daughter thinks you are long gone.'' A heavy sigh escaped from the woman's lips. ''She inherited being gullible like her mother..that's for sure. Since being with her father for so long the opportunity to go to school and become a lot smarter than that asshole and me combined was taken from her.'' But at the moment it wasn't the time to mention what if's if the universe decided to change their fate.

Sunny had accepted that her daughter no longer went by the name Reina but Aisha and that her daughter had grown up without her mother by her side as it should be. She was feeling a lot of emotions, mostly negative. Sadness that as a mother she hadn't watched her child grow up properly, anger that her child was taken away from her care. ''Even if I wanted a restart in life one thing I wouldn't change is wanting to be her mother all over again. Even if I couldn't give her the best of circumstances she gave me unconditional love that I couldn't get even from my mother.'' Walking over towards the table in the ballroom that already had gifts from people who weren't able to attend. ''I'm sorry that I can only see you from afar Reina..'' Placing the present box at the table as some tears slowly started to trickle down her small face. ‘’I can’t even tell you how proud I am of you for choosing the same career path as me and wanting to continue my legacy in the candy-making business..’’ Sunny didn’t leave her name on the gift, part of it due to being terrified of spooking her daughter and another part of her not doing so out of fear of everything being blown out of proportion. When Aisha was younger, her captivity of forgiving was big. Sunny was a mom that wasn’t able to provide well, oftentimes they would be in circumstances that left them to eat nothing but eggs and rice at all meals of the day and go to their beds with five or six blankets just to try to stay warm. But Aisha had never had been resentful of it. Seeing Sunny upset the way she was made him feel sorry that he was pressing his blunt opinion too quickly.  The Korean mother felt like a failure, she failed at being a mother, despite the fact that she didn’t necessarily ask for motherhood in the first place. ‘’I have a lot of regrets on how you were brought into this world Reina..I tried giving you all the love in the world to make up for the fact that you had a monster for a father..and you still wanted to know about him.’’ Recalling those brief conversations where her once adorable six-year-old was questioning every little thing about her father.  Those questions irritated the living hell out of the thirty-eight-year-old woman, partially due to the fact that her child was a product of rape. She didn’t want to ever reveal to her child that her existence wasn’t what she had expected. Sunny thought she was going to return to her impoverished family with the lack of love from her parents and eventually forget about being abducted as a young teenager. All she wanted to do was be away from her abductor and be able to erase all the horrible memories she accumulated from her life in captivity. Despite having a family that was poor they had wanted to think things could go back to normal. But as a month went on she was showing symptoms of becoming pregnant. Due to how strict her family was they wanted her to abort the child which only triggered the Korean teen at the time to run off.

 She didn’t feel it was fair to abort an innocent baby, let alone not being able to have the chance to find the light at the end of the tunnel from a horrible situation. ‘’She made my decision to be a mother despite everything worthwhile. Her ability to love and accept the living situation we were in made me glad I never gave her up.’’ The Puerto Rican male could tell how much love the woman had for her child. It was a love that seemed a lot stronger than the mere fear of rejection. Sunny looked at the other gifts that were placed on the gifts table, there were a lot of gifts, knowing that they were for her daughter and the woman that her daughter chose to get married with. There was a stinging pain in the parent’s heart, it was difficult to even admit out loud that her daughter was getting married and she wouldn’t even be able to go to her and tell her that she is happy for her. The woman knew she probably could not even try meeting the daughter-in-law she was about to meet without some repercussions in the future. Though mentioning all these positive aspects that her daughter possessed there was that fear in the back of her mind that everything would backfire. Her daughter Reina that was now called Aisha could very well be angered that she was appearing now and not want to listen to the full extent of the truth. Ezekiel had lightly wrapped his arm around the petite woman’s body as he looked down at her. ‘’Don’t cry, it’s going to be fine. The opportunity to be reunited may come sometime and with all those nice things you say about her, I feel like she will be able to understand.’’ 

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Activity Check 174 alyeska ii

Aisha had felt sick from staying out too long in the snow. The trip to Alaska seemed fun but there was something inside the Asian woman that was telling her it seemed a little too good to be true. The fencing she saw while exploring in the snow made her think she was being caged in. Aisha had been silent for the sake of not trying to make her fiancee worry. She went to bed only to realize the next morning on Thursday that things were shut off. The Asian woman had woke up shivering from the room being quite cold, something that seemed a bit strange to her. The first instinct she had was to get her clothes on and head downstairs to possibly find the person for maintenance.

But he was nowhere to be found to have a conversation on what was going on with the room being so cold. The dark-haired woman had checked her cell phone only to see that the wifi wasn't working either which only made her think that something was going on. Making her way towards the dining hall she could only have been curious if there was any food or were their resources being cut off completely in the resort. Aisha discovered that the dining hall was closed off and she could only find herself making her way back towards her room. Doing only what she thought was a good idea she started to unpack the rest of her clothes in the luggage and started to put on multiple layers to prevent being cold. The Asian woman was used to being tortured, after all, she was an escort for her father at the tender age of six. She knew what it meant when resources were cut off.

It leads to needing to do whatever the person in power wanted to get things. But Aisha didn't know who was the person in charge, it wasn't a firm connection as it was her father. To be expected to give someone she barely knew her respect seemed too far of a stretch. All she could think was if she started to cave into the man's desires then nothing would be done. It seemed alright for the first couple of days, the dark-haired woman had been less cold wearing layers of clothing to keep herself warm. Little did she realize that she packed away lots of snacks from her carry on bag, they weren't exactly fresh but there was a small bit of optimism that everything was going to be okay. As time went on her fiancee was able to teach her some survival tricks that made her completely openminded on how to survive.

She was taught that melted snow eventually turns into water and that if they obtained snow from at least the top part of where it fell it was more likely to be clean. They didn't have all the resources to clean the water but drinking a bit of melted snow was a lot better than trying to rely on some resources that would make her feel uncomfortable. The survival tips that Juniper was providing her was able to make her feel a bit sane and less likely to feel the need to cave in. But once the weekend rolled around the Asian woman started to feel paranoid. She was worried that if they were going to be trapped for a long time then how were they going to be able to survive. It wasn't necessarily her intent to go to Alaska in the first place but she was too optimistic and felt it was a good opportunity at the time. As Friday approached her worries started getting the best of her.

The Asian woman started to question if she was ever going to head back to Sloane. The town wasn't necessarily perfect but it did seem a lot better than Alaska. She missed being in the dream home she got with Juniper and being able to snuggle with the pets that she loved. Aisha wanted to be able to finish her plans on rebuilding Sugar Rush and giving herself the chance to try and make her mother's dreams come true. Even if she felt things in Sloane were always uneasy at least there was stability. Alaska didn't seem stable in the least bit and what made her sanity levels drop were going for days just sipping unfiltered water and old snacks, never knowing if she would ever head home again. Making her way towards the rec room on a Saturday evening Aisha felt she was at her breaking point.

With not knowing when the torture of waiting around for something to happen the Asian woman was worried about Juniper. Her fiance was doing everything to help her learn some survival skills but there was no telling if she would even be able to utilize the skills to stay alive. The worry of herself getting sick from the food they were eating and the dirty water they were drinking was making her feel desperate. She felt as though she was having an inner battle inside her head with an angel and a devil. The angel kept protesting that hurting others was wrong and that she would only have regrets if she had to hurt someone for getting some resources. But on the same accord, the devil was trying to fight for dominance as the inner feeling of wanting to survive didn't seem as selfish, even if it meant hurting people to get something she wanted. After all, there were some individuals in Sloane where the dark-haired woman wouldn't have felt as bad if she had to hurt them to get something she needed.

The Asian woman felt as if the devil was winning by how much uncertainty the trip had. She didn't know if there was any way for the resident Sloanies to get any sort of help. There was a worry for her fiancee whether or not she would have to wonder if they were going to get good enough food in their system to survive. Juniper was providing for them but she felt so helpless. There was not much she could do to help Juniper out in getting the resources they needed. The devil was winning over trying to tempt the dark-haired woman to stick her hand in the urn and complete a task. There was so much uncertainty that it was a sure thing that if she could complete a task then she could at least get something that would hold her and Juniper over for some time at least.

The rec room was a place that Aisha tried avoiding, it was where they had all met up on Wednesday which she only knew about after hearing some conversations from the hallway as she spent her time for the majority of that evening sick in bed but the conversations led her to go to the door, putting her ear against it just to try and listen in on what she missed. She was hearing various things that made her unaware of the extent of the issues at hand that came from that gathering. The Asian woman was slowly forgetting her sanity bit by bit as her legs quickly moved to the rec room of the resort. Not exactly sure what she was about to find the moment she headed there. There was a smell that wasn't exactly foreign to Aisha but it wasn't a type of smell she was used to whiffing on a daily basis. Her line of vision eventually found Otto's body which caused her to jump a couple of inches off the ground from shock as her fragile body attempted not to stumble over. Her dark eyes had widened as she looked at the rotting dead body as to her own surprise some tears were starting to form in her eyes despite not hydrating with the best quality of water.

''T-They left a body here to rot....why would they do such a thing..'' She was used to seeing people die, after all, she was an escort with the yakuza for quite some time. The organized crime group had a knack for shooting people on the spot that owed them anything and even liked to kill escorts that were trying to escape or rebel. Aisha would see someone dead in a blink of an eye. The only sane part of her left was looking at the body of Otto as her body started to shake in fright. ''He should have been buried...whether it's deep into this cold snow or someone contacting his family....this is too cruel..'' She knew whoever was related to Otto would want to be able to see him and say goodbye, to have the opportunity to grieve but the man's body just laid there on the floor and it didn't look like anyone wanted to remove him from the room anytime soon.

Moving over towards the mantle where she saw the urn the five-foot woman started to bite down on her lower lip. She was wondering what kind of task she had to complete, hoping it would be something that she could do herself just to gain something that would help her fiancee at least for a couple of days. All she had to do was stick her hand in the contents of the urn and hope for the best. ''I'll just reach in fast before I really start to regret my decisions.'' She was having second thoughts before making her way to the rec room as she managed to see Celeste rushing down the hallway in tears, the Asian woman didn't look so great but due to what she saw Aisha had kept herself silent and decided to say nothing. Since she was fearful of making anyone upset when they felt so vulnerable. Her small hand reached out towards the urn even though her mind was racing with all these thoughts.  Most pertaining to not being weak-minded but yet, in the end, she still decided to try sticking her head in the cookie jar. All directions in her mind and in the heart were to complete a task to get something for her and Juniper but then she heard a familiar voice that only caused her to stop in her tracks completely.

''From experience, they aren't anything remotely nice.'' Aisha turned her head to look back as she saw her fiancee standing right there, seeing her in a moment of complete weakness as her hand was reached out towards the urn. This caused the dark-haired woman to look at her beloved partner as tears started to stream down her cheeks. She knew she would be kidding herself if she didn't admit to having a moment of weakness, that she wanted to stick her hand in the urn because the desperation was starting to get out of her control. Aisha was starving and it was starting to get to her that maybe she would die of starvation even though she was drinking a lot of melted snow to compensate. Moving her head slightly to look at the urn as her eyes narrowed. The things they needed to survive all seemed to be linked to an urn that the person responsible placed in order for them to complete.

TF seemed to be making his mark by torturing people in the worst way possible. Juniper had been nothing but understanding and it made Aisha feel bad since her fiancee's presence only caused her to withdraw taking anything from the urn. To hurt herself was one thing but she could never hurt her soulmate. Despite not taking from the urn she had realized that this was what TF would have wanted, for her to start getting crazy enough to want to complete a task. But Juniper knew from experience which was why Aisha felt guilty she was slipping into the temptation far too easily. Her apologies to her soulmate were never ending, she knew the guilt would eat at her even though she never stuck her hand inside the urn to fish out a task. The Asian woman felt angry enough to take the urn and toss it to the other side of the rec room but she knew the possibility of making TF angry. But she felt there had to be at least some people in the resort that felt this tactic wasn't going to be the way of getting control from people. Aisha had wrapped her arm around Juniper's, sniffling some as she glanced back at the urn for a moment. ''You are right babe...at least our room doesn't have an urn or a dead body..''

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The front of the dream house that Aisha lives in with the love of her life is a white Victorian-style home that has three levels. The top level has the master bedroom which is pretty neutral in decor. There is also the master and full bathroom, one which is decorated with Lilo and Stitch. There is a music office where Juniper gets to have a room to herself to record and write music. The middle level is considered the main level of the Soleil household, there is the kitchen, dining room where Juniper and Aisha love to sit down and enjoy their meals together, a living room where they would watch movies or anime together and a half bathroom. The bottom level of the house has the guest bedroom which has a lunar, astrology type of decor for anyone that would like to stay in the Soleil household. There is also a full bathroom for the guest to enjoy to themselves while staying. There is also a separate guest bedroom that has a pretty neutral decoration for those that aren’t exactly into a big aesthetic. The bottom level of the house also has the entertainment and game room which is where Aisha can be found. She has a computer set up with monitors in order to play her games and do some streaming. Even though the entertainment room is her separate space she has couches and furniture there for Juniper to come join her and partake in any fun Aisha finds herself in. 

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Activity Check 169

The Easter Holiday was a chance for Aisha to spend quality time with her mother. The two did everything together on the holiday since Easter was an American Holiday but it never stopped Sunhee from wanting to celebrate. Korea did not celebrate Easter and for Sunhee it meant needing to go work with her family at the fishing market. As a child, Aisha recalled that the holiday had no real special meaning, just a holiday where families were able to do activities together since that was how America viewed the holiday. Donnie at the time dealt with his mother leaving him and Gianni alone for too long. Sunhee was not the type of parent to begin questioning the morality or ethics of a mother. Aisha only recalled her mother with an eagerness to bring the siblings to the Jung Household for Easter.

Her mother would cook up a storm, cooking both American and Asian food. The parental figure pulled out Easter crafts so that the kids would have something to do while she was busy. The small child recalled Donnie treating the Easter crafts like a game with his sister and Aisha. The children were trying their best to paint the prettiest easter eggs in order to show Sunhee their artistic talents. Aisha felt that Donnie did have a slightly better talent for crafting a cool looking Easter egg. The holiday was a time that Aisha wasn't the only one smiling but the two kids that were neighbors to her. Sunhee felt that even though it wasn't a Korean holiday she would get into the spirit for the sake of the children.

Aisha thought that the Easter holiday just meant having fun with those that cared about them. With being separated at the age of six from her mother, she wasn't able to do such fun activities with her mother anymore. She couldn't expect Gianni or Donnie to show up at her house to eat food, play together and make it a competition who could do things best. But now in the current time, she was recreating such memories of her childhood with her girlfriend. It might have been childish to being completing Easter activities at the age she was but a part of her felt like most of her life was robbed from her all thanks to the sperm donor that took her. The feeling of being connected with her mother on such holidays doing things that they did together as a family made her feel like the bond was never severed even though her mother was no longer living.

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Activity Check 167

If only I never met my sperm donor [Location Boston, Massachussets | Year: 2000 | Age 5 turning 6] Reina had been following her mother’s lead as the two were in the crowded flea market. Sunhee looked down at her young daughter as a sweet smile appeared on her face as her long slender fingers lightly ran through the five-year-old’s dark locks. ‘‘I know the bus trip was long but we’re finally here little one. I’m going to make your favorite cake and we can get some fruits or other snacks you’d like to enjoy.’‘ The child smiled up at her mouth, nodding her head enthusiastically as one arm was wrapped around her mother’s leg while the other was holding a child-size Korilakkuma plush doll. Her dark eyes were glancing immediately towards the strawberries that her mother was grabbing, putting in her reusable bag after paying for the fresh produce. The twenty-year-old mother was then walking towards some vegetables, moving to take her free hand to clasp her daughter’s tiny hand so that the two would not get lost. Reina was hugging her stuffed bear as her mother seemed to be quite immersed in the shopping environment. There were so many noises, most that consisted of people talking and trying to haggle items in the flea market, whether it was produced, clothes, food or products that the sellers wanted to advertise. Reina turned her head slightly as she was looking at two people who seemed to be arguing over the price of the item. She did not know why but this one of the instances where she felt the most distracted in the flea market. The commotion they caused was making it difficult to put her focus back into her mother that had the mission of finishing up the shopping quickly and boarding the bus. Her mother was never someone that enjoyed taking a long time to get the things she needed. But instead of breaking away from her mother’s hold, she only held more tightly to her mother’s leg to which her mother was noticing. Reina hadn’t realized that the moment she decided to let go was when things started turning sour very fast. The older Korean woman looked down at her daughter as she flashed a light smile. ‘‘Aigo you must be uncomfortable trying to hold onto me like that for so long.’‘ Sunhee crouched down and scooped up Reina in her arms as the shopping bag was dangling on one of her arms. ‘’Let’s head back to the bus before this place starts getting chaotic.’‘ Reina felt a soft kiss on her temple as her mother was carrying her back to the bus. This was where she wanted to be the entire time, back on the bus where it was safe and sound, with her mother and the bag of flea market goods that would be used for her birthday celebration. Sunhee had moved back to her seat on the bus with her child. ‘‘You are going to have a fun birthday my little Reina, mama got you a nice present that’s waiting for you at home.’‘ But sadly Reina was growing up without ever knowing what it would have been like to celebrate her sixth birthday with her mother, to know what it would be like to have a life growing up alongside her mother since her sperm donor stole that opportunity from her.

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Timeline

December 24th 1996:  Sunhee Jung welcomes her only child Reina Jung in Koreatown, New York. August 4th 2001: Sunhee introduces Reina to the Montgomery family where she meets Stella and plays with her a couple of times while the family visited the Sugar Rush candy shop. December 24th 2002: Sunhee and Reina go to the Boston flea market to shop for birthday supplies to celebrate Reina’s birthday and this is when her father Kenichi Shinoda abducts her. Feburary 14th 2002: Reina starts becoming an escort with the yakuza for the Yamaguchi clan. June 2010: Reina meets Jade Michaelson and releases the older teen was in an abusive relationship with a drug dealer. September 2010: Reina meets Hana, an escort assigned to her father and reveals herself to be an escort from the rivaling Sumiyoshikai clan. She also meets Willow who is a teenage escort assigned to her father. -Comes across Trent Foster from various parties with clients in Sloane. October 2010: Reina first meets Juniper Soleil as an escort/client transaction. March 2011: Trent Foster approaches her to bargain her freedom in exchange for telling him where the yakuza leader reside. Reina keeps her end of the bargain and legally changes her name from Reina Jung to Aisha Hoshi. April 2011: While Trent Foster was framed and sentenced to prison Aisha was in New York, entering into rehab to try and clean herself of drugs and reunite with her mother. May 2011: Aisha gets released from the rehab clinic and starts to earn money in order to find out the whereabouts of her mother to reunite.  April 2012: Aisha founds out that her mother Sunhee Jung had passed away with the help of an underground detective and her burial grounds are located in Koreatown. The same day Aisha trashes her apartment out of anger and gets arrested. June 2012: Aisha’s court hearing begins for her felony of trashing her apartment and is sentenced to three years in rehab at the Boston’s psychiatric facility. 2014: Aisha meets Maxwell Casper at the psychiatric facility after he tries to commit suicide. November 2015: Eventually gets released from the psychiatric facility and heads back to Koreatown. 2016: Aisha works various jobs to afford a caravan so that she can travel around the area.This is where she meets Reina Quinn as the two worked on crafting costume outfits together. She reunites with Hana and the two decide to go on a road trip. 2018: She meets Esther, a former escaped escort who she allows to tag along on the caravan as the three girls travel around the States. June 2019: Aisha decides to head to Sloane and ask Trent Foster if she could find a job and have a more stable life. She then ends up in the basement of Ring of Fire after her best friend Hana gets tricked into a scam, thus becoming an escort all over again while living in Sloane.

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Inside Aisha’s Mind | AC 163

I consider myself to be someone that can put up with a lot of shit. Since I was six years old I realized that I was going to have to figure out how to grow up without love anymore. After all my father made it clear that he would never let me go. From being with that god awful excuse of a human being I've learned to look at myself in ways I didn't think to at the time. I thought I was as low as dirt, just a little thing in this place called life. Ready to be disposed of when the time was right. With someone always reminding that that I'm worth nothing I would always wonder if I was even capable to see myself in a positive light.

I'm capable of loving others but just as the strength I have to love others there is also that strength in me to hate people. When I am angry I become someone that I can't even recognize anymore, someone that is hell-bent on making someone feel the same pain I have felt but ten times worse. At some points I see myself as a stone, people can force me to do whatever they want since I've never been able to make decisions for myself for too long at a time. But that doesn't mean you'll see me break. I'm not one to try and show how I feel in public so easily even though these days the way I feel internally is starting to seep out into the exterior. I see myself as someone that is just a ticking time bomb ready to explode. They see me as weak but they don't exactly know how destructive I can be when I have something set in my mind there's no way to change my mind on it. I know I am someone that my anger can get the best of me and I can be petty without much remorse for it.

If I get hurt, then that person has to get hurt tenfold because I don't see any other way of living but seeking revenge. I believe that people see me as someone strong, even though I feel as though I am the weakest link. I'm blunter when it comes to the way I feel. I'm surrounded by people that aren't as honest as me, which is fine I guess. I know I am a weirdo in how I choose to express myself. I don't follow the beat to the same drum. I've done things in the past that make me feel anxious and angry. I try to tell myself that because I was forced to do those things that I don't have to feel bad even though the honest truth is I feel disgusted with myself.

I wonder how people could even try to love or care for me when I am worthless damaged goods. I've been taught how to listen to what people order me to do even though I've never agreed with it. I'm not able to have my own voice because people with power and control over me think they dictate my life and what I should be doing. But they don't know that I'm someone willing to do anything to be free doing what I want to do. I tend to have these debates, wondering if I am going to turn out like my father or am I going to be strong like my mother was? I can only see the negatives in me because my mother was an amazing and tremendous woman. The way that she was made me concerned that I didn't deserve to go back to her, because I was a worthless daughter, one she couldn't be proud of.

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activity check 161: DIY CS

1. What words or phrases do they overuse? Uh Oh, Haha,Rude,But, No, Oh well, Sweetie,Queen 2. Are they more optimistic or pessimistic? Aisha is known to be quite optimistic. 3. Are they introverted or extroverted? Aisha tends to be more introverted until she gets to know someone well. 4. What bad habits do they have? Aisha has a habit of biting her lips and speaking in foul language when she is angry. 5. What makes them laugh out loud? The things that Juniper says or does. Funny films or watching someone fall. 6. What is their strongest and weakest character trait? Aisha’s strongest character trait that she is very loyal, her weakest character trait would be that she is a cynic, she believes that people are only interested in doing things that benefit themselves. 7. Is their family big or small? Who does it consist of? Aisha’s family is rather small, it consists of just her and her mother. She knew that her mother came from a big family but didn’t exactly get to know them that well. 8. What is their perception of family? Aisha thinks that a family is precious, she had a loving mother that made the idea of family very bright and memorable. 9. Describe their best friend. Aisha’s best friend Hana is very goofy, outgoing, loud, an adventurer, likes getting dirty and getting into trouble. Her best friend thinks outside of the box and tends to have a different opinion than the grand majority. Hana tends to be a person that doesn’t care to stand out and is very straight forward with everything that she does. 10. What was your character like as a baby? As a child? Aisha only knew from stories from her mother that she was a quiet baby and did not cry too much unless she was ill. As a child Aisha tended to ask lots of questions to her mother and exhibit a lot of patience as she was born to deal with poverty. 11. Did they grow up rich or poor? Aisha grew up poor in Koreatown as her mother owned a worn down candy shop to try and make ends meet. 12. What is their best childhood memory? Aisha’s best childhood memory is spending the time at the candy shop, playing with her dolls while her mom was making candies and helping her mother try to sell candies. 13. What past act are they most ashamed of? Aisha is most ashamed of her escorting with the yakuza. She would recall the moments she would get angry at what the clients did to her the point of beating them up until one of the yakuza pulled her off the client. 14. Has anyone ever saved their life? Aisha considers her friend Hana as her savior as the two met up again after Aisha was released from prison in Boston. Hana came up with the idea of starting over in life and the two former escorts decided to restart their lives in Sloane. 15. What are their ambitions? Aisha hopes to have a successful candy shop since her mother was never able to make her dream of a successful candy shop a reality. She also hopes to live a life that is hers entirely, not owing anyone anything or finding herself back in the escorting life. 16. What is on their bedside table? Aisha has a framed photo of herself and Juniper at the carnival they went to. 17. What is in their purse or wallet? Keys to the car, money, different forms of identification, photo of her mother and some items of makeup stuffed in her wallet. 18. What is their greatest regret? Aisha’s greatest regret is meeting her father and figuring out why her mother seemed to adamant on her not meeting him ever. 19. What is their favorite fairytale? Aisha’s favorite fairytale is The Little Match Girl since she thought that the real story of the fairytale was an example that not everything involved a happily ever after. She also thought the fairytale explained her poverty life quite well. 20. If your character could travel through time, where would they go? Aisha would probably only travel a little bit to the past in order to see how her mother was raised before she was born. Aisha had always been curious about her mother’s family and what kind of struggles they endured to immigrate to America. 21. Do they believe in happy endings? Aisha used to be skeptical of happy endings due to losing her mother, but since being with her girlfriend Juniper she believes there is such a thing as being ‘close’ to happy endings. 22. What’s their view of lying? Aisha feels like white lies are fine, but if it’s a lie that ends up hurting people and have a strong impact that it’s not acceptable. 23. What do they think is the worst thing that can be done to a person? Aisha thinks the worst thing that can be done to a person is inflicting the same kind of pain they inflicted on you. If someone did something to her and it was the worst kind of pain she would think the worst thing that could happen is inflicting the same amount of hurt and then end their life to finish it off. 24. Who or what is your character’s guardian angel? Aisha considers Juniper to be her guardian angel because without her she wouldn’t see the bright side that life has to offer. 25. Are they superstitious? Aisha would consider herself a bit superstitious. She feels cautious on days like Friday the thirteenth and usually gets spooked around Halloween.

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“If I am not good to myself, how can I expect anyone else to be good to me?”

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