Behind My Curiosity

Chelle • 21 • Loved by the Kings of Kings

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Who has given a gift to [God] that he might be repaid? For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory forever. (Romans 11:35–36)

When it comes to obedience, gratitude is a dangerous motive. It tends to get expressed in debtor’s terms. For example, “Look how much God has done for you. Shouldn’t you, out of gratitude, do much for him? Or: “You owe God everything that you are and have. What have you done for him in return?”

I have at least three problems with this kind of motivation.

First, it is impossible to pay God back for all the grace he has given us. We can’t even begin to pay him back, because Romans 11:35–36 says, “Who has given a gift to [God] that he might be repaid? [Answer: Nobody!] For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory forever.” We can’t pay him back because he already owns all we have to give him.

Secondly, even if we succeeded in paying him back for all his grace to us, we would only succeed in turning grace into a business transaction. If we can pay him back, it was not grace. If someone tries to show you a special favor of love by having you over for dinner, and you end the evening by saying that you will pay them back by having them over next week, you nullify their grace and turn it into a trade. God does not like to have his grace nullified. He likes to have it glorified (Ephesians 1:6, 12, 14).

Thirdly, focusing on gratitude as a motive for obedience tends to overlook the crucial importance of having faith in God’s future grace. Gratitude looks back to grace received in the past and feels thankful. Faith looks forward to grace promised in the future and feels hopeful. “Faith is the assurance of things hoped for” (Hebrews 11:1).

This faith in future grace is the motive for obedience that preserves the gracious quality of human obedience. Obedience does not consist in paying God back and thus turning grace into a trade. Obedience comes from trusting in God for more grace — future grace — and thus magnifying the infinite resources of God’s love and power. Faith looks to the promise, I will be “with you wherever you go” (see Joshua 1:9), and ventures, in obedience, to take the land.

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"Sa wakas nakagraduate rin!!!"

Yang mga katagang yan ang pinakahihintay ko na sabihin sa limang taon na ginugol ko sa kolehiyo na kung babalikan yung mga panahon na yun ay maraming beses na mapapaiyak ka na lang. Mapapaiyak dahil sa grace na binibigay sakin ni God sa araw araw.

Limang taon na tiniis na walang sariling laptop at laging gumagawa ng powerpoint presentation sa comp shop. Limang taon na iisa lang ang ginamit na calcu at di pa masyadong latest ang model. Limang taon na pinagtyagaan ang uniform na malapit ng sumuko. Limang taong nangarap na balang araw makakasuot rin ako ng itim na toga na inaasam nating lahat.

At ngayon natupad na! Marami mang nangyari at nawala sa buhay ko eto at tumatayo pa rin at still fighting sa kung anuman ang pagsubok na tatahakin ko pa.

Sa college, di ko makakalimutan yung first time kong magmahal, first time na mabroken, first time umasa, first time iniwan sa ere ng taong mahal ko, first time magkaroon ng ka ldr, first time makatikim ng alak, first time na matulog sa ibang bahay ng isang linggo at first time na magdedefense ng walang tulog. Sa mga yun ang dami kong natutunan na babaunin ko hanggang sa pagtanda ko.

Syempre di ko makakamtan to kung hindi dahil kay God. Yung talent, talino at determination na meron ako na binigay Niya. Si God talaga yung reason kung bakit still fighting pa rin ako, na hindi ako sumuko kahit ang daming balakid. Lalong lalo na nung 5th yr na grabe lang yung mga pahirap samin bago makagraduate. Nagpapasalamat rin ako kela mama at papa na laging nakasuporta sakin lalong lalo na sa mga bayarin. Kahit na nangungunsumi na sila still nagbibigay pa rin sila ng pera para lang mabayaran yung mga gastusin sa mga projects ko. Syempre nagpapasalamat rin ako sa mga kapatid ko na laging nagchicheer sakin. Yung nalalapitan ko sila lalong lalo na kapag nasstress na ako. Na sila ang nagiging isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit nawawala yung stress at pagod na nararamdaman ko. Salamat sa mga kachurchmates ko sa mga prayers niyo. Indeed always God prevails. Alam ko naman mabuti ang mga plano ni God sa buhay natin.

Ngayon na graduate na ako syempre no jowa muna. Review muna para maging licensed engr. Yiieeehhh. 6 months na pag aaral ulit at after nun claim it na magiging engr. rin!!!

DINO, ROCHELLE ANN D. BACHELOR OF SCIENCE IN ELECTRONICS ENGINEERING BATCH 2017

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Crush

Mayroon akong crush sa school namin. Actually 3 years ko na siyang naging crush simula nung nakita ko siya nung English Week dati nung 1st year pa ako tapos isa siya sa mga contestant para sa literary characters ba un. Basta mag-aact sila na base dun sa librong pinili nila. Naalala ko nun siya si Aladdin at may kapartner siya. Di ko alam yung pangalan ng bidang babae eh kasi hindi ako fan nung movie na yun pero ganun na nga. Nakita ko nga siya at nagperform sila sa stage sobrang galing niyang kumanta at ang kinanta nila yung a whole new world. Sobrang cute niya, hindi siya pogi kundi cute kasi parang mala-anghel ung mukha niya tapos nung ngumiti na siya grabe laglag panty ko. Hahaha. Nagkacrush lang siguro ako dun dahil sa ngiti niya. Pamatay kasi eh tsaka ang galing niya talagang kumanta.

Sa tatlong taon na yun. Minsan nakikita ko siya minsan naman hindi. Masaya na ako kapag nakikita ko siya kahit hindi palagian dahil crush ko lang naman siya eh. Hanggang doon lang naman yung nararamdaman ko sakanya at hindi na lumagpas sa next level. Siya ang naging inspirasyon ko. Siya ang nagiging dahilan kung bakit nabubuo ang araw ko.

Pero sa tatlong taon na naging crush ko siya ngayon ko lang nalaman yung pangalan niya kung anong course niya. Dahil ang alam ko lang ay ka-year level ko siya. Tapos malaman laman ko kilala pala siya ng kaklase ko ngayon tapos ang mas nakakagulat pa doon pinakilala niya ako sa kanya. Harap-harapan talaga walang pakundangan yung kaklase ko eh palibhasa hindi pa niya alam na crush ko un. Actually hindi ko talaga pinapaalam sa mga kaklase ko eh kasi magiging big deal sakanila un. Totomboy tomboy kaya ako sa school. At one of the boys ako kaya big deal talaga sakanila un. Puro pa naman lalaki mga kaibigan ko at baka putaktihin lang ako ng asar.

Grabe lang hiya ko nun. Pinakilala niya talaga ako ng walang pakundangan. Ngumiti siya sakin. Hindi ko siya nginitian kasi nga baka makahalata yung kaklase kong yun. Sinimangutan ko na lang ung kaklase ko tapos tumingin na lang sakanya tapos baling ulit sa kaklase ko sabay binatukan ko. Napakaloko eh. Pero kinilig ako dun. Kinilig ako kasi nginitian niya ako. Hindi lang ngiti may kasama pang kaway. Ayos noh. Nalaman ko rin yung pangalan niya. Jake pala. Jake Vallente . Mahabang kwento kapag kinuwento ko pa sainyo kung bakit nalaman ko yung apelyido niya. Hindi ko nga alam kung matutuwa ako dahil sakin niya talaga pinakilala hindi dun sa kasama kong isa pang babae. Parang nakatadhana eh. Char pinalangin ko lang kay God na sana malaman ko na ang name niya at ngayon ko lang talaga nalaman yung name niya. Walang halong biro. Pero aral muna gagawin ko muna siya inspirasyon para nakatapos ako. Magiging engineer muna ako at pag nagkataon na naging engineer ako at nagtagpo ulit kami,why not baka mainlove na ako sakanya ng mga panahon na yun.

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It’s the same feeling when the time you leave me. it hurts but I try to live without you. I moved on and then suddenly you appear in front of me as if nothing happen. It’s you all over again. And it pains my heart like crashing cars and bleeding wounds. 

You know its not the time heals, its the will of the person to heal his/her heart in his/her wounds he/she got from his/her past.

[vividloner-blog]

I was once fell in love with you and it was extraordinary.

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thanks

[buhaybabae]

Reminders.

[followandreblog]

The idea that God tests us went out with Job. God does not test us. We are tested by life. We are tested by the very act and state of being human. God’s Gospel promise is that He is with us during these times and will remain with us despite the circumstances and the outcomes. It rains on the righteous and the wicked. And the sun returns to both the righteous and wicked. Our circumstances are irrelevant and they are not a direct result of God testing or rewarding us like some pagan artifact of legend. The Gospel message is that when there is rain, then we have nothing to fear. The Gospel message is that when there is sun, then we are to share that light with those who are in darkness. That’s it. Do the work of the Kingdom while on this side of Eternity. Once we pass through the veil, then both judgement and reward are at hand. But not until then.

Christopher Scott Evans (via followandreblog)

[faith-and-dreams]

I pray with all my heart to become the person God wants me to be.

(via mysoulneedsgod)

[kristinrankin]

You want a guy who loves Jesus on his own, not just when you’re dragging him to church.

Jefferson Bethke (via littlethingsaboutgod)

[love-your-bible]

He is my father, discipliner, and the one who holds my heart when no one else can. He is infinite, and more divine than I can comprehend. He is constant, He is strong, He is forgiving. He is my challenger. He is my patient reminder of how to do better, He is my love when I have none to give, and my kindness when I am empty. He calls me, and meets me where I am, and forgives me again and again when I turn from His ways. He brings me to myself, makes me the self I never would have been without Him. He is incredible.

A child of God (via love-your-bible)

[love-your-bible]

If you make history with God, He will make history through you.

Bill Johnson (via love-your-bible)

[makemelodies]

There are two kinds of love: we love wise and kind and beautiful people because we need them, but we love (or try to love) stupid and disagreeable people because they need us. This second kind is the more divine because that is how God loves us: not because we are lovable but because He is love, not because He needs to receive but He delights to give.

C. S. Lewis  (via littlethingsaboutgod)

[worshipgifs]

A true Christian find yourself physically in the world, but with his heart and mind in the heavenly realities.

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What’s the worst thing I’ve stolen? Probably little pieces of other people’s lives. Where I’ve either wasted their time or hurt them in some way. That’s the worst thing you can steal, the time of other people. You just can’t get that back.

Chester Bennington (via yesdarlingido)

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Acquire the habit of speaking to God as if you were alone with Him. Speak with familiarity and confidence as to your dearest and most loving friend. Speak of your life, your plans, your troubles, your joys, your fears. In return, He will speak to you—not that you will hear audible words in your ears, but words that you will clearly understand in your heart.

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[theloverstraces]

Love is not love unless it costs you something, and grace is the love that costs everything.

J.S. Park, What The Church Won’t Talk About: Real Questions From Real People About Raw, Gritty, Everyday Faith (via theloverstraces)