wishjwasbvrning

[disasterdahlia]

found this on a cal0r1e calculator website thingy and thought you guys would appreciate it

[vburninghill]

want to update even tho I have to confess i switched sides... I'm on edtwt now (not active but yk like watching stuff there).

i lost 16 kg by b/p and want to stop this cicle that lasted 4 months. I'm tired and risked to choke to death a million times.

gained 2 kg by restricting and eating 2 times a day but I think it's normal cause when i pvrged was like not eating so now even if I'm restricting I'm still eating more than before.

please never try pvrging cause it's addictive and i cant even stay 2 days w/o pvrgin and I'm serious.

[nitfair]

i'm rotting inside.

[vburninghill]

ok yesterday i ate "normally" cause i stayed at my friend's house all day and literally lost 0.8 kg????? i also did 2 hours of figure skating but i do it every other day and never lost this much. gonna ask for the recipes atp

[vburninghill]

i'm so tired

[vburninghill]

yesterday total

700 cal

ik is too much but i moved in the agonistic group of figure skating and we train a looooot.

[vburninghill]

the holidays are finished you dont have any excuses anymore it's time to stick to the plans everyone.

[vburninghill]

i hate holidays so much i feel like a fat pig i can't even look at myself in the mirror im horrified

can't wait to starve again

[vburninghill]

wanna die lol

[vburninghill]

already lost 3 of the kilos i gained back so i'm halfway to go back to lw

[vburninghill]

anywaysss that means that i'm back. and also i'm not saying that recovery is bad or else but i don't want to get better now i just wanna be skinnier.

[vburninghill]

and i hate but love the fact everyone got alarmed cause i was losing too much weight in such a little time even if i wasn't underweight.

like cool love you all but can i be skinny and sick? it's all i ask for

and for a bunch of idiots i gained all the weight back. i wanna cry

i don't care what people say i will get skinny again and again cause it's my only goal in life.

[vburninghill]

I'm scrolling through my blog and i literally disappointed myself???

I'm on another level of shame

[vburninghill]

where all my motivation go?

[vburninghill]

gained all the weight back.

fuck recovery and my mom.

[vburninghill]

tomorrow I have school and im drunk i dont know how i get like this

[vburninghill]

im so drunk lmao I love it fuck the calories i wanna be always drunk