It would have been my sister's 40th birthday on the 13th. Since then I have not been able to stop thinking about her. Mainly at night. I have been having random dreams where she is alive.
I feel guilty because I miss her the most. I feel like I should miss my niece more (her daughter), but I really miss my sister. Maybe it's just I had more time with her and we had more history.
I am regretful for my niece more, because she was so young and never got to live.
God grief is weird.












