I know you are not remember me or put my name on your Doa' asking to Allah you will be my Jodoh but at the same time are not. I'm afraid if I really do love you hard, it will be hurting myself.
I don't know if I need to make first move either to confess or just give up.
I know I always give excuse not to try, always with wait and see. I don't know if I really had any confidence to face you.
but i always thought you are the right man for me from the first i saw you. Even you never put any smile on your face at that time, but you smile when you teached your ex-gf. maybe at that time you still having hope of your relationship with her or maybe it is just a fake smile to say you are strong to face your ex.
you know i really afraid you will hate me. That feel really annoyed me so much.
when I let you know my feeling from my friend, I really space out 3days or maybe more since you are rejected me. Im thankful but at the same time it hurting me. (he said he not ready to accept new relationship)
at the time when i want to give up on you, you give me love advice (he does not know i know he know my feeling) I really happy and cry at the same time. I dont know how to respond and reply stupidly. so childish reply. he annoyed !? omg
maybe he think I not really serious with my feeling toward him. but i dont know ! it is my first love story that i keep a long time by myself! what you think i may reply ? with happy stupid face and tears in my eyes ? ouh i still working at the same time as a rider so you doesn't know how you make me be so butterfly ?!
I hope I got courage to make you realize how big my love towards you. But my courage not really stand at the same place.
I want to make you happy but at the sametime i dont know how.
ah one side love story really hurt right? and you are the first one i like for a long long time
hope my feeling can reach to you
