You’re not a thing. Wasn’t he? Did it matter, when his parents could make him do whatever they wanted? There had been a time when Stubby also thought about getting away. But to where? And how? How far would he have to run to escape their clutches? And by the time he’d started thinking about that, he’d already long lost sight of who he even was without Stubby Boardman. Or who he even wanted to be. Hiding out with the Jones’s wouldn’t change anything, surprising as it was that she was so adamant about trying to help him get out. And it wasn’t just Hestia.
Stubby wasn’t sure whether he was more surprised that Rich and Wren had actually stuck around, or that Rich—who’d also been listening in, apparently, here for the free Stubby show—stepped up and said something that suggested maybe he wasn’t just here for the free Stubby show. And then there was Wren, stepping up next to Rich, looking uncharacteristically nervous, unsure of himself to the point Stubby almost wondered if it was someone on polyjuice.
“You’re not alone, Stubbs,” Wren said, remembering the conversation he’d had with Ebony. “We’re all here for you. Not for you name, or your money, or any of that shit,” he added, because that was what he’d always thought. And it had been the same for Stubby. They’d both known what they were getting from the other—but that wasn’t why Wren and Rich were here today. They were done with that. “We can get all that shit on our own.” That would sound pretentious, maybe, to someone else, and maybe it was, but the point was they didn’t need to use Stubby like so many other people did. So maybe that would help Stubby believe them when Wren added, “We’re here for you.”
Stubby looked between Rich and Wren and Hestia, three earnest faces looking at him like they all believed this was something he could do. His choice. And somewhere in the back of his mind was the glimmer of a realization that there was nothing in this for them, in his abandoning Stubby Boardman. Quite the opposite, in fact. Unless there was some other angle, one he just couldn’t see yet. Wasn’t there always an angle? How was Stubby any better off trying to fight the man who’d proven he valued Stubby Boardman over his son’s own life? He shook his head. “They’d find me at your place.” It would be one of the first places they looked, most likely, if Stubby’s dad thought Hestia was enough of a problem to try to cut her out of the picture. “You don’t get it. I’m Stubby Boardman. I can’t just—drop off the grid to get away from them.” And dropping off the grid was the only way to get away from them, Stubby had thought about it before he decided drowning everything out with potions was the best path forwards. “It takes money to do that.” Especially for someone as famous as him. He’d end up chained up in some crazy bird’s basement if he tried to go anonymous. “And they have it all. They have everything. They have my bloody name!” Again hopelessness crept into his voice. Why was he even here? What was he staying sober for?
“And–” His eyes found Hestia’s, and his voice was small as he added on, “I don’t know who I am without it.”
Hestia was surprised, and pleased, to find that perhaps she had been wrong about those two. They did seem to care about Stanley after all. But sadly Stanley still seemed to think there was no choice in it for him. That there was nothing else for him. Hestia wasn’t sure if it was his words or the way he said them that made her heart feel like it was breaking all over again when he looked at her and said he didn’t know who he was without it. She didn’t hesitate or say anything, she just wrapped her arms around him in a hug. Wishing with al her might that a hug could be as powerful as it had felt when she was little. Back then it had seemed a hug could solve anything. But she knew that wasn’t the case now. Still hugs were a special magic all their own. Hopefully Stanley was feeling it. “We can find out together,” she whispered in his ear. Hestia didn’t believe that the Stanley she knew was all gone. Or that the Stubby Boardman these blokes knew was all that he was. But he had always been right that he wasn’t the same as he was before, Hestia knew now that going through something terrible did change parts of you even when you tried so hard not to be changed by it. Whoever Stanley was now without all the things his parents owned, or Stanley thought they owned, she was sure he deserved just as much love and care as the Stanley she’d grown up with did. “And my parents have plenty of money, they’d help you,” she added because money simply wasn’t an issue. Hestia had a feeling her parents had more money than Stanley’s but she didn’t add that. Her parents never made a show of money the way Stanley’s had. They lived in a large country estate, but it was one that had been in the Jones family for so long that no one remembered exactly how long. It was well and truly loved too, a proper warm and cozy home not some cold stately estate. Easy to forget the owners were rich. Even the way her parents were, how they dressed, how they acted, her mum cooking, her dad gardening, made it easy to forget. But Hestia was certain they had enough money to help Stanley.
Rich clapped Wren on the shoulder as the bird hugged Stubby. He knew it wasn’t easy being real for Wren, but the younger bloke was doing great. Maybe this might work. Stubby hadn’t told him and Wren to leave so that felt like a good sign. So Rich spoke up again, despite feeling bad for interrupting the hug. “You can stay at mine if you want,” he offered. Truthfully Rich wasn’t sure how he’d hide a whole rockstar from the Minister but he’d hid not being the Minister’s kid from him so easy. “And maybe dropping off the grid isn’t the way to do it. I’m not suggesting you do anything right away, after all you have to plan it out. But maybe you can use the press against them. Find some not as fucked as the other’s reporter to interview you and get your fans on your side. If nothing else drag the fuckers through the mud till they have to let you go.” It was very scorched earth, but then again Rich was in a rebellion trying to bring down two fucking queens, scorched earth seemed to be a decent option. And truthfully he wasn’t sure he could see Stubby hiding out like Timmy had. Even if he attempted it, there were too many fucked up fans for that to be too successful. He was fairly sure that one Hobgoblin that ditched the band was dead since he’d managed to pull it off. A grim thought he didn’t need to dwell on. “The point is, you don’t have to go back to it. Whatever you choose to do, we’ll back you. And it is your choice. But you and I know exactly what’ll happen if you let your dad keep calling the shots. There’s a reason you do potions and it’s not cause it’s bloody fun. You passed that point a long time ago, Stubbs.” Rich knew because he’d lived it, often times right beside Stubby. Only it was the queen and the Minister calling shots for him. Truthfully if there hadn’t been a glimmer of a chance to get Timmy away from the Vila that rested on Rich being sober there was a good chance he’d still be falling down that path. Because it was hell falling in line and being the good son. “It’s time to try something new, don’t you think,” he added instead of dwelling on how miserable he still felt at times.