just want to be thin

f/5'8"/hw:158lbs lw:118lbs sw:155lbs cw:118lbs gw1:140lbs gw2: 130lbs gw3: 120lbs ugw: 110lbs/depression/anxiety/ednos? (profile pic not me) NOT PRO ANA. THIS IS NOT A HEALTHY WAY OF WEIGHT LOSS, COPING, ETC.

[lost-with-serotonin]

You know you’re too fat when people know you aren’t eating properly yet they aren’t concerned.

[hungerhurtsbut-starving-works]

Man that hurts so bad.

[wantinghappiness]

my life is falling apart and i can’t see a future for myself anymore. i just want to be happy and have a purpose and belong in this world again

[lowcalvegana]

Vegan Hot Chocolate

• 1 cup unsweetened almond milk (30 calories)

• 1 tbsp cocoa powder (10 calories)

• 1 tbsp sugar (48 calories)

Total (88 calories)

You can add more or less cocoa powder/sugar depending on how rich/sweet you want it. Enjoy!

[wantinghappiness]

12/14/2018

I made it to 118! that means I'm officially underweight! I've lost almost 20lbs since July!

[thinisthins]

My mind: starving yourself will never be the answer because the moment you eat normally you gain 100 lbs and your bone structure won’t even allow you to look like thinspo and ur eating disorder is pushing away literally everyone u care about and it-

Me:

[featherless-dreams]

My ed: wow all you think about is food you fatass

Me: ikr it’s like I have an eating disorder or something

[wantinghappiness]

11/25/18 (tw: #s)

ahahaha thanksgiving weekend really got me.

I know I was eating well over 2000 calories on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. today, I bet I ate close to that but not over.

On Thuraday, I was 124.4lbs. On Friday, I weighed myself after lunch and still only weighed 123.5. On Saturday at the end of the day I weighed 125.5. All bad weights considering I weighed 120 a couple weeks ago.

I've sorta let myself go but have been calling it semi-recovery. It's frustrating and I don't like it. I get into this cycle of "it's okay, I'm 17. I'm a teenager I need to live my life like one" and I'll eat what I want with my friends, I'll go out with them no biggie and not care too much about the calories and all the food I'm eating. But then I'll get home and take my clothes off and feel disgusting. Then I'll restrict but then they want to hang out again. And all they want to do is spend money and eat.

My ED is mad at me too, because I used to restrict to under 800 calories (preferred under 500), but now I restrict to under 1000-1200 calories. It's still a very small amount of calories but I don't think it's small enough. MyFitnessPal says I'll lose about a pound a week but I'm like ehhh I want more.

I wish I could do low restriction again, but I keep making excuses. I have to eat something with a coffee in the morning or else I fall asleep in class. If I don't have a snack in 5th period I get too hungry. If I don't eat lunch I get tired in my last classes. If I don't eat a snack after school I can't do my homework. I have to eat dinner bc my mom pays attention to that. On and on and on.

but now that I think about it, I might be able to get away with a couple things. maybe I just don't eat my lunch and I save that for my after school snack? that's an easy 100-200 calories avoided right there. or maybe, since I usually bring two things in my lunch, I eat the easy one during 5th period, and the other one as my after school snack. I can even skip 5th period snack altogether! I'm usually the first one to the classroom, which is why I can eat there without panicking. But if I go to the bathroom during passing period, other people will be there and I won't be able to eat. that might work.

ugh. this is highkey disordered but fuck it.

I'll lose as much as I can before Christmas and over winter break. Depending on those results I'll try to lose more during January. If I'm satisfied, I might try to see what will happen if I eat normally for the new year. I'll make 2000 calorie meal plans and see what my weight does.

anyway, I'm sick of trying to make friends at my new school. everybody here sucks anyway. the one friend I thought I would really like is a selfish bitch. she was supposed to drive home this one girl we were hanging out with and she bailed on her just because she went ahead of us and opened the door for us while we were throwing things away. she claimed that we didn't wait for her after all she's done for us. we were literally right next to her still. the other girl was just being nice. she's manipulative. also I've driven her EVERYWHERE. the amount of gas I waste on her. and she wants me to pay for every meal because she says she'll eventually buy my food, but never does! and she's the one that actually has a job!!!!! and I try to talk to her and she never listens. never. she'll tell me the same story twice In a day bc she forgot she told me, but then will interrupt my stories because she just wants to bring the conversation back to her. she also treats me like I'm stupid and weak and an idiot bc I'm not as outgoing as her, but I actually do my homework and have decent grades in all my classes. she also tries to bash liberals for being stupid but I ask what makes them stupid and she can't come up with anything that makes sense or is correct? she says she's a republican and just knows democrats are stupid bc her dad says so. but she won't let me explain any political stuff to her either, like okay go off ig. not like I had to do research projects last year on all the issues you know nothing about or anything. SMH.

huge rant but I needed it.

[anasuckstho]

Supersize vs. Superskinny

Announcer: Tasha is over 2 stone underweight, and her childlike portions go to show it; Tasha only eats-*

My brain: don’t say it

My brain: don’t say it

My brain: don’t say it

My brain: don’t say it

My brain: don’t say it

My brain: don’t say it

My brain: don’t say it

My brain: don’t say it

Announcer: 1650 CaLOriES a DAy

[sincerelywastingaway]

✨The In Bed Workout✨

•100 crunches

•30 side leg lifts (right side)

•30 side leg lifts (left side)

•50 bicycle crunches

•20 leg spinners (clockwise)

•20 leg spinners (counter clockwise)

•5 min. of peddlers

•25 crunches

•10 side leg lifts (right side)

•10 side leg lifts (left side)

[wannabe-alice2]

~ LOW CAL | Snack Ideas ~

Snacking is a fun habit that is hard to break, Although many people say it’s nessecary to lose weight, it isn’t the only way. How about you find healthy alternatives with less calories instead of completly avoiding snacks! Here is a list of a few low calorie snacks that you can have while watching your favourite show or enjoying time with friends! ♥

Sweets:

Frozen Yogurt Bits | 66 calories per piece

Fruity Popsicles | 25-50 calories per piece | Vegan

Lemon Quark | 90 calories

Cereal Drink | 125 calories

Mug Cake | 45 calories

Apple Blueberry Muffins | 50 calories per muffin

Oatmeal cookies | 21 calories per cookie

Fried Honey Banana Apples | 190 calories

Cloud Cake | 300 calories for the whole cake

Berry Sorbet | 135 calories

Chia Pudding | 50 calories

Frozen Berries | <50 calories | Vegan

Fruit Salads | 50-150 calories | Vegan

Savory:

Pizza Alternatives | 100-350 calories

Pizza Muffins | 41 calories per muffin

Baby Chips | 117 calories | Vegan

Cauliflower Popcorn | 70 calories | Vegan

Miso Soup | 201 calories

Cheese Soup | 115 calories

Mini Quiche | 55 calories per piece

Taco Salad | 85 calories

Vegetable sticks with yogurt dip or Salsa | 100-200 calories

Salads | 60+ calories

I hope this list helped you find a healthy alternative for your favourite snack! If you want to add something just PM me!

Bon Appétit! ♥

[skeletal-chef]

• Starbucks under 200 calories! 🌟 •

[messieemotionaltessie]

A low cal hot chocolate recipe for the holiday season

Ingredients

Chocolate syrup 1 tablespoon or tbs- 50 cal 

¾ cup of milk- This depends on the type of milk you use.

I suggest you use a small mug to make it look like there is more hot cocoa

Zero calorie flavorings to add 

Vanilla extract

Cinnamon

Pumpkin Spice

Directions

Measure 1 tablespoon of chocolate syrup (pour into the mug)

Measure ¾ cup of milk then pour into jar or cup with a lid 

Put a lid on milk tight. 

Shake for 30-60 seconds to make frothy

Put jar with milk in it directly into the microwave for 30-60 seconds ( take the lid off)

Shake for 30-60 seconds 

(Add any other flavorings to chocolate and mix in)

Pour milk into the mug with chocolate syrup. Mix till no syrup is on the spoon when you scoop from the bottom

Enjoy this recipe my Pastel Pretties and be safe.

~TessieMarie 

[thedaintydiarist-blog]

cafe latte (130 cal)

cappucino (130 cal)

a variety of hot teas (0 cal)

frozen lemonade (120 cal)

peach blueberry smoothie (180 cal)

green passionfruit smoothie (200 cal)

steelcut oatmeal with almonds, quinoa & honey (300 cal)

vegan lentil quinoa broth bowl (270 cal)

low fat chicken noodle soup (160 cal)

black bean soup (140 cal)

kids summer corn chowder (210 cal)

kids bistro french onion soup (190 cal)

kids cream of chicken & wild rice soup (180 cal)

kids creamy tomato soup (200 cal)

kids smoked ham sandwich (290 cal)

kids turkey sandwich (280 cal)

kids greek salad (200 cal)

kids ceasar salad (160 cal)

seasonal greens whole salad (180 cal) / half salad (90 cal)

sprouted grain roll (170 cal)

summer fruit cup (60 cal)

blueberry/strawberry gogurt (50 cal)

coconut macaroon (140 cal)

petite chocolate chip cookie (100 cal)

cappuccino (80 cal)

hot flat white (130 cal)

vanilla sweet cream cold brew coffee (110 cal)

skinny chocolate mocha (160 cal)

iced vanilla latte (160 cal)

iced cinnamon dolce latte (180 cal)

iced latte macchiato (90 cal)

vanilla bean creme frappuccino (250 cal)

bantam bagel (100 cal)

cinnamon raisin bagel (270 cal)

gluten free marshmallow dream bar (240 cal)

petite vanilla bean scone (120 cal)

chocolate cake pop (160 cal)

frosted donut cake pop (160 cal)

birthday cake pop (170 cal)

chocolate chip cookie dough cake pop (180 cal)

cookie straw (90 cal)

gluten free breakfast sandwich (280 cal)

classic oatmeal (160 cal)

hearty blueberry oatmeal (220 cal)

turkey bacon & egg white breakfast sandwich (210 cal)

spinach, feta & egg white breakfast wrap (290 cal)

red pepper egg bites (170 cal)

avocado spread (90 cal)

berries & honey greek yogurt parfait (240 cal)

mango & coconut yogurt bowl (250 cal)

egg mcmuffin (300 cal)

egg white mcmuffin (280 cal)

sausage egg burrito (300 cal)

hash browns (150 cal)

fruit & yogurt parfait (150 cal)

small french fries (230 cal)

side salad (15 cal)

apple slices (15 cal)

strawberry gogurt (50 cal)

2-piece crispy buttermilk chicken tenders (250 cal)

4-piece chicken nuggets (180 cal)

fillet o’ fish with NO cheese (270 cal)

vanilla ice cream cone (200 cal)

kids ice cream cone (45 cal)

baked apple pie (230 cal)

oatmeal raisin cookie (140 cal)

chocolate chip cookie (170 cal)

tropical berry sprite (40 cal)

apple juice (35 cal)

iced tea (0 cal)

chocolate milk (130 cal)

orange juice (150 cal)

veggie delite wrap (280 cal)

black forest ham sub sandwich (290 cal)

turkey breast sub sandwich (280 cal)

veggie delite sub sandwich (230 cal)

black forest ham salad (110 cal)

cold cut combo salad (180 cal)

italian BMT salad (230 cal)

oven roasted chicken salad (150 cal)

roast beef salad (140 cal)

turkey breast salad (110 cal)

veggie delite salad (60 cal)

apple slices (15 cal)

cookies (200 cal)

this is part one of the “skinny girl dines out”. see more restaurants by using the links below to navigate the different sections. feel free to request a menu.

the skinny girl series by @thedaintydiarist :

the skinny girl’s cravings masterlist

the skinny girl dines out (part 1 / part 2)

see my complete and updated post index here.

[thedaintydiarist-blog]

click here for part 2

[allblack-thinspo]

“people don’t care about your weight.”

first of all, bitch, that’s a lie

30 pounds ago, no one asked me for my number

30 pounds ago, boys didn’t smile at me in the train

30 pounds ago, no one stared at my body

30 pounds ago, i never had been to a date

keep drinking your water <3

[letthewindblowmeaway]

Developing anorexia is weird.

It’s like you get this free trial where you can just skip a meal or two and BOOM you’ve lost 10 pounds in like a week and then after a few more weeks that trial runs out and you pay for the full version with crying and pain and isolation and sadness and so much math.

[z-e-r-o-friends]

reblog this if you started worrying about your weight before you were 16

[downto95]

Hey Siri how can I eat freely AND feel comfortable with the weight I’m at