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Quality Time

n. [kwälədē tīm]: time spent in giving another person one's undivided attention in order to strengthen a relationship, especially with reference to family and friends.

Quality time means a lot to me especially when I don’t get to see the people I love and care about everyday. All I ask for is a few hours of just conversation to catch up. I feel very detached when I don’t get to talk to them. I worry and wonder how they’re day is and if they’ve eatten. To physically have them in my presence is 10000X better than just a phone call or FaceTime. Losing quality time scares me because I feel like i’m losing them or they’re slowly drifting away. I just miss you that’s all.. I miss having someone to talk to in person about my day. Is that just too much to ask..?

I Miss You My Queen..

Every night before I go to bed, I remember you telling me to recite the verses you taught me when I was a little girl. Till this day, before I go to bed and whenever I can’t sleep I recite them. Although I don’t understand what it means, I know that it brings me comfort. You’re my sunshine, my hero, my role model, my queen. No one can ever replace you. I miss visiting you and giving you leg massages because it lets you sleep better at night. I miss taking you to the store to buy flowers for your garden. I miss taking you out to lunch whether it’s to eat sushi or your favorite fast food restaurant Burger Kings. I lost my best friend, someone who has been the most consistent person in my life. Constantly reminding me to be nice to people and treat people with respect. I want to love my family the way you love yours. I want to find someone who will take care of me just like the way grandpa took care of you. I want to take care, love, and respect my parents the way I took care, loved, and respected you.

Grandma, I hope you’ve reunited with grandpa and he’s taking good care of you. I promise I will become the woman you’ve wanted me to be. I promise I will take care of my parents and the family. I love you and I miss you so much.

Nothing feels better than to hear his friend tell you he told him that you are "the one."

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Thoughts: The WRONG Decision

Two weeks ago, I’ve decided to stop studying for my license. Since I’ve made that decision, I’ve had a mixed amount of people telling me I should give it another shot and others are happy I’ve made that decision. It wasn’t until recently when I started feeling guilt. I’m on the edge about whether I should give this exam one more shot since I’ve already started studying for it or give up and explore my options at a different place. The past couple of weeks have been really hard for me because I’m scared that I’m making the wrong decision for my career. I’m reflecting and asking myself why I even decided to major in finance.. I could’ve majored in something else I felt more passionate about. But by the time I realized I wasn’t really excited about finance, I was already in too deep to back out and switch.

I’m scared because I feel like I’m letting the people who believe in me down for giving up on studying for this test. There has been nights where I can’t sleep and I would lay in bed thinking if this really is the right choice for myself or am I just making up an excuse because I don’t want to study for it. Other people are telling me this is a essentially a dead end for me and that I should try pursuing a career in a corporation where I have more opportunities to explore different roles where as where I am it’s either this or that. My options are very limited.

My boyfriend made a really good point, he said I’m only at the start right now and there’s no such thing as taking the wrong step since I’m at the start. The only direction is moving forward. My sister told me if I don’t go out and explore and stay where I am right now, I’ll look back and ask myself and wonder what it would be like if I went corporate. She told me to go out and explore while I can and if it was meant to be, I can always go back well rounded and full of experience. I guess there really is no wrong decision..

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You're the reason why I believe in long distance..

#long distant relationship

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Thoughts: Reassurance

Had lunch with my manager today and he reminded me multiple times that he has my back and that he understands that this is not what I want right now. He told me to be patient and in time he will guarantee me with the job that I initially asked for. Nothing feels better than to know that I have a manager who is supportive and actually wants me to succeed. I feel so blessed to have taken a chance in this role. I know I made my parents worry, when I started I wasn’t really excited because I felt like I took a step down. But with the support from my manager and boyfriend they reassured me that I’m on the right track it’s just a different path. I’m thankful and confident that I can pass my licensing exams this time around because there’s no pressure. I can do this and this is my year to succeed and reach the goals I have set for myself. I just need to take it step by step and be patient that in time, it will be my turn to live the life I’ve been dreaming of an the career I want.

“Never change your goals when things don’t work out, just change the plan”