Hey how r u
Thankfully, I'm doing well now.
I know it's been almost a year by now and honestly I'm still having a hard time to actually get myself to be online. After my surgery and treatment for cancer last year, I'm just mentally and physically exhausted.
I have this constant fear that I couldn't achieve something by drawing that it let me to shut myself out from everyone.
Slowly, I deactivated my Instagram account, deactivated my tiktok account, leaving both my twitter and tumblr account to dust.
I have this constant fight with myself over how I couldn't even do the things I was supposed to be good at. And so I took my time off and heal and see professionals.
I'm still struggling with stuffs now but I'm honestly doing alright because I'm receiving help that I deserve.
Slowly I'm trying to get myself into drawing again. I don't want this constant fear and self hate stopping me from enjoying the things I once loved. I miss enjoying being in the fandom again. I miss interacting with people and my friends :( I miss doing art..
I hope you guys could accept me once more with open arms 🥹🫶 it means so much to see that some of you guys cared <3
