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Just here fucking up my life.

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Sephira Lily Street 🤍

IG: KingSephi

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Christ I forgot how fucking cranky I get when I diet on my period

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Y’all just want more transformation pictures.

Ask and you shall receive. 260lbs to 154lbs.

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“Close your eyes and imagine the best version of you possible. That’s who you really are, let go of any part of you that doesn’t believe it.”

— C. Assaad

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Hi friends…

It’s been a while hasn’t it?

Little update on my life, so if you don’t give a fuck just scroll.

Well, I quit my big girl job to go back to waiting tables. I moved into my own house. I saw Billie Eilish in concert . I got my knees and elbows tattooed. I taught myself how to crochet. I taught myself how to play guitar. And with all of that, I also have gained 40lbs back from my major weight loss a couple of years ago.

I’m so crushed, disgusted, disappointed, and incredibly unhappy with so many things in my life regarding my weight.

I’ve been doing well and eating healthy, but I’m not actually taking care of myself. I need to be able to function like a human being again. I’m back to 200lbs and want to continue to share the real life happenings of what my eating disorder looks like. Even if that includes gaining weight.

I hope you all have been well and didn’t miss me too much. Feel free to drop in and say hello, I’m also open to making new friends.

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I know you’ve probably already been asked this but do you have any gym machines that you recommend? I’m having a hard time finding what actually works. I’m overweight and I’ve had an Ed since I was 15 I just want to be a normal weight so badly but have no idea where to start in an even semi healthy way. Not asking for diet tips, just workout routine/machine ideas 🥺

I don’t use machines as I am very embarrassed about using them wrong or hurting myself.

I also have bad knees, hips and back so I just stick to low impact cardio.

Treadmill, bike, and stair stepper. Calories are calories doesn’t matter how you burn them.

Also if you’re doing weights/strength training, you’re focus is building muscle not burning calories.

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hey, i don’t see many accounts having asks on their page and i don’t know if you’re even active anymore but i kinda have no one to talk to and figured i could say something. i’ve been struggling all my life with many different symptoms of disordered eating (i’m plus sized) but now i’m dating a guy who’s in recovery for his ED (due to medical issues) and it makes me so sad because my struggle could trigger him and i’m not really ready to go into recovery but he likes having us eat together whether in person on online because he knows i have body image issues (doesn’t really know any of my habits) and it’s terrifying to think that if he finds out how much i’ve been not taking care of myself (to put it in light terms) it’ll send him into a relapse. i would never wish that on anybody especially him. i love him but i also can’t stop. this is just a long winded way of asking advice on if i should just break up with him to save him from myself

Oof.

Personally I think you need to be by yourself until you’re ready to be on same level of healing as the person you want to commit to.

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hope you’re doing okay here’s some flowers 💐🌼🌸🌹🌷🌷🌼🌸🌸🌻🌹🌸💓💓💓✨✨

Y’all are so sweet thank you 😭😭

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Hope that you’ve been doing okay and sending you good vibes. If you’re comfortable answering, how do you manage to keep decent energy at work/chores/doing errands while keeping low calorie?

God this one’s tough and I don’t really have an answer.

I do drink a shit ton of caffeine, but also I’m running on auto pilot 120% of the time. I’m not sure how I function sometimes.

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I hope you have a nice day/night; sending nothing but positivity your way!!! Also, I think it's really amazing that your telling people to get help, and I hope you find the strength within you one day to get better, it can be difficult (don't I know) but you've got this champ 💜

You’re the fucking sweetest 😭😭

Thank you!!!!

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How tall are you (if u dont mind sharing)

5’7

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I just wanna say how inspiring you are! I’m starting w a high BMI at the moment and seeing your transformation gives me hope :)

I hate that I inspire people to do unhealthy things. But thanks I guess.

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So you only did walking, jogging and some tummy workouts while you were losing? Did you do anything besides that? You're such an inspiration to me btw, I hope you're doing okay <3

I didn’t do anything besides those.

I have bad knees, hips and back so I’m pretty limited.

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please update i can't get over you.

wot… confusion.

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me: *fasts for 24 hours*

me, in the mirror the morning after: