veggie

32, she/her, sleepy, sometimes i post about my ED so don’t follow if you don’t wanna see that

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y stomach was feeling better earlier today but it started hurting again this afternoon and now it just hurts so much i’m hobbling around i wish it would stop😔😔😔

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just saw someone posted a meme that referred to bill clinton’s relations w monica lewinsky as “consensual” and uhhhh not sure i really like that framing lol. she may not have said no but the man was twice her age and the literal president… and she was treated so terribly by the public and media. i just don’t think it makes sense to call it “consensual” because there’s just so much context to the situation.

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first watermelon!!! also going to start hand pollinating to try and get more fruits. i google it you have to rub a male flower onto a female flower in order to pollinate watermelon by hand!!

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i did dishes, folded a load of towels and a load of clothes, brought the trash bins in and took out the trash

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new book came in the mail its about the need for change in the fashion industry

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napped about 2 hours

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lunch today: corn & poblano chowder (with poblanos from the garden) and some string cheese in there plus a decaf iced coffee

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okay i’ve showered, also this morning i’ve watered the garden and vacuumed and fed the birds. i’m feeling tired

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I’m not perfect but at least I’ve never sent a mean anon

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first ripe thai peppers, the plant is just completely stuffed with em waiting to ripen

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my stomach has been very much painful and it hurts and i don’t feel good and now im panicking i got cyclospora from the strawberries i ate last week but i don’t even have diarrhea it just hurts idk:((((

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back really hurts today

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ew why is it 82 degrees outside at 10:30 pm

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my anxiety and sadness typically doesn’t have a focus it just feels broad and all consuming but lately it’s been fixating very intently on aging, health, death, my own mortality, losing my mom and others important to me… idk it’s been very supercharged and very specific. it’s making me feel really sad and i feel griefy all the time. i feel worried and scared of things changing. idk i never used to think about the future because it was always just about surviving the present. but now i feel like the future is speeding violently towards me idk. it’s all i can think about now

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spider photo below cut!!

found a crab spider at work the other day he was so cute?? so yeah we took him outside and he posed for some photos. i think he could tell i was very curious about him.

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ugh my tummy has been huuuuurting since i woke up from my nap too it won’t stop :(( ow

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back hurting after getting up from nap though:( took ibuprofen and muscle relaxer so that should help, just hurts in this one specific spot on one side