summary | when bucky barnes keeps showing up early to pick up his nephew from school, it’s definitely not just about being a good uncle—it’s about the sharp, no-nonsense kindergarten teacher who won’t give him the time of day. one desperate club night and a locked bathroom later, you finally do.
tags | (18+) MDNI, unprotected sex, p in v, semi-public sex, rough sex, oral sex (f!receiving), dominant!bucky, flirty!bucky, modern au, cocky!bucky, no-nonsense!reader, slow burn to smut, mutual pining, enemies to lovers-ish, no description of reader, BUT reader does have surname (racially ambiguous as always), ABBOTT ELEMENTARY CROSSOVER (this is fanfiction so I can do whatever I want)
a/n | this is filthy you guys, based on this request, and after reading this if you haven't I beg you to watch abbott elementary, literally rewatching for the fourth time, it's everything and changed my entire personality
likes comments and reblogs are much appreciated ✨✨
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“You do realize we’re ten minutes late, right?”
The voice came from the backseat—small, unimpressed, and filled with the kind of quiet disappointment usually reserved for tax season and slow Wi-Fi.
Bucky glanced at his rearview mirror and caught sight of his nephew, Danny, hair flattened oddly on one side from sleep, Superman backpack twice the size of his torso, and the most judgmental frown a five-year-old could possibly muster.
Bucky cleared his throat, shooting the kid his best reassuring grin. “Ten minutes is nothing, buddy. Trust me. Back in the day, I once showed up to basic training a whole hour late.”
Danny blinked. “Did you get yelled at?”
“Oh, absolutely.”
“Did you cry?”
“…No.”
Danny leaned back in his booster seat like a seasoned war general staring down a doomed campaign. “Ms. Lane’s gonna be mad.”
Bucky huffed a laugh as he pulled into the parking lot, spotting a scattering of parents still dropping kids off at the entrance. “Your teacher’s not gonna be upset you when I explain. You’re five. You’ve got diplomatic immunity.”
Danny shook his head slowly, solemnly.
“Not with me. You.”
Bucky paused mid-parallel-park, one hand still on the wheel, his brow furrowing. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
Danny didn’t answer. Just stared straight ahead at the entrance to Abbott Elementary like it was the last checkpoint before war. Like he was waiting for the music from The Godfather to start playing.
“You’ll see,” he said simply, grabbing his backpack straps like they were armor.
Bucky frowned as he helped him out of the car. “What’s with the dramatics, huh? She gonna throw a book at me?”
Danny shrugged. “She’s just… Ms. Lane.”
And with that, the kid marched ahead like a tiny soldier into the building, leaving Bucky trailing behind, wondering what the hell kind of teacher scared a kindergartner more than a DC-level supervillain.
He was about to find out.
Bucky followed Danny down the hallway, trying not to feel like he was walking into a parent-teacher trap. It smelled like crayons, wet sneakers, and disillusionment.
A cluster of teachers loitered near the front office—one of them with an armful of broken rulers, one loudly arguing with a printer, and one sipping coffee with the grace of a woman who’d already survived decades of nonsense.
He made a beeline for her. Elegant, composed, a pearl necklace that said “respect me,” and an aura of calm he hadn’t felt since his last decent nap.
“Ms. Lane?” Bucky asked, offering a smile that had gotten him out of more than one parking ticket. “Sorry for the delay, I was doing my sister a favor—her son, Danny? He’s in your class.”
The woman blinked up at him, unimpressed. He could practically hear the mental pen clicking as she filed him under Oh no, not another one.
“I am Mrs. Howard,” she said, calmly correcting Bucky like he'd just misquoted Scripture. “Ms. Lane is the other kindergarten teacher.”
Bucky opened his mouth to apologize, but she wasn’t done.
“She’s just down the hall. Room 3B.” Then came the pause. The head tilt. The look.
“Young man…” She gave him a once-over. Not flirtatious. Not judgmental. Just quietly disappointed—like he'd shown up to church in jeans.
Bucky blinked. “Yes, ma’am?”
Mrs. Howard offered a solemn shake of her head. “Good luck.”
And with that, she turned and glided off, coffee in hand, already done with his entire existence.
Bucky stood in the hallway for a second, frowning. How bad could this Ms. Lane be? What, was she going to quiz him on phonics or glare him into a coma?
The door was already open a crack, but Bucky still knocked first, because that’s what you did when walking into enemy territory.
There was no chaos. No screeching. No glue sticks flying through the air. Which was immediately suspicious for a kindergarten class.
Instead, he stepped inside to find… silence.
Twenty tiny heads bent over worksheets like they were prepping for the SATs. Crayons moved in eerie unison. No one screamed. No one licked a desk. A kid in the back raised his hand quietly—quietly—to ask if he could use the bathroom.
That was his first warning.
Because when were kindergarteners ever quiet?
Bucky hesitated in the doorway, feeling like he’d just stumbled into enemy territory. What kind of boot camp were they running in here?
Danny nudged him forward, but Bucky’s attention was already drifting to the figure at the whiteboard across the room—spine straight, skirt fitted, heels clicking as you scrawled a date across the board with clean, efficient precision. You didn’t look up. You didn’t need to.
You radiated authority from thirty feet away.
He half-expected to see gray hair, maybe glasses on a chain. Strict. Sharp. The kind of teacher whose name gets spoken in terrified whispers on playgrounds.
Then you turned around.
And Bucky’s mouth dried up instantly.
You weren’t old. You weren’t scary. You were stunning. Not just pretty—gorgeous. The kind of beautiful that hits you like a left hook. And you didn’t smile when you saw him. Of course you didn’t.
You just turned, one brow raised, assessing him like a problem you were deciding whether to fix or eliminate.
Bucky cleared his throat, defaulting to his most practiced, most lethal move: the smile. The one that had gotten him out of bar fights, jury duty, and once, weirdly, an IKEA return policy.
“Hi. Sorry—I’m Bucky Barnes,” he said, stepping inside. “Danny’s uncle. Rebecca asked me to drop him off today. It’s my first time—”
“Kids are supposed to be in class by eight,” you interrupted, voice calm, level, and sharp enough to slice drywall. “It’s eight fifteen.”
Right. Okay.
The smile faltered just a fraction.
You crossed your arms, waiting, watching him like you were unimpressed by his entire bloodline.
Danny, standing a little behind Bucky now, mumbled, “Told you so.”
Bucky sighed and shot him a look before stepping forward a bit, trying again with a little more Sergeant, a little less smug.
“Yeah,” Bucky said, holding onto the edge of that smile. “That’s on me. My sister got called in early, and I didn’t realize traffic near the school was… a situation.” He gave a little shrug, trying to soften the blow. “It’s only fifteen minutes.”
One kid—front row, bowl cut, way too invested—visibly winced for him as you took a step closer to him. Bucky barely caught the movement before he felt the weight of your stare.
“Danny,” you said, never breaking eye contact with Bucky, “you can go take your seat.”
Danny didn’t hesitate. He made a beeline for his desk like he was escaping a hostage situation, never once glancing back at his uncle.
You turned your full attention on Bucky then, your eyes sweeping him head to toe in a single motion so dry, so thoroughly unimpressed, it made his spine straighten instinctively.
“Fifteen minutes,” you said, voice still perfectly pleasant, “is long enough for a child to lose their morning routine. It’s long enough to miss foundational learning, to feel behind before they’ve even started the day. It’s long enough to build a habit of dismissing responsibility.”
Bucky opened his mouth.
You didn’t stop.
“Fifteen minutes late to school turns into fifteen minutes late to interviews. Fifteen minutes late to jobs. Fifteen minutes late to life. That might not seem like much to you, Mr. Barnes, but to a five-year-old trying to learn structure in an unpredictable world? It matters.”
A low “oooh” rippled through the class like someone had just witnessed a verbal assassination.
You turned your head—just slightly—and every single one of them went silent like a switch had been flipped.
Then you turned back to Bucky with a smile so polished it might’ve passed for genuine, if not for the gleam in your eye that said this isn’t over, and you will remember me.
“Have a good day, Mr. Barnes.”
He blinked. “I—”
“Have a good day, Mr. Barnes.”
His mouth shut. His posture shifted. He nodded, respectful this time. “Of course.”
You turned back to the whiteboard without another word, already moving on like he was just a bump in your perfectly structured morning.
As Bucky stepped out of the classroom, he glanced back over his shoulder one last time.
The kids were still silent.
You were still terrifying.
And now?
You were stuck in his head.
From then on, Bucky made a small but strategic adjustment to his week.
He got Rebecca to agree—grudgingly, at first—to let him handle school drop-off twice a week and pick-up three times. It was about being involved. Showing up. Being a solid, male figure in Danny’s life. A steady one. That’s what he told himself. And his sister.
And sure, maybe it was also because Danny’s kindergarten teacher was the most infuriatingly magnetic person Bucky had ever met.
Ms. Lane.
You.
Every time he stepped into that classroom—on time, now, thank you very much—you were there. Clipboard in hand, spine like steel, eyes that didn’t blink when he smiled at you like he’d invented it.
You never giggled. Never blushed. Never let him get so much as a twitch of a lip curl when he dropped a line like, “Careful, you keep looking at me like that and people are gonna think we’re in a PTA scandal.”
Nothing.
You’d just stare at him, arch a brow, and hand him a paper that said ‘Parent Reading Night RSVP – Required.’
At one point, he was pretty sure you gave Janine more reaction for sneezing glitter.
And the worst part?
The kids loved you. Danny adored you. Sure, you also partially terrified them all, but you had their respect. Which meant Bucky couldn’t even pretend to resent the way you owned every room you walked into. He just had to lean in, play along, keep showing up, and try not to let it get to him when you ended every conversation with a clinical “Have a good day, Mr. Barnes,” like he was some stranger in a waiting room.
So he tried harder.
He wore better jackets.
When Becs didn't have the time, he made Danny’s lunches look like they were packed by Pinterest moms.
He learned all the traffic patterns around Abbott to avoid being even one minute late.
He even tried calling you “Ms. Lane” in that flirty voice he’d once used on girls outside jazz clubs in Brooklyn.
You looked up from your lesson plans, dead-eyed, and said, “Are you choking, or is that how you normally talk?”
The door creaked open just as you were nodding along to whatever Janine was rambling about—something involving manifesting healthy communication with her plants or possibly something about moon phases and exes.
You barely suppressed a sigh. You liked Janine in small doses. She was enthusiastic. Kind. Chronically incapable of taking a hint. And lately, she’d made it her personal mission to turn your life into a rom-com, complete with imaginary “will-they-won’t-they” tension and way too much commentary.
“See, what I’m saying is, if he keeps showing up early, that’s basically a love confession. And if you weren’t so emotionally repressed—”
The door opened and he walked in.
Bucky Barnes strolled into your classroom like he owned a portion of the lease. Jacket unzipped, sleeves rolled, hair an intentional mess. He gave Janine a familiar nod and then locked his gaze on you like he always did—like you were the only person in the room.
He smiled. That easy, smirky, I-know-you-hate-this-but-maybe-you-don’t kind of smile.
“Ladies,” he greeted smoothly. “Miss Teagues. Ms. Lane.”
You didn’t look up from your clipboard. “You’re early.”
“Yeah, figured I’d show up before the bell, for once.” He leaned against the edge of a desk, far too casual. “I hear being punctual really impresses a certain someone.”
You deadpanned, “My class is in the library for story time. They won’t be back for another twenty minutes.”
He grinned. “Guess I’ll just have to entertain myself then.”
“God, you two are so adorable,” Janine burst out, hands clasped like she’d just walked in on a Hallmark movie climax. “The way you flirt—so classic enemies to lovers. It’s giving Pride and Prejudice. But like, modern. And in a school.”
You didn’t even blink.
“Janine. Leave.”
You looked at her. Just looked. One long, unimpressed, soul-shearing glance.
“Right. Right, right, right,” she mumbled, fumbling for her tote bag. “I have… bulletin board stuff. Laminating. Paper… science.”
She took two steps backward, then paused, giving Bucky the most exaggerated wink a human could physically perform.
You didn’t react. You were too tired.
She nodded like she was passing the torch of your romantic destiny and literally backed out of the classroom like Homer Simpson into a hedge.
The door clicked shut.
Bucky exhaled dramatically, like he’d just survived a natural disaster. “She’s like a human glitter bomb. No warning. No escape.”
You didn’t look up from your clipboard. “She’s enthusiastic. It’s exhausting.”
He chuckled, low and knowing. “So I guess that means I’m not your type either.”
“You’re not glittery.”
“Oh, come on,” he said, stepping closer, that damn smile still lingering at the corners of his mouth. “I sparkle a little.”
You glanced at him then—slowly, flatly.
“You always this persistent?” you asked, voice dry as ever.
He tilted his head, hands sliding into his jacket pockets like he had all the time in the world. “You always this impossible to impress?”
You shrugged, tapping your pen once against the clipboard before setting it down. “Only with people who try this hard.”
He gave a low whistle, grinning like you’d just scored a point in a game he didn’t mind losing. “Damn, but I bet if I said I was here for the stimulating curriculum and not to see you, you'd kick me out.”
“I’d consider it,” you said coolly. “But I’m invested in Danny’s education.”
“Ouch.”
He stepped a little closer again, but not too close. Like he was testing a line with his toe, just to see if you’d swat him back or finally step over it yourself.
“I ever make you laugh, Ms. Lane?” he asked, real curiosity under the velvet of the question.
You raised an eyebrow. “Do you want a sticker if you do?”
His grin turned into something a little rougher. “I’d rather earn one of those gold stars I see on your discipline chart.”
You didn’t smile. Not quite. But there was a flicker in your eyes he caught anyway, and his grin deepened like he’d won something.
You turned back to your desk, flipping a folder open without looking at him again.
“You know,” he said, glancing around your empty classroom, “this is the quietest I’ve ever seen it. Kind of eerie. I was starting to think the kids were fake—like one of those training simulations.”
You gave a low, unimpressed hum. “If they were fake, they wouldn’t sneeze directly into my coffee when I’m not looking.”
He chuckled, eyeing your desk. “Is that why you’ve got three different mugs over there? Just in case?”
You didn't respond. But the faint upward curve of your mouth—blink-and-miss-it—was the closest he’d gotten to a laugh since the first day he met you.
It made something curl low in his stomach.
“I know I keep saying this, but I’m not just here to bug you,” Bucky said after a beat, his voice edging toward sincere despite the grin still playing at his mouth. “Danny likes it when I pick him up. Says it makes him feel cool when I show up.”
You looked up, just slightly. “He does like showing you off.”
Bucky’s smile softened, just a little. “Kid’s got good taste.”
Then his eyes slid back to you, the cocky glint returning. “Speaking of good taste—what are the odds I could convince you to grab coffee sometime?”
You gave him a long, slow blink. Not mean. Just… devastatingly neutral.
He added, “I’ll be on time. And I promise not to flirt with the barista.”
You opened your mouth—possibly to respond, possibly to destroy him—but before a single word could land, the bell rang.
Shrill. Loud. Unforgiving.
You sighed like the universe had interrupted you on purpose.
“Danny’ll be waiting for you outside the library,” you said, already picking up the clipboard again like this was over and done. “Probably trying to con the librarian into letting him borrow another comic book.”
Bucky hesitated. “So… is that a maybe on the coffee?”
You didn’t even look up. “It’s a ‘your nephew’s in the library.’”
He grinned, slow and crooked. “I’ll take that as a soft yes.”
You arched an eyebrow. “Take it however you want, Barnes. Just go get your kid.”
He turned toward the door, still smiling, still smug—but quieter now. And before stepping out, he glanced back one more time.
You were already back to your paperwork.
But you hadn’t said no.
Bucky was still smirking to himself as he stepped out of your classroom and into the hallway—clearly riding high off your non-answer like it was a personal victory.
And, as luck would have it, he walked directly into Principal Ava Coleman’s path.
She had sunglasses on indoors and a folder she clearly hadn’t opened all week tucked under one arm.
“Good afternoon,” he said politely, offering her a nod and a half-smile.
Ava turned so fast it was like she’d been waiting for this exact moment. “Oh it is now,” she said, eyes raking over him so blatantly Bucky actually paused mid-step.
She watched him until he rounded the corner, then turned on a heel and bee-lined straight for your classroom, heels clicking like trouble.
She leaned into your doorway with no regard for your personal space or your peace of mind.
You didn’t even look up as she strolled through your door, “Girl.”
You kept sorting worksheets. “Ava.”
She gave you a look like she just walked in on free tickets to a concert and front-row seats.
“Now that is the finest white man I’ve seen this whole year,” she said, plopping down into one of the tiny student chairs with zero grace and maximum chaos.
You glanced up, deadpan. “It’s March.”
Ava rolled her eyes. “I meant school year. Don’t try and be smart with me.”
You arched a brow. “Wasn’t trying.”
She pointed a perfectly manicured nail toward the door. “You better quit playing with that man’s heart before I mess around and pull rank.”
You blinked once. “I’m not playing with anything.”
Ava smirked. “Girl, please. You’ve got him showing up early on purpose. That man’s in here more than Gregory and he actually works here.”
You didn’t respond right away. Just gathered your things slowly, expression unreadable.
Then: “He’s annoying.”
Ava stood, smooth as silk. “Mm-hm. And yet he’s got you so annoyed you keep your lipstick fresh after lunch.”
You glanced at her, unimpressed.
“I’m just saying,” Ava continued, striding around the room like she owned it (she technically did, unfortunately), “if you don’t take him, I will. That man is gonna give me some fine, emotionally stable mixed babies.”
You looked at her. Just looked. Slightly disgusted, mostly exhausted.
“Ava. Seriously?”
“What?” she asked, clearly unbothered. “You’re the one over here acting like you don’t notice. Always so uptight, hair all sleeked back like you’re about to defend someone in court. Girl, this is a school.”
You pinched the bridge of your nose. “Ava, what do you want?”
“I’m going out tonight,” she said, waving a perfectly manicured hand like this was some kind of decree. “Clubbing. Drinks. Vibes. You’re coming.”
You didn’t even flinch. “Absolutely not.”
She pointed. “You’re coming.”
“No.”
“I’m your boss. You’re forced to. It’s in your contract.”
“It’s really not.”
“Also,” she added, shrugging, “you’re the closest thing to an equal I’ve got in this place. So you’re coming for moral support.”
You finally looked up, full eye contact. “Ava. No.”
She pointed at you. “Nine o’clock. I’m texting you the address. Now go home, let your hair down and let your scalp breathe for once. Wear something that says ‘I’m open to bad decisions.’ Not ‘I’m about to read you your Miranda rights.’”
You opened your mouth to decline again, but she was already halfway down the hall, yelling something about “energy healing” and “pre-gaming with affirmations.”
You sighed.
Loudly.
“You gotta stop lookin’ like someone stole your dog,” Sam said, nudging his shoulder as they walked toward the club entrance. “You’re killin’ the vibe.”
Bucky shot him a look. “You dragged me out.”
“I’m saving your sad, one-woman-man life,” Sam said. “You need to remember other women exist, Buck. The world’s bigger than that kindergarten teacher who makes you sweat like you’re back in basic.”
Bucky sighed, scanning the line outside the club. “You’re not gonna let this go, are you?”
“Nope.” Sam clapped him on the back. “C’mon. Maybe the actual girl of your dreams is in here.”
“Already found her.”
“You are so damn whipped, man,” Sam muttered.
Inside, the club was all neon glow and bass-heavy music. The air pulsed with energy and cheap cologne. Bucky kept his hands in his jacket pockets, jaw tense as Sam tried to steer him toward the bar.
And then he saw you.
You were standing near a tall cocktail table, back to him, dress hugging every curve like it was tailored by sin itself. That deep burgundy color against your skin, the sheer lace sleeves, the neckline that made his mouth go dry—fuck.
It was like the air got sucked right out of the building.
He stopped walking. Just… stopped.
Sam bumped into him. “What? Don’t tell me you already gave up—”
Bucky lifted a hand, pointing without looking away. “That’s her.”
Sam followed his gaze. “That’s Ms. Lane?”
Bucky nodded, dumbfounded. “Yeah.”
“She teaches kindergarten?”
“Yeah.”
Sam stared a moment longer. “I’ve never wanted to re-enroll in school so bad in my life.”
Bucky’s jaw worked. You hadn’t noticed him yet. You were talking to someone—smiling, even, which was a rare enough sight that it nearly took him out.
Then he saw who was beside you.
“Oh. Ava’s here too.”
Sam turned. “Who’s Ava?”
“The principal.”
Sam blinked. “You’re telling me the tall one with the long hair and wearing that is the principal?”
“Yep.”
“I’m calling Sarah,” Sam said, already reaching for his phone. “We’re transferring my nephews.”
Bucky didn’t respond. His eyes were locked on you—his teacher, his girl, his quiet obsession—laughing in a club with a dress that made his palms sweat. All those weeks of buttoned-up shirts and sarcastic dismissals, and now here you were, looking like a damn vision.
Sam nudged him. “You gonna stand there drooling or go say something?”
“I can’t.”
“Why?”
“I think I’m in love.”
Sam rolled his eyes hard. “God, you’re so dramatic.”
But Bucky didn’t hear him. You’d turned just enough for your eyes to start sweeping the room, and the moment you looked in his direction—
He knew you saw him.
And he knew everything was about to change.
The club pulsed around you—sweaty, crowded, way too loud—and you were already regretting everything.
You weren’t the kind of woman who went out on Friday nights. You were the kind who wrote parent emails about glitter-related injuries and kept a drawer full of emergency dry-erase markers.
The kind who dodged PTA moms like landmines and maintained a firm no-nonsense reputation because the moment you didn’t, someone’s child would be climbing the bookshelf like it was Everest.
But here you were. Burgundy dress, heels too high, lip gloss too shiny, sipping on a drink that tasted vaguely like regret and melted candy.
Ava was beaming beside you, obviously thriving. “Now this is what I’m talking about,” she said, swaying to the music. “You, me, outfits that should be illegal. This is the energy we need.”
You took a sip, trying not to look like you wanted to crawl out of your own skin. “I already want to go home.”
“You always want to go home. You're, like, emotionally married to your couch.”
You opened your mouth to reply, but then Ava froze—gasped like someone had pulled the fire alarm—and grabbed your arm with enough force to startle you.
“Girl. Girl. You will not believe who just walked in right now.”
You frowned, confused. “What—”
“Look.”
You followed her eye line. The club suddenly felt ten degrees hotter.
Bucky Barnes stood at the entrance, taller than anyone else around him, leather jacket open over a dark henley, hair tousled, mouth set in that stupid half-smirk like he knew he didn’t belong there and didn’t care. His blue eyes scanned the crowd like he was looking for someone.
And then they landed on you.
Oh no.
No.
“This is not happening right now,” you muttered, nearly tripping over your own words. “I have got to get out of here.”
You turned, already strategizing your exit route, but Ava threw an arm out in front of you like she was stopping traffic.
“Girl, forget you. Look at that man’s fine ass friend.”
You blinked, turning your head just enough to catch him—Bucky’s friend. Broad shoulders. Clean-cut. Smiling already like he knew how this worked. His eyes were on Ava like she was a problem he was already planning to solve.
“Hell yes,” Ava said. “That’s my man. Manifested. Claimed.”
You were too busy trying to make your brain reboot. Because Bucky was still watching you. He hadn’t looked away once. Like you were the only person in the club. His mouth curved slightly. Not cocky. Not playful. Just… locked in. Sure.
And damn him—you felt it. That same heat in your chest you pretended didn’t exist every time he came to pick up Danny. Except now, there was no desk between you. No escape.
And then, the inevitable.
The two pairs drifted toward each other. Like planets colliding. Like destiny had a sick sense of humor.
It was Ava who broke the silence first.
“Hi,” she said to Bucky’s friend, offering a hand like she expected it to be kissed. “Ava Coleman. Principal. Administrator. Visionary. And I know you’re about to buy me a drink.”
Sam blinked once, clearly amused. “Sam Wilson. Nice to meet you, Ms. Visionary.”
“Mmhm. I know.” Ava looped her arm through his like it was nothing. “Let’s go, future Mr. Coleman.”
You turned, shocked. “Ava—”
She didn’t even glance back. “You’re on your own, counselor. Don’t mess this up.”
And with that, she strutted away with Sam trailing behind her, clearly both confused and deeply invested.
You turned back to find Bucky still standing there.
Still watching you.
And now it was just the two of you.
No classroom.
No clipboard.
No rules.
Just you. And him. And the truth you’d been ignoring.
He smiled.
And you suddenly couldn’t remember a single reason why you ever told yourself he wasn’t dangerous.
Bucky stood there for a second longer, drinking you in.
The lace sleeves. The curve of your waist. The neckline that made his brain stop working for a solid five seconds. It wasn’t just the dress—it was you in it. Out of your usual uniform. Out of your guarded shell. Still composed, but softer somehow. Looser.
“You look—” he started, voice low.
“Hot?” you cut in, arching an eyebrow, mouth twitching just enough to betray your awareness.
He laughed, quiet, head tipping slightly. “I was gonna say amazing. But hot works too.”
You rolled your eyes and took a slow sip of your drink to hide the way your pulse jumped.
Bucky stepped closer, just enough to speak without raising his voice. “I didn’t think you went to places like this.”
“I don’t. Ava dragged me.”
You glanced past him, where Ava was already leaned over the bar with Sam looking both impressed and slightly alarmed.
“And now she’s dragging him,” you murmured.
Bucky followed your gaze and let out a soft chuckle. “Should we check on them?”
“No,” you said instantly. “Let natural selection take its course.”
He grinned again—less smug this time. Quieter. More real. The kind of smile that said he’d missed seeing you. The kind that made your breath catch a little deeper than you wanted to admit.
You took another sip, letting the pause stretch, then tilted your head at him.
The music pounded around you. People brushed past. The lights shifted.
But it felt like everything stilled between you and him.
“I thought maybe, outside the classroom... you’d stop pretending I’m not getting to you.”
Your grip on your drink tightened slightly.
You didn’t look away.
You should have.
But you didn’t.
Instead, you held his gaze like it was a contest. Like you were daring him to blink first. Your chin stayed lifted, eyes steady, but something behind them flickered—just for a second.
Bucky saw it. That crack in your wall. And God help him, it made his pulse jackhammer in his throat.
You tilted your head slightly, that same biting calm in your voice. “You really think you’re getting to me?”
He stepped in closer, slow, careful—not touching you, but close enough that the heat rolled off him like static. “No,” he said. “I know I am.”
Your throat worked on a swallow you tried to hide, but Bucky clocked it.
You were still composed. Still wrapped in that hard-earned edge of professionalism, like even now, in heels and lace, you could throw a behavioral chart at him and end the whole thing.
But your body betrayed you.
The shift of your weight. The way your breath hitched when he looked at your mouth.
You didn’t push him away.
“You always this arrogant?” you asked, voice like silk-wrapped steel.
“Only when I’m right.”
You opened your mouth, probably to put him in his place again—but then the music shifted, a heavy, pulsing bass dropping in from the DJ booth. A sea of people moved on the dance floor, but the space between you and him felt small. Pressurized.
His eyes dipped to your lips, then back up.
“Dance with me,” he said.
You blinked. “What?”
His smirk curled slowly. “You heard me.”
You scoffed, already shaking your head. “I don’t dance.”
“Sure you do. You just don’t want to with me.”
“Accurate.”
“But you will.” He leaned in, voice brushing the shell of your ear now. “Because I’m asking. And because for once, I don’t think you want to walk away.”
You hated how that made your stomach flip. Hated it even more when he held out a hand—not cocky, not smug. Just… waiting.
You stared at it.
Then at him.
Then, slowly, you slid your hand into his.
And that was all he needed.
Big win. Massive win.
He tugged you gently into the swell of bodies, his hand warm against yours, his other settling lightly on your waist. And when he pulled you close—closer than you’d ever let him stand before—you didn’t pull back.
You danced.
At first, stiff. Calculated. Like you were trying to make it not mean something.
But Bucky? He knew how to move. Knew how to guide without pushing, how to lean in just enough to make your head spin. Every time your hips brushed, every time his hand slipped an inch lower on your back, you felt it in your knees.
You hated him for being good at this.
You hated yourself more for liking it.
And when his lips brushed your ear again, breath hot and voice low, you barely heard the words over the music:
“Just admit it.”
You swallowed, refusing to answer.
He smiled against your skin.
He already knew.
You didn’t answer.
Couldn’t.
Because something inside you snapped the second his breath touched your neck. And the next thing you knew, your fingers were gripping his wrist, dragging him behind you through the crowd with single-minded purpose. Not speaking. Not thinking. Just moving.
Bucky didn’t ask where you were going.
Didn’t need to.
He followed like a man being led to his own damn salvation.
You found the restroom near the back—single occupancy, thank God—and yanked the door open, pulling him in after you. The lock clicked behind you just as his mouth crashed into yours.
It wasn’t gentle.
There was no space for that anymore.
You kissed like you’d been waiting weeks to do it—months actually. All teeth and tongue and heat, his hands gripping your waist like he still couldn’t believe you were real. You pressed him back against the wall, palms flat on his chest, lips dragging along his jaw, biting at the curve of his neck just to feel him shudder.
His hands roamed—your waist, your hips, sliding lower, greedy, hungry, completely unrestrained. His mouth returned to yours, catching your gasp mid-kiss as he backed you against the sink now, one hand curling around the back of your neck, the other on your thigh, tugging it up around his waist.
“You sure?” he murmured against your mouth, breath ragged.
You answered by dragging his lower lip between your teeth.
“Fuck,” he breathed.
He kissed you harder.
Sloppier.
Desperate.
The kind of kiss that said he didn’t care about the lipstick smudging or the way your dress rode up or how his belt buckle knocked against the porcelain edge of the sink. It was all teeth and moans and hands gripping too tight.
Your fingers slid under his jacket, then his shirt, pushing it up, needing to feel skin—hot, firm, real. You ran your nails over his stomach and he groaned like it physically hurt to be touched that way.
“You have no idea what you’re doing to me,” he panted.
You gripped his belt, pulling his hips flush to yours. “You’ve got a pretty good idea what you’re doing to me too.”
He looked down at you like he was already wrecked—and still starving.
Like this wasn’t enough.
Like it was never going to be enough.
Then suddenly Bucky let out a breathless laugh, eyes darting around the cramped bathroom as he made sure to lock the door behind you. “In here? Really?”
You smirked, stepping backward until your back met the cool tile wall, the sink brushing your hip. “What?” you said, voice teasing, eyes locked on his. “You’ve never fucked in a public bathroom before?”
He tilted his head, a grin tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Have you?”
You shrugged, that slow, calculated way that always made him insane. “First time for everything.”
He stared at you for a beat, eyes dark and full of heat—then moved.
He was on you in a flash, hands braced on either side of your head, mouth finding yours again in a kiss that tasted like restraint snapping in half. It was messy, all tongue and teeth, lips crashing together.
Your hands threaded into his hair, tugging, nails scraping against his scalp as he kissed you harder, deeper, needier. His body pressed into yours, firm and unrelenting, and you gasped when you felt the hard line of his cock against your thigh.
Then he dropped.
Literally—dropped to his knees, palms dragging down your sides with reverence and greed.
“Bucky—”
“Shh,” he murmured, voice rough as his eyes flicked up to meet yours. “Let me.”
His hands pushed your dress up slowly, worshipfully, bunching the burgundy fabric around your hips. He hooked a finger into your panties, pulled them to the side, and let out a soft, guttural groan.
“Jesus Christ…”
Then he dove in.
His mouth pressed against your cunt like he was starving, tongue parting your folds with a groan that vibrated against you. You cried out—soft, sharp—your hands flying to his hair again as he started to lick, slow and purposeful. Long, wet strokes that made your knees go weak.
One hand clutched the sink for balance, the other fisted in his hair as he sucked your clit into his mouth, groaning like you were the best thing he’d ever tasted.
You bit your lip to keep quiet—pointless, really. Your hips bucked against his face and he held you there, arms locking around your thighs, face buried between your legs like he had no intention of coming up for air.
“You taste so fucking good,” he growled, voice muffled as he licked deeper, tongue fucking into you before circling your clit again with maddening precision. “Been thinking about this since the first day I saw you.”
You choked on a gasp, head tipping back, the edge already building—too fast, too strong.
And he wasn’t stopping.
Not for anything.
Your grip tightened in his hair as Bucky’s tongue dragged a slow, torturous circle around your clit, only to suck it between his lips with a low, obscene groan that vibrated through your entire body.
“Fuck—” you gasped, breath hitching as your thighs threatened to close around his head.
He wasn’t having it.
His left hand braced against your hip, holding you open, steady, while his right slid up your thigh—palm rough, fingers sure—until he reached your slit. One thick finger slipped inside, slow, dragging along your walls as he moaned like he felt it too.
“You’re so tight,” he breathed against your cunt. “So wet for me. This pretty pussy’s been waiting for me, huh?”
You shuddered, jaw slack, hips rolling down onto his face and hand like your body knew exactly what it needed. He pumped the finger slowly, deliberately, curling just right to make your knees buckle. Then he added a second—stretching you, filling you—and the heat in your belly twisted hard.
“Oh my god—Bucky—”
“That’s it,” he murmured, eyes flicking up to watch your face as his fingers curled deep inside you. “Let me hear you, baby.”
His mouth returned to your clit, licking in messy, desperate circles while his fingers fucked into you faster—his rhythm syncing perfectly with your shaking body. Every thrust hit that spot inside you with aching precision, your thighs trembling as your moans broke free.
You weren’t composed now.
You weren’t silent.
You were his, unraveling in his mouth, pulsing around his fingers, the world narrowing to the slick sounds of your body and the obscene groans he made as he devoured you like it was his last meal.
“I could do this all night,” he panted, fingers curling hard as your hips jerked. “You gonna come for me? Gonna soak my fuckin’ fingers?”
You couldn’t even form words—only nod, only whimper, only clutch at his hair and the edge of the sink like you might float away if you let go.
“Come on, sweetheart,” he growled, tongue flicking your clit fast and filthy now, fingers pounding into you. “Come on my face.”
Your body clenched, the pressure snapping like a whip crack—your orgasm crashing over you so hard you cried out, hips shaking, thighs locked tight around his head. He groaned, licking you through it, fingers still working you until you were whining, pushing weakly at his shoulder.
He finally pulled back, mouth and chin glistening, chest heaving.
He looked wrecked.
And proud.
Bucky stood, chest rising hard, his jaw clenched like he was fighting off every urge he’d ever had. His mouth was slick with you, his fingers still glistening, and he looked down at you like you were the only thing tethering him to sanity.
Then he cursed.
“Shit—” he growled, hand dragging down his face. “I don't have a condom.”
You blinked, still breathless, still shaking.
Then you reached for his belt.
You pulled him close with both hands, grabbed his face, and kissed him hard—tongue sweeping into his mouth, tasting yourself all over him.
He groaned, loud and broken, his hands flying to your waist, gripping tight.
“I’m on birth control,” you panted against his lips. “It’s fine.”
He froze for half a second.
Then everything snapped.
He spun you around, bent you over the sink, and shoved your dress up around your waist again with a growl that sounded like it was ripped from his chest.
“Fuck, I’ve wanted this,” he muttered, dragging his pants down just enough to free himself—his cock hard, thick, flushed at the tip.
You looked at him over your shoulder, eyes dark, daring. “Then take it.”
He didn’t hesitate.
He grabbed your hip with one hand, the other guiding himself to your soaked entrance. He groaned when he felt how wet you still were, and then he thrust in—hard, deep, one sharp movement that made both of you cry out.
“Jesus—” he bit out, buried to the hilt inside you.
You gasped, your hands bracing against the sink, your head dropping between your arms as he pulled back and slammed into you again, rougher this time, like all the control he’d been clinging to shattered in one thrust.
His grip on your hips was bruising.
His rhythm? Relentless.
“Look at you,” he gritted, hips snapping into you again and again, cock dragging perfectly over your walls. “All that attitude. All that sass. And now you’re fucking dripping for me.”
You moaned, arching your back, pushing back onto him. “Shut up and fuck me.”
That did it.
He pounded into you, deep and rough, grunting with every thrust, each one sharper than the last. Your hands scrambled for grip, one of your heels slipping as he rutted into you like he was trying to claim you, pull every sound out of your throat that you’d refused to give him in daylight.
“Been thinking about this since the first time you called me Barnes like it was a threat,” he growled, one hand fisting in your hair to pull your head back. “And now you’re letting me fuck you in a goddamn club bathroom?”
You gasped, eyes fluttering. “Shut up.”
He fucked you harder.
“You love this,” he growled in your ear. “You love the way I feel inside you. Admit it.”
Your nails scraped the porcelain.
He yanked you upright against his chest, his cock still buried inside you, pounding you with punishing, perfect rhythm.
“Say it,” he demanded, voice ragged. “Say you wanted this.”
You moaned, nearly sobbed. “I—fuck—I wanted this—”
He groaned, low and guttural, lips dragging over your shoulder and hand drifting to your neck.
His hand on your throat wasn’t choking—just holding. Just claiming. His mouth was at your ear, breath hot, voice wrecked. You were bent over the sink but upright now, your chest flush to his, and your eyes—
He made sure they were on the mirror.
“Look,” Bucky growled, fucking into you hard enough to make the sink creak. “Look what I’m doing to you.”
Your gaze caught the reflection—and fuck, it was obscene. Your lips parted, cheeks flushed, sweat-damp hair clinging to your temples. His broad chest against your back, one hand gripping your hip, the other still around your throat like he was holding you steady so you couldn’t escape how good it felt.
Every thrust slammed into you from behind, deep and fast, his cock stretching you wide, hitting that perfect spot over and over until your legs were shaking.
You whimpered, unable to hold back anymore.
“That’s it,” he rasped. “Let me hear you. No classroom. No clipboard. Just you. And me.”
Your head tipped back onto his shoulder as his thrusts grew rougher, deeper, fucking you in front of the mirror like he wanted you to remember this—to see exactly what he turned you into.
“I can feel you squeezing me,” he panted. “So fuckin’ tight. You gonna come for me?”
You moaned, body tensing, orgasm coiling hard in your belly, your thighs trembling, the pressure too much.
His fingers moved down your stomach, finding your clit, rubbing tight, fast circles as he slammed into you.
“Come for me,” he growled into your ear. “Come on my cock. Let me feel it.”
You shattered.
It was sharp, messy, loud—your cry bouncing off the bathroom walls as your pussy clenched around him, body locking up, hips jerking uncontrollably. You came so hard you saw white, barely able to hold yourself up as your orgasm rolled over you in crashing waves.
“Fuck, that’s it,” Bucky grunted, and then he lost it.
His rhythm stuttered, a broken gasp tearing from his throat as he buried himself deep one last time and came inside you, hips jerking, breath ragged against your neck.
He held you tight, forehead pressed to your shoulder, still inside you, both of you shaking and panting, sweat-slicked and spent.
The mirror caught everything.
Two people undone.
Two people who couldn’t take it back.
And neither of you wanted to.
The room was quiet now, save for your breathing and the soft hum of music bleeding through the walls.
You blinked slowly at the mirror, still bent over the sink, your hair mussed, dress bunched around your hips, Bucky’s body heavy and warm behind you. He was still buried inside you, both of you barely recovered.
He exhaled, lips brushing your shoulder, then your neck. “Well, damn.”
You let out a breath that might’ve been a laugh if you weren’t still coming down from the best orgasm of your life.
He finally pulled out with a low groan, pressing a kiss to your shoulder as he did, and then helped smooth your dress back down over your thighs. His touch lingered just a second too long, like he wasn’t ready to let go of you just yet.
You straightened, turned slowly to face him, your expression mostly neutral—but your eyes were warmer than before. He saw it. He always did.
Bucky leaned back against the sink beside you, tucking himself back into his jeans with practiced ease, still watching you with that lazy post-orgasm smirk.
“So,” he said, running a hand through his hair, still slightly breathless. “Now that we’ve gotten the hard part out of the way…”
You arched a brow, lips twitching. “That was the hard part?”
He grinned. “Figuratively. And literally.”
You rolled your eyes, turning to check yourself in the mirror. Your lipstick was gone. Your cheeks were flushed. Your neck had the faint outline of his stubble. You looked exactly how you felt: fucked out and dangerously close to letting him in.
You dabbed at your collarbone with a paper towel.
He watched you quietly for a second, then said, softer now, “Come on, baby. Just one date.”
You froze.
He didn’t miss it.
“One date,” he said again, stepping a little closer, voice still low. “Not the club. Not the classroom. Just you and me. Dinner. Or drinks. Hell, coffee if that’s all I get.”
You looked at him, really looked.
He was flushed, eyes bright, hopeful in a way he hadn’t been in weeks. There was something real behind that smirk now. Something open. Unprotected.
You should’ve shut him down.
Should’ve said something cold. Dismissive.
But instead, you leaned in—kissed him, slow this time, less teeth, more tongue. Just a whisper of what could happen again if you said yes.
When you pulled back, your lips barely brushed his.
imagining "you can give me another one, can't you baby? for me, please?" but SAYING IT TO ROBBY 😵😵🤪🤪
When Robby comes, it’s a lot. Fills you up with every fluid ounce of his release. So much that it’s leaking out of you before he’s even finished.
But he’s so beautiful underneath you. Heavy lidded brown eyes that radiate his love for you. The dazed smile on his lips, pulling to the side, nearly masked by his beard. Sweat trickling down his neck, crossing paths with the dusting of freckles on his broad shoulders. The gold of his Magen David glistening with each heave of his chest. His entire upper body flushed a deep red with exertion and attraction, all the way up to his ears. The happy trail of dark hair leading down his lower abdomen and disappearing underneath your pussy.
And you know before that last spasm of his cock that you want more.
Your hips begin to move faster after milking the last drop of cum from his balls, and he throws his head back onto the pillow. Every nerve in his body is burning hot with overstimulation as you grind against him.
“What are ya doin to me, kid?” His voice his breaking, pathetic in all the right ways.
You smirk, keeping yourself balanced with your hands on his soft tummy. “You can give me another one, can’t you, baby?” You hum. “For me, please?”
Robby’s brow furrows deeper, his jaw locked with an open mouth, breath hitched in his chest. Every snap of your hips drives him further to insanity, further to what must be his early death because his aging body can’t take it.
But your dirty whispers are getting him farther than he knew was possible.
“Need you to fill me up.”
“Want you leaking out of me for the next week.”
“Don’t you wanna be a daddy? I’ll make you one tonight.”
“Wanna see if I can feel it take.”
Despite how hard you’re riding him into the mattress and making every muscle in his body contract, he grabs your chin with a large hand, grasping tightly. “You sure have a filthy mouth on ya, kid.” He growls.
You stick out your tongue to pull his long index finger into your mouth, shoving it towards the back of your mouth until your lips are kissing his last set of knuckles. That’s enough to send him over the edge.
Robby fills you up again, pushing out the first round of cum with the new, hot spurts erupting from him. It feels so, so fucking good, and you ease him through his second orgasm.
“That’s it, baby. Knew you could do it.”
He’s a trembling mess underneath you, but even still, he has that charming smile on his face. His hands hold firm on your thighs while he admires your beauty from his point of view, like he was staring right at an angel from heaven.
Breathing is a regular bodily function. Supposedly easy. An unconscious action. But for some reason, Bucky Barnes makes you overly aware of yours. He doesn’t do it on purpose, but when he’s lounging in the training room, built like a Greek statue, it just seems to… happen. Adding to the fact that he randomly calls you sweetheart with that stupid crooked grin, your stomach just can’t help but flutter when he’s around.
You’re currently busy pretending to not look at him while you stretch on the mat. Whether you’re succeeding is questionable.
Bucky is across the gym, holding a punch bag steady while John Walker lays into it like he’s got something to prove–which, frankly, he always does.
His gaze flicks towards you, just for a second. You should have looked away in embarrassment but don’t want to make it seem that you were stealing glances, so you give him a small smile instead. He reciprocates warmly.
You’re snapped out of the little moment when Yelena murmurs mid-lunge beside you, “You’re not subtle.”
“What?” you reply innocently, through cheeks burning
Yelena makes a face, “Don’t think this thing–” motioning her head between you and Bucky, “–is very unnoticeable.”
You roll your eyes, “You’re a super spy. Everything is noticeable to you. Your mind is almost making things up.”
“Yet you’re a super spy and you still can’t figure out he’s into you.” It’s Yelena’s turn to roll her eyes
“He flirts with everyone. You’ve seen him. I’m not reading into it.”
Yelena snorts. “Sure. That’s why he lets you throw him across the mat without complaint. Totally something he does with everyone.”
Your eyes narrow. “I’m strong.”
“Yes, you are, but that’s not the point.” She pauses, lips curling into a teasing smirk. “He clearly enjoys the straddling way more than he should.”
You nearly lose your balance.
Across the room, Bucky definitely notices.
Bucky is convinced his willpower is being tested.
He’s resting against the far wall of the gym, towel slung around his neck. He watches you carefully as you move through your warm-up with Yelena. Your current position–on your knees, pushing your body forward, chest facing up–makes Bucky swallow hard. It pulls at something primal inside him.
Bucky has seen hundreds of women in gym clothes. But for some reason, you in tight black leggings and a loose tank top knotted at your waist has him on edge. Maybe it’s because he’s imagined your body too many times and every time you wear this, it confirms even more how stunning you were. He adores every inch of you, but your thighs haunt him most nights. Thick, strong and always on display in your training gear.
He wants–no, prays to feel them wrapped around his waist. His shoulders. His face.
“Jesus,” he mutters under his breath, adjusting the towel to cover his reaction.
“You good?” Bob Reynolds appears beside him like a blond, nosy ghost.
“Fine.”
“Mmm.” Bob’s smile is too knowing. “You keep staring like you’re writing poetry in your head.”
“Shut up.”
“Are you writing poetry in your head?”
“No.” Bucky watches you laugh at something Yelena says, a dimple flashing in your cheek. His stomach tightens.
“Because I could help you rhyme something with thighs.”
“Bob, I swear to God.”
Training always brings out the best and worst in you. You enjoy sparring. You like the burn in your muscles and learning new techniques you’ve never considered. You specifically loved the way your body can do things now that it couldn’t months ago. The real cherry on top was sparring with Bucky.
Which is also a real dilemma. Because he’s stupid hot but also stupid skilled.
And, worst of all, he lets you win. A flattery and an insult rolled into one.
“You’re pulling your punches again,” you say, landing on your back after a takedown you know he could’ve blocked.
Bucky stands over you, offering his hand. “Maybe you’re just too good, sweetheart.”
You narrow your eyes but take his hand. His grip is firm, warm, and way too steady. “You know, most people don’t flirt while getting their ass handed to them.”
He helps you up slowly, like it’s an excuse to let his hand linger. “Only with you.”
Your brain short-circuits. You laugh it off, rolling your eyes. “You’re ridiculous.”
Behind you, Yelena raises both eyebrows and mouths, Oh my god.
The compound smells like heaven that evening.
You’re occupied in the kitchen, hair up, apron on while music is softly playing in the background. Steaks searing in the iron pan & vegetables roasting in the oven, while you quickly check on the saffron rice on the stove.
You taste a small spoon of the rice and nod your head in approval, knowing the team would love it. Cooking grounds you. Moving through the kitchen with ease makes this place feel like home.
A hand brushes your lower back. You only know one person stealthy enough to sneak up behind you.
“Smells good, doll.”
Bucky stands behind you, chest lightly pressed on your back as he peeks over your shoulder. He leans close enough that you feel the heat of his voice on your cheeks. Tempting you to almost lean back.
You try not to look at him. Breezy, cool on the front. Melting inside. “Hope you’re hungry.”
He pulls back and leans on the counter beside so he has a full view of you. The short cotton dress you’re wearing makes you look more homey, inviting thoughts of domestic life into Bucky’s brain. He crosses his arms and looks at you with a small smile, “I’m always hungry for your food.”
You try to ignore the way your heart flips. “I’m not serving you food unless you’ve showered.”
“It was quick. Didn’t want to miss you.” He says warmly
He says it only with a hint of teasing that it almost makes you pause. Almost. “Perhaps some distance will do us some good.”
“I would say more dangerous than good.”
Your eyebrows scrunch in confusion, “What does that mean?”
“Can’t be any more fonder of you than I already am.”
It doesn’t mean anything. A simple reminder to yourself, before you turn back to the shelf beside the stove, trying to grab a spice from the top.
Bucky doesn’t even ask, just simply takes his place behind you once more, hand bracing your waist as he easily grabs the jar from above your head. He keeps his hand on your waist while pushing the spice into your hand.
“Here,” he says softly, voice a little lower
You take it almost reluctantly. Not realizing you’d been holding your breath. This man was definitely determined to kill you.
You’re snapped into returning to the cooking when he finally releases you. He decides to give you space by sitting at the kitchen island, but contrary to what you claimed earlier, you’re not quite sure the distance was really doing any good in this situation.
Dinner is chaos in the best way.
Alexei continuously praises your steak, declaring it “better than any American restaurant” while John asks for seconds before finishing his first plate. Yelena is busy asking why you never opened your own place, which she does every time. Bob makes a dad-joke about the saffron being “worth its weight in gold,” and Ava offers to do dishes as she requests you make paella again next week.
Bucky doesn’t say much, only looks at you the whole time.
He finally speaks when dinner has wrapped up. He asks if you want help in the kitchen. You don’t see it but Yelena has signaled the team to leave when she overhears this. John smirks at the meddling.
You stand side by side at the sink. Bucky washing the dishes and you drying it.
“Thanks for cooking. I would say it’s delicious, but I think having no leftover already signals that” he says.
You smile. “It’s nothing. I like feeding you guys.”
“You don’t have to do it all the time.”
“I want to. Feeding people is... comforting.” You pause, then tease, “Unless you’re offering to cook next time.”
“Only if you want me to burn pasta and set off the fire alarm.”
You laugh, shaking your head. “Hard pass.”
He likes the way your eyes light up when you laugh. He’s so gone.
There’s a bit of pause when you decide to ask, “Bucky, you date a lot?”
Bucky blinks in surprise, “What?”
You shrug, focusing on piling the plates back in the cabinet. “Just curious. You seem like... the type who does well. You know.”
He’s quiet for a beat. “Why do you think that?”
“You flirt with everyone. You’ve got the arms. The eyes. The mysterious brooding past.”
His tone shifts, softer. “Y/N.”
You look over, taken aback by the seriousness painted on his face.
He simply says, “I don’t flirt with everyone.”
Your breath catches, unsure of what to make of his response. He’s still watching you and there’s palpable tension.
Yelena’s voice breaks the moment as she calls from the hall: “When are you two gonna fuck already?”
As Above, So Below I Chapter 1- I'll Tell You Everything is Copacetic
Synopsis: Two attendings, one new psychologist working both the day and night shifts on a rotation. You could have sworn you heard both of them call “dibs,” and you’re more than willing to entertain the both of them.
Pairing: Michael "Robby" Robinavitch x Fem!Reader and Jack Abbot x Fem!Reader
Word count: 2.1K
Warnings: Talk of mental illness and other psychological things, violence, dark humor, and some smut along the way :)
A/N: I couldn’t decide between Robby and Abbot, so I present you with BOTH.
Tag list is open, Part 2 coming soon
As Above, So Below. "Quod est superius est sicut quod inferius, et quod inferius est sicut quod est superius." -- That which is above is like to that which is below, and that which is below is like to that which is above.
It based on the notion of Hermeticism; the idea that God was a magician.
The religious and philosophical idea that the universe is broken into the Macrocosm (the universe), and the microcosm (the individual).
That which is above, corresponds to that which is below in order to accomplish the miracle of one thing. In simplest terms—whatever happens in the spiritual world, also happens in the physical world, and vice versa.
Your spiritual and physical world existed on two equal and opposite sides; day shift and night shift.
Two very different shifts.
Two very different paces, senses of humor, and inside jokes
Two very different attending doctors.
And you were vying for the attention of both of them.
Part 1: I'll Tell You Everything is Copacetic
The promotion from the career you had grown comfortable, came unexpectedly and as the result of a physical altercation with a patient. You, the staff psychologist at a maximum-security prison, had come face-to-face with a makeshift weapon during a routine therapy session. The irony, which had not been lost on you, had been that your patient had been so worried that he’d never get out of prison, he had no insight into the fact that stabbing someone in the back with a sharpened toothbrush, would surely end in those exact consequences. He was one of your favorite patients. It was a real “Et tu, Brute” type of moment, both figuratively and literally.
The thing they don't tell you about being stabbed in prison, is that the threat needs to be cleared before life-saving measures can be started. There you were, on the ground, bleeding from a stab wound that barely missed your spinal cord, waiting for EMS to arrive, while you almost choked to death on the pepper spray canister that had been deployed by security as they watched on in horror. The other thing they don't tell you about being stabbed in prison, is how motherfucking painful it is and how that trauma will likely linger long after the pain.
Leaving that job wasn’t a suggestion as much as it was a directive. You were medically cleared after 12 weeks, but the optics of the entire situation made it difficult for management to move forward without shouldering most of blame. The split was mostly amicable; they wouldn’t have to feel any guilt about a weapon making its way all the way to your therapy session, and you’d never have to wear khaki cargo pants and a "stab vest" again that clearly was just for show.
You applied for the job of Chief Psychologist at Pittsburgh Trauma Medical Center as soon as it popped up on your archaic Linkedin profile, and got the job the following week. The long-waited return to your hometown and all of the skeleton's in your childhood home's closet. The emergency room didn’t exactly sound like a soothing retreat for the recently stabbed, but it did promise the perfect distraction – 12-hour shifts, vacillating between days and nights, and no time to think about all of the things that had happened up to this. And, as a cherry on top, you’d be the first in this position, a long-awaited overhaul of PTMC only relying on psychiatry and social work for their mental health needs. To have someone on-site, in the emergency room, was PTMC's big wet dream; and you were happy to give them that happy ending.
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Your shift starts at 7am and you take the long way to work to clear your head. The city you once called home has hardly changed, but the feeling of being back was heavier than you expected.
Your phone dings, a familiar face and name.
Dana: Hey kid, come find me at the nurse's station when you get here. you're gonna fit right in
Your physical therapist told you to take it slow, and walking was about as much as you could handle still 12 weeks post-injury. The pain shot down your back from your shoulder blade to your hip, a lingering limp still evident. The scar was "gnarly" according to your best friend, but you had been too afraid to look. PTMC sat at the top of the delightfully named "cardiac hill" -- One of the steepest hills in the city, home to several of the best hospitals in Pittsburgh and the University of Pittsburgh campus. According to local legend, more heart attacks happened here than any other place in Pittsburgh.
Your injury forced you to relocate with the distance in mind, but you weren't exactly thrilled to be sharing the sidewalk with undergraduate college students and their roller backpacks who barely look up from their phone. You were, however, thrilled to see one of the seven wonders of the world on your way to work-- Dunkin'.
America does run on Dunkin', and you know why? Because it's trash, and so is society. You don't walk into a calm environment of espresso machine and jazz music, surrounded by independent filmmakers discussing their film adaptations of David Foster Wallace like you would at a hipster coffee shop. Dunkin' welcomes you with bloodied open arms into a warzone. An absolutely unhinged battlefield, people screaming, the excitement of giving your order to someone who absolutely could not give a fuck. You let Dunkin' tell you what you need, and not for lack of trying. You give the order but they rarely listen. Today you walk out with a large iced mocha, with whipped cream, after ordering a large vanilla latte with oat milk. The universe just feels right, a little off its axis and sickenly sweet.
You walk through the double doors to the ER sliding in between two gurneys on their way to the ambulance bay and make your way to the nurses station, Dana waiting with open arms
"It has been far too long, my girl," Dana hugs you tightly, "and boy am I glad you are okay, and you are here. Your mom told me what happened, how you holding up"
"Almost recovered. You should see the other guy" you reply, "and you look great."
"Thanks kid," Dana smiles, her eyes shift to someone behind you "Oh captain, my captain."
"A patient?" You hear his voice before you see him, and when you turn around, it's hard to look away. He's all tall, dark, and handsome, a real father-figure vibe towering over you. Cargo pants, black scrub top, a fancy watch, a faded hoodie. This must be the place, and this guy definitely fucks. He must have clocked you the moment you walked in--looking like a lost puppy with a limp and a cup full of coffee. Of course he thinks you're a patient.
"My daughter's best friend, and your new psychologist," She corrects him, "This is Dr. Robby."
"Sorry, I saw you come in and were limping, just wanted to make sure you were okay," He nods, confirming that he did, in fact, notice you as soon as you walked in
"The limp is more of a talking point than a medical emergency, but I wouldn't say no to someone taking a look at it. I almost got laid out by an undergrad with a roller backpack on my way here." You smile, outstretching a hand, "I'm Y/N Wheeler, the new head of the psych department."
"Michael Robinavitch, but everyone calls me Robby," He shakes your hand, noticing the tattoo stretching from your wrist to your elbow and under the sleeve of your shirt. He instinctively tilts your arm to examine the ink, a thumb rubbing over your wrist softly, without even noticing he's doing it. Ooooph. You clear your throat and his eyes meet yours, face turning a deep shade of red.
"Don't worry, it definitely goes all the way to my shoulder. If you're good, I'll show it to you." You quip, maintaining eye contact until he looks away, "and yes, the nose ring is real too."
“Wheeler! I see you've met Robby" John Shen takes a step next to Robby, a matching Dunkin' cup in hand. He raises his glass to yours, knocking the two together, "Cheers, bitch. Never thought I'd see the day you moved back to Pittsburgh. Welcome to the thunderdome.”
Shen looks at Robby, “She's straight from the feds. You didn't see her on the news--”
You interrupt before he can divulge any gruesome details of the trauma to your new colleague, “He means that I was a psychologist at the federal detention center not that I was in prison. Although always keep your cards close to your chest."
"Sorry, You two know each other as well?" He raises his eyebrows as the dynamic playing out in front of him, "Jesus Pittsburgh really is small world."
"We met in grad school. Gave him therapy the whole way through residency” You reply, "taught him everything he knows about screaming internally while keeping a straight face."
"Ah" Robby nods, "That really does explain his shockingly chill demeanor."
“Oh great, you're all here." Gloria interrupts the conversation, coming up behind you in a pastel purple pantsuit. Over teams she seemed less, up tight. In person, she's all business in the front and even more business the back, "Our newest chief psychologist. We now have our own consult, and she's overseeing the entire department."
"Figured I could help the ol’ pill pushers up in psychiatry. And plus, these patients seem like a breeze compared to prison." You make a joke, trying to assess the humor of the group. Shen gets it, and laughs. Robby gets it, wants to laugh, but stuffs his hand in his pockets. Gloria doesn't get it at all.
"She’ll be spending her time between day and night shifts, the full 12 hours, so use her as an appropriate resource," she continues.
"You save 'em and I’ll keep them from jumping off the roof" You say quietly, nudging Robby with your elbow, a smile spreading across his face as Gloria turns around and heads off to whatever upper-management office she spawned from.
"So where did you go to school?" Robby asks, hoping your answer reveals something about your age.
"I went to Pitt for undergrad and then Drexel for graduate school. Did my internship, post-doc, and forensic fellowship with the feds" You nod, "we had an infirmary unit, which closely resembled a hospital, but more security forward than anything. I'm board certified in forensics, but my internship focused mostly on neuropsychology."
"Don't take this the wrong way, but fuck am I glad they hired someone like you." He responds, rubbing a hand over his neck,"Hell, some of us could probably use an evaluation."
"I'm excited to be here, but I'm definitely going to have to learn the sense of humors around here. I'm pretty fucked up from the prison, i don't have a great filter, but i work hard and I care about my patients."
He stops walking and turns to face you, "you'll fit in great. So why did you leave the feds?"
"Honestly, I was tired of getting pissed on." The way you say it, so matter-of-factly, with the ability to maintain a serious expression causes Robby to snort. It catches him off guard, a genuine laugh erupting from his throat. He looks at you like he's not quite sure what to make of you yet, but his gaze lingers, a smirk on his face.
"Speaking of getting pissed on" another attending comes up behind you, shorter than Robby, but equally as handsome in a way that screams he's got his own trauma, “Kraken is in two if you’re into that sort of thing."
"Dr. Abbot" Dr. Robby shoots him a look like he's trying to corral his kid. These two know each other. Maybe not biblically, but you know they've definitely cried in front of each other. Something you wouldn't be opposed to seeing.
"Who is the kraken? And do I look like I’m into that sort of thing?" He wasn't expecting you to shoot the same level of bullshit back to him,even as a shit-eating grin appears on his face.
"Never met a nose ring that wasn’t," He shrugs
"A little early for kink shaming, Jack, "Shen interjects, unable to help himself.
"Can't wait to see what my tattoos suggest" you raise an eyebrow
"Sorry, Do you two know each other too?" You can't tell if Robby's annoyed with him or the conversation, but Abbot ignores him.
"Military?"
"Feds."
He nods his head in approval, narrowing his eyes like he's trying to figure out if you're worth his time, "You on nights?"
"Next week. Running a support group on how to dive off the roof and land on your feet at 1am." You don't miss a beat.
"Right up my alley" Abbot responds, "you're going to be trouble."
You catch the look between Robby and Abbot, something unspoken. For a second, you could have sworn they were calling dibs.
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[Series Masterlist]
Pairing: Dr. Michael “Robby” Robinavitch x F!SeniorResident!Reader
Summary: Your authority is tested by a cocky fourth-year med student who mistakes the ER for his personal playground.
Word Count: 1.3 K
Content Warning: Medical procedures, blood, will most likely be medically inaccurate at times, unresolved tension.
By 1:14 p.m., the ER had the brittle, caffeinated energy of early afternoon. The trauma bay had been turned over twice, a stroke alert rerouted to neuro, and the stack of charts on your tablet had reached an aggressive number. Your hair was falling out of its clip. Your lunch remained unopened in the lounge fridge. And your intern was flirting with a nurse during rounds.
James Whitmore was a fourth-year med student on rotation, assigned to shadow you for the next four weeks. Technically still a student, practically a problem. He had the kind of polished smile that belonged on an alumni magazine cover and the overconfidence of someone who had never been truly scared in a code room. You could already feel it, that subtle entitlement, the lack of preparation, the empty glances when you gave instructions.
You had tried, the first two hours. Gently redirecting. Clarifying. Giving him room to prove he was more than charm and an upward trajectory. But he was more interested in chatting up the new ED nurse than examining his patient. More concerned with what you were doing later than documenting the rhythm strip you’d asked for.
“You know,” he said now, grinning like this was a meet-cute and not an ICU board, “you don’t look like someone who leads a trauma team. No offense.”
You didn’t answer. You didn’t even look up.
Instead, you clicked through labs on the tablet and murmured, “ABG’s back. Go interpret it. Present to me in five.”
He lingered. “You always this serious, Dr. Sheridan?”
You finally met his eyes.
“Only when someone’s dying,” you said coldly. “Which is usually.”
He gave a half-laugh, unsure if it was a joke. You didn’t clarify. You moved past him and toward Bed 6, where a patient was vomiting blood into a basin while her mother cried softly in the corner. Your pulse recalibrated, not with nerves, but with necessity. You could be tired later.
Whitmore followed, his stethoscope still around his neck like a fashion statement, it was getting harder for you to not roll your eyes.
Later, as you updated notes in the hub, you caught a glimpse of him across the hall, leaned too casually against the counter near two of his intern friends. You weren’t listening. Not at first. But you felt it, a shift in the room. Dana stiffening behind the desk. A nurse's eyes narrowing. The slight drop in temperature that meant someone had said something wrong.
Across the floor, by the medication station, Robby was finishing up notes on a post-code debrief when he caught Whitmore’s voice, low and smirking, drifting toward the central hub.
“…yeah, she’s cute in that mean, icy way. You know, a challenge. I give it three shifts before she cracks. Bet she’s crazy once you get her to—"
He didn’t finish. Someone coughed, startled. A tech turned sharply. Robby’s hand paused mid-scroll over his tablet.
He blinked once. Then turned.
He was forty feet away, but he could already feel it like a fissure in the tile beneath them, the cold fury in your eyes, the way you were walking toward Whitmore with the unhurried precision of someone who had not yet decided whether to destroy a person publicly or in private. Your hands were calm. Your shoulders square. You didn’t yell.
You didn’t need to.
“Mr. Whitmore,” you said, voice flat as steel. “Step into the staff lounge. Now.”
The kid hesitated.
Wrong move.
Robby watched you disappear behind the door. Watched the team shift around the hub in respectful silence. No one said a word. Even the printers seemed quieter.
You closed the door behind you.
Then, still calm, still composed, you turned to your intern.
“I don’t know what kind of rotations you’ve done before,” you began, your voice quiet but sharp as frost. “But I am not here for your amusement. I’m not here to play games with you, or compete with your insecurities, or make your ego feel bigger when you get bored during rounds.”
He opened his mouth.
You raised a hand. He stopped.
“You are in an Emergency Department. You are a guest in my house, and if you can’t show basic respect to your patients or to your senior, then you can leave now. I’ll sign the damn form. But what you will not do is treat this place, or the people in it, like a frat party you wandered into by mistake.”
His face changed then. A flush of something like embarrassment, something like shock. You didn’t care which.
“I suggest,” you continued, eyes not wavering from his, “that you get with the program. Fast.”
He swallowed. “Yes, Dr. Sheridan.”
You nodded once. “Good. You’re on labs until further notice.”
You opened the door for him to leave, only to find Robby there, leaned casually against the wall, arms crossed. His eyes flicked between you and Whitmore, unreadable.
The student mumbled something, not quite an apology, not quite coherent, and headed toward the lab station like a dog with its tail tucked.
You didn’t speak. You moved to close the door again and turn back toward the lounge room. He waited a beat, then two. Long enough to give the illusion of space. Long enough not to look like he’d been watching. Then he followed.
He knocked once on the edge of the lounge door before stepping in. You stood by the sink, filling a cup with water, back turned. Your grip on the plastic rim was too tight.
"You handled that well," he said quietly.
You didn’t turn around. “Thanks.”
A pause. You took a sip, then set the cup down, your shoulders rigid.
Robby moved to stand beside you, leaving a careful amount of space between them. The hum of the fridge filled the silence.
“He won’t do it again,” you said, eyes fixed on the sink.
“I know,” he said. “Not if he values his career.”
You gave a short, humorless exhale, not quite a laugh.
He glanced at you, then away. “You okay?”
Another pause.
Then you nodded, still not looking at him. “Yeah. Just annoyed.”
“Okay,” he said. “But if that changes…”
You looked at him for a long moment. Then offered the faintest curve of your mouth, not a smile, but something close. Gratitude maybe. Recognition.
“Thanks, Dr. Robinavitch.”
He gave her a smile in return. “Anytime, Sher.”
And with that, he stepped out, leaving the door open behind him. Just a crack.
Enough for her to breathe.
Whitmore was alone at the lab station when Robby found him. Still cocky, despite it all. The kind of cocky that didn’t learn until the lesson was painful.
Robby approached quietly.
“You got a minute, Mr. Whitmore?”
The kid turned, startled, then nodded. “Yes, Dr. Robinavitch.”
Robby didn’t raise his voice. He didn’t even look angry. That was the worst part.
He just stepped closer, lowered his voice, and said, “You ever speak about Dr. Sheridan like that again, and I will personally end your chances of matching into anything but urgent care in rural Alaska. Are we clear?”
Whitmore blanched. “Sir, I didn’t—”
“You did,” Robby said, cool and clinical. “And I suggest you use your remaining days here wisely. Listen. Learn. Show some respect. Because you’re not the smartest man in this room. And you sure as hell aren’t the toughest.”
Whitmore swallowed. “Understood.”
“Good.” Robby offered him a smile that wasn’t really a smile. “Now go run the troponins.”
Robby didn’t move for a while. Just stood there, hands in his pockets, watching the chaos of the ER reassemble itself. His gaze flicked to the patient board. To the rooms. Then, finally, back to you.
You were at the end of the hallway now, instructing a nurse, your voice steady again. Calm. Efficient. But he could see it in the way your fingers tapped against the tablet. The way your jaw stayed locked.
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Two chapters in one day!
I couldn’t help myself bahhahah I needed y’all to read this one. My toxic trait is buying the people I love presents and needing to tell them what it is or I’ll explode.
I told myself I was going to pace myself but all chapters are sitting in my queue tempting me.
pairing: Michael Robinavitch x Senior Resident!Reader
wordcount: 3.3k
warnings: mentions of cheating, age gap (late 20s and late 40s), brief mention of human trafficking (suspected in a patient)
synopsis: after over a year of pining over Robby, reader gets into a relationship to try and get over him, and gets cheated on. Robby (after putting up with a snippy reader) comes to the rescue
masterlist
!! not proofread so apologies for any mistakes !!
5:34 am
An hour on the treadmill this morning and the loudest, grittiest metal playlist you could find had done nothing to burn away the pure vitriol coursing through your veins.
Eight months of your life now wasted with one of the stupidest men on earth just so you could find him screwing a med student in your apartment. It hadn’t even been the act of catching them that had hurt the most, no, it was the fact that you hadn’t had a chance to break-up with the asshole before he’d screwed you over.
Embarrassment and rage were working double time to keep the fire burning in your chest even as you stepped through the doors of the ED. Your home, your sanctuary, now tainted by your thoughts about the fact that you’d been cheated on by a plastic surgeon.
Dana knew something had happened the moment she’d spotted you walking through the waiting room, back a day early from holiday and almost an hour before your shift, had you even been working, would’ve started.
“You look like you’re about to bring the wrath of God down on this place, kid.” Dana teased, but there glint of concern in her eyes.
“I don’t even have the words right now.” You leaned against the front of her desk, gripping the counter so hard you were sure it would leave marks.
“Let's start with why you’re back a day early from the break you desperately needed.”
That simple sentence sent another wave of wrath through your body.
“I’m well aware I needed the break, and it was fantastic until I came home last night to find my boyfriend screwing one of his med students in my bed.” You spit out the last part in a harsh whisper, careful to not let the elderly patient being wheeled by hear you.
“You’re fucking kidding me.” Dana’s mouth was agape.
“I save lives for a living, Dana. I’ve lost count of the number of patients I've treated.” You ranted, running your hand down your face in exasperation. “I have manually pumped a human heart with my own hand, and he pumps implants into trophy wives… and he cheated on me.”
“Woah, woah, you got cheated on?” Ellis had somehow, despite having a usually recognisable gait, snuck up on you, her brows furrowed in concern and anger.
You let your head fall against your folded arms, letting out a groan as you heard Dana chuckle. Ellis’ hand rested on the middle of your back, comforting and familiar.
“Is this that asshole you met at the conference Gloria sent you to?”
You let out another groan at the memory. Gloria had insisted someone from the ED attend a conference on the modernization of emergency medicine (read: how to prioritize money over patient care). Robby, Gloria’s favourite man to torment, had been the obvious choice. He was an attending, pretty much the face of the ED at this point. And you, an ex-nightshift senior resident, not enough of a people person to be sent to a conference meant for networking, were completely powerless against the look in his unbelievably sad brown eyes when he’d complained to you about it over coffee, and offered to take his place.
It had been miserable, a weekend filled with board members who had never set foot in an ED telling you, an actual doctor, how you should be doing your job. Coping came in the form of multiple glasses of whiskey in the hotel bar, and that was when you met Preston. Overly charming, a little slimy, even, but he was there, sitting in front of you, and the man you wanted was not.
He’d wooed you, paid for your drinks, commiserated with you over how stupid this conference had been, asked to take you out to dinner when you both got back to Pittsburgh, and you’d agreed. An obvious mistake, but hindsight is always 20/20.
“The very same.” You nodded, peeking out from beneath your arms.
Ellis scoffed, shaking her head in disbelief. “Who was that guy anyway? You never talked about him.”
A fact you were very grateful for at this moment.
“He was a plastic surgeon at Presby.” You explained, wincing as the words left your mouth. “I caught him with one of his med students last night.”
“Of course you did, he was a plastic surgeon.”
You shot Ellis a glare.
“Okay, sorry.” She relented, raising her hands in surrender. “Not the time.”
“Not the time for what?” Abbott, the newest member to your pity party, questioned, regarding the three of you with a suspicious glance.
“Not the time to keep digging into my personal life.” You recovered quickly, halting any attempts from Dana or Ellis to spill your problems. “Got a case for me?”
Abbott frowned, but pointed at the board above you. “Got a girl in central fourteen who needs pain management for endometriosis.”
“I’ll head there now.”
You pushed away from the central counter with a soft smile from Dana. Abbott tracked you across the room with his gaze, not unusual, but you knew he wasn’t going to let what he’d seen at the front desk go easily.
As predicted, once you’d set your bag down at your desk Abbott had appeared at your side, his head slightly tilted as he tried to catch your eyes.
“You okay?”
Abbott was your oldest, if not your closest, friend since you’d started at the ED. you’d done your first three years of residency with him before switching to the day shift. According to Robby, he still called you his best resident. It’s not exactly a false statement. During the massacre that had been pitfest, the two of you had fallen back into your old rhythm, moving like a well oiled machine even after a year apart.
“I’m fine. Just had a rough start to the day.” You forced a smile that in no way convinced Abbot.
“You wanna go get some air before you start?” He offered, a knowing look on his face.
Abbott had introduced you to his ‘special spot’ after you’d lost your first patient. You never crossed the railing, not like he did, but you had found there to be something humanising about watching the sun set over the city.
“I’m good, I promise.” You assured, giving his shoulder a quick squeeze. “Just need to get in the groove.”
“If you change your mind you know where I’ll be. Sunrise is looking real nice this morning.” Abbott raised his brows at you, nodding towards the door to try and lure you away.
“Unlike you, I’m not a slacker.” You laughed, pushing at his shoulder. “Now leave me alone. I’m busy.”
“You don’t even have a patient yet.”
“Busy!”
7:22 am
Your first hour had passed by in a blur. You made your way through a patient needing pain management, road rash after a triathlon, botched boob job (not done by your ex, unfortunately), and an incredibly cute baby with an overcautious new mom before Robby had walked through the door.
He’d shown up in his usual uniform; dark cargos, scrub top with a clean white tee underneath, and his favourite hoodie with the sleeves pushed to his elbows. A simple outfit, yet somehow the most alluring thing you’d ever seen a man wear.
He’d taken a quick glance to the board, said a good morning to Dana, and taken the long way to the stairwell, sparing a quick glance into the room of your only current patient on his way. He and Abbot had created a small morning routine, meeting each other on the roof where they could debrief in private before descending to the chaos of the ED.
You envied that kind of relationship. You and Ellis had been close when you were still on night shift. The only two female residents on shift, commiserating over your dead social lives and keeping a tally of all the drunken patients who’d hit on you. She’d made work fun for you.
Collins, Landgon, and Samira weren’t bad company, they were honestly great, but shifting your entire work crew after three years had thrown you for a loop. They were all welcoming, but three years of working together had naturally formed bonds that unintentionally kept you on the outskirts, not as much anymore, but things had been lonely at the start.
Robby, however, had taken you in immediately. You’d spent years hearing stories about him from Abbott, reading the notes he left in your charts, hearing patients talk about how handsome the doctor from the shift before had been. He’d been intimidating at first, but it had only taken you your first shift to realise the two of you got on like a house on fire. Even Gloria had made a comment on it.
“Um, excuse me?” Whitaker’s voice brought you out of your reverie.
“Whitaker, good to see you.” You greeted, tapping into your computer to edit a chart. “How’re you doing?”
“Not too bad, a little tired.” He answered, shrugging his shoulders. “How are you?”
“I’m not doing too bad. Do you need me?”
Whitaker’s cheeks flushed at your phrasing. “Oh, um yes. A patient just came in with who she says is her aunt, but their dynamic’s a little… off.”
“Aunt’s answering questions for her? Patient checks in with the aunt before answering anything on her own? Both insist on not being separated?”
“Yeah, exactly that.”
You nodded. “And just to double check, the patient is above eighteen?”
“Yes, she’s twenty-six.”
That made you turn your head. “Okay, could just be a strange dynamic, but let's flag Kiara and I’ll come check it out.”
Whitaker led you to the patient, taking you straight past the stairwell Robby and Abbott had just emerged from.
Robby caught you by your shoulder, guiding you back so he could see your face. “You got a minute?”
You shook your head, pulling away from his touch. “Whitaker needs me for a possible case of trafficking. I’ll come find you after?”
His brows furrowed, his eyes searching your face for something you couldn’t figure out, but he nodded.
“Sure.”
8:07 am
“Hey, you still need me?”
Robby sat reclined at your desk, his glasses sitting low on the bridge of his nose as he read over a chart.
“How’d things turn out with Whitaker’s patient?” He asked, peering at you over the rims of his glasses.
God, you loved it when he did that, but your moment of enjoyment cut itself short for professionalism.
“It was a good catch on his part. We put the girl in a private room under the guise of a pelvic exam and Kiara is with her now.”
“Nicely done. Keep me updated when you learn any new information.”
“Yes, sir.” You nodded, rocking back and forth on the balls of your feet. “Did you need me for anything else, or…”
“Abbott mentioned that you seemed a little bit off this morning. Came in a day early, at five in the morning no less.”
“Rat.” You muttered under your breath. You should’ve known that Jack would say something. “I’m fine, just caught a case of cabin fever. ‘M not used to having so much time off, just needed to get into the groove of things again.”
Robby nodded, but you could tell immediately that he hadn’t fallen for the lie.
“Okay, just remember I’m around if you need me.”
“Of course.”
11:48 am
Robby should’ve been focusing on his patients, focusing on the med students he had been tasked with teaching, but each time you crossed his path he couldn’t help but take a moment to admire you.
He could still remember the first shift he’d ever worked with you.
You were Abbot’s best resident, the nurse's favourite doctor (donuts and coffee every Sunday had secured you that position.), and despite being an R3, the two of you had never crossed paths.
Sure, he’d seen glimpses of you from across the ER, read the sticky notes you left scattered around your desk, had a million and one patients ask for the ‘charismatic, young doctor’ from the night before.
After almost three years of unsatiated curiosity, Robby had made peace with the fact that you’d become nothing more than an urban legend in his life. That was until a year ago when Abbott had needed him to cover a night shift, something to do with the wedding of an old friend he’d served with.
You’d greeted him with a smile and a fresh cup of coffee, shook his hand, and told him Abbot talked about him so much you felt like you already knew him. Robby had repeated the sentiment and tried to match your smile, but he was slightly too aware of just how soft your hand felt against his.
It had taken him less than an hour to realise why Abbot liked you so much. You were incredible at your job, even better with the patients, and the moment an urgent trauma had crossed the doors of the ambulance bay, you transformed. Warmth had quickly been traded for brutal efficiency. Your every move was clean, smooth, practiced to perfection.
Robby had been hooked on you by the end of the shift.
He hadn’t made a move on you. Even after only an hour he’d known you were miles out of his league, not to mention that the gap in age hadn’t been anything to blink at. He’d been sure you’d have no interest.
He’d clearly been wrong.
The shift had ended without incident, only a few immediate cases had come through the ambulance bay, but other than that it had been the victims of drunken brawls, sick kids, and elderly people falling in the dark.
You’d stopped him outside, laid a hand on his arm, offered him the sweetest smile he’d ever seen and told him how much you’d loved having him on this shift, and made him promise to say hello when your shifts crossed paths. It hadn’t been a declaration of love, but it had opened a new door.
He’d spent the next few weeks clocking in just a few minutes earlier, catching you just as you crossed the threshold back into the outside world. Robby would flirt (in his own way), and you’d flirt back. It had been a good start to his mornings, made him feel a bit younger, put a new pep in his step.
After a particularly long day, he’d found himself up on the roof with Abbott, staring out at the city looking for a reason to keep going, and Jack, as if he’d read his mind, had dropped the bomb that you were switching to the day shift. He hadn’t specified why, had just accused Robby of stealing his best resident. That simple sentence had kept him fueled for the next week.
The true nail in his coffin had been almost a year ago. You’d fallen on the sword for him, taken his spot at yet another ridiculous conference Gloria had insisted someone from the ED attend. That had been the moment he knew he was falling in love with you. And he fell fast.
He’d spent the entire week you were gone thinking about you, planning the best way to ask you out for dinner without forcing you into a corner if he’d read the signals wrong. And then you came back, exasperated by the amount of ridiculousness you’d put up with over the last week, as happy to see him as he’d hoped, but with a dinner date for a week ahead locked in your calendar.
You were incredible, he couldn’t blame another man for noticing, he’d just wished he’d noticed sooner.
Robby had spent the next eight months watching parts of you slowly fade away. Your smile lost its usual sparkle, your hair didn’t shine under the fluorescent lights the same way it used to. He had asked you about it, pressed you for details on more than one occasion to no avail. You always seemed to be carrying a weight on your shoulders, until this morning.
Even without Abbott’s words bouncing in his head, he could tell something in you had changed. Your eyes looked tired, shadowed by bags under your eyes, but that weight he’d noticed had finally seemed to leave your shoulders. Even with your exhaustion (and snappy attitude), you seemed lighter, happier than he’d seen you in months.
He knew he’d get the information out of you eventually, but for the time being he was just glad to see your true smile again.
7:21 pm
One death, four close calls, and one too many idiot patients later, You found yourself on the cool bench across from the hospital, beer in hand as you laughed with your coworkers. Robby sat next to you, as usual, a serene look on his face as he watched Perlah and Princess argue semantics about an old patient.
As the calm night washed over you, the guilt of snapping at Robby finally settled in your stomach. It hadn’t been fair of you, it wasn’t his fault your ex had turned out to be a piece of shit. A cruel part of you had still blamed him though, thinking that if he’d acted on the feelings you hoped he had for you, you wouldn’t have had to put up with subpar treatment for eight months.
One by one your coworkers headed home, wishing you a good rest of your night and promising to see you again in the morning. Before you knew it, only you and Robby were left in the comfortable silence.
“I’m sorry I snapped at you today.” You spoke softly, picking at the tab of your beer can. “I took out my anger on you and it wasn’t fair.”
“Thank you.” Robby nodded. “Do you want to tell me about it?”
You let out an exasperated sigh. “Do you remember that guy I’ve been seeing?”
Robby nodded again, a small frown furrowing between his brows.
“I found him in bed with one of his med students last night.”
Robby let out a heavy sigh, his head shaking slightly as he looked down at his shoes. “That is…”
“Yeah.” You almost laughed. He didn’t even need to speak for you to know what he would’ve said.
A moment passed before he spoke again. “You don’t deserve to be treated that way, I’m sorry.”
“I’m not.” You let the laugh escape you this time. “He was an absolute asshole.”
Robby laughed with you. “I didn’t know much about the guy, but what I did know, I didn’t like.”
That shot a strange feeling up your spine.
“Wanna know the worst bit?” You asked, pushing down the feeling.
“Of course.”
“I was more upset about the fact that I didn’t get to break up with him first than I actually was about the cheating.”
He laughed, a true deep laugh, the kind you heard rarely but loved.
“You shouldn’t have to put up with that shit.” Robby lectured, resting a hand on your knee where it almost brushed his. “As cliche as it sounds, it’s worth waiting for someone who you know will treat you right.”
“Someone like you?” You questioned, suddenly emboldened by the alcohol coursing through your veins.
Robby paused, his eyes flitting from your eyes to your lips for a split second. “I’m not sure I’m the man you want.”
“I know you are, Robby.”
His calloused hand moved to rest against your face, his thumb tracing over the ridge of your cheek. In the subtle glow of the park lights you could perfectly see his features, those gentle brown eyes you could never seem to forget. You leaned in, brushing your nose against his in a quiet invitation.
The feeling of his lips against yours had been more perfect than you’d imagined. They were slightly chapped, warm, and just right. His beard scratched against your cheeks in a way that made your thighs ache.
He pulled away after one kiss, ever the gentlemen, and rested his forehead against yours.
“Let me take you back to my place.” He begged, brushing a quick kiss against your cheek. “I’ll wash your clothes, walk you back to work in the morning.”
You struggled to bite back the smile on your lips. “Lead the way.”
pairing: Michael Robinavitch x Senior Resident!Reader
wordcount: 1.2k
warnings: age gap (late 20s and late 40s), sorta established relationship
synopsis: Robby misses you, but lucky for him, you just so happened to leave your keys on his desk after your shift last night (or, you come by to pick up your keys and Robby feels you up in the ambulance bay)
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!! not proofread so apologies for any mistakes !!
Are my keys on your desk?
It’s the first Robby actually hears from you all day.
You responded with nothing more than a thumbs up to his message this morning, sending a clear message that you did not plan to be very reachable today.
Robby knows exactly where your keys are. They’d been the first thing he’d noticed this morning, your clunky collection of keychains somehow strewn across his keyboard. He snaps a photo of them before texting you back.
*image attached*
These keys?
Your response is immediate.
Yes!!!
Are we horrendously crowded today or can I come grab them from you??
Robby ignores the way his chest clenches at the thought of seeing you, even if it’s just so you can get your keys.
Never too crowded for you
You thumbs down his message.
Kiss ass
See you soon :p
Robby smiles at his phone, the kind of smile only you seem to be able to pull from him, the kind that makes his cheeks ache. He tucks your keys into his pocket for safe measure, not just to keep them safe but to guarantee you can’t slip in and grab them when he’s not there to see you.
“What’s got you so smiley?”
Dana leans over the edge of his desk, not so subtly trying to peer at the screen of his phone. Robby is quick to lock his screen, dropping his phone back into the pocket of his cargos.
“Nothing you need to worry about.”
Not subtle at all.
“Lemme guess…” Dana gives him a knowing smile, tapping her finger on her chin in mock concentration. “Does it have something to do with a certain senior resident who is absent from our ED today?”
Bingo, but Robby keeps his features schooled, the epitome of professionalism. “Don’t you have work to be doing, or something?”
“Ooh, so touchy.” Dana laughs. “But since you asked, Myrna was looking for you.”
Robby groans, a little dramatic, but he could’ve gone at least another hour without hearing the words fruit cake. He clings to the knowledge that you’ll be walking through the doors of the ED within the next hour.
He’s in the middle of charting when Lupe buzzes you in, glasses sitting low on the bridge of his nose as he squints at the screen.
“You’re gonna get a headache if you keep doing that, old man.” Despite the tease, there's nothing but fondness in your tone.
Robby looks up, stunned by the sight of you looking so not doctor-like, so domestic.
Freshly washed hair pulled back, rogue strands falling out to frame your gorgeous face in a way that drives him absolutely crazy. A baggy hoodie hangs from your shoulders, an embroidered patch with the name of your school that’s fraying around the edges plastered on your chest. And Jesus Christ your shorts. He’d never seen you in them for obvious reasons, cut well above the mid-line of your thigh, showcasing a pair of legs so fantastic Robby’s sure he’ll be dreaming about them for weeks.
“Y’know the glasses are there to help you see, right?” You lean against the edge of the counter, propping your chin up on your elbow as you gaze at him with a smile that can only be described as smitten. “Not just to sit there and make you look pretty while you frown over them.”
“You’re really going to poke fun at the guy who’s holding on to your keys right now?” Robby asks, leaning forward so the two of you are only inches apart. “I might just hold onto them, make you sit around and wait till my shift’s over to get them back.”
You catch onto his ploy instantly. “You like me so much you can’t even spend one shift without me? I’m flattered, Robby.”
“You should be.” Abbott cuts in, tapping into the computer next to you to check a chart. “He mopes around like a kicked puppy when you’re not here.”
“A kicked puppy, huh?” You ask, turning to look at Robby with a glint in your eye that’s entirely too smug.
Robby shakes his head. “If you guys ever wondered why you’re not scheduled on the same shifts anymore, this is why.”
Abbott lets out a chuckle. “Whatever you say, fruitcake.”
He’s gone before Robby can get another word in.
“But on a serious note,” Robby focuses his attention back onto you. “Your shift been okay so far?”
He’s still not used to this, used to having someone who cares so much to hear what he has to say, what he’s feeling. Sure, Dana and Abbott had always offered him a shoulder, but with you it felt different, felt like you genuinely wanted to know every time, not like you were asking because you thought you should.
“It’s been good.” He answers, and the words feel honest for the first time in a long time. “As good as it can be with Myrna here, anyway.”
That pulls a laugh from you. “I ran into her in chairs, she told me my ‘ass looks tight in those shorts, cupcake’.”
From what he’s seen, Robby’s inclined to agree with her. “Let me walk you out, I’ll give you your keys outside.” He needs you to himself for a moment.
Your brows pinch for a second but you nod.
He follows you through the maze of desks and gurneys, lingering a few steps behind for a moment to get a proper look at you in those shorts. Yeah, Myrna was right.
By some stroke of luck the ambulance bay is currently unoccupied, and Robby takes full advantage of the privacy, pulling you against his chest with one swift tug. You laugh at him with a shake of your head, but your arms still wind around his neck. His hands find their home in the dip of your waist, savouring the heat that seeps through the fabric of your sweater.
“You sure you just brought me out here to give me my keys?” There’s a teasing tone in your voice, but Robby can see the way your eyes keep catching on his lips.
“Do you want me to just give you your keys?” He asks, leaning forward just enough for your noses to brush.
“... No.”
Robby feels you lift up onto your toes to press a kiss against his lips. It’s not chaste or quick, the type of kiss he should be having at work. No, there's an urgency in the way your lips move against his, the way your hips press against his.
He takes advantage of your eagerness and lets one of his hands fall from your waist, his fingers finding purchase in the skin of your thigh right where your shorts end. You let out a noise of surprise that only spurs him further, his tongue slipping into your mouth for a brief second before you’re forced to pull back.
“I can hear a siren…” You whisper against his lips, your chest slightly heaving. “Which means I should probably get out of here.”
Robby nods, pressing one more kiss against your lips before fishing your keys out of his pocket. “Wait for me at my apartment tonight?”
You grab your keys from his hand. “Definitely.”
With one last kiss, Robby watches as you wander back out into the streets of Pittsburgh, a pep in your step that you didn’t have a few moments ago. He bites back a smile, slipping back into the ER with a smile on his face right as an ambulance pulls into the bay.
Summary: While dr. Frank Langdon is away while seeking treatment for his drug addiction, you're plucked from the loving arms of the night shift in order to replace him inside the crushing jaws of the day shift in the Pitt. Being a nocturnal creature with a closed-off personality, it's hard to adjust at first, especially when you're no longer working alongside your mentor (and father figure of sorts), dr. Jack Abbot. However, you slowly start to grow on the day shift's attending doctor, and it's up to Robby if he'll stay away from you to protect his heart, or if he'll give in to something that's bigger than a workplace crush.
Tags: the pitt spoilers!!!, female reader-insert; jewish!reader (fyi: anyone can be jewish, and I'm planning to write the reader without any physical descriptions other than wearing glasses), age gap (reader's in her mid-20's/early 30s), slow burn, angst, fluff, eventual smut (minors do not interact), smoking, reader did not outgrow her goth phase, this is a shameless self-insert bc I cannot stop thinking about this old man and his sad brown eyes, not beta read (we die like leah)
wordcount: fuck me if I know but this is long
A/N: this will be a multi-chapter fic, although it will take me awhile to update it since college does not allow me to live, i.e i should be studying but here I am, writing fanfiction. hope you enjoy it!!
Apparently, being yelled at and being told to fuck off worked for Frank Langdon.
Because when Robby showed up for work after his last shift at 7 a.m, he was ambushed by Gloria and nearly dragged to a meeting between them and Langdon in her office (or the ivory tower, how Robby likes to call it: far from the masses and looking down on the lowly peasants).
Here's your second chance. 30-day inpatient treatment program, followed by random urine tests, 50 to 60 a year, followed by mandatory NA meetings three to four times a week for the first three years.
Robby had a hard time looking in Frank's eyes, but the resident knew that, in time, Michael would forgive him. He had to.
"And who's gonna cover for him while he's in the program?" Robby sighed before asking Gloria, one hand around his backpack strap, the other shoved inside the pocket of his hoodie.
"I've already asked doctor Abbot to assign one of his senior residents to the day shift for the next thirty days." Gloria answered him somewhat nonchalantly. "She'll be here within the hour."
"Great. If there's nothing else, I have to get to work." Robby looked at Gloria and Frank and decided in the last second not to be that cruel with Langdon, stopping in his tracks before turning to his senior resident.
With a huff and a nod, he added, "Frank. I... hope you get the help you need. You're a great doctor, and this is how you don't lose your license. Get better, and your work will be waiting here for you."
Langdon looked beyond exhausted. Ashamed, sad, embarrassed, if the bags under his eyes were any indication; a diametrically opposite look on the doctor who was used to be so sure of himself. He only nodded in response, not trusting his voice not to break down if he answered Robby.
"Gloria."
"Robinavitch."
The driest goodbyes were exchanged between the physician and the chief medical officer, and the elevator trip way down to the Pitt was a long one. Robby mentally counted the night shift ED staff.
Shen, Ellis, Abbot, Walsh... who the fuck was supposed to cover for Langdon?
-
The day before, 3:57pm
You felt like throwing your phone against the wall when your ringtone woke you up from the most glorious nap you've had in a long time.
"Leave me alone, old man," you sleepily answered Jack's call.
"Is that the way to talk to to your boss?", he reprimanded you, but you could hear his smile on the other side of the phone.
"What do you need, Jack? Want me to come earlier?" You rubbed the sleep off your eyes, stifling a yawn. Otherwise, Jack would tease you forever.
"Actually, you're gonna take the night off. I just left a meeting with Gloria, and she needs someone to cover for one of the day shift senior residents for the next month."
Abbot could hear your unsatisfied groan.
"And it's gotta be me? Can't Shen or Parker do it?"
"You've been putting off day shifts for far too long and you know it."
"Uhhh, have I?"
"Cute. I'll see you at seven a.m. tomorrow. Rest as much as you can."
"See you tomorrow, then. Have a not so bad shift, Jack."
He hung up the phone, and your lack of further questions did not surprise him. You were notoriously known to avoid drama in your workplace like it was the plague, even though you weren't exactly antisocial. You frequently hung out with Ellis and Shen, co-workers that you actually were friends with, and Jack was something of a father figure to you since your first year as a resident in the Pittsburgh Trauma Medical Hospital.
Just like him, you sported a no-nonsense workstyle, keeping your head down and doing the best you can. Abbot helped you overcome your insecurities as an ER physician, and you did not grow to be a cocky or arrogant doctor throughout the years he took you under his wing, even if you were aloof sometimes. Jack saw in you that cold precision he valued so much, and it helped you shield your mind and spirit from the devastating effects of working in an emergency room.
However, not everyone shared the same opinion as Jack regarding you. Being so closed-off compared to what's expected of a person on a team that worked so closely together, some people saw you as distant and unapproachable.
But frankly? It didn't bother you at all. You maintained a mildly decent work-life balance by embracing the "icy" persona, and while wearing nothing but black clothes and thick eyeliner on your natural resting bitch-face, you were bound to be labeled as unpleasant. But you knew that the people who mattered to you didn't think of you like that. And absolutely no one could say you were rude or impolite.
Just... professional.
You rolled over to the other side of your bed with another groan, and set the alarm on your phone for 5 a.m instead of 5 p.m.
God, tomorrow would be such a fucking bitch of a day.
-
You felt like you were jet-lagged by the time you got to the Pitt. With your usual half-empty iced latte from Dunkin' Donuts in hand, you entered your workplace knowing your circadian cicle would descend its heavenly revenge on you after working the graveyard shift for almost a year, your AirPods blaring only God knows what in order to keep you awake.
You thought it was Black Sabbath, but couldn't know for sure.
Before greeting Jack, you made a beeline to the doctor's lounge and hid a couple of Red Bull cans in the back of the refrigerator, with your name labeled on them for good measure.
You barely made it to the nurses' station before being loudly surrounded by Parker and John.
"What the fuck happened to you?"
"We thought you were dead, man! Why didn't you answer the group chat?"
You cringed slightly at their approach, still half asleep, and turned off your AirPods before putting them away inside your pockets.
"I know. Abbot hates me and in order to prove it, he's demoting me to the day shift for a month", you said half-heartdly while replacing your sunglasses with your usual glasses.
"So you're the one covering for Langdon, huh?"
"Langdon?"
You made a face and your co-workers looked at each other while shrugging, clearly dissatisfied with your habit of keeping yourself out of the loop. You mostly remember Frank from your first year as a resident, immediately disliking him due to his boastful and cocky nature.
You didn't like guys who knew they were handsome.
"I don't even wanna know."
Across the nurses' station, your loud trio got Jack's attention. From his perspective, it looked like you were a kid begrudgingly going to another school across the country and your friends were sadly saying their goodbyes.
With an eyebrow raised, Abbot nodded his face in your direction, and Robby followed Jack when he approached you. Shen and Ellis nodded to you in a silent way of saying "we'll catch up with you later" before leaving you with the senior attendings.
Robby almost introduced himself to you before recalling your face.
"You're doctor, uhh..."
You gave him your last name with a grin, raising an eyebrow while looking at Jack, who almost laughed at your discomfort. Robby looked a bit sheepish for not remembering you, but you answered him in a way that conveyed no hard feelings through your tone.
However, you would remember that face even if you didn't see him for a year.
Shit, he's more gorgeous than you thought.
You schooled your countenance to the best of your abilities before focusing on Jack.
"I'll deny to anyone that I've said this, but she's one of my best residents, Robby. Take good care of her, alright?", he lightly slapped your shoulder a couple of times before making his way to the exit, and you playfully squinted your eyes while looking at him, slightly embarrassed by Abbot's praise.
Robby surprisingly raised his eyebrows for a moment before crossing his arms, studying you for a second.
Black scrubs, black shoes, black backpack, black eyeliner.
You followed your mentor with your face in order to watch him take his leave, refusing to let Robby embarrass you any further with his curious gaze.
"Talk to you later, Jack."
He nodded with another barely hidden grin on his face, and you shot a glare at him.
You were fucked and he knew it.
You stared back at Robby for a moment before he shook his face, sighing.
"I don't have to show you around, do I?"
You exhaled through your nose, shaking your head no with a short smile.
"Not really, no."
"Great. We have about twenty five patients waiting on triage."
You nodded once more and headed to the locker room to put your backpack away and finally get ready to work the goddamn day shift.
-
Robby didn't see you until 10 a.m, after you discharged your fifth patient, a 7 year-old boy with a nasty cut on his eyebrow. The kid sweetly waved you goodbye while you walked towards the nurses' station, looking for your next patient. You heard Dana's voice before you saw her.
"Robby, MI coming up, ETA two minutes. Hey— I know who you are!", her tone shifted from alert to agreeable, smiling after recognizing you.
"Mrs. Evans," you replied with a smile, slightly shy.
"Where have you been, kid?"
"Working the night shift."
"For how long?", she walked towards you and gave you a quick hug, taking you in for a moment.
"A year. What happened to you?", you frowned after noticing her black eye, the bruise starting to fade.
"Just another satisfied customer."
"Please tell me you pressed charges...?"
"He's already in jail. C'mon, we gotta go." Robby interrupted your little reunion with a slightly impatient tone, and you gave Dana a nod before following him to the ambulance bay.
You didn't seem to take his demeanor at face value; didn't even have time to dwell on it while the ambulance rolled in.
"Donald Jones, 67, his son called 911 after he passed out in his home. Son said he's taking enalapril. Complained of chest pain, lost consciousness about two minutes ago. BP is 151/100 palp, heart rate's 115, sat's 93, we already started a line on him," the paramedics presented the patient while pushing the gurney inside the ER, squeezing the ambu bag attached to a facemask.
"Mister Jones, can you hear me?", you asked your patient and when he didn't answer, you rubbed your closed fist against his chest, frowning when he didn't complain. "Dana, what's free?"
"Trauma two!"
"Get Javadi and Santos, Dana," Robby requested while entering Trauma Two.
"On my count, one, two, three..."
The four of you raised the patient and placed him on the bed, and while you were listening to his heart and lungs with your stethoscope, another nurse slapped the electrodes on mr. Jones' chest. You quickly put on a gown and a pair of gloves before assessing his eyes with your pocket flashlight.
"Pupils are equal and reactive..."
"What do you want, doctor?"
"12-lead ECG, CBC, coagulation profile, potassium and sodium levels, CK and troponin too. I need an E-FAST, I can barely hear his heartbeat."
"What are you thinking?"
"Positive Kussmaul sign, patient's on ACE inhibitors. Pericardial effusion due to right heart failure."
"Very well. Javadi, you're up. Hold the probe while she teaches you how to perform a pericardiocentesis."
You frowned again after finally noticed two med students around you, one looking far too excited, and the other like a deer caught in headlights.
"Okay, I need a periocardiocentesis kit—"
"Lost his pulse, V-tach! Sats are dropping to eighty-nine, eighty-five..."
Everyone in the room looked at the heart monitor after Princess' warning, and you went for the intubation kit before anyone could hand it to you.
"Santos, start compressions. Princess, charge to 200," Robby calmly ordered his staff around him, arms crossed while closely watching your performance. You carefully inserted the laryngoscope inside your patient's mouth and looked for the cords, the endotracheal tube already in your opposite hand.
"I can't see the cords. Need some cricoid pressure, please."
Robby approached Donald and placed his fingers around his throat in a way that you could finally see your patient's vocal cords. You easily passed the ET tube and inflated its cuff with a syringe, pulling the guide wire.
"I'm in. Bag him."
"Sats are coming up... ninety, ninety-one..." Another nurse squeezed the ambu bag while you returned to Javadi's side. You pulled her towards you after hearing Robby's "Clear!", preventing the med student from getting a nasty shock.
"Sinus rhythm."
"Okay...", you said to yourself while opening the periocardiocentesis tray, switching your nitrile gloves for sterile ones so fast that even Robby was surprised. Princess quicky rubbed a gauze drenched in antiseptic before you placed the sterile drape over the patient's chest.
"Javadi, right?", you quickly looked to the youngest med student next to you before focusing on the ultrasound screen.
"Y-yeah!"
"Okay, I'm going to insert the needle below the xiphoid process, directed to the left shoulder. Do you see it?"
"Yeah, I do."
"Great. I'm in the pericardial space, now...", you started to fill the syringe with the excessive fluid around the patient's heart, and his parameters steadily started to drop into normalcy.
"Did you get that?", you asked Javadi with a small smile, finally allowing yourself to breathe once the monitors were beeping less frequently.
She nodded her head in response, way less wide-eyed than when she entered Trauma Two.
"Ten of morphine, forty of Lasix, 1 microgram of dobutamine per kilogram per minute, and page Cardiology, please."
The other med student finally spoke.
"That will always be a cool procedure."
You agreed, deeply inhaling through your nose in order to calm your own heart. You removed your sterile gloves and aimed them at the trash can, stepping aside so that the nurses could wrap up yo collective work.
"Med student too?"
"Intern, actually. Trinity Santos."
You shook her hand and introduced yourself to her, checking your patient's vitals once more with your stethoscope. While counting his heart rate, you remembered Jack mentioning to you over post-shift breakfast yesterday that an intern named Santos placed a REBOA on a patient without supervision after the PittFest mass-shooting.
"Heartbeat's better—"
"Cardiology will be here in thirty minutes."
Robby's voice almost scared you, the man finally saying something after staying on the sidelines watching you.
"That's fast," you sarcastically quipped, rubbing your arm against your slightly sweated forehead before readjusting your glasses on your face.
"Javadi, Santos, keep an eye on him. Let's see if his son is outside."
The two young women quickly replied to Robby while you left Trauma Two with him.
"Robby, this man's son is here." Dana informed your attending while he turned to you, acknowledging the nurse with his head.
"Good job back there."
"Thank you, doctor Robinavitch."
"You can—"
"Hey, is my dad okay?!", a younger version of your patient almost ran into you, and you were about to explain his dad's status to him before Robby cut you off.
"You dad most likely had a heart attack, but he's stable for now. We're waiting for Cardiology, and you'll be able to see him in a few minutes."
"Oh, thank God. Thank you so much, doctor."
"Excuse me, doctor Robinavitch."
"Uh, sure."
He eyed you warily for a moment while you made your way to the nurses' station, having a long sip from your water bottle. At first, you did seem aloof, but his own behavior didn't seem to faze you even a little bit: you weren't getting cocky over the praise, nor resentful for not taking credit for saving that man's life.
Michael crossed his arms, deep in thought. He could see why Abbot thought you were one of his best residents only a few hours into the shift. However, he wasn't ready to confess to himself that the way you carried yourself peaked his interest in a worrying manner.
That, and he should be ashamed of himself for ogling a young woman half his age like a creep.
"You kicked him in the shins or something?", Dana asked you while you were filing your last patient's chart.
"What?"
"Robby. He's staring at you like you kicked a puppy."
You looked over your shoulder and Robby suddenly made a beeline to another resident after hearing his name being called.
If you were a tad more arrogant, you would've thought he was staring at you.
"I think that's just his face," you dismissed her in your usual tone.
Dana stifled a laugh and focused again on the screen in front of her.
While Mel presented her patient, only one thought crossed Robby's mind.
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