Since you've actually seen the new episode, how do you feel about Adam/Shadam?
Like I said to someone on Twitter, I think you need to be aware of a few things here.
Shiro and Adam are approximately 21 when this happens. Shiro has a degenerative disease he’s trying to outrun, and as Lauren said, Shiro and Adam have been together for a while at this point as flying partners and boyfriends. Adam knows Shiro. Adam also alludes to Shiro running a race against his own degenerative disease. Shiro has maxed every record, already risked his life in space, and now, he only has a couple years left in peak physical condition. Those two years can be spent on Earth and having a life Adam can play witness to or Shiro can leave and do this final mission that may or may not kill him.
Again, they’re young adults at an age where people find themselves standing at a lot of important forks in the road. Realistically, at 21, it’s already hard on the heart to know the man you love has a disease that will entirely disable him and then maybe kill him. Adam seems willing to do this with Shiro, but he also wants Shiro to meet him halfway, and well, Shiro doesn’t have to. It’s Shiro’s life. It’s two very important years to experience his life passion, but also, Adam doesn’t have to meet Shiro halfway either. It’s Adam’s life. Asking your partner to watch you go on a perilous and time stealing mission is a lot at 21 years old.
We can’t be idealistic and impart these puritanical expectations on queer people in media anymore. Adam’s reaction is human. It’s not right or wrong. It’s just human.
I don’t think Adam is coming from an irrational place considering he knows Shiro is trying to beat a clock that will never stop ticking ahead of him. He basically asks Shiro what he wants since he’s already DONE EVERYTHING, and when Shiro couldn’t answer, I gathered that Shiro didn’t know either. He probably wants to cram his entire life into an impossible timeline, and that’s some rough stuff for young adults to negotiate. Shiro is mourning his life while trying to live it. Can you imagine?
My mom had cancer and died at 45 (believe it or not, internet, that’s tragically fucking young), and while she was declining, her decisions made me mad. They made me so mad I couldn’t see straight because I couldn’t understand why she would do things that felt like a shitty use of her time, and that’s normal. It’s something you discuss in grief therapy. You say shitty things. You’re scared. You don’t want that person to slip away faster than they are. It’s a desperate thing.
So, I don’t know. I trust Adam and Shiro had a good relationship until Shiro made the choice he had the right to make. I can tell this arc was written by people who are older and understand this shit is a nuanced thing we want to simplify but can’t.
That’s my hot take but it’s heartfelt, and until I see something that disproves my feelings in canon, then I’m not backing down from it.
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