I'm Stuck With Myself

Victor's Journal

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Sometimes, Journal.

We know naught what we do, nor not why we do them. only that they hurt others at times, and there isn't much we can do about the past aside from trying to fix it...

  Being human is both a curse and a blessing...

Being flawed is both a burden and a reward.... 

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I told him

Why do I always make a mess of things? I just can't seem to do things... right.

I told him. I told him about Ethan and that night - I didn't see any other way to ... fix.

I don't know why i told him.

I wonder if Ethan was planning on it... 

I need to stop mentioning him in this entry. It's become redundant. I hate redundancy.

I need to fix my own messes. 

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Headcanon #003

Victor’s writing is almost practically incoherent to anyone who doesn’t know him very well or isn’t used to his speaking mannerisms. They are often in half-written out sentence fragments in a list sort of form, and often jump to his next immediate thought, sometimes leaving the prior thought unfinished. 

The reason tends to be because his thinking is at a fast rate, often leaving things out. It’s another reason why his focus is so intense is so he doesn’t forget what it is he is thinking about. 

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Head Canon #001

Victor speaks/is learning several different languages: 

Pali | Middle Indo-Aryan Language | Currently Learning

Latin | Full Knowledge of | Began learning at a young age

Italian | Very Close to being Fluent in | Began Learning at a Young age

French | Knows important basics/a variety of conversational phrases and words | Still Learning 

Russian | Knows almost fluently | Began Learning at Adolescence

Gaelic | Knows fluently | Learned along side english 

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Headcanon #002

Victor never gets enough sleep when he’s at home, or around his siblings due to the constant surveillance they need. He also ended up taking care of other people with their late-night inquiries and worries. During school, he ends up sleeping a lot, whether randomly in the library, collapsing in his dorm room, or even nodding off in the common room. 

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Dear Journal

First and foremost, Dumbledore has insisted that we record our thoughts and feelings in this...

I have no problem with it, writing comes ... In spurts. I may even be able to record medical things i discover. seeing as from time to time i struggle with emotions, i may be able to put those in here as well. 

But...Well... Hopefully no one will read this...

But before Ethan left...

something happened... I... I ....

He told me... not to believe what i heard or read or what anyone told me....

I'm finding that hard to do now...

He said everything he did was for me...

What does he mean? 

maybe.... I'll find out....

the content of his letter are even more confounding. I should look into what it means when someone has the same patronus as another... it's quite the case. Does it have something to do with genetics or a mental capability? Hmmmm....