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[victoriadoppelganger]

i’m so giddy that we’re going back to our voice in the dark, every-mission-is-a-medicine-supply-run roots, feels like a time capsule 😭

[eats-all-your-shoes]

thinking about graces memory loss.. do you think he ever remembered something that he did and just went like “i would not do that. why did i say that. that’s not me.” because i think losing ALL of your memory of your life and then having to rebuild it from scratch would change you as a person and he is absolutely not the same person as he was before

like in ch 24 when he remembers how he got there and he’s like “oh. i’m a coward. i wasn’t scared for earth, i was scared for myself. i’m a coward.” does he view old him as a different person. does he hate how he used to be.

and maybe there’s things he will never remember. does he know that his moms voice? can he remember all his students names? what his address was? did he read the wikipedia page on own life and actually learn something? are there are things that are permanently blurry and vague and unknown? is there a show that he used to love and now it irritates him to think about?

ryland died the moment he was drugged and grace was born on the hail mary. can anyone hear me

[victoriadoppelganger]

i never thought he “hated” himself, just that he was ashamed and embarrassed. but i think it’s a little fair to say he cut himself some slack- he didn’t have the big picture at the time of his “murder” like he did after all he’d been through and worked for when he remembered what had happened. he was really just stuck in survival mode at the time, and stratt was right, he would still save the human race despite having to die for it, he wasn’t a monster. the moment when grace decides to sacrifice himself to save rocky and erid was designed to mirror the decision he made on earth when he chose himself over the best chance for earth, and even when he chose to save rocky it wasn’t an easy choice for him to make. he still wants to live. even after he makes the decision, he vaguely reflects on being upset he chose to die. he’s also still mad at stratt, he said multiple times he’d give her a piece of his mind when he returned to earth. i don’t think he hated himself or became a completely different person, but an infinitely braver one.

[victoriadoppelganger]

“Since Alice is gone, I guess we need to find a new Runner Five.”

“We don’t have anyone else to spare, though. You think runners just fall out of the sky?”

…this is dumb

[victoriadoppelganger]

finishing up season 8 and hearing jennifer tan argue with herself just further drives home how freaking talented she is oh my god.

[victoriadoppelganger]

why am i lowkey living for an amelia/jody plot line.

[victoriadoppelganger]

WHAT

WHICH ONE OF YOU TRAITORS WAS GOING TO TELL ME OWEN DIES OMG NO MY BABY

[victoriadoppelganger]

can we talk about how Every Breath You Take by The Police is THE 5am song?

get it? cause Sam’s whole job is to watch Five and make sure they keep breathing? and he’s memorized the pattern of their footsteps i can’t-

[victoriadoppelganger]

i just finished the 14 heart event for alex and i am SO distraught because what do you mean we went from cute picnics and gridball on the beach to using 5 GRAND of my hard earned gold to build a sucky griball watch room in the back of the local bar?? we HAVE a tv? how did you even manage to spend 5000 gold on that? it’s a cheap tv with a musty rug and some posters on the wall??? that’s not even a cute or romantic event to showcase how far we’ve come, you just wasted my blood sweat and tears- glad to know that this is the final evolution of our relationship. 😭