God is good.
Honestly, I wasn’t into the whole new year thing. Didn’t know what to expect, wasn’t all that positive. With work calling me back on weekends from Christmas till New Year’s, it was just kinda frustrating, the whole thing.
I guess God is still faithful no matter how you put him in a box of your own doubts. (:
And when people were busy being nice and wishing each other happy new year on group chats, I wasn’t. I was being like, hey old friends, thanks for being in my life but not really- you were just a short season, I guess you don’t really matter- and then I got proven wrong. I get totally sweet texts from people whom I thought had forgotten me. And then catching up’s. Fellowship and connection. New and old connections revived. How did it happened? I don’t know- but I hope the bonds will not loosen.
Had fun with a fortune cookie the other day - haha. The paper strip said something unexpected will bring me happiness. And right that night when I found a government letter for me - hey I thought, Tax Time. But nope, my roots are growing. A leader in church once prayed for me during an anointing service, maybe sometime during the start of 2017 - she said she sees me like a tree, with roots growing in this place. Honestly, I was little a disappointed and discarded that word. I’m leaving this place as soon as this stupid polytechnic bond is over and done with. And last Tuesday, my roots has grown a little deeper- I’ve got a letter of PR approval.
I guess sometimes you let go of what you think it best for your life.
Sometimes you hang on and wait just because you know deep down, it is the path you should take.
Sometimes you take a brave step, letting go of your ideals, and walk through the door that was meant for you.
Hello Singapore, I never had a love for you, it was hard to love you. But today I was reminded again - if you don’t have a mandate for your city, get out. Otherwise, speak God’s blessings for the city you are in. (Thank you Ps Chris Long). So hello Singapore, I fear the system a lot. The long working hours, the stress people exude into the atmosphere. The seemingly unfriendly folk of everyday. But at the same time - these are fears. Fears that hit me 6 months before going back to Singapore- while I was still in Australia. A nightmare that appeared in my dreams one night back then in 2015. Also deep down, I knew Australia was a Season. I knew what heaven on earth was like. But now I am tasked to bring Heaven on Earth in Singapore - where things are a whole lot more challenging and on a new level. But hello Singapore, I want to be thankful for everything. For the Kindergarten days. For the Polytechnic days that paved a way to the Sydney days. And now for permanent residency status. And I guess that’s a pairing that comes with Ben days. And Kingdomcity and West Coast connect days.
It’s a challenge, but God your mercies are new every morning. Your Grace is sufficient to meet all my needs.
Here comes the crazy but not so crazy thought of thinking that I will be suffering in the future because of the things people talk about - high living costs, high expectations of the society in work, school, bad relationships because of the high stress - yes all that will hit. But we are not promised storm-free days, but storm-proof. Thank you God in advance, for storm- proof days. I am not naturally made to withstand all these - but Your wisdom, strength, favour, annointing, love. I can do all these through Christ who strengthens me.
Today. I learnt that I shouldn’t aim low. Especially in the house of God. So yes, a regular day to serve on a Sunday playing keys. Didn’t want to be late because I’m always a little late for call time- so I paid for a grab to get me to church. In my mind thinking, yeap, sort of a sacrifice but it is alright since it’s only once a month. Set up and everything went as usual, no hiccups, except Pei Shi not fully recovered from a bad throat. She was also surprisingly cute and happy that I passed to her a black vest that was hanging in my wardrobe forever. (you know how happy I am to pass it to someone who appreciates it !!) But yeap, Ps Andrew was praying for the service during the pre-service prayer- and for 20 salvations. In my cynical mind I was thinking, we’d be lucky if we have 2 making the decision. And well hello, when Ps Chris Long called for salvations man there were people streaming down to the front without any hesitation. Young and old alike. It was beautiful. Carriers laying hands and praying and supporting the decisions. I was someone who isn’t that professional in my instrument but there I was providing the atmosphere together with a great team - for people to encounter God. I was very, very happy to be serving in the Father’s house. And that, was heaven on earth. Right in the heart of Singapore.
