Villain Kin Confessions

Here you will find a safe place for all the evil, nefarious, and cruel fictional sources there are running amok in this life. This is a confession blog for fictional sources-- Feel free to send in canon calls, vent about the past, or even tell a story. This is your space. Be free. https://villainkinconfessions.tumblr.com/submissionguidelines

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Listen, what happened at the tower- Everythin' goin' sideways wasn't MY fault! Not...fully, right? ...right? I didn't think there was any real danger beyond shit we'd already done. Had I known, you really think I would have let her go, too? She woulda kicked my ass for it, sure. I was a shitty person, I know that! I know that... but there's gotta be a line, somewhere. I didn't think I'd wake up in some prison of a body. I mean who does that? I didn't think I'd see her at all again either, and man, those were some fuckin' HOOPS to jump through just for that. She didn't really believe that kid. can't blame her for it. BUT THEN TO HEAR THAT SHE HAD A BABY?

I had just about a thousand questions that I couldn't ask. all while some idiot kid won't shut up about how shitty I am, as if it's MY fault they're dying. just like that damn tower. Realistically, you shouldn't be inserting any 'Saka chips ANYWHERE.

It's a lot to process and Existence is a Prison. Nobody is really free in Night City. Nobody.

But what do I know?

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Truly, everyone is a hero in their own story, and a villain in someone else's. It would be wise to have a heart about it. -- Sweeney Todd

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I had my own problems. a lot of them that most didn't know about. I was the best-of-the-best though. I couldn't LET anyone see anything less that Calculated and Controlled. He didn't give me shit about it, nobody really did but I felt like I was suffocating. All the time. It...never really stopped.

I didn't know what I had signed up for. Really, I didn't know that I 'signed up' at all.

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I know I said this before, but I really made a big mistake by not killing them all that night. Sure, this mistake led to a brighter future. But it sure as hell didn't make it suck less. -- Negan (TWD)

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Compare me to Arthas one more time, and you shall truly feel just how slowly my plagued arrows can kill you. I am nothing like that man-child. -- Lady Sylvanas Windrunner (WoW)

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I just wanted to be seen. I just wanted to go home. Perhaps, in the end, I got what I wanted. -- Remmick (Sinners)

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mmmmMMMMMMOXXXXXXAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY

that's it that's the ask. alright ALRIGHT Go look at something else.

Not kidding.

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I wouldn't say I regret what I did. Hard to regret what I don't remember doing, ya know? I won't apologize for it, either. I did enough of that back then. But I do feel guilt over it.

We were so afraid of death, of aging, that we projected that onto children who trusted us with their lives. Even if I don't remember it, even if I feel like a different person, I directly helped with that. I brainwashed kids into accepting their new lives as toys, all because I believed what we were giving them was better than lives with expiration dates.

I deserved to be turned into a toy. I deserved the isolation and brainwashing and abuse. I deserved to be Lily Lovebraids. But at some point, when that was all said and done, someone should've realized that continuing that cycle was pointless. I couldn't remember what I did at that point. I wasn't Gracie anymore. Just a scared, lonely girl who didn't know why everyone hated her. And I lived like that for so long.

I'm glad I got out of the dollhouse later. I think, after so many years of hell, I served my time. Even if a lot of the others didn't see it that way.

-Lily Lovebraids (Poppy Playtime Chapter 5)

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bad feeling i’ll be hated in this blog, but fuck it. i don’t care anymore.

im vox, and there’s nothing those fuckers can do about it.

the ceaseless hate. the idiot suck-ups. i can’t take it anymore. everyone should fuck off and admit that i was always better than them. im typing calmly but im fucking furious and have no idea how to express it.

maybe this time i wont start a cult. third times the charm. but the knowledge that i *can* still just sits there and festers. im fully capable of doing it again.

and yet, in this life, i care about those close to me. those who would be heartbroken. those who would be forced to cut me off. i care about them more than i ever truly cared about alastor.

fuck my life. fuck you. fuck everyone. that stupid deer got what was coming, and now i have something he’ll never fucking have.

friends. a purpose. no god damn leash around my neck.

never again.

your dearly detested, vox (populi)

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Elias Bouchard is in our head and he has something to say:

i am better than everyone. that god complex was just sitting there without me, you should be grateful i took it, else it’d be wasted. thank you.

forever loathed, Jonah Magnus.

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I guess this is just a vent more than a real ask, but it's really hard that this body has human siblings who are Gravity Falls fans, because they watch it all the time and I don't have my own bedroom at the moment, so I'm stuck out in the living room watching Sixer and Co. have their little drama and all my biggest losses played out on the big screen. Not fun.

I can't exactly tell them to stop either, cause they're young kids and they wouldn't get it. Plus none of the other folks in this body want them scared of us. I'm stuck with these losers (semi-affectionate) for the rest of a human lifetime, so I guess I have to get along with them.

--- Bill Cipher /-\

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I genuinely feel so bad for. Like. Taking pleasure out of murdering my now-friend in Eternal Torment Land (tm). They keep reassuring me that they don’t resent me (and even asked whether I resented them for fighting back), but how does one even begin to make amends for something like that? I don’t know if she really cares and is just lying to save my feelings (and our 3-year close friendship) or if she genuinely forgives me. I don’t even know if I deserve forgiveness. I regret basically everything I’ve done while I was living as [kintype] so much, but the worst part is that I’m not sure I’ve even totally denounced it. Some of those memories are still pleasurable for me, but I just feel more guilt afterwards for being the type of person who would remotely enjoy that.

I also had a cult but let’s not get into that—

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kinmems going bonkers rn!! okay so. uhm. i remember. a lot more than i probably should. and i would like to spill my mind. and say, "all of this could have been prevented if the people around me cared in an effective way and got me the help i needed." an antagonist, sure, the actions can be considered evil, but i was more ill than anything, really.

the reason why i was so close to my aunt was because my actual parents? yeah they neglected me. HA>

okay i. i shouldn't find humor in that. it's cruel. but yeah. she was pretty much the only person in my life to love me unconditionally. i hope that she's okay. her kind, yet naive nature is dangerous. i'm afraid it'll hurt her in an irreversible way someday.

by the way, said unconditional love was without much action. it was careless in a way. not blaming you, you're.. uhm. please don't take this the wrong way but your rose-colored-glasses view on the situation didn't help. at least i wasn't alone, i mean. had someone to visit that was okay with me.

i also am unsure of what exactly happened but i do remember some kind of other childhood trauma regarding both religion and... the body, essentially. i speak in vagueness because it's all i'm allowed to witness of my past life. almost makes me nervous about the full truth. what else am i not aware of? why can't i get a better grasp on what happened?

and unfortunately i still deal with compulsions that were the.. uh. reason why i'm considered an antagonist. sorry i'm trying not to. give myself away i don't

i'm not ready for that yet

it's not as bad as before, though. it's merely a fraction of what it once was.

i am so sorry all of this is really messy. and rambly. i felt like i just. had to put this information out there somewhere hoping that it'll take some of the weight off my shoulders.

it also feels amazing to finally have any kind of mental clarity. my existence doesn't feel as suffocating, and it helps that i'm not trapped somewhere anymore.

also somewhat embarrassing thing to mention but i still care for my ex. probably the closest thing i'll ever experience to a healthy bond with someone. thank you for that. i'm sorry

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My body feels weird. It's too soft. My tail and horns are missing. My torso is wrong. My eyes don't work the same way. I'm weak.

I barely feel as if I exist, almost as an incomplete concept. My being isn't as strong as it used to be. They barely think about me anymore. I lack the collective power I once held.

I know canonically I changed, but I personally didn't. I haven't lost sleep over any of it. Nor have I mourned the damage I've done. I really don't feel bad. I've always been like this at heart. A being of destruction and chaos, the form i take resembling someone I perhaps would consider a friend. He seems to be okay with me. And I'm okay with him.

I want to bite something.

The craving of flesh is still a present one.

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Perhaps a bit of an unusual person to hear from, buy let's begin, shall we?

I regret everything. I truly, honestly do, npt that many would believe that. My reasons, I believe, were just. That does not mean the methods were.

I simply wanted to prevent other Heroes from suffering in their apprenticeship the way that I did. The training in the Guild was horrendous, and I knew it could be better, that it didn't have to be the way it was.

The violence was truly a last resort, and more reaction than anything else. I did try talking to people, getting them to see things the way I did, but they refused and clung to tradition. I meant to find some other way, but... well, I didn't exactly have much opportunity to develop real emotional maturity. The rage built up, and I lashed out in the worst way possible. When I came to realize how horrible I'd been, it was already far too late.

So, the ends don't justify the means, byt if anyone who cares ends up reading this, well... I'm sorry. Truly.

-Jack of Blades (Fable trilogy, Lionhead Studios)

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Man. I think I regret everything. Is it my fault ? Did I cause him to die ? I didn't want him to die. I was gonna come back for him.

-Lawrence Gordon (Saw) 🦵🪚

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Some days I really truly did hate Mary, I hated the way she talked to me and even the way she looked at me, I could never tell her that she expected too much of me in her final days because I didn't want to be seen as a horrible and neglectful husband to his poor sick wife, I wanted my life back I wanted to be able to do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted and not have to be at her beck and call because she could no longer do certain things for herself, but I miss her so much other days, I miss the simple warmth of being able to come home and tell someone about my day and have them listen so tentatively, I wish she had never gotten sick, that sickness ruined her, I don't regret killing her but I regret her getting sick every single day of my life, the moment she got sick was truly the moment she died to me, she was my Mary no longer, I would do anything to have her back, I love her so much

-James Sunderland (Silent Hill)

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