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shut up, attention whore.

this is cool, wish i got these more

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hi i don't rly post on this but

if u care @ all i made a new blog ft art + writing by me

http://moontempleuniverse.tumblr.com/　

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yuck im all shaky feeling and yuck

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sometimes when i need silverware i look in the silverware drawer even when i know there is no silverware in it just  in case and when i open the silverware drawer  and see that there is no silverware in it i think, “of course there is no silverware in here you knew that” but i had to look just in case and then i find the silverware i need and i wash it just the one i need right then even though there is no silverware in the silverware drawer and i should probably do the dishes its not that i don’t like doing the dishes i do i like the way the soap smells i like the warm water i like how loud it is and how nobody talks to me when i do the dishes because they know i can’t hear them its not that i don’t like doing the dishes i do but when there are lots of dishes to do it is overwhelming i don’t want to spend lots of time doing the dishes but i can’t just do some of the dishes that seems rude a full sink makes me anxious, that’s all and i can just wash what i need when i need it i’ll still look in the silverware drawer though just in case you did the dishes or something

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it was muggy outside

today

i liked it

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i want to take a shower

and turn it as hot as it can go

and sit

and watch the water

turn my legs and arms red

i want to steam from the hot water

to wrap itself around me

and choke me, but softly

and when i stand i will be dizzy

and i will fall and bruise myself

on accident

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it was muggy outside

today

i liked it

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i feel like vomiting :')

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now i'm doing "mystic make up girl" uh oh

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hay k8 i made 1 of these too she's pritty i wish i was her

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i girl i went to high school with died

i didn’t know her. i didn’t ever talk to her, we didn’t have classes together. i only vaguely knew of her existence. if someone would have mentioned her a week ago i probably would have had no idea who they were talking about.

i just noticed that people from high school i’m facebook friends with have been putting up pictures of her, so i checked out her profile

it’s all filled with wall posts from friends and family members saying how much she will be missed

it’s weird. people die. i’m not upset about her death—like i said, i never even talked to her. but it does kind of freak me out. she had many people who cared deeply about her, and now she’s gone, and now they miss her.

i get scared that the people i know and love are going to die

i mean, they are. everyone dies.

i have no idea how to deal with the death of a loved one. nobody i’ve cared for has died. my grandfather died last year, but i was not at all close with him. i know that i’ve met him but i was too young to remember. i have no idea what he even looked like. i spoke on the phone with him a few times, and he sent me cards for birthdays every so often. when he died, i was more worried about how my mom was feeling than upset over losing him.

i know i’m lucky. but i’m scared. i know that everyone i care about is going to die eventually. i’m going to experience the death of a loved one eventually

i guess i just feel like i’d like to be the first to go

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baby beardie

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todays breakfast: sour patch kids and coffee

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heaven exists

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everything anybody says to me that isn't a compliment ends up somehow getting twisted in my head into some horrible ugly monstrous thing and i just feel like plucking out my hairs one by one