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Terrible twos.

It has been a hell of a year, full of firsts, full of laughs, full of love, memories, sleepless nights, ketchup on the fingers and a whole lot of rotisserie chickens. It has been a year of self discovery. It has been a year of realizing that I have a lot more trauma that I am willing to admit. It has been a year of pain, a Mount Everest amount of pain, physical, emotional, monetary and everything…

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Allowing myself to breath.

Well, aren’t we the biggest obstacle for our own success, our own happiness, our own love fucking story. The last time I wrote I was so terrified that I was dating a new man and that I would be wasting my time yet again on another relationship that wasn’t going to go anywhere. I was petrified that I was going to invest another year on a man that was not capable of love.. but turns out he is.. but…

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It's not you, it's my past.

It’s not you, it’s my past.

So just when I think I’m on top of the world, some old ghost comes back to haunt me. This past month I had zazazu guy try to reach out to me in every way, shape or form possible and he got nothing but crickets from my end. I don’t feel like being toxic to each other one more time. I don’t care for how he is or for him knowing if I am on cloud nine or falling apart. He doesn’t get to know that,…

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3:57am

Dear love, it’s 3:57 am , you are laying next to me. Asleep or at least intending to. You have work tomorrow morning and you need your sleep. However I keep rolling in the bed, completely static that you are here. Completely over the moon that you’ve chosen me, my bed, my lips to kiss. I still get a complete fresh batch of butterflies when you are coming over to see me. I really don’t think I’ll…

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Cold Pizza

And just like that 4am rolls in again. The usual time where theres nothing to do but let the mind wonder, let it over think, selfdestruct. You see everyone in the world tells you to let go, to “let go and let God”, to allow yourself to heal, to trust the process… But noone ever talks about how many growing pains come with it. Noone talks about how as soon as the world quiets down, and all your…

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Dear love:

I keep reading everywhere that the hardest relationship is the one you get into after a toxic one. I honestly didn’t believe this was true until I met Mr. X. I really thought I had this whole dating thing down, I thought I knew what to say, what to do, how to act in a way that would not scare off men. A way that is sexy and seductive, very relaxed, super cool girl next door type of vibes. But…

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I don't want to change the sheets

I don’t want to change the sheets

I am a very independent woman. I pay my bills, I do my job, I do my school work, I build my own furniture , I cook my own meals, I buy my own midnight cravings and I am fucking amazing at it. I been living by myself for 3 years and I had a non traditional at home high school experience that made me grow, mature, learn and become my own boss. I know what I like, and I like things done a certain…

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Growth

I had a dream last night that I bumped into my ex. This is something that has happened before, at the beginning of the year I went through a phase where I would dream about him every single night. It was always the same dream, different scenarios, different times in our life’s, however it was always about us getting back together… This stoped right around the beginning of April I just woke up one…

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Checking-in

So I met someone, you guys now him as Mr. X . Wonderful human being, and you know when you meet someone that is a good influence in your life, you start making changes of your own. Not because you have to, not because you need to , and definitely not because it’s demanded of you. You are simply inspired. Some people have that gift, of just being good in your life. They don’t bring stress, they…

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Do you know what a harlequin is?

There is this person, that makes me take a breath and when he looks back at me, time stops. It’s like in the movies, everything else around me is irrelevant, everything in the background is frozen, and it’s just a girl, looking at a boy.. asking him what does he have over her?

I might be talking about Mr.X but I will nor confirm or deny because this feeling is no person specific. This…

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Babygirl.

During the past few days I have heard a level of macho man talk that I honestly had hoped it would be instinct by now. But it’s not. It is the year 2020, day who gives a fuck, hour 8:57pm and men, their massive egos and underwhelming dicks can honestly go fuck off. And I don’t say all men, some are good, some are kind, some actually have a pure heart… Men like my brother and my grandfather that I…

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To the class of 2020

Hello, first and for most I want to say… “This fucking suuucks”

I am a senior in college and I was supposed to finish my bachelors degree in March. Well my very smart academic counselor forgot to add a class that I need to graduate to my schedule and therefore your girl here has to do a whole nother quarter that she was accounting to have 100% free to work full time. Adding to that, due to…

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21 & Fabulous!

It is Thursday February 13th, 2020 … a day before valentines. A day that I think of as one of my favorite holidays. Everyone is happy everyone is in love, everyone tries a little extra to say “Hey you, you know what? youare pretty great.” or a simple, yet classic “I love you”. The town is painted red, the air smells like roses, and the oh so magical, everyone.. gives you chocolate. Yet this year,…

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Love is blind.

Today I missed you, but really missed you. Usually, I miss the company, the touch, the breath taking moments , things that I know that can be replaced or recreated… but today I missed you. You see, we used to be Bonnie and Clyde, partners in crime. And lately I have been slipping on my crimes, much less of them… much more sloppy evidence and people have began to question my abilities to actually…

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Dear boss...

Dear boss…

Dear boss, dear professor, dear anything representing a superior position… You see that naive new girl that is fresh out of college? The one that is still in love with life and still dreams about backpacking through Europe? You know, that girl that cracks jokes and is so full of life!.. ? Stay away from her. She is good without you. She is so good having her small group of friends that make her…

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